grad ceremony on wed! i'll get to see him again... so can my other friends -_-'' anyway, hope nth goes wrong that day.. (keep fingers crossed)
sat morning, i went to find him.. waited at the mrt station for him.. and waited for him to bath b4 going out.. i felt kinda moody that day cos partly of how tired he is and he had to accompany me out.. the other part is how stupid i am.. lol nvm... anyway, we planned to go watch superman that day, but the slots were either full or too late.. well, it was sat of cos things like that happen.. walked to heerens to eat pontian noodles, walked across to get 2 tix for superman but it was like what i said b4.. so in the end went back heerens to walk... try to find the mini speakers which he wanted but it was more ex than in popular.. well then basically walked to ps to find available superman seats.. still de same.. so just went down gelare and ve banana boat basket.. wild strawberries n cappucino.. hehe.. it was near dinner time so yeah.. slack abit n walked another 2 more rounds b4 heading off to ajisen.. u noe me.. i cannot take much more after i eat something when its near mealtimes... so i was really really full after i had the udon ju(eel rice.. i think thats what its called.. or not lol) he, on the other hand, was tired of the volcano noodles lol.. its not his fault lar.. if i had that i will also be sian of that mian.. worse still bcos of the ice cream earlier.. i think i felt better after the meal.. and went home..
sun - we decided to go watch movie ard evening since we din successfully catch superman the prev day.. he told me he was going to play soccer with friends in the early afternoon thats y we tried to go in the evening.. but my leg was aching alot more cos i switched on the aircon to sleep(i really shouldnt ve done that) and i walked so much on sat.. so i smsed him not to go le.. then i changed my mind.. just go jp lar.. nearest liao.. haha.. and really cannot miss superman again.. he came after soccer.. we had dinner(my mum's superb cooking lol.. oh and partly bcos i dun want to miss her nice dinner =P) and my brother tagged along with us to JP.. y? cos he needs my ic to rent dvds -__-'' and so we had quite some time b4 the show starts.. went with my bro to buy his "stupid" ice cream(i was full so i cannot take another bite) lol... went to liberty to choose chocolate and a drink.. should guess who its for.. the pig bro of mine lor.. and then? went to arcade to watch him play drum and rock fever 4.. oh for my cousin's info: according to gw, kenny is more pro than him in arcade.. cos he saw him in arcade a few times ago and wondered who that pro is.. guess who it is? LOL did gw say that already? well, he saw kenny and his friends at the LOT1 arcade few days ago too.. urm.. continue.. and my brother got to take a photo in the rf4 machine.. again -_-''(when u passed the song in the hard stage and above, i guess u r in the top list) although this time, he pushed us to take the photo.. and dear let me take alone! he said he too ugly in the bald.. LOL.. well, i am too when i dun really want to take and i dun ve a choice cos i cant get out(ppl r blocking my way).. it just snapped b4 i had time to wonder what is happening.. damnz.. my awkward face shall be there next time whoever play the rf4 hard song.. -_-'' and so.. they were laughing all the way.. (very funny ha ha..) we went for the movie while my brother just went home... his purpose is to rent dvd u noe... not to play light bulb *ting!* the superman returns was 2.30 hrs.. i wanted to fall asleep liao.. so long... but the movie was nice.. although my first impression was that clark kent's face is abit too fake.. its like wax! so perfect and smooth! LOL took a cab back home after that..
monday came n he came too.. i had my mums yday leftover for lunch.. then watch band of brothers.. it was a series show.. hmm.. should i watch the rest without him.. lol.. what? im bored everyday u noe.. and since he put the dvds here.. its meant for me rite? hor? he left ard evening to prepare booking back in ard 8pm.. aiyo.. dear's been keeping me company every weekend i abit paiseh liao.. lol.. and this time 3 days straight.. and im really sry abt sat when i noe u should be tired after ur guard duty.. i dunno y but the urge of seeing u so much just make me make that decision to find u.. oh n we can try to take lesser cab after next week cos the surchargeincrease and the initial fare have gone up by 10 cents LOL.. this week is not bad.. at least i get to see u again on wed and on sat.. haha.. and maybe the next holiday is national day.. cool! =P

I dunno what to blog for today.. bcos i simply cannot find anything to write... i always hate my life.. but now it seems to be changing for the better.. think positive think... =) bcos after all, i dun find my life worser than anyone of u.. its just normal life.. everyone ve to live their owns.. =P hope i'll be able to find my dream soon.. be positive be positive... okay lets go orh orh liao.. lol..

i hate promises.. they r nv 100% true.. nv promise a kid u will buy something for her, and then that thing nv come.. nv say something which u cant do.. nv say u love someone forever, then 10 mths later u say, sry i cant do it.. nv promise to let a person wait and nv show up.. disappointments will lead to anger and hate.. it always does... dun count too much on promises.. i hate it.. yea u say it just for the sake of saying, but if u dun do the thing u said b4, thats just mean.. ppl will nv trust u and ur words.. i just hate it.. 100%.. unless u really mean something when u say it.. else promises r what? made to be broken? nv make one if u r not going to fulfil it.. tons r always drown by promises.. NV EVER RELY ON PROMISES unless u known that person well, get it?! Y DO THEY ALWAYS LIE? WHY!?

=) sat was great.. so was sunday.. guess every weekends should be great now... haha.. sat dear came and i had lunch, bought by him.. we catch up and then went to jp.. had dinner at pizza hut.. delux cheese with lava cheese crust.. basically all cheese.. LOL.. i wonder y i choose that? maybe no other flavor looks good enough.. haha.. after that, we went for a movie - Just my luck.. the show is funny, when u see how the characters are really lucky/unlucky.. went home ard 1130.. in case u dunno how boonlay interchange had changed.. it is erm... quite "convienient" i guess.. the 198 bus was right in front when u come out of the control station which is good for me lar.. but on the other hand, 157 is right at the end where u ve to walk a good long stretch.. i decide not to take 157 anymore liao.. haha.. anyway, waited for the 198 bus until i wanna vomit blood.. so we took a taxi back home..
sun - arranged to meet for ktv session.. there were 7 of us.. i dun think my singing improve.. it always stay that way.. haiz.. me n kw go off first ard 1.30 pm.. she had to go to her granny's hse.. i want to go pei dear buy army stuff.. hehe.. i go east while kw go west.. it should be the other way right.. lol.. just when i tot i can accompany her take train liao wahaha.. anyway, meet him at lavendar and went to beach rd.. waited for him to get his stuffs and then went down to the hawker to eat.. went home as he needed to go book in early... oh crap, that feeling again.. it was although not as strong cos i know he'll be back soon.. but.. i think i should ve those feelings every book out time.. its sad, i wish he dun ve to go.. i really hope the time stop just there.. and he din ve to go..

dear.. we can conquer every obstacles right? i know we can...

p.s. i smile and laugh bcos im with U... its boring life bcos u r not by my side... =P

i had a really bad dream today.. its about my birthday n more.. i shall not dwell on it.. cos dear was in it and it make me tear first thing in the morning.. i went back to slp cos the time was only 8 am.. haha.. somehow my 2nd dream is connected to my first.. still my bday, but its set at another place.. and totally contrasting to that of the first one.. well, hear of ri you suo si, ye you suo meng? when u think alot when u r concious, see what happen when u sleep..? i think too much perhaps? meow o_0 nite.. off to bed again -_-''

he called... lately things accumulated and happen together so fast that i wanted to tell him everything i know... but everytime my mind just went blank and i let him talk.. i keep forgetting what i wanna tell him... and when its time to end the conversation, i din talk much at all.. maybe my things r trivial compare to his... so i decided to tell him after he booked out.. i feel that my life is so much boring. theres no exciting events happening.. even if there is, it doesnt really concern me.. i hate to think that there is nth in my life that i can boast about... like what i did today, or what happen today to me.. not something like this: everydays de same, i eat n sleep n stay at home all day, so nth could really happen to me... i want to say that oh, i make a new fren the other day at the briefing, but i forgot to ask for her phone number.. haha.. well i should see her around the campus when sch starts.. yeap, i just wanna tell him.. but i guess i forgot.. theres nth impt to say, really... yes, making a new fren is impt to me.. maybe not to all of u.. cos i feel strongly about the circle of frens in my life.. they make a difference.. yes, u guys do.. =D somehow i din say cos i din think its impt to other ppl.. and how going out alone is impt to me as well.. cos i am not independent.. if i try to do something out of my daily life, it could mean the world to me.. but other ppl would just go, huh what the heck? i do that all the time... does it mean that its time to grow up? i saw somewhere saying this, we dun want to grow up bcos we dun want to be involved in the complicated world... thats me, cos im just afraid.. so now u r thinking, if it is so, when will u ever grow up? i dunno the ans myself.. when the time comes, then shall i noe... if u ever think y this girl dunno how to think for herself, well, i haven grow up yet.. thats y.. and i dun bother to...

woke up at 8.. then went to the bank to buy a bank draft to UOL.. after that, hailed a taxi to go to RELC building.. i din noe the building has a hotel somemore.. i thought it was some kind like gov building.. I sat outside the restaurant waiting for the queue.. the place looks like a wedding reception cos of the reception table.. but it also look an exam hall haha... they put tables there for ppl to sit in such an order that it look like the exam hall.. well, after the settling of the UOL issues, took a cab back.. when its still early, so i decided to cut my hair.. now i absolutely dun like it ar.. thats y im always reluctant to go to neighbourhood to cut.. they ve no idea what u want.. unlike those big salons.. they give u a best haircut possible cos u give a good price. shoots, should ve listen to joanne and go jp.. now i feel like a freak.. but i feel so troublesome, having to take taxi or bus back again... sianz.. hope the next few days, it will grow longer and make me feel better... or i'll just get use to this look.. -_-''

LOL i just checked out my msn history and i found this amusing.. haha

国振 The importance of U in my life! gd fternoon
国振 The importance of U in my life! and gd ening
The importance of U in my life! 国振 orh
国振 The importance of U in my life! got bath anot
The importance of U in my life! 国振 nvr
国振 The importance of U in my life! y?
The importance of U in my life! 国振 becos pigs dun bath
The importance of U in my life! 国振 waahahah
国振 The importance of U in my life! waahahaha
The importance of U in my life! 国振 wad u doing now
国振 The importance of U in my life! chatting lor
The importance of U in my life! 国振 to who
国振 The importance of U in my life! a pig lor
The importance of U in my life! 国振 wahahahah

nvm my little joke.. LOL

shitty leg lar... walk alot then swollen liao.. though i manage to get down the bus, theres still difficulty standing. i realise the only way my ankle will not hurt while going down the stairs is when i wear my adidas.. yea, i was surprised when i go down the lecture theatre stairs without pain. the shoes supported me.. oh btw, me n kw went for SIM briefing today, in case u r wondering where i go... after that, we went back to fc 4 to eat sia.. LOL.. so long nv go back sch liao.. went to orchard to shop around.. kw still din get her shoes.. sad, the stupid but nice wedge has no discount.. we sat in mac slacking nearly 2 hours away =D cos my leg swollen ma.. gotta sit.. haha.. accompany her to guardian to buy something then went home to watch bride at 18 =D

I miss him so much.. but it doesnt make me wanna cry anymore, it just make me smile.. ^-^

sat is finally coming soon.. looking forward to it =) although i still know hes gona go back for 1 week but at least its 1 week better than 2 weeks rite? maybe this looking forward thingy will reduce the misses.. i want to cry everytime i miss him so much... i read this SAF forum; it says this girl cry for 10 days straight when her bf went in.. n now they r preparing to get married once he ORD.. so fast sia.. =X
I went JP today with my mum n bro.. finally gotten my executive set.. sry kw, i know i should ve wait for u.. but i cant wait and since im going out with my mum, might as well spend her money rite? hehe u will understand de hor? so i guess tml should be just cutting hair.. LOL.. its really growing like grasses.. i want to pluck them out so much.. just dun wanna go opposite n let aunts cut my-already-rebond hair.. haha.. yeap.. did i cut after my rebond?? hmm.. i dun rmb also.. i dun think so =P

sry guys abt my previous posts.. i was really frustrated.. now feeling not that moody le.. guess its PMS time again ma..

slacking... and waiting for his call.. (although recvd it just now le) tml going briefing sian.. gotta settle UOL matters again.. meow.. 0_o

well, just for ur ref: http://www.neurologychannel.com/parkinsonsdisease/symptoms.shtml#prim

OMG time is going so slowly i feel im choked by the time sand.. as it goes, i feel weary and weary.. i ve no plans for the day itself, let alone the future. I just want to choke myself on tears when the love and heartache grow stronger as time passes by.. i want sch to start quickly to stop myself in this agony. i cant make my own decision, they always change. i cant see myself in the future. i think i dun exist anymore by the time u ve kids. i feel that i deserved more. the anguish and pain of certain things dun stop. i dun pity myself. i just want more. and i noe i cant achieve anything by just thinking. wait and see. wait and see. my life is just about living as time goes. if time stops, i will die. M i speaking in non-consistency? I dun understand everything that goes on around me. y must we be a nice person just to make believe u r one? y cant we be evil? y do i ask that? cos i am evil. i thought abt stuffs u dun even wanna hear. dun be mistaken. i dun want to kill or steal. but I DESERVE MORE.

i think i ve split personality. Indefinitely thinking. *chuckles*

STOP ME from watching TV shows. PLEASE. the human mind knows no boundary.

U think a quiet girl is a nice girl? Think again. *smug*

Sometimes life is so confusing, u dun even noe whether u r doing the right thing.. The ones who noe you well enuff tends to comment on ur behaviour, whether good or bad.. and u just dun want to admit the bad ones.. when at other times, u say other ppl has no right to judge u.. think again, its the first impression ppl see in u... if they cant judge u, then put on a mask.. yea, this is what im talking abt.. life is abt masks.. u change different kinda masks to suit different kinda person/ppl/events.. the highest attained human being, in my opinion, is having toally a different mask when u face others v.s urself.. evil? good? u cant judge cos only he noes... my mask? sometimes i put the same mask over n over again that im begin to think that's the real me... or maybe that's not even a mask.. we cant totally noe our real self unless we r secluded... be alone in a world that no one else can see ur true face.. and only u noe what kind of a person u r.. not even ur closest friends or family.. cos we tend to put on a brave front when ppl is around us... it scares myself even a little when i truly figure out my inner thoughts... theres so many hidden secrets within us that cannot be revealed.. yes, a human being definitely has selfish thoughts.. meditate to find ur inner voice.. communicate with it.. find out de root of every problems of ur own.. if u cant solve it, just hide it away forever... bcos it could be ugly, and u dun want to unleash that monster and maybe torn ur own image.. trust urself for this..

yea, im going to die... of misery... which consist of missing someone so much and boredom.. he lit my off-light today by calling in the evening.. saying the only free time is around 930-1030 pm.. and i missed the only free time he had today!! i went for acupuncture at my aunt's around that time which my mum made the appointment yday already.. i din noe it's going to be so long ='( yea, u can scold me le.. making too many excuses also no use.. i had the same punishment b4. he sounded resentful when he called after that to say hes going to slp.. ='(
yday was terrible.. the unbearable pain of yet another one leaving.. i noe its not the same.. its only for a short while n we r both thinking, "its not like forever u noe" i cried after he left.. the loneliness made it sader cos no one was at home... then my bro came back to console me.. he noe me.. he noe i would feel sad.. =)
i gotta learn to get use when my dear is not around that often.. what would happen in the future if we both gotta work then? we would not be free everytime... we could only miss each other... ='(

oh man.. dear's going army le.. i sure gonna miss him.. just hope that he dun fall sick during his training there.
anyway, xx yw going to japan next week, just when i tot they could visit me cos they always at home ma... lol.. and kw is sick, which means im gonna to die... haha.. hmm... what can i do for the next few weeks b4 sch starts? i watched finish my shows le.. anyone kind enuff to lend me any series? nice one.. i dun mind jap, korean, or eng series.. i still dun think its enuff.. cos aug then start sch, i might not last until that long.. ='(

i still cant go out... my dear's still de best =P u ppl mei you liang xin de lor... wont come visit me even on weekends... =( the ones always at home de also wont come.. -_-'' at least u can come on weekends rite? it doesnt matter on sat cos my parents wont be in... nvm... i got no friends i noe.. kinda depressed now... darn it... meow... (hungry... finding food...)

i think i would ve died of bordem if not for dear. i wonder how i manage to keep myself alive during my secondary sch days? lol.. FYI, i am an introverted human being and dislike hanging out with my classmates. i ate alone during recesses, and go home do nth. i think my sec life consist of sch, pc game, tv/vcd shows, tons of naps and uh.. still sleeping... haha... so i wonder now, if i were to relive my sec sch days, how would it be like? i noe i still dun talk to my ex-classmates.. we just dun happen to click u noe(although they r fun lar i guess..) or maybe they still think i dun crap cos im a nice guai girl like i was. haha. i would really be dead if i were to relive those days. okok. how do i spend my childhood days? with my couz of cos. ^5 girls... n bro LOL
i kept myself lively abit after secondary sch life. cos i promise myself that things should not be the same after i grad from jss.. guess i dun like my sch haha... things r different.. and urm.. i got u! pls continue to keep me shining after years later.. or i would die faster wahaha... i am so crapping right now and my ankle is soothing(i applied some massage oil)
arh... sch starting at the beginning of august... how how... (freaked out the same i went into sp) no schmates?!(does kaiwen count? cos she not in the same course as me) i ve got to start depending on myself.. firstly, i haven apply to UOL yet.. lol.. dun blame me, blame the leg! they send a schedule on a briefing session i am supposed to go and a cab would be fine.. lol.. not a wheelchair -_-'' oh maybe kw's briefing also same as mine? hehe... i am so dead... i noe nth.. sianz.. i miss him now.. i wonder y.. oh i read article abt this couple, they r so loving, they nv even quarrel abit during their marriage yrs.. and the wife's been gone out of town for a few hours and the husband miss her already.. guess they ve been together so long, like decades, its hard to adapt when that someone is gone, even for a very short while.. *set my brain tick-tocking* hmmm...

hehehee... im sorta gone crazy for the 1 month i stay at home... theres nth much to blog too.. i dun think much, thus i dun blog much.. haha..
yea theres something to blog since now im starting to go out...

the opening season of da vinci code... my cousins, bro n i arranged to watch it on a friday night... i think it was vesak day? oh did i told u abt the show already... so sry.. poor memory.. haha

last sun: went to victoria concert hall with dear to watch my bro's choir concert... my first time going out for a long time, and it seems like we haven go dating for a decade lol... the concert ended ard 10.. nice concert with the cute coconut song(enscore too)=P... had supper at mac.. and then walked out, trying to wave for cabs... darn cabbies... they just refused to stop cos its near midnight.. so took the train back... my leg was totally getting uncomfortable bcos of the long walk to the station... and from the station back to my hse... i refused to take a cab, its walking dist and its already midnight... anyway, dear saw my bro inside a cab when we were reaching my block -_-'' well, he went with his frens, so din came home with us... anyway, he bolted the door without noticing that im not home yet... lucky my mum wasnt asleep yet... she was puzzled y my bro arrived home without me... so she called on my hp... and opened the door... to find 2 stray cats sitting outside... lol... my poor darling had to take the stupid taxi(wit the midnight charge) home... kinda my fault too for not taking the cab sry... ='(

sat: stay at home for the whole afternoon.. and only took a taxi with my bro to my cousin's hse for steamboat... went home ard 11 after watching the 9-11 pm show... haha...

thats it.. the few outings i manage to make... cos i need someone to accompany me home.. so i din go out with frens yet.. so sry i cannot arrange with some of u yet... frustrated with my foot.. when will it be alright? when will i be able to walk normally without limping abit? everytime i twist my ankle, it would be a couple of weeks or more b4 i totally recover... i heal too slow already.. argh~!

New items in my wishlist coming up~ LOL

Hey guys, ive found this astrology interesting. it has blood type and of cos, ur horoscope. Oh, btw, it is used to describe the characters in Sailormoon. Hehe.. Mine is below:

Blood Type

A

--Mamoru, Ami and Setsuna; (allegedly Seiya)(Taiki?), Seiya.
Considerate. Prefer peaceful human relations because they are highly sensitive to emotional upsets. Slow to trust people for the same reason. Observe social rules and customs strictly and consider it important to retain the status quo. Restrained and conventional, anxious to maintain personal security. Comparatively low motivation, but persistent; will endure. Tend to perfectionism. Despite inclination to pessimism will seek out causes, and desire personal transformation.

I think this is the category that most thoroughly fits the characters who were placed in it. Considerate, perfectionist and pessimistic fit all of these. Conventional, too, now I think about it. These are the quiet characters who play supporting roles.

Virgo
--Ami

Virgo is ruled by Mercury, which is associated with reason and rationality, learning and order. Elementally, Virgo is mutable earth; change combined with stability. Precise, utilitarian, will accomplish what is perceived as necessary.
You were born with the Sun in Virgo. You are rather intellectual, and you reflect a practical, utilitarian mind with planning and organizing abilities. As a Virgoan, you are very subordinate and a servant of others. You pay constant attention to detail, and this makes you a very careful worker, especially in tasks requiring observation and exactitude. Through education and adaptation to environmental surroundings, your personality will become quick-witted, intelligent, and very versatile. You are one of those persons who can do any type of work that requires plenty of movement. In love matters you are rather cool but very expressive. You must try to overcome your hesitancy and lack of continuity, dependability, and perseverance. Try not to be so critical of others.

To check out your own, refer to this link:
http://www.alltrees.org/anime/willowandoak/sm.divination.shtml

Wonder y i put wishlist now? Cos my 21st bday's coming. Normally i dun wish for anything cos im sastified with what i ve.. and what i dun ve, i can buy them anytime when i ve the time and money. Somehow, i am lazy to look for the things I want not the things I need. It's bcos of my bday so im putting it down. Maybe that's alot of other things that I want still. But i can only thought of these. Haha. I am lazy to think. LOL. Cos i really dun need those. Its a want. I need love n happiness, that's all =P
When ppl often asked me what i want for my bday, i din give them an ans str8 away. i need to think. I realised i dun really want something. So im really cracking my brain to think abt what i want. LOL. Irony, isnt it?

ive uploaded my cousin's wedding dinner fotos. They r under Links. Well, take a look ba. It's at Furama Hotel btw. Nice ambience. There's even a main hall where guests can chill out before they enter the ball room. Nice place. The ladies' abit cramped though cos not enuff cubicles.(too many ppl going for breaks at the same time) My wedding? I just hoped there will not be loads of ppl. It will just be my close friends and relatives(not distant ones). =) And it wont be a naked wedding, i promise. -_-''

sunday: woke up at 8, went to my aunt's house at 9 and wait for the bride and groom to come back from the bride's hse at 11. had to went into "hiding" so we played with youtube.com on my cousins' com. after that was just eat and eat. we dun ve to offer the new wedded tea but we took angbaos from them. Went back to our hiding room and played some more internet n daidee. went home around 2 pm.

monday: more interesting stuff happen. well, other than our nice outfits, nth much interesting things. Dinner was satisfactory. I just wondered y i din feel full, even when my cousin din come. Normal wedding dinner procedure just come and go. had the slides of the bride and groom. first half of servings. another slide shows. break. last half of servings. went to the hall to take photos. and went home. Er.. will upload pics later if my cousin send me those photos.

Things were fine with the wedding. Nice wedding. It wasn't, with me. Cos of my leg. Shall not go into details.

Hi there, this is Janice. Let me intro you to my life. My life used to be boring. Recently, it has gotten a little colorful. However, it has become stale ever since I fell. How? I need a more colorful life! I cannot be stuck in a place forever! My life needs me! Someone says his life has gotten dull since he met me. On the contrary, I think his life become cuter ever since he's with me. Wahahaahaha.. See what happen when u r at home for too long?! =.=''

sry girls, im not the organiser of our outing liao... cos i haven recover.. haha... for more information on the outings, think ask cs or betty better... =D me ar... i depend on my leg lor.. if i heal fast then i go lor... i even have to consider whether can go for my cousin's wedding dinner not leh... haiz... sian man... i feel sicker of my injured leg as the days pass.. arh... *sob sob* ='(

ok im gonna do a very "meaningful" thing here(and for all kpos) cos i ve been tagged...

i need to do these:
- specify the gender of your perfect lover
- list down 7 qualities of my perfect lover
- tag another seven bloggers on their page.


the gender of your perfect lover:
A male, duh, im not lesb.

7 qualities of my perfect lover:
1. Love me for who I am.
2. Attract me with his own natural style.
3. Protect me. =P
4. Care for me.
5. A generally good guy.
6. Being sweet. (hugs and kisses included)
7. Intelligent with no low EQ. hehe.

Tag another 7 bloggers:

- kaiwen
- betty
- chong seng
- joanne
- jiejin
- xiuxian
- shujun

And yay! my dear has the 7 qualities I've been looking for. =P

that's it... im going out this fri onwards no matter wat! Hey, Vesak day this coming fri! lol... tian zhu wo ye... jiayan keep asking me to go MIA next sat... cy and huiyi also.. i rejected them cos i feared 1stly u noe my parents la hor... 2ndly, my leg still hurts... well i still decide not to go MIA with them... maybe next time when im not 20 le... wahaha... anyway, i skip 3 times dinner with their group liao... mainly is bcos of my leg... and well u noe, the other thing...
i ve decided man... to go zoo next sat... LOL... well, its something new... and uh... something fun?? but pls tell me, how to get there har?? wahaha... i go check out the rental service ba... if its too ex... then haiz... too bad lor... wait for me ppl!!! wo hui jia you de! LOL =P oh btw, wanna go back sp not? or wait until grad day??

i have already thought of a list of things to do:
(weekends only)

1. go eat ma la huo guo
2. ton at someone's hse and play mahjong all night
3. go sentosa(palawan beach is nice but no net to play volleyballs)
4. slack at moven pick/swensen's/coffee bean(and i mean the whole afternoon)
5. go back sch and hang out
6. watch movie/play pool
7. go JB
8. KTV(*optional*)
9. go east coast park ton(with tents, of cos)
10. go to the zoo(tats kinda lame but we could go wat haha)
11. play games at the settlers
12. rent a van and drive around(fun rite?)

hmmm... thats all i can think of... its common lar... but hor, we could do several of these in a day leh... lol... jiemeiz, tell me what u think.. =P

hmmm... my foot is better already... just abit swollen only... is able to walk and recovering... think i am not able to take maths le... well just glad... noe y? cos its darn hard lar... its not only A maths lor, its further maths... but i can only escape from it temporary... still gotta take the full unit in my course...
anyway, dear brought dvds ard within this 2 weeks.. ve watched charlie and the choco factory.. and qing dian da sheng today... darn funny at the beginning of the show... the xie ting feng is so cute... wahaha... then got alot of action going on... looks like star wars sia... haha...
have been at home for nearly 3 weeks le... haiz... hope by mid may my leg will be able to recover and get out of this house... and uh.. the chalet? no high hopes.. can only go out and eat lo... aiyo... i go think of a zillion things to do bah... cya guys...

today is another day... but my leg injury is on its way to recovery! yes! soon i will be able to go out to breath fresh air! someday later we go ktv, ok girls?

hehe... me and dear had nth to do so we decided to plait my hair lol... m i supposed to say this, dear? anyway.. here's a photo of my plaited hair... cute not? lol...


okok i noe i cmi lar... dunno how to act cute somemore... wahaha... anyway, been thinking abt going either overseas again or just a gathering chalet? what do u say? good? i also dunno when also... weekend thingy? well, tell me more if u girls decide for it... hehe...

michael's msn nick: never try to understand a woman, you just need to love her

girls, is that true?

i make joke out of myself to entertain ppl too much. My dreams always get myself involved in their "joke of the day". They laughed at me, mocked me and leave me. It hurt so much that I often cry when i wake up and i'll be thinking "y r they doing this to me?" I had a bad dream of friends and family laughing at me and i felt all alone. Total darkness. In reality, I noe it's not the same. My family love me too much. But y r they mocking at me in my dreams? Is that a reminder for me to treasure my loves well? so they wont leave me, like what they do in my dreams? Sometimes, these dreams affect me so badly that i become moody for the next few hours, or maybe the whole day. I am a victim of those jokes. Sometimes I wonder, y do ppl love to make fun of me so much? To entertain themselves? Or am I really that corny? Even my loved ones do that.. Deep down, I know they meant no harm. But it hurts. That's why i often keep my mouth shut when it happens. 'Cause its hurting inside. I know I do that to ppl sometimes, and i just dunno how to stop too. But it's not deliberate. It's really a slip of tongue.. Must control... Haiz, must be retribution. They r doing the same thing cos i did the same to them too. Well, i cya ppl soon.. Actually, I do/say all these stupid things to make the attention all drawn to myself. Haha. It's natural.

sianz... my leg is still quite seriously injured.. it still haven recover... im relieved to see the swelling abit gone... but it still hurts like hell when i try to walk... guess i cannot go back to sch yet... not when i cannot even walk properly... dear came these few days to accompany me and brought me to the chinese sinseh.. thanks so much *muacks*
i have not been going out for like a hundred years... and i ve to rest my legs straight to let the blood circulate... cannot move much also... damn... abit sick of this recuperating... haiz... i wait for the day when i wake up and find that my leg has already recover... yay... lol... everyday i stay at home, i just want to zZzzZzz... and i sleep a lot... night time 8-9 hrs + nap 3 hrs... envy of my life ppl? haha... well, quit ur job and be like me, then u wont ve to envy me... thing is, u ve to hurt urself to get out of ur job hahaha... i ve no income le... gotten 300+ for my 1 week job b4 i sprain my leg... lol
i dun want to revise my math cos i just want to slp.. and im not worry abt math leh... the most i take up math unit during the course lor... if i fail lar... *touch wood* i haven fail a subject for like a long time liao... i mean really... the least ive gotten is maybe D lor... if u count D7(o level subs) as pass, muahaha... aiya... sianz... i go rest le... bb

dear accompany me to sinseh today... ermz... as im writing, im thinking abt the gay blog haha... like im writing my own gay blog... =x
okok, reset... lol
dear accompany me to sinseh today... hahahaha... im thinking again... cos we watched brokeback mountain after we got back... it was gross to him lar... not to me though... lol... guess guys watching gays r really sucky rite? haha... yea i noe, the thought of 2 guys being together is already like that... how abt watching one too? at first, it's really bad, then i tried to get used to it... haha... and with the introducing of the gay's blog by our dear fren, CS... i begin to think gays are not such big thing lol...
shush... dun say liao...
anyway, my legs swollen like a pig's trotter... i laugh at it everytime i see it... lol... i believe everyone seen the shou shen nan nu... sammi cheng transform herself to this fat girl and my foot is like hers... lolx... k lar not that big... but its somthing like that... haha... i gotta go back to the doc on sat... to change medicine... hope my pig trotter would be better by the weekend so i can go back to sch next week... haiz... been missing 6 hrs of lesson liao... gotta go le
ciau ppl... =P

I am sooooo the bored rite now... i had a bad twist yday while coming down from the bus after lunch... shannen, my hr sup, brought me to the chinese physician in bukit batok but the sinseh dun dare to treat for me and suggested that i go x-ray first.. so we took a cab down to the polyclinic... the procedure took nearly 2 hours... the sprain was so bad that i couldnt stand by myself... so had difficulty coming home too...
my parents took leave today to take me to another sinseh... they insisted on one cos its badly sprain... i absent-mindedly placed my phone on the cab and forgot abt it... luckily we called that cab so we managed to find it and the drivers are changing shifts at that time so had no other passengers yet... and we took the same cab home... haha... here i am, wrapped up... gotta go back on thurs to change the medicinal herb... haiz... btw he mentioned that i got a bone crack... said that i twisted too hard and cracked my bone... no wonder it was that swollen... sob... its really painful... worst then wat i had in redang... piangz...
i need 3-4 weeks to heal... so by that time i dun need to go back to my company le... cos the job stops ard early may... so i told my agent that i quit and since they dun need anyone, might as well stop going back... just rest... and wait for my math exam... speaking of that... maths is dead... must go back next week to resume lesson or else i am so dead... haiz...

i think im getting old... its my face... im changing... i think it used to look vibrant.. now it just look dull and ugly... or maybe work and not enough sleep make one haggard? I feel so wierd and tired after getting 8-9 hours sleep... normally i would feel quite energetic.. but yday and today are just tired... Or did I sleep too much? All of a sudden, I feel uglier than ever... my inner sides too... maybe because i try too much?

Went out yday to buy another pair of working shoes. well, din get a shoe and gotten 2 pieces of working clothes instead... it is weekend, fri was non-working day... so y din i get my butt out of the house tt day? i think everyone went out... to treasure the weekends with their loved ones... Hmmm... I bottle up my feelings too much... i dun dare to reveal what's bothering me... like what the horoscope says, im afraid to reveal my emotions... that's y ppl ard me feel smothered... cos they dunno what im thinking abt.. i am negative, arent I? I am supposed to be positive cos I dun think too much... The most "innocent" of all...

my mum makes a mountain out of a molehill... she confused me too much with her words... She make me see the "big" picture of a small thing that happen... my brother was making her see how her words was eating into me... yea, i was scared... that's how i become negative.. i think i think abit too much when i remember my mum's version... i must not be dependent on ppl's thoughts.. If this continues, with my mum's constant nagging, I might go berserk... You may not know what im saying... I am saying that my mum is worrying too much about my life... I am not strong, remember? I suck... in everything... Sucky me... Booooo... crying seems more depressed than ever... therefore I shall not.. I should just be me... whatever comes, come.

i start work le... recently had done some acct/admin work assigned by the accounts ppl... cos im in accounts dept... went with lee to the ware house today to look for invoices.. damnit so big lar... then many invoices to find... all the way from 9.30am to 4pm still haven finish searching... had lunch there too... monday i think gotta go back again... okay lar... at least got work to do... but its really tiring... then after that i went for my class lo... i think i cannot make it liao... my eyes blurring lol.. then functions and differentiation is -_-''... i dun understand how u come to get that ans.. well... not very much... oh btw, wantian is also taking the math bridging course... had break with her just now... lucky theres still her around... i thought i am gonna be a loner for this whole math course...
thanks dear for sending me home... although my mum says i can take cab home muahaha... =X
tml is good friday! yeah!!! no need go work... can sleep until 10 am!! LOL... i am trying to make all my weekends worthwhile... now i understand y le.. =p

yday went to sing at kbox... although i just went a few weeks ago, but that was 2 person singing sia... will die... at least yday was 4 ppl... anyway, sang from 12-3(we delayed the time, the person keep saying "last song, last song") lol... met dear at the station and went to peninsula... and yes! i bought my adidas shoes(quite a nice one) without much thinking... and the later part was the heartache, not bcos i spent a bomb on that shoes, but i nv looked enuff... i told u, theres simply too many diff types of shoes! and lastly, bought my working shoe at funan... well, its not really working shoes but at least it looks like one... haha...
was abit hungry, went down to jp to meet my bro for dinner... had pizza.. i din noe they cannot pay by nets... poor dear had to pay for our dinner... its damn ex, noe y? cos that bro of mine keep ordering larrr... went to rent vcds for my bro... he really taking the advantage with the fact that my parents not in SG -_-'' went home to watch kill bill 2... sorry guys, not that i was scared or anything, i was too tired to comprehend the show hehe... so we just stopped watching altogether... after dear left... my bro and i watched a more complicated show 'Closer'.. at least it was not violent and dun need much thinking... i dun want to think... well, that show was full of sex and love... not recommended for kids wahaha... its NC 16 i think...
after the show, i just went to bed... hey, i woke up early alright! lolx...

wenta watch ice age 2. it was so funny i laugh my head off.. story ended like that only.. dunno wat to say lar... lolx...
the biggest reward for today - a sling bag for him and me. after hours of searching for shoes, gave up and finally went to buy bags haha.. all the shoes ive seen? yea, i dunno how to choose... shoes are simply everywhere! shall look at it somemore tml... haha.. ktv tml... =D cya..

i am so afraid of getting hurt now. I dun want the same thing to happen to me again.. It was so painful.. Those are the bad memories that i choose to forget. And my ma keep confusing me. Dun mixed the past with the present? But don't they ve the same verb(love)?
Yday, he asked me abt me and my bf. Y does he care anyway? And dun try to console me by saying he cares abt u... U live ur happy life, and i live mine. Shut out of my life. Sj says she noes him, but i think they r referring to another person. Come to think of it, haha, my friend and my ex, my friend and my ex.. funny world isnt it? Y do such problems happen to me? I just want my love to be pure, without obstacles. It's like living in a reality world(which it is). Arh... Back me up here, ppl. I need some advice.

Take me to a place, where I could stop feeling sorrow. I cannot stop myself from thinking them.

my maths course starts from today... an angmoh teacher teaching maths... kinda interesting... but it is that late lar... i was falling asleep lo... anyway, the lecture hall was so full that i nearly couldnt find any seat for myself when i got in... abit shocked... poly life is totally different from Uni life... the ppl r older too haha... of cos this is a night class.. but they r not working adults... i mean they r really 20+ young adults lo... found myself studying all over again... i nearly forgot what it feels like to be on the first day in sch... the anxious kind where u wonder how ur new frens will be like... haha... i hadnt made any today lar... i think most of them ve a company or in a group... come to think of it, im kinda loner... again... lol...
in order to ve a proper meal, i must reach there like 45 mins earlier... cos i was late today... haha... thanks to a certain person... and that same person accompany me there and from there back home... now is really a big thank u... haha.. tiring... i go sleep le... good nite everyone.. :D

my passport photo was taken when i was 12... when i was in the m'sia custom that day, the officer actually ask weiwei does the person in the photo look like me.. -_-'' he says yea, abit lar... the officer just told me that i ve to change my photo lol...
so today, i went lavendar with dear.. well, to update my photo of cos... haha... it was quick cos i brought along my recently taken photos... then we went bugis OG in search for my shoes... dammit man... either i cant find that shoe i wanted or there's no size for me... -_-'' went back to seiyu... and still nth... gave up and we went back sch... lol... cos dear had to pay his library fine in order to get his cert... oopz im not suppose to mention this... hehe... i decided to give myself and jp another shot... lol... so we went to jp... wahaha... was trying to find bags there and of cos my shoes... and... i gave up... shall do that some other time within this week... or else i will ve to wear my broken converse shoes everywhere i go... sian... i wear that shoe for 3 yrs already... ever since poly starts, it has been with me.. and now we ve to be separated... simply bcos its done its job as a pair of good-old shoe... lol.. anyway, for me, my shoes are impt to me... so my mum will wanna get the best no matter how costly it is... cool~~ my mum's de best... lolx... and its really true for my legs lar... too bad that im born like that lo =P.. gotta go... cya...

p.s. thanks dear for the shopping, although i got nth out of it, lol... i am that mafan larrr~~ =P

Yay~! Zhiyang won the campus superstar... he is the superstar now... I am so happy... cos he din waste my $1.80 on sms voting... lol.. u see, cos he's my bro's fren then he sings well, so naturally i voted for him... not my fault... haha... and then his polls was abit lacking lar... than maybe renfred... so i voted for him lo... hey, u wouldnt noe... maybe our smses help him win that superstar wor... lol... okay okay... dun talk kok liao... ciau...

i believe some of u already noe i sprain my ankle le lar... it happened on the 2nd day of redang... luckily all the snokling sessions were over...
my leg hurts... but i had to go suntec for the job agency... cos the agent found me a job already... its a data entry/admin job in tuas... however this job is 8.30-6 lo.. my maths course starting from 7-10pm lo.. i guess i gotta rush... in case u dunno wats the maths course for, i tell ya... its for the exemption of one of the unit in my IS & management.. so if i pass this maths course, i dun ve to take that maths unit le lo...
anyway, i starting my job on the 10th apr and my course on the 4th apr... the money ar? 5.50 per hour lo... but this job is until may... i might ve to find another one... lolx... or pray that they would extend me...

finding shoes for my work and outings... the work one could be my grad ceremony shoes also... speaking of which, i shall go whoever more is going haha... yday went to watch failure to launch... the show is soso ba... i dun think i can get used to watch comedy after watching too much m18 shows... i go slack le... cya

day 1 - eat at golden mile and slept in the bus.. first day is gone just like that...

day 2 - at least a more exciting day to look forward to... haha... the bus stopped at its destination finally at 8.30 am at kota kinabalu... we waited for 1 half hour b4 we board the boat to redang... the boat sibei slow lo -_-'' i mean as in we have to wait lar... reached ard 11 am... gathered for pre activities discussion... ate lunch and changed... before the first snokling session, we had to learn how to use the mask first.. practised a while and we r ready to snokle!
cool man... i was like fascinated by the underwater world.. fishies and coral reefs everywhere!! i din see the clown fishes though(nemo as we call it).. they saw eels i think... we had this session for 1 hour before we board the boat to go back to the island.. i was kinda shacked already... so when we got back to the resort... i was half dead... lol... they went for public ktv sessions down there... and i was fast asleep.. when they came back ard 1 am i was awake liao... wahaha... went back to sleep lo... since nth to do...

day 3 - awoken by my alarm at 6.40 am... prepared and had sunblock lotion ready for the snokling... breakfast had and wanted to go shark bay at 8.30 am before the 9.30 session snokling... guess wat?? laining ar... dammit man... we walked halfway to the beach liao then heavy downpour... had to go back to the resort... and the 9.30 session was cancelled... very sianz... decided to go for leg massages opposite our resort.... its another resort... but redang beach(that resort) was better.. the lady massaged my leg and deduced that i ve not enuff sleep and ve headaches because of that... she also added that my shoulder is stiff and should rest more... i was like "woah, this woman is good.. " i mean she pressed my toes and noe straight wat is going on with my brain... lol... anyway, after that we went back to eat lunch... wanted to set off for the 2.30 pm snokling liao...
that jetty's sea is really clear... but there was quite alot of sea insects... we ve gotten bitten by them then huiyi's skin sensitive so her back was reddish lo... they saw eel whose head was big like a plate... how come i din see... argh! at first they tot its a rock... then it swam away hahaha...
anyway.. we went back le... after dinner was ktv session... argh.. but we were having so much fun then again laining!!! so played some games lo... carrum and daidee... haha... after that... we went up to rest... after which they went to the guys' room to gang assault bryan... haha... after the assault, we went to sleep lo... gotta wake up ard 7 am to board the boat back to kota kinabalu...

day 4 - woke up at 7 something to prepare.. eat breakfast and set off... it was raining all the way -_-'' freezing lar... the only jacket i wore was the black long sleeve but it was still as cold... darn... should ve really bring a towel with me to wrap myself up... anyway, slept the whole afternoon lo... the driver was showing final destination 3 on the tv.. i woke up and the show was finishing... but during my sleep, i was really disturbed by the constant screaming in that show... -_-''
came back to SG le... we stopped at tang dynasty there cos we dun wanna go back to golden mile... me, mike, cy, seng, jy and ben ate at the food court there.. the time was ard 11 pm when i reached home... terrible waste of time in travelling rite? 9 hrs bus and 40 mins boat trip...

thanks to those guys who offered to help when im in trouble... i think i keep delaying their time... haiz... im just glad the trip is over... and am quite satisfy with the experience =D

I am going to redang today for 4 days... will be coming back on monday night... miss ya... hehe =P

y do my mom want to say things like that? humans change for sure, but i dun want to think abt all that now... jun, u r rite... sometimes its good to make a quick decision... let the consequences come after some time... lets take a step as we go, alright? if u think too much, u will keep worrying when that day will come... y not live the day happily... humans worry too much... b4 this i worry abt the consequence too... but as the day goes by, i become depressed.. and i threw the depression away.. which i become happier now... i dun dare to think of the future and wats going to happen... its just making me sad... i mean wats the point? u cant predict the future also... u r only making up "wat if"... y think so much? cope with the future only when it comes lar... its like buying a thing... u see something u like, but then u think abt the price, the better quality outside and other things.. and when u leave it, u regret not buying that thing... wat if the price drop after a couple of months? so? u like it b4 and u got it and it gave its use to u... character wise, nope not the same... u change and u tot the past u were plain naive... maybe u can say ur naive character did let u see the good side of u... meaning u ve become uglier... or, ur uglier past had come to light... bam, u bcom a better person... r u happy for who u ve bcom, or for ur past? thinking hurts u noe... haha... it hurt ur brain and ur heart... so sometimes its good not to think too much... and not too less too... like me... muahahaha... bad/good consequences of mine always end up messed up... cos i din plan ahead... i do wat i think now... basically, not going thru that brain of mine lar... cos i always think thinking hurts my head and i feel like sleeping... the days passed just like that, and yay, i haven achieve much... not proud of it lar... ashamed... to face the facts... ashamed... to make any judgement... ashamed... of myself... i dun want to make a promise that i would change for the better.. cos i always fail to do so... and i always say i would try... but now... i am really trying lar... dun belittle me hor... i can do it de... the future me? i shaped it... but im not really sure what will come out... as i'd say, humans change... so u change, without knowing that u already change... sad isnt it?

sat - had sakura international buffet at science centre.

sun - went out with lover, cs to town. de 3 of us went to shop at far east first. i bought 2 dangling earrings while love bought a metal stick... haha... no lar... the earrings is a silver stick ma... then went to watson where i bought my facial spray. walked to heerens to meet dan.. he and love ate in cine's kfc and we slack the whole day there. went back home for dinner.

Hehehe... suddenly i feel alive again... =D

Wah man... i think i cannot stay at home for the whole day.. sure need to get out of there.. lolx... so far since the holidays start i stay at home for a day or two only. Today, though i had nowhere to go with my frens, i went jp with my brother. We had lunch at Crystal Jade then we shopped at 77th street.. Whenever I go out with my brother, theres always something happening. It could be shopping for clothes. Or maybe a successful play at the arcade(my bro hit the rock fever 4)
Well, he hadnt practise for years already, so now he suck in it... wahaha... but he did get 1 black shirt and i gotten a yellow spag and a white belt.. while he went to his fren's hse ard 2 something, i went home. Happy that we ate a sumptous meal, and bought clothes.. this the first time i treat him to a nice meal.. lol... and there we were, working out.. yday dinner was at Swensens(my aunt's treat), today was Crystal Jade, tml going to be Sakura or something like that(my father's treat)... we r going to die of fats... hahaha... nvm next week i go swimming to remove them... wahaha... lover, got it le hor? hehe... tue and thurs... =P
and fri i be off to redang... got a little mixed up feeling abt redang... well, ive paid... so guess that's it... will update again...
ciau...

For you: Just need to know that I will always be there wherever you are... I hope i get the same from you too wherever i am.. and the fears shall be gone... =D

hmmm... received a replied email from SIM le. She gave me details of the Maths bridging course. If i take and pass this bridging course, I would be exempted from Math in IS & Management. The course starts in 4th april. I want to believe that im accepted into SIM already. Haha.

anyway, i went to suntan in sentosa Palawan's Beach. Hot, hot, burning flame.. i lie there for 1 hour then i cannot tahan liao. But my fren persuaded me to join her for 2 more hours. I was like, "under this scotching sun??" But i ve to. Cos i cannot leave her there to suntan by herself rite. Haha.
Left the beach at 3.30. Bath and reached harbourfront at 5pm. Had dinner in pastamania. And then went home. The afternoon was ultra cruel to me, then there was the night to save my cruel day. Thank god. Yes thank you. LOL.

I shall try on my new shoes again when my fear of pain is gone. I hope it will fit me very nicely =)

Sat - met love ard mid-afternoon to go to clementi. we r late but we manage to delay the meeting time with her dear.. haha.. anyway, CS came to join us. After that, we went to eat lunch at yoshinoda(is that how u spell or pronounce?) and watched Big Momma's House 2. Though i din watch the first part, i kinda get the story. anyway, its totally not related btw 1 n 2. Windowshop for a while, slack at coffee bean, ate dinner and went home le.. well, i just spend another 10-20 bucks, maybe more. Guess the next week i can starve at home.. hahaha...

Friday - A painful day.

I found a suitable pair of shoes, finally. I wear it today. Even though I knew that shoe would bring me pain, I still wear it. Cos I know I love that shoe very much. And in the end, it hurt me very much. Yes, everytime I find a new shoe, I need a plaster to cover the pain. But as time goes by, my feet would grow to suit that shoe. I really hope this time, this shoe would be the same. Cos it's not the same with the other shoes. It would last with me for a very long time. =)

thurs - watched underworld evolution at jp ard 1pm... the show ar? ok lo... haha... but somehow i forgot the show is M18 le... so i very de -_-''... whenever i watched M18 show, i feel tense one... must be too much gore thing liao... make me uncomfortable... wanna get out also cannot... when i watched final 3, i really wanna walked off leh... haha... i knew what was coming ma... then i was like, "forget it lar... i wanna get out of here..." haha...
anyway, walked ard in jp and then went habourfront to windowshop... anyway i gotta meet my frens for another fren's bday chalet... i abit sian leh.. cos i noe i sure extra de... especially when it comes to my sec sch of frens... besides, they are not my classmates sia... the host and the friends were my next-door classmates... i got some classmates there, but they were all busy talking to those that i dunno one... basically, i dunno a soul there... just a few only... and they r not very known friends, u get what i mean? lol.. anyway, i was just sitting alone lo... since i noe some ex-classmates were going off after the cake-cutting... luckily, theres someone dropping us off at the sentosa station where we take a bus back to harbourfront... and then shared cab back home...
i was surprised when i saw some guys going to the chalet... i should have known they were going lar since the host and them were ex-classmates... cos got 2 guys, u noe i long b4 erm herm... u noe... lol...
anyway, they were hanging out with some ppl that i dunno very well, so i really cant join in... aiya.. just pray that such function wont ve to happen again in the near future... lolx...
sianz half lar...

yes, im beginning to spend my first week of holiday le... lets see...

mon - went town with betty, bought alot of things...

tue - went swimming, then went bugis to shop... met the guys and went home... i bought a slipper

wed - went SIM to hand in org docs, then tiong bahru to buy 2 pairs of shoes, and then went tampines adecco to apply for job and finally went TM... home after the long day... haha...

thurs - ?? but going fren's bday chalet

fri - going somewhere lar... dunno where.. wahahhaha

long story short

- go sch meet LO
- slack in sch den went to town
- slack in town, den went to safra
- eat jap buffet in safra(in between, got lots of things happen)
- went home

Now? Dunno do wat... slack at home for another week... starting to look for temp jobs.. next week go SIM hand in original docs... -_-'' AND wait for redang...

i fantasize in my own world just now on the train... Im 21 this year, and i would be going to the University.. now Im just sitting comfortably at my office typing away, waiting for the next few hours to come. Today is my last day at Clearhub, finishing my last sem of Poly education.. Just thinking what i would be like after i graduate.
My cousins told me I dun wear like my age.. I dun really get it... what should i wear for my age... mostly i see girls wearing jeans and ts... but i rarely wear slippers so i put on shoes... is that wrong?
i was wondering on the train, wat do the girls in U wear? the same as me? And what bag do they carry?
In the past, i always wanted to grow up and be a lady... now i realised the adult world is not as good i think it may be... so ironically, i abandoned my wish to grow up fast... especially since the day my grandfather died.. u grow up, u earn money... u worked like hell and sometimes u get nth in return except for ur salary... and the years pass, u become old... as u grow old, ur health detoriate... a part of human cycle... and then u die...
i dun really care abt the human cycle... except for the human u turn into once u noe the complexity of the world.. thats y i m curious about the human's character... i wanted to study psychology... no matter what is in for me during my course, i am just curious... i am that stupid... haha...

prank mail ar... stupid mail ar... betty ar... dan lar... send me that mail... now i forward to ppl and i cannot tell or tease... haha... and somemore that person is my fren... oh shucks... kinda demoralising... dunno y also... wahaha... k i shuddup, later they noe is a prank mail... lolx... =p

你要的愛

作詞：戴佩妮　作曲：戴佩妮

雖然經常夢見妳　還是毫無頭緒
外面正在下著雨　今天是星期幾
But I don`t know 你去那裡

雖然不曾懷疑你　還是忐忑不定
誰是你的那個唯一　原諒我懷疑自己

我明白　我要的愛　會把我寵壞
像一個小孩　只懂在你懷裡壞

你要的愛　不只是依賴
要像個大男孩　風吹又日曬　生活自由自在

lol yday watched 2 movies with cy n seng.. we watched munich at 540 and final dest 3 at 940... but we met 2 something wor... so hanged out in mos burger for 2 hours.. wahaha...
munich is okay la... 'cept for the part where they nearly blow up the wrong person, it should be the father and not the young daughter.. lolx... and gross lar.. saw the blood and the hanging limbs where they went to check that everything was okay... yea, it is a M18 show... final 3 also... final 3 is when u noe some gross death is going to happen to a person, but u dunno how... so when u saw those parts, u really wanna vomit... haha... i anticipated for the next death scene... but i covered my face wahaha... actually i already noe how he's going to be killed, just dun want to see the head being cut off... yuck...
anyway, munich was taken from the book, based on true story, but they cut alot so there's still mystery to the movie... like u dunno who the person is working for when he provided the assassins information. u dunno whether he's a friend or foe.. cos after that, the hunters were being hunted at the later part of the show... then u nv see the relationship between the male lead and his family... whether the prime minister is his mother or not... is that y she told him to go to hunt those terrorists? haha... heck care le... i tink i might want to borrow the book and finish it during the hols... lolx... 4 more days to go... hehe...

wah yday went to eat at cine's yuki yaki... again... yeah... was xx's bday ma... so went to celebrate... had the icecream buffet also... but the ice cream not nice one... terrible... not eating ice cream there ever again.. i think i din eat enough... ar nvm lar... xx happy can liao... haha... i went home and online for half hour... very dumb rite.. lol... it becomes a habit liao lar... come home sure sit in front of com one... thats enough for yday... 4 more days to go... hooray... but i not happy today... no one wanna go out with me.. i damn sad lar... tml also... say wat go ktv or sentosa but they not free... then go wat lar... nvm still got next week... looking forward to eat at the sushi shop again... yea sushi again... and erm redang... redang is okay lar... except not as keen as during thai trip last time... but more ppl r going this time round i hope... think the cost would be SGD300(not including shopping, theres nth to shop anyway; wat can u shop at an island?) haha... anyway, hope more ppl got more money and the availability to go... i always like crowd haha... haiya talk to much le... gotta go le... bb

i realise people talk to me they will vomit blood... haha... either i dun get it or the words din go inside my computer system or half in, the others all out... then when i repeat the same qns again they will say, "har? I just told u wat..." then shake head... lolx... i darn sad la... im lucky that they haven gone bonkers yet... or just say, "i dun want talk to u liao lar.. u 4eva like that one" aiyo... i think my brain not good... or my ear shit too much... cannot hear properly... lolx... gotta go check... haha... hmmm... sian... thurs already... 1 more day to weekends.. ciau

bloody me bloody me bloody me... -_-'''
im still a primary sch kid living a primary sch kid life.. bloody hell... grow up is no good... i dun want to be mummy... lolx... im talking like a kid... mummy! give me something to eat!!! hahaha...

not talking liao lar... some body just dao me and went thru my sch things... and that person noe who that is... blehx... i dun mean to say i wont say anything bad abt u... i shouldnt ve say that...

still thinking abt bloody bloody me...

i want to leave here liao leh.. y y? boss give me more work to do.. not that i mind.. but its simply pile up ones... -_-'' Nvm i hurry up finish them then chao... lolx

i am forever the 16-year old girl who needs protection and reminder.. =P

"A person may age but he can be immature forever."

Virgo : "She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase."

That's really true. I cannot stand words like "oei" or "wtf" or similar types lar... I wouldnt say that i dun like so u cannot tell... haha... They are really unpleasant and rude words la... I dun even say them... haha... aiya... wat m i talking sia... cya

sometimes its to meaningless at the office that i want to get out of there as soon as possible. and now, what the heck? just wait patiently for 2 more weeks...

i submitted my application form yday to NTU and NUS. will be sending the documents by post on monday. yea filled the form for SIM too, but have to attach photos to it. since the deadline is 31 Mar, i dun need to hurry. I hope if i send the documents on Mon to NUS, they would receive them by tue, cos thats the deadline. haha. if not, so be it.. i applied psych for NTU, arts and social science for NUS, and IS & management for SIM. lol.. the probability that i will get into NUS is probably 30%, NTU 50%, SIM 70? haha. aiya.. just get in either one can already..

meanwhile, trying to find work to kill the next 4 months.. i accidentally evedropped on my colleague the other day.. he stays alone in simei n hes only 25 this year. the previous job really earn him quite a bulk.
noe y it sounds surprise? cos he went to U, n had just graduated few months ago, and he managed to live alone.. yea, he had a job going on during his Uni life. A partnership in music. cool rite..

haha. so i wonder, if i could only earn 20000+ annually b4 i turn 24, that would be great.. but how come so little? cos i need to waste my precious 4 years to study. lol.. if its a course tat i really like and learn from it, then i dun mind.. i do really want to move out on my own.. dun ask me y... i just do... maybe bcos i see a few of my single aunts moving out on their own.. and they earn quite alot..

now life is just boring... crappy.. lolx..

In a eager mood to get out of here. Since there's nth related for me to do... 2more weeks... Endure!

i always wanted to laugh when im alone.. so bad... cos u look at the ppl ard you and u wonder away... haha... wait wait... dunno wat i talking abt ar. give u example.

yday, i saw this guy on the train carrying something like a boat paddle... then i was wondering, "wah, y he carrying that sia? To slap wenzi(mosquitos) ar..." the paddle was huge wat... so i tot of wenzi lor... or house fly...

then today, i saw 3 hilarious things and make me just wanna giggle away. firstly, i saw this girl wearing all red.. a red spaghetti, a red poked dots skirt.. darn act cute... just a look and "wah, so red! she still in the mood for cny is it..." lol..

2nd, i continued walking underground the raffles mrt station, when i saw this tall lady tapped a tall big-size man by the shoulder and started to talk to him. i thought they were just aquaitances, then suddenly i saw them hold hands... weird...

thirdly, towards the escalator, i saw this really cute guy , but...
he was carrying a darn girly handbag... i noe most guys carry something like this, but often it should be bigger, and he was like... carrying a lady bag lo... -_-''' he must be gay...

oh yea and one more... at the traffic light, i observed one lady's appearance... she was wearing a red top (again -_-'') and a black skirt.. but she also abit wierd, wearing black stockings and black shoes... matching ar... she abit aunty aunty look u noe...

make me think of another aunty nearly every morning when i board the bus.. shes like my mum's age and then she is so vain la... she wears like a 20-30+ lady... everytime i see her, she wearing something revealing... like a spaghetti strap and a sibei short de miniskirt and of cos high heels and a fancy black bag.. if she's pretty and maintain her looks, its still ok lar... but ppl can tell her age cos she din cover her wrinkles lolx... its so obvious... everytime i saw her, i was like, "crap, this aunty again"...

i dunno y i talking abt this, but i find all these all so funny and a topic that i just wanna share it with u guys. dun u guys often scrutinize other ppl also n make u wanna laugh ur head off? haha... cya next post if i think of something new...

I was not there when all that stuffs happened. I was still in the office when i heard the news. I was not crying when i noe u were gone. But I felt the pain everyone had when we lost you. Especially the wife who have accompany you throughout your entire life. And the sons and daughters who were screaming for you to run before the fire comes. It wasnt obvious, but it was a fact that our hearts are bleeding when we heard the mourning. And so our cries pour out to you as well. But what we cant see is your coffin being pushed inside the incinerator. And so we could only screamed for you to run. Run away from the fire. Run.
You are lost but you are not forgotten. The little granddaughters and grandsons who were with you since they were young. And still we are. Writing about our loving memories of you. Although mine is not as fantastic as those 2 granddaughters who have written about you, but this is still delicated to you. I cried when i saw their posts. I cant remember like how they treasured you. I cant remember what are the toments that you went through these few years. All memories float back as i read through their posts. We rarely talk to you cos we define you as a fierce grandpa. Somehow you dun mind cos u were just happy whenever we came and play. Grandma was too. Picturing a happy family where 2 grandparents had their shares of grandchildren like everyone does. Heartwarming it was, now this picture turns to black and white. Nv will this become as happy as it used to. If all we go is to visit grandma, you will not be there anymore. Your daughters still couldnt accept the fact that you are gone. They cannot adapt to a new life without you. Dun take another hope from them away yet. Leave grandma healthy for another 10-20 years. I dun want to imagine if another one of you is gone.
Please forgive me.

It was raining today - the day where grandpa been sent to the cremetory...
it stopped when we were following the van... but we were still walking on the wet ground... was tired today, after the concecutively days of not getting enough sleep... finally napped for 4 hours in the late afternoon... going for another round of sleep later... well, hectic 4 days anyway... good nite ppl...

yday i nearly die of frustration... i tell u wat happen...
my colleague told me to do mass printing of the 2 original docs.. and he din have a cover page for 1 of the docs... and he din noe that... so i just create one according to the original version.. thing is, the original version cover's font and size are diff from the the other document... meaning both must be the same la... i dunno ma... i just copy the original one, so i din noe the original one was wrong... i did the 30 printings for the cover liao lo... then my colleague say all wrong... nvm, that one i can reprint... what bother me inside is that we have communication breakdown... the cover i created rite, all i need to do is to change the font and size... so i asked him, "so i need to change the font and size, right?" I guess he din understand what i meant, he keep insisting that I should follow the other doc's cover page, and change it from there.. meaning just change the words of the other doc and save it as something else... What we meant is the same thing lo... although just diff ways of doing... but what i think is that my way of doing is simpler rite? but of cos, i still need to save it as somewhere else in the other folder.. fine... i mean, just cut and paste and doc la... what de heck is wrong with u? i got my own ways of doing things.. and he dun get it.. he thought im a little girl who dun understand simple instruction... ok i admit sometimes i really dun... probably bcos i din catch a thing he says, so my brain just want it out of the system. u see me doing documents for him, its really half ear in half ear out sia... incomplete stuffs.. my brain got limited memory u noe... i need to change to a new brain liao... anyway, what im frustrated is the tone that he spoke to me... i noe he's to his limit also... thats y he used that tone.. but thats really no need one lo... just explain slower and gentler.. sometimes i really dun get what ppl are saying, but im not that dumb if u repeat several times and i still dun understand.
wah man... then later that, i was still frustated cos im thinking things through... y m i been given such jobs that doesnt even related to me? if its a job that i find, its ok... cos its what i choose to do... but this is internship... u shouldnt make use of the interns there to do micro stuffs for u rite... we r trying to learn something in advance what we learnt in sch.. trying to add on... we din learn how to print stuff and finding stupid things like competitors crap in sch... all we want is to do the things we r related... like what i learnt in sch was programming, so give me something related to programming man... or databases... at least these things wont let me feel bored... it itself would occupy my mind for the whole day... but something that was really funny and stupid yday is that i actually teared bcos of that guy... i cannot be scolded i noe that myself... but it was bcos of such small things, i was thinking its ridiculous.. haha... so i was doing my replacing of cover page and teared away... no one saw... except after that, rebecca told me, "U looked stressful.." i din noe what to say so i just smile... i kinda hating this guy now.. although i noe hes not that much in the wrong... well, i just dun want to look him in the eye... darn it...

my leg muscles are aching like hell right now... i dunno what happen... but it shouldnt be bcos of the kneeling at the funeral... maybe i stand too much everytime on the train or on the buses.. u noe how it can be when its crowded early in the morning or in the evening rite... wondering how im able to cope with the kneeling later on... its not the knee lo... although my knee still bruising la... but thats not much of a prob.. its the calf and my thigh... arh...

it was raining when grandpa was admitted into the HDU...
we went to visit him, only to see that he was breathing heavily... he was struggling to live. the day he passed away, we were not there. well, my mum says he had a good life. so its fair enough to let him go now instead of living painfully, waiting for death. he was thinner than my grandma used to. i shivered abit when i saw his body in the coffin. when i heard the news yday, i cried in the office. The irony thing is, i was not crying that grandpa left. i was worried abt my mum. she might look strong in the front, in fact, she cried 3-4 times yday. and all those memories abt my grandma n godgrandpa came back that i just weeped... well, that was yday... later going to the funeral again to help out. its gonna last 5 days i think. i cannot imagine when the day come where my grandpa is going to be on a van and my mum will be weeping all the way... haiz... gotta go le... cya

arh... HAPPY CNY! Valentine's Day also coming... so HAPPY VALENTINE'S to those couples!

CNY was ok.. except we had to start work early.. haha..

Before look

After Look

Did rebonding lo... i think its bcos of cny season, that's y the price is unbelievably high... but i still need a fresh look.. so im willing to spend that amount... did i already tell u that it was 190 bucks for rebond and cut? yeah... This is the result lo...

darn... another pang of sadness and jealousy... -_-''

Stupid daniel =X u dun let me see you on the street... i'll skin u alive... lolx... betty, im not against u... i noe if i against ur dear, im against u... but this fella go n send stupid email!!!

P.S. dan, u can only tell betty ar... or else....

the annual dinner and dance is coming, but the cost is 55 bucks per person... who wanna go? To be serious, i haven been to one yet cos my secondary sch graduation ceromony dun ve... I figured most d n ds are like those balls where u wear night gowns and tuxedos and then you dance.. that's y its called dinner and dance... DUN SPOIL MY FANTASY... lolx... every american schools has this prom night i think... To see whether it's really my fantasy, i might go... yea, even if it's 55 bucks... haha
Oh, and another good thing is, my 21st bday coming! And my god-aunties buying me diamond!! cool... but i was wondering if i should choose a ring or a necklace... cos i scared i might scratch the ring... then again, i would like a ring... lolx...
I realise i possesses lots of good stuffs.. even though most of them are not spent by me... lolx... the ipod mini, the swatch/adidas watch, the w550i phone, HP laptop, my converse shoe, my makeup kit counted?? thats all... i cant think of anymore.. haha...
i spent 200 bucks on my hair... and was kena scolded by nearly everyone... lolx... but i am happy i spent this money... i think afterall, this is MY money... everyone should have a first thing to do everything... although this job is internship, but it is my first money earning job...
i discovered, to my dismay, that alot of ppl that i know are leos.. it is because of a certain characteristic of leo that i do not approved... my boss, literally, is leo... and i learnt that virgos and leos are not that compatible... i used to think that if 2 ppl loves each other, it doesnt matter whether their personalities are suitable anot... if they do not know how to compromise, everything is gone like the wind.. in the past, i do not believe in horoscope... now i even find the comparison between a couple. whether they match anot... a certain personality of a horoscope would definitely be the opposite of another... or rather calm the other down... it either helps or it nails the other down... aiya.. just saying lar... of cos, i still dun mind compromising... lolx...

IM PISSED OFF!!

dun talk to me.. im angry now.. at who? at myself.. i begin feeling mood swings these few days.. or is it just after the weekends. my mother n brother had brought up the facts that i dunno how to be a good person. they ve list out all my negative points. though u think it may be my points only... but i can tell u my negative points are definitely more than most ppl ve. u needa me to tell u cos 1 point is my physical body... that makes the major of my weakness already. bcos of my body, my mother keeps worrying for me.. abt my well being. not that its not good... but it could be that bad that i dunno how to take care of myself... for my 20 years of living, i ve a mother who constantly care for me. she's the best.. however, she also make me to be dependent on ppl.. i could nv be independent.. another thing is, she din teach us lots of things in the past. she din tell us to do household chores since young. we nv ve the habit of washing the dishes or washing the clothes or cleaning our own stuffs. although we r brought up nice and good, i nv learn how to take care of myself. she always take food for us, thus spoiling us. always letting her to serve us. i nv know how to buy food.. cos i always bring food to sch... i always dun want to go opp to buy food cos im lazy.
i inherit all the bad points from my father. i inherit his insensitiveness, the bad skin, the stubborness. as a result, i dunno how to care for ppl, always thinking of myself first. i dun think of their feelings.. its always a bad thing for me.. no good first impression always.. im dao.. i heck care about the stuff ard me. the priority is me... although i wont let myself die of starving, i still concern abt me. and me only. friends? i dun ve any b4 poly. maybe those were aquaintances, but i dun call them friends.
now work just sucks.. my mother thinks i offend my supervisor cos i nv get any work from them. now at work is just slacking. though now i still ve something going on la.. updating the database.. rebecca gotten all the job.. they ask her to stay as well.. my mom tots its becos of my poor job performance, my daoness, my constant illness.. of cos u all ppl know that i can be sick for long.. they dun. she also told me that i need to report to them after i finish my work. apparently i din care. i gotten a B though.. the first month i gotten C. the thing is, they din ask me to stay.. well, not that i care.. but its just frustrating..
all these just add up and i bottle up my feelings.. i haven had this feeling for quite a long time. today, i just bcom moody.. they better not talk to me...
another thing, wats going to happen to me after i graduate? i dunno wat job to take up.. i suggested being a part time nurse.. my mom says im cannot take up the job.. they'll need me to fill the medicine bottles n i would just spill them.. its true, i COULD spill them. im just that clumsy. and i dun ve the balance. which make me think of another thing. i cannot drive. i cannot control the car. i cannot take the steering wheel in my own hand and make a nice steer. cos i simply cannot balance the car with my shaky limbs. its only natural. did i say i nv do PE b4? do not ask me wat my CCA was. sports? dun even think abt it.. i can only swim..
my nerve tangles.. i dunno wat happen to me whenever i start to walk or when i suddenly stand up. something just pull me back. i stopped to let myself recover from the bad nerves. i nv tell my mother abt it. i figure if this prolong, i might develop a bigger problem. one day, i shall go to the SGH for checkup. it starts to happen when i was in primary 5. yes, i can tahan this until now. but i tot that my grad ceremony is coming, my parents r coming. i dun want ppl to know that i ve this prob. y u think thats going to happen? cos i gotta take my cert and when that happens, my nerve r gonna go tangle up all over. what is going to happen? as usual, im going to ve to cope with it lo. y m i blogging this? i just wanted someone to know. so far i only told my ex that i got this serious prob.
bcos of my dependent n my prob(my nerve and my shaky limbs), i can nv take those food with soup. y u think that i always ask ppl to help me with them? cos i knew the soup would spill. i would look like an idiot going to my table. and before i reach the table, i would look like an idiot standing n staring in space. bcos of this, im able to do anything for u ppl. forgive me.. i could not offer to buy drinks, not offer to buy food.. forgive me.. is that y im unable to take care of the ppl ard me. cos i can hardly take care of myself. im such a loser.
y do i not want to get up from my seat to get things or go to the toilet? cos i would again, stand n stare into space like a goondo. u can laugh. but its not a joke. its something terrible. i called this the pakis disease. or at least i tot so. according to the medical book, pakis disease make ppl lose control of themselves. and i tot i gotten that. n the age range who should ve gotten that disease? 50 n above. i dunno y im one of the rare to get that. although i din really go to the doc to check my prob but i figure out it should be this disease. whatever.
for those who read this blog. pls do not spread. its only for ur concern. thanks.
whenever i think of these problems, i think im a saddist. i rely on ppl too much.

today half day for me again... wat else? sick lar...
i went to work thinking that i was getting lack of sleep so it doesnt matter... but then later i really cannot tahan liao... wanna go home so badly and then my limbs like cannot move like that... so i just took leave and go home ard 1130.. sigh... might as well dun go work... i came home to sleep of course. haha. ate my cough medicine and slept... only to find out my body heat increased... so after i woke up, i just ate something, and took panadols.. then bath... i think im okay rite now... except for the dry throat... maybe i'll sleep earlier again later.. if im still not okay tml, at most skip work again lo... i really develop this habit of not going to work liao... haha... dun really wanna go there anyway, though i got things to do la... lolx... when im in this state, normally i cant do things well, let alone do my work on the com... i got so frustrated just now when i dun ve the mood and the energy to work.. so i was thinking, what the heck, might as well go home rest since i cant work properly... at least i may be able to report to work the next day after a good day rest.. haha... im only an intern after all... not needed so much... though pay's been cut la... haha... yes, finish crapping liao... cya... btw, i finish watching bleach too... haha...

i finally come back to work after a day of MC... i dun wanna go polyclinic de... for one thing i noe, the queue is always freaking long... i had to wait for 2 hour before i can actually see the doctor!!! and poor me... i had to spend the new year at home alone! did i say that already? lolx... well, the wait at the polyclinic was so long that my head was not giddy after i went in... haiz... i was feeling better so i decided to go to work lo.. to think i get 1 more day MC just in case i not feeling well again... shouldnt ve gone to work... was coughing until like siao... haha... yea siao... haha... sianz... lucky tml is thurs liao... mon public holiday, tue din go work... haha... the week end so fast sia... lolx... oh btw, if kw u r reading, carmen sent us our christmas presents le.... there's one for tina and sj as well... she sent to me to make me the santa... lolx... but xmas is over leh... well, this can be new year gifts then...

i was sick for the first few days liao... now still abit giddy.. i think i became sicker after the new year eve eve that is on fri...

thurs - after my family left for the genting, ard 3 pm, i came home to tidy up... i ve gotten half day off cos i really wasnt feeling well... i slept until 6 and went opp to bank in my cheque and bought some food.. guess wat? ive forgotten to write down my acc number on the cash cheque n i just threw it in! i realised that after i threw it in... dumb ass... haha... did some laundry n i went to sleep ard 11...

fri - my throat was feeling better so i went to work... instead, rebecca n june din report to work... guess they fallen sick too... i met some of them to eat... there was ken, cy, mike, bryan, seng... the 6 of us had our usual dinner at cine's cartel... after that we decided to sing at party world.. trying to get sj and jiayan to come down as well... jy says she no money... sj booked the last early slot at 11pm... can u believe it? last early slot leh... n it's not even eve yet... cos after dinner it was 9 pm then we ve to wait until 11 -_-'' so we went walk walk for a while lo... mike went home cos he got work the next day...the crowd must be due to the holiday seasons... we walked ard orchard, waited for sj at the station b4 we went down to party world.. we sung until 3 lo... bryan cannot take it so he left ard 1 something... haha... i figured its so late liao that jy dun wanna come my hse ton le... so i din call her... its so happen that she's at home waiting for my call... so sorry man... later that night, we booked narnia at 4 am... wah lao... the show is ard 2 n 15 mins like that... the story is so-so type... lord of the rings is better in terms of fighting.. haha.. i was going to fall asleep if it's not for the last few exciting parts... took off after the show... barely can walk a few steps, nearly stumble... i always feel like that after a movie... or maybe i was really tired and blurred that day.. reached home ard 7.30...

sat - i was having sore throat few days b4.. when i slept ard 8 am that morning... the soreness was gone after i woke up ard 3 pm... instead, i got runny nose n a giddy head -_-'' i din get a fever, so y is that i feel giddy? it was better(i ate medicine) after i rested from 6-7... i think i did laundry and then forced myself to go down to grab some food... (i was trying to get mike n cy to accompany me to eat but mike was not ard) i ate and had medicine for my flu... watched bleach n went to bed ard 10pm...(mike called to ask me go sls, but i was really giddy to get out of the hse) woke up at 12 something... haha... and u noe wat i did from 12-3? i stupidly sung jay's new album (i think i haven had enough of him) that i think neighbours can hear me singing... if they r not in bed yet la... i dun think they r cos its new year...

sat- well... its sad rite... to think i spent my new year in bed having flu... the singing's not bad.. at least i sung to myself hahaha -_-'''anyway, i slept until 10am in the morning la... still having sea-sickness(feeling's the same la) so i din dare to ask ppl out... crap la.. if i din fall sick... maybe i will be happily celebrating outside... ive been sleeping too much le so i din sleep for fear of getting giddiness again when i wake up... so i just watched bleach lo... i ve been dling that for 4 days le... episode 1-50... its supposed to be quite fast... nvm la... finished dling can le...

N finally, my family's back! ard 8pm... i told my mum to buy some food for me... cos i really cannot go down.. scared if i go down, i will be stumbling all the way... im still having giddiness by the way... my mum says bcos i din eat... is it? watever la...

if tml's de same, im gonna go to the doc and skip work... hope so(fingers crossed)... haha... oh i checked my bank acc yday... the cheque din bounce... the money got in safely hahaha...

yday was xmas eve.. boss invited us to his hse to eat... hehe... i shall this u wat happen b4 that first...

fri - after work, went jun's hse to watch wang zi bian qing wa... watched the whole nite until 6, then slept until 11...

sat - went home to bath n then went out again... lolx... ktv was at suntec so we sung until 6 n left... i was late for the meeting at tanah merah.. so henry told me to meet grace there also... she brought her sons as well... one is cute, the other is active... lolx... anyway, boss's hze was wulu la... so need to take henry's car in... kevin has a indoor jacuzzi.. a indoor fishpond... a indoor garden... 4 level (1 basement)... the basement is for entertainment.. there's a theatre and wine bar in one room and a pool table in another room... i din go up to their rooms to explore though.. haha.. anyway its quite fun la... we gossiped abit outside the station after henry took off...
me n cs went to meet yq n von at the mccafe in orchard.. town was packed.. so we had to squeeze thru the crowd.. tok tok until 12 something and they went to watch movie le.. we just went home after that.. glad to be home... haha... well, merry xmass ppl!

last fri - my boss invited my colleagues and i to go the new opened MOS.. but i cant go cos i promise to go np party with my frens le.. surprised surprised.. hy managed to ask 12 ppl to go... its like the same num of ppl when we went thai.. anyway, crowd was ok.. drinks? no alcohol.. buy 1 dollar per can of softdrink.. music is nice also... anyway, we went hawker to eat and mac to slack then went home. nth much actually..

Zhou jie lun.. zhou jie lun... jay chou... jay chou... !!

friday din go out and the whole week was like slacking away.. yday went singing with my cousins and went shopping at imm.. night went to eat at my popo's... tts all... maybe later gonna buy new hp le.. so excited... :D arh... nth much to post anyway... cya next week...

previously i was MIA.. now im BIA! cos i got nothing to do at work and at home.. haha. i want to take a leave, sit down with my fav gang and talk kok.. if the rest of my life is like tt liao, i cannot rest in peace. really, i was thinking my whole way thru the train journey. working ppl == weekday: work from morning till night, go home eat sleep.. weekend: play or rest, but its only for 2 days.. after that the whole cycle starts again. freelancer diff.. u work then u earn, u dun work, then u die of hunger. lolx. yea i was talking tt ang moh in my previous blog rite. he's apparently(i realise my colleague keep using tt word, haha) a freelancer. he step in once into the office, and they ve no idea when they will see him again. but if i can choose my job, it would be something i SHOULD BE very good at la.. currently, the thing tt im good at is.... .... .... ....
cant think of any... forget it.. i cant think, i forever eat wind... do i continue working or do i take up a course in overseas U? even if its U, i dunno wat course im gonna take up. even its job, i dun want to continue in IT line. the contradicting part is, if i dun take up this line, wat m i going to do? nursing? psychologist? not good enough for tt.. r&d? research wat thing first? nvm.. teacher? quad not high enough. Accountant? no related course in tt. Banker? same thing la.. if i take up new course, i ve to spend another 3 years studying then can take degree course.. then can look for a job... i dunno wat to do... arhhh...