Woo! today i feel like writing in my own blog again.. and because I forced myself to be on leave haha!

As usual, I always daydream while having breakfast. And as usual, I found myself thinking about something worth mentioning in my blog..


My colleague, Sab, was asking me if a particualar guy was "shuai", which could means handsome or cool in Chinese. I knew she was referring to the former, but I answered her in terms of coolness. So she was abit shocked that I found him "shuai". I told her I said so because he's a good guy. =)

She asked me a series of other male colleagues, if I find them "shuai"? Then she came across Allen, our ex-colleague, who just resigned not long ago. I answered in a jiffy, "Shuai!". In terms of look, he is good-looking, but he is a really nice guy as I respect both his attitude and personality. I respect people like him, so I was a bit disappointed when he told us he was resigning. Then again, I thought it could be better for him. I thought about him because we rarely chat in MSN, but yesterday he looked me up, asking me "how's things with the ?", and then we gossiped for a while. He's a good guy, because once he drove me and another colleague back home, and because it was raining heavily and he could only send me to Chinese Garden MRT station, he actually called after I reached the platform and said he felt guilty and wanted to U-turn back to fetch me. I felt appreciated, but I told him that it was not necessary 'cos the train station is near where I live. I think that was because he knew about my leg condition, and I was really appreciated. =)

Later on, Sab came across some good-looking but not-so-cool colleagues. I denied them of their "shuai"-ness lol.

Then I went on to day-dream about how a person mold and grow in a working environment. Sab was my BA 1 year ago, that was when I started working in NEC. Because of her, I kinda mold into working better. I was thinking that if a company allows you to mold and grow into a better person, that is a worthy company of staying. If you think you can grow out of that state, as in you can find better place to improve, then by all means, go to that better place. I was debating with myself, if "jumping ships" is good or bad for a person. It could be seen as a person not loyal to an organisation and keep wanting to change companies. Or it could be seen as a good sign of trying to improve oneself as you think that you can improve better in other "ships". I dare not conclude anything. It's a personal thing. Haha..

Back to my slump. yay~

now i know the real reason..

sigh...

self-help article:
http://ezinearticles.com/?How-to-Express-Yourself-to-Others&id=695513

HTC 8S is out in singtel!! Yes!!

Maybe getting it next week. Cool, i get to try windows 8 phone! lol..



Just an update.

• Hair - Cut to shoulder-length, kev says neater and i find it less hassle to maintain. 
• Job - Changed to NEC and been working as a tester. So far, been trying to maintain this job until 1-year contract ends. 3 months and counting...
• Entertainment - been having fun at weddings and games organised with kev and frens. Thanks alot ppl! Upcoming bbq sessions as well!

Been playing AniPang as well! Its a korean version of Bejeweled... Got addicted to it recently, haha!

Anyway, thats all for now. 

Hope to blog soon! =D

Things are moving fast nowadays. People getting married, having kids, stable jobs..

I have not changed. Started NEC job not too long ago. But because of it, my perceptions of things changed a little. Still, personality-wise, i'm the same as ever.

I have only one goal. And only Kevin and me can achieve it. But I don't really know how he thinks. =(


My BA is drilling things that I don't want to hear in my head. I'm starting to think about a lot of things. But it still doesn't change me for who i am. She keeps asking, "When you want to change??" I got pissed and in my head, "Why should I? I like being me." I don't even know if right now, i'm being right in thinking this way. Or Should I changed? I am not pro-active. I am lay-backed. So how? I can't even understand the way I walked. If I could I would. Somehow I lack a lot of common sense knowledge. I'm often ridiculed at as an excuse. But it's true! Simple things like, thinking alternate ways of doing things.. oh i know already. I'm too straight and lazy. Not flexible at all. Kevin always scold me of not thinking. If I over think, they would say why such simple things, you make it so complicated? I don't understand myself sometimes. No, in fact, all the times.

I have no understanding of myself. I expect people to know me, but they don't. I expect them to know me and explain to me who I am so that I can changed because I thought they would observe me. Guess I'm too selfish.

Then again, when people tell me to be my age, i'm thinking "Am I not? What do I have to do to be my age? Not being flippant? Think of others before thinking about myself? Or taking care of myself before thinking about others? " See? Life has no one straight things for me to do. I have totally no understanding of this.

I need people to tell me what to do. I do not analyse, and know what to do next. Sometimes I just follow what other people do. It's basic instinct. It does not mean I know what to do, if the same situation arises next time. I follow instructions. I am a follower. Because being a thinker is just too troublesome. Oh, so this is  who I am. I see. But people hate me for who I am. Sometimes I wondered why they bother to be with me if they dislike me. "This pampered child...." Man.. What is so wrong with being a follower who doesn't think? Enlighten me.

Yawnzz

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im starting to want to go diaso now.. haha.

been spending the first 2 weeks of my lunch since starting this job at vivo / harbourfront. And den shopping after lunch LOL!!

anyways, i  kinda like this job. Maybe cos what im doing now is probably more suited for me. May not want to change to programmer roles at all. haha.. been seeing the programmers' stressing at my work place. Even though BAs and testers also OT much, but i don't think we are as stressed out as the programmers do. (thinning hair, falling sick, etc etc..)

Got a chance to go down to my client's for UAT today. Kinda fun. haha. Wish my BA dont have to leave my modules soon, and leave me to survive on my own. I might die..! But come to think of it, its kinda exciting. Not that the job is. As in I will be responsible for the modules soon, and I think although it will probably get tougher, but I will like it.

I just hope that I can perform with the same tenacity that my BA does, cos i am not confident that i can take over her job of those modules! Its only been 2 week, for god's sake, and im supposed to learn as much as i can from her. =.=''

Gotta sleep soon, see ya people!

true.. i hate ppl making promises and not fulfilling it.

In fact, i think most women dislike it, not only me.

Its the timing and effort put.


Sigh.