Hm. Brood about bad things that happened or that keep happening. Ironically, I am still able to handle all these unwanted problems. Wonder if I'm optimistic or I'm plain naive that cant be bothered about the people or things that is revolving around me. I show the same facade to society, and hope they would give me what I want. Things doesnt always appear as it seems, though. We live lifes differently, but we are not concious that we are different. Sometimes it worsen the relationship between us and the society; sometimes it frustrates ourselves because we dont accept what is going on. We struggle to keep with the pace of the changing world. Yet we subconciously warn ourselves of the cons. And why must we abide to rules? Cant things ever go our way? I dont know that I ever written this before; but I cant deduce what is right and what is wrong anymore. This is how people want to live their lives. We cant interfere but we cannot ignore the fact that they mess with ours too.

As old saying goes, life is complicated. Live everyday to its maximum. Do not regret. There wont be a next one.

This line is cliche. Everyone knows how to say it. Do people ever live lives to the max? Well, some really do. They involve themselves in a matter of own interest, or of the public goods. Some dont regret their lives 'cause they are satisfy with theirs. What is yours cant be mine. What is mine cant be yours. Individuals strive to achieve their own goals, collectivists comply to the society. Its the way how we see it not what we see it.

Why do office politics happen? Others who are not in the know, may think those are just arrogant, think-they-know-all, 'bit indifferent. For all you may know, these pathetic fools are just trying to gain some recognition, live their own lives, struggling to live, compete for self-egoism, etc. etc..

Why would I not want to face the "real" world? 'Cause I know there would be masks everywhere you go. Constant change is true. Even the heart and mind turn itself, sometimes unknowingly. Who would ever need a "fengshui" master? He might not even know the truth.


Blubbers. Whenever I type this long, I might be bored or I just feel like typing. Possibly I think non-stop too. About stupid stuffs. I wallow about every small things. There was even once I thought about helping the UN. Saving the third world countries is their motto. I shivered when I thought in depth about death. How would a person's life end? The whole conciousness would go where? Fear about death is normally what you cannot do the things you want to do. Besides, you would never know what might happen. By the way, what does it mean to be "in other people's shoes"? Can we replace their minds and know what they are thinking about? If ever one day, you wake up to find yourself in the body and mind of someone else, what would you do? Grins.

Gosh! I found this on the website that betty recommended. Really amazing! If only we are in the future right now.. I can totally visualise the world of new technology with this device screen.

Watch to get a grip of what im talking about.

Aack! Was really planning to go for weiseng's bday already, then I hurt my ankle yesterday. I practically wailed out loud. Not because of the party, but of the fact that I twisted my leg again.

Sigh.

My mum brought me to the chinese doc just now. Anyway, my sprain wasnt that bad. At least I can walk. =X

And aw, I would really love to go swimming with jo and love if it wasnt for this.

Crap.

Hmm. *Been playing Granado Espada and 9Dragons.*

Okay, so on the previous entry I blogged about going to the supermarket. For a purpose, of course.

Yesterday, I cooked spaghetti and campbell soup for dear and me. Quite nice and filling, I must say. *Abit proud* Fine. So this dish is a simple one. Shall try something else next time.

After lunch, Kevin played Company of Heros while I slept. *PIG*

He left around 4.30pm to go to scout around the marina square for NDP purpose.

Bro and mum came back and we decided to order pizza for dinner. The pizzas wasnt the best.

Anyway, guowei booked in again at 7.30. I went to meet dear at JP around 8.30pm to watch Fantastic Four. Took a bus home around 11pm. It wasnt too late and so kev is able to catch the train home.

Entry on yesterday's event:

The weather was okay yesterday, which i "prayed" hard for. I realised the best time to go for a dip in the pool is in the morning. It started to get abit "moody" in the evening. Haha.

Anyway, the morning I went swimming with love, her sis and joanne at the SP guild. The sun wasnt that hot and it doesnt feel like raining. We swam for 1 hour plus before we enjoyed ourselves in the jacuzzi, the steaming room and the sauna. Bathed and left the guild around 2pm. Hailed a cab to clementi to eat lunch. Betty "tabao" and rushed off to work. We waited for her sis's bf to come before me and joanne went to the supermarket to shop. Then went home.

Love is going Bangkok and Kaiwen just came back from China. Joanne is leaving for Genting Highlands in another 3 days. Sob. I wish I have places to go during these holidays. I guess I could also leave for Genting in December too, if i can. My mum and aunts are going, hmph, without me again. -.- Yw, Xx, we "pon" school and go okay? LOL. Oh, and I got a gut feeling they are going taiwan to attend the wedding too. Not sure about my aunts, but my mum is following if grandma's going. September, just when my school just start. Hmph!

Woo! Yesterday went to attend kaifeng and daphne's wedding!

I reached their condo at around 9 am in the morning to witness the tea ceremony. I missed the part where the groom came to fetch the bride! Darn. I was waiting to watch that part of how they played him LOL. The whole morning process was screened at the wedding dinner later in the evening. The groom and his "brothers" were made to eat chillies! Haha. Hmm. Then something about a poem reading too. They re-enacted the scene at the dinner. Lol.

After the tea ceremony, I sat in the family car to head to the church. The church wedding lasted 1 hour, i think. I nearly break into tears when i saw uncle walking down the aisle with his daughter.

Then, we had lunch buffet at the reception area. Friends and relatives just gathered. How warming!

Went back to their house around 2pm. Slept until 5 and went to bath and prepared for the dinner. I was surprised that I was able to make-up in such a hurry. That's my fastest putting-on makeup ever. LOL.

Anyway, when we arrived at Sheraton hotel, we went up to the couple's room. Watched abit of charlie's angels there, and went down to prepare for the reception.

I was getting abit flustered when people just came up to the reception asking for table numbers. Haha. Well, did well with the help of their cousin. Hee.

They started the dinner around 8pm. It was delicious. I was seated at the VIP seat so dinner was served seperately on the plate. As usual, the slides of how kaifeng and daphne knew each other and the wedding album was put up too. The funny thing was the re-enacting scene. Kaifeng did it twice, but on the second time, he was reading with Shakespears's feeling(thou and thee). LOL.

They sent me home around 11pm =D.


Here are the pictures I have taken with my hp.

The 1st two photos are what i wore to the tea ceremony and the church.

The holidays are here and my 3-months shall be all about slacking.

Did nothing lately, 'cept to watch some korean drama.

Did not go swimming on monday and tuesday, hence can only do some running on my thread mill.

My legs are breaking from all those running, but i feel satisfy enough. =)


today was supposed go swimming with joanne, betty and her frens. Joanne didnt want to go so i didnt too. Cos i'd feel wierd alone. Haha. In the end, i went swimming with my brother at jurong sport complex. i felt so accomplished for swimming 1km today. After that, we went to JP to eat and then went to watch Ocean 13.

Feel so tired out now. Haven bath yet. Haha.

Well, till then.

kw's bday photos

oops! wrong eye to cam view!


how come i keep getting it wrong?!


group photo. well, i still look sideways.


the 4 gurls!


the bouquet of flower and us..

Yup I went queensway yday. Dear shopped and turned into a "auntie" who need to shop for clothes. Haha. After loads of fitting, he finally got himself a white shirt(to go with his blazer) and a pair of adidas white shoe for the occasion. And I bought my swimsuit. Happy!

At around 5 plus, We took bus 198 home.

Ate dinner that my mum cooked and watched naruto. Soon he went home.

Joanne and I are so planning to go swimming today, then comes the bloody weather! Its cloudy now, but its a passing rain today. Guess we would be able to swim later in the afternoon.

Crap its raining now.

Sat - come swimming at dear's house. Ate lunch with gw before going out.

Swam for 2 hours and then came back to bath, eat and then nap.

I woke up just in time to go to kaiwen's bday chalet.

Took bus 13 to east coast and walked all the way in. Did not eat much cos of the food I had before nap time. The birthday girl had quite a fun time celebrating her birthday. Her relatives are so "on" people. Haha. Finally left 2 hours later. Were actually wanting to take a bus to Kevin's but then again the bus is so long, we had to take a cab back his place. Stayed over for the night.

Well, I am still here waiting to go out later. Haha. We are going queensway. Meanwhile, i'm watching starwars with him. No idea what the show is about. I only watched the Phantom Menace and I begun from the middle part. Totally clueless about the whole series of Starwars.

LOL

Met yw at lakeside station yday noon to go to suntec.

Was planning to go with my parents but they said they might not go anymore so we just went alone.

Went to have lunch in asian kitchen at the citylink. Quite a nice meal, I must say. 3 red bean milk teas, 1 fried rice, 1 "zha jiang mian" and 6 pcs of "xiao long bao". Wah, just thinking of that "zha jiang mian" alone makes me salivate. Not to mention its soup and the delicious fried rice too. The "bao" should be nice as well but I didn't eat that.

So we just sit there for an hour before we go to suntec convention hall.

Gw bought his Ipod at the Apple fair, finally.

Squeeze all the way up to the bookfair, but seeing that it was nothing, we hurried to the IT fair.

I was still trying to get my Sony M2 memory card, so we just make it straight for that section along with the crowds. I asked for the card and guess what? Its bloody sell out!

Had nothing more to look at, and refusing to stay in with the crowds, we headed to the exit immediately.

Okay, so we had our lunch and just wanted some icecream to satisfy ourselves as desserts so we went down the basement, in search for a place to slack. And yes, we found seats right beside the natural australia icecream cart. The flavours were fantastic. I had rum n rasins, choco ecstasy and fruits of the forest(yoghurt). They nearly had the same but yw had berry instead of choco ecstasy, and gw had some flavour which i cant rmb, instead of the yoghurt flavour icecream.

Slacked there for another 1 hour or so before going to JE to sing at the KBOX.

The deal is from 7pm to closing time. Hence we went to buy lots and lots of tidbits before we went in.

The whole room was freezing even we ever started to sing. Huh, our solution? The 3 of us jumped like nobody's business while singing the "HI" songs. Then we slowly sang other songs. But it was still as cold. We get ourselves to sing until throats are sored until 1am, and then finally break out of that blizzard.

Drew some money and took a cab home, at last. Went straight to bed after the everlasting shouting and the struggling ability to withstand the "ice block room".

Yes! I'm putting everything to the "past" and stop thinking about those bloody exams!

Today's last paper and I am finally set free!!!

Early at noon, dear booked out and bought me lunch so i could eat and then go for exam in the afternoon.

I met him again after exam at bugis. Had 'ou jian' and 'cha kuay tiao' for dinner. And then, woo, shopping spree! well, not really. Cos I bought things that I had in mind. However there is still one thing I failed to get - swimsuit. The only one thing left in my mind to get, and I am not able to get it!! I finally got my white dress from Fashion Lab for kev's sis's wedding dinner next week! And its at a discounted price of 20%(U.P. $69) at 55 bucks! Hehe. Walked to bugis street trying to find a nice piece of good looking t-shirt for him. In the end, its just a wasted journey.

Headed home after that. Shall either try to swim tmr or exercise on my thread mill. Fatty me.

Whatever it is, happy is me! Me is happy!

Dear's mum invited me to the wedding buffet held in the condo's function room today.

I waited for dear to bath first before going down to the function room to eat.

We ate and talked with his aunt(actually I'm a onlooker).

After eating, we went upstair to decide Kevin's wedding dinner clothes.
The relatives then were ready to go to Daphne's new house. The cars were not enough for all of us, so me, dear, his sis, and her fiance took a cab there.

Their house is well-decorated, with the spot-lights and all. The dining room consist of a build-in bench and a table(assuming bcos the table is not bought yet). Yes the lights were awesome! I love them!

Kevin and I went to take a bus, after visiting his sis's house, to marina square, bcos he still haven get the rest of his clothes yet.

Rest for a while bcos of my tight-fitted shoes, and with my long toe-nails nearly protruding the shoes.

Finally, stopped in Giordano to look at the men's blazer and pant.

He bought those 2 items.

My shoes were killing me. We went in straight to Macdonalds to take a rest. Anyway, bought a cheese cake, a vanilla and a double chocolate blend at McCafe. While eating, we started solving the Soduku puzzle(I brought the book for fun).

Went straight home after that to eat dinner. Crab is the main course! I love crabs!

That's how well-spent my day has been. Stopped the guilt for not studying at home after lunch buffet. Haha.

Ooh. My brother's passing out parade today.

My mum and I went to watch and left home around 7.30am.

Waited under the faulty weather (glaring sun at first, then seem abit dready later on) for 1 hour plus until it started.

LOL. The soothing music was totally irrelevant to the event. It was like in a wedding, before the dinner begins.

Then came the exaggerating music when the parade started. *Soundtracks of Star wars, MI, Pirates. Lastly, some china song came out of nowhere.*

Below is the video i have taken in the morning of the parade.


After parade, we went to eat with another parents, whom gw so happen to know their son too.

Mother and I walked around, while waiting for gw, because its family day event after the parade. My mum went to take the tank. Gw found me and we waited for our mum to come back before exploring somemore. There wasnt much activities so we went to watch happy feet/flushed away in the theatre room until when its time to leave the camp.


They went home while I went to meet dear at marina square.

Ate lunch at mac and went to watch pirates - quite a must-watch show.

Dinner was at Han's.

Was planning to shop for clothes today. But none seems suitable enough.

In the end, dear did manage to get a 4-man and a 6-man tents. I bought a goggle for myself.

Return home by bus 502.

Next time should get a swimsuit. Haha.

LOL

My psychology do emphasize on gender differences.

Verbal communication -

WOMEN
- Prefer conversation for rapport building
- Want empathy, not solutions
- Are more likely to compliment
- Emphasize politeness
- More conciliatory

MEN
- Talk as a means to preserve independence and status by displaying knowledge and skill
- Work out problems on an individual basis
- Are more directive in conversation
- Are more intimidating
- Call attention to their accomplishments
- Tend to dominate discussions during meetings


Non Verbal communication -

- Men touch women more than women touch men
- Men are more likely to relate touch to sex than women



The non-verbal ones are so funny that we laugh during class when the lecturer taught us this.

Okok. Just want to show you guys this. HAHA.

Back to books. =P

I woke up, only to find myself uncomfortable.

Had some headache and stomach discomfort. So ate some panadol and "bao zi yuan" to kill the discomfort. The headache was gone, thank god. However, the stomach bloating continue and i kept burping.

Then, diarrhoea. -.-

After 3 more in the evening, my mum forced me to go to the clinic.

Funny thing is, I feel better when i came back.

Did not even take any medicine yet.

Okay, abit of the feeling come back again. AHH!

Complained to dear just now. Sob. Chat for a while before he goes sleep on his "comfy" bed.

I think I feel okay already. In any case, bye for now.

i cant believe that i actually slept for 3 hours + for nap time!


My plan to study 2 sections of the study guide din work out.

After lunch, i fell aslp on my couch, and woke up at 4plus, much to my dismay.

A day is wasted.


I can no longer study tonight. My mind is somewhere else.

Dear came for dinner and just went back to camp. Slowly adapting to his inconsistency to participate in my life, as i am in his.


I guess I am on a holiday mood with everyone else who had their last paper yday. This deems my foiled concentration on my books.

Tmr my battle should begin!

nothing to post actually.

am sitting down here, trying to "slack", while waiting for lunch time.

Then after lunch, I can start studying for my psycho exam.

for the past few days, i ve been thinking of all sort of possibilities to spend my holidays.

1stly, swimming.

2ndly, watch some new korean drama show that my mum brought home.


whatever it is, i am so keen on singing, swimming and shopping.

3 Ss.


I want to get a job. but its just the idea of working, everyday just doing nothing, makes me give up that idea. I know temp jobs are like that. They cant teach u anything, which is why i cant stand this kind of life, idling in a company. Those jobs that require activities(im sure i wont get those) are out. I hate the idea of serving ppl. Its not the ppl, its me. I know im slow and clumsy in doing things. In any case, just forget it.


Just hope that my IBM can pass. Its the only paper that i am scared of failing.
man.


Looking forward to this weekend with dear. Finally can get to go out. I release myself out for a day. HAHA. We are going to shop for the wedding dinner clothes(not ours -.-).

Lunch Time! Go Go Go!

For 30 years, my mum didn't do any exercise nor any facial. That week b4 she went to the china trip, she signed up for yoga and 5 sessions of facial treatment. And those, of cos, has eaten away 2 months of her salary, though i must agree that my mum is rich(cos she saves since young). And then 1 week during their jiang nan trip, my parents splurged like money is nothing to them. HAHA.

Then again, her facial and yoga sessions helped. She slimmed down quite abit. Her face looks better, with all that "fats" and her ugly spots gone. She taught me a few yoga steps too. Like I blogged previously, ive got'n fatter. So those yoga steps that ive learnt from her should help. haha. For my flexibility as well. My mum says that im quite rigid for someone my age. Her instructor used that same line on her too(without the age part). Well, in any case, with yoga and swimming(after exams), i hope to gain back abit of my shape or to get some toning.

Time to get back to my books. See ya.

My horoscope says this:

It's a great night to host or attend a party together. If there's nothing on your social calendar, see if you can make something happen spontaneously -- you never know who's up for fun!


right....

Like I have any social life right now. Or rather any life. My 1 month is all about mugging and mugging. My brain's holding in huge amount of information, at the same time preventing them from dropping as new ones go in(temporary storage of mine). God knows whether I will do well in my IBM. It's the only subject that I flunked during mock exam. Furthermore, the likelihood of me doing a well-written essay is zero. Why? The answers they asked for are complicated. They need links from chapters. Blistering Bonkers. Shacks and Hussles. Polistic Lockhard. Fools and Bamberina. (They just pop in my mind.)Haha. Puralistic concepts of environment. Gasp! No IBM now.

Aacks! If I were to stop and look through my IBM again, I would go nuts.

2 more papers to go.

Yet looking forward to holidays.

No exams. No books. No stress. Only fun, joy and lots of love.

I was planning to stick my butt to the chair until midnight studying. It seems that i lost every ounce of concentration. Only 2 chapters in the notes that I have covered. Not even half yet. And only 2 days left before my D-Day. I would really love to read my notes until half the night gone. Somehow, my eyes refused to stay open to stare at the notes.

I shut my eyes for 15-20 minutes just now. It didn't work. I am still as tired.

So I daydreamed about what dazzling gown I would get for a wedding dinner. And how I would set my hair to be. What eyeshadow would I use? It never occurred to me, momentarily, that I would look twice as pretty during my own wedding. I would not astound, but make the "audience" think they were in a fairyland.

I woke up from my dream eventually, to eat.

For every half to an hour, I switched off, trying to do other things, eg. washing face, drinking coffee, brushing teeth, watching drama with my mum, etc. The interval between only makes my mind wander around even more.

I would try and stop, if I weren't so involved in typing.

I apologised for the long entry. But somehow, my brain is twirling like a cog in a clock. I would stop I promise.

I got my wishlist updated. And if you have realised, I have gotten my longed-for handphone. Now. It's time for another item to be struck off. All! MUAHAHA. Oh, I have forgotten to add in, an evening gown.

Time for another isomnia session. Au revoir!

finally, 3 pps down already..

im quite happy with myself for doing quite alright with those 3 pps..

but there isnt the qn in section C in sociology that it supposed to come out. in the end we did qn that we dun even noe the chapters. and its 25 marks for that section u noe! i was so confident for that qn lo and in the end, it din come out... -.-

heard that the examiners are quite aplogetic for the qn that they din post. what crap! u gimme my 25 marks then i forgive u lar!!

just came back from programming exam. dunno if my section A ans was correct not... but i was really good in answering the section B. although i dunno if those need to be linked to section A not.. hope not =X

2 pps left.. ji dan.. ppl only got ibm left and i got ibm and psychology.. -.- 30th may! haiz.. so far.. yet so good.. cos i haven start revising.. haha..

btw.. had lunch with the guys at BK today after morning pp.. wah bth them.. they r the best lamers i ve seen yet so far!

came back ard 1.. so reached at 2pm..

going to slp liao.. tmr then study.. urgh~!

i am so bored..

theres so many things i wanna do.. that i so want end of may to come quicker.

i want to buy a 2gb microsd card.
i want to swim.
i want to buy an evening gown.
i want to do a mastercard debit.
i want to sing.
i want to play pool.
i want to go chalet.
i want to watch dramas.
i want to do facial.
i want to do some yoga/pilates.
i want to go shopping.
i want to get an interesting temp job.

thats all for now.

side note: my bro got into NUS law sch. he felt exhilarated. i feel happy for him too. =)

sweat.. gotten fat..

even my brother say so..

next determination after exam: swimming every 3 days..

love i am ready le.. haha..

but first i need to go buy a swimsuit and a google..

so going to make this my next resolution..

i cannot dun keep doing exercise.. i would die of fatness at home..

how i wish exam is over.. sianss...

i finally got my k800i on mon night! it was on a promotional price at 238bucks.. so i bought it without another thought.. anyway, finally got what i wanted le.. LOL

anyone heard of IMVU? its a 3D messenger service.. allows u to play ppl one.. LOL.. anyway, its at http://www.imvu.com. if anyone install it, be sure to add me: meltinChoco

tmr is start of exam.. taking stats first thing in the morning..
*hope exam qn not too difficult*

im waiting for june now.. haha.. meanwhile *poof!*

-updatess-

fri : i was at home studying stats n socie for the whole week.. i studied stats until evening n then went to meet dear after his camp.. we went back to his place to put down things.. i waited while he bathed.. then we went to TM to eat at ajisen.. were planning to catch spiderman 3.. but when we reached there, we saw the slots were in red 'cept for 12am show.. so then we went to eat..

after eating, went to costa sand resort.. kev's frens were already there, waiting for us to go eat.. anyway, watched them play ps2 for awhile b4 we make a beeline to mac.. watched them eat and slacked there.. michael make a super funny joke that lasted for our entire chalet days.. LOL

went back to bath.. and then watched them play citadel, a board game that kev brought.. then was mahjong time! hee.. few of us playing while few of them playing ps2.. the first "trial" was to help one of kev's fren, terence, to get to know how to play mahjong.. then after the trial, kevin changed places with me.. this time, they played with money.. i watched them played abit while watching tv too.. headed upstairs to sleep cos bth liao.. clara slept next to me.. the whole night we were unable to sleep well.. cos of the aircon blowing directly at us.. and the sound of the guys playing..


sat: woke up around 8 when terence came in.. some of them were sleeping downstairs.. went down to brush teeth lo.. i dun rmb whether we played any mahjong not.. but i dun think so.. went to eat mac for breakfast.. well, came back ard early noon i think.. started a new session of mahjong.. this time with money and im the one playing.. fortunately i din lose any money.. haha.. well i din win as well.. hmm.. they wanted to play soccer so went out with kev n friends to the beach.. clara played with them while kev and i watched them..

3 of his frens joined us.. and so he went to play with them as well.. finally get to see dear play soccer le =D.. 2 of his frens went back chalet cos one was sick, the other was tired.. i just watched.. we went back to the chalet ard 3pm.. hmm.. after that ar.. michael brought SHE concert dvd to watch.. so we watched it lo.. then went out to watch them set up the charcoal for the bbq.. they were making the charcoal to work for 1 hr plus i think -.-'' anyway, the bbq man came and we started bbqing.. ate and ate.. ppl started to come.. was actually ard 8 ppl then more ppl came..

it was near the end of our staying time.. last bit was the game, zhong ji mi ma.. however, the loser would ve to act out whatever is written down.. it was fun watching (cos i din play).. went to change and then waited for the farewell speech.. =) oh btw, the purpose of this chalet was to give a farewell chalet to luke who is going overseas to study.. i knew them as well so i went lo.. anyway, went home after that..


sun (today): finally went to watch spiderman 3 with dear at marina.. we went to scout for some jacket for his sis's wedding b4 going back his hse..

went back his hse to eat.. and then slacked a while b4 going home while he booked in le..


on a side note: btw, the internal joke i was talking abt was related to the movie.. haha.. and photos would be put up if only one of them would send me the chalet photos.. n dear is receiving so ever-the-slowly.. maybe i should get msn from them then they could pass it to me.. haha..

end of story. =D

ooh i finally received the photos on CS's bday!

enjoy!


da bday cake!


my luv and me! haha




"fan qie!"







nice nice pics.. how i wish i got a cam too.. hmmm...

hmm.. i went to stay at my cousins hse last week..
went out to jp with them to buy things.. got myself a cute pair of golden shoe..


came home on wed afternoon.. washed clothes and went to meet the girls to buy bday prez..
ate dinner and then shopped for 2 hours.. finally finished gifts shopping at around 9pm..
went home after that..


was slacking at home the whole afternoon on thurs..
while waiting to go sch in the evening, my parents came back home!
they really had a handful of bags.. obviously alot of stuffs were for us too.. haha..
anyway, i got a silk blanket, a pearl necklace, a sliver pair of earrings and 2 bags..
my mother bought a lot of makeup products which i am using.. haha..


fri was attending ibm lesson until 5pm..
dear went home ard 9 plus..
bro came home ard 10plus..


sat dear came over after settling stuffs in camp..
we went to chevron ard 6plus..
cs had lots of relatives and friends came.. and apparently the chalet isnt that big enuff for all of us..
so we just stayed out.. yq n von went off ard 7plus..
out of boredom, we went to the arcade..
had enuff fun of playing so went to find the others sitting at the lobby..
kw ran off.. and then jj joined us.. haha..
well, we then celebrated the bday..
went back to the chalet hse and ate something while watching dan n chinsher playing ps2..
finally took bus home ard 10..



sitting at the bus stop...

today i slept until quite late.. so i met dear ard 2plus to watch 200 pound beauty..
went home after that cos both our parents cooked for us..

wedding dinner was good.. only the fact that i ain't full at all..

and worst is, the faces r familiar.. 'cept for the bride and groom.. total stranger to us..

heres the fotos:





well the food arrived at around 8 plus.. *i was famished!*

and then the usual procedures..
slides, food, slides, food, *yum sheng*, take photos..

took uncle's car to n back from dinner..

after dinner.. waved sjun off at pasir ris park.. shes meeting her frens at fisherman's village..

the parents were worried abt her walking in the dark, so gw and her father went down to check on her..

they saw her and were told to come back haha..

then we went all the way back to the west.. *home sweet home*

am at my cousins' hse now.. so unable to transfer photos..

be back home by tmr..

gw booked out on thurs afternoon..

fri went to eat mac with him opp our hse for lunch and then i went for class until 4.30pm..

after that i met my bro at imm to eat dinner..

we ate at coffee club.. wah i can tell u.. the food there is superb! esp the dessert.. i can still feel the lingering taste of the tiramisu icecream cake and the mudpie in my mouth.. haha..

i strongly recommend this place.. esp in imm one..

shopped until we dropped after dinner.. and then took cab home..

tonight's going to the wedding dinner.. cant wait for the food!

going out first.. bb..

ooh im so excited.. ive got 3 wedding dinners to go in half a year's time..

1 is my mum's cousin on 21st apr.. someone i dunno.. my bro n i supposed to rep my parents while they go china..

2 is kev's sis's.. which is on june/july.. =)

3 is qing ling's in sep.. which is near my bday too! hehe..


i haven really got an evening gown.. the only one i had is the one kev's sis gave me on their cousin's wedding.. and it will be wierd if i wear her evening gown to her wedding rite.. lol

so i guess i need to buy another one..

and a tote bag to go with it..

y dun i ve any proper ones for weddings? -.-


i wonder who else is getting married.. it'll be kinda fun.. haha..

*fhump* *thinking of what to wear now on saturday* *fingers tapping on table*


i always like weddings! LOL.. cos of good food.. and ambience.. unless it sucks la..

speaking of food.. dear nv bring me to the food tasting for his sis's one.. -.- cos he says no more seats..

but he says its good.. nvm i believe him.. those who appreciate food is like that de.. everything also gobble down LOL..

i believe i may appreciate gd food more.. cos i live in a family who noes how to cook good food(except me hahahahaha) =X

neighboorhood sound.. is that what they call?

*sound of drilling**car honking* *car alarm spoil* *cat screeching* *dog barking* *kids screaming* *babies crying* *sound of kids playing* *people talking loudly* *gurung guni shouting* sometimes *sparkles cracking* *planes flying over*

they r wierd sounds to me.. cos i nv actually see them and see what happen..
although ive been hearing them for 22 years, i found them seriously irritating lately..

i swear im gonna find a place next time where its so peaceful that i can sleep soundly.. and without too much sun..

my room is facing the sun.. which is always hot n stuffy.. while my parents' room is cool.. -.-

they always complain when they step into my room.. bcos i ve stayed there for a few years now(was my grandma's) i dun really feel it..

now ive noticed.. its really stuffy in there.. especially in the morning when the sun is strong..

and one thing... my block is so near the opposite block.. my room can be seen from the opposite household.. i swear every nite they could see what im doing already.. i am so paranoid that i always close my curtains in the night, leaving a small opening.. -.-

although i like my house.. i dun like the way it is.. especially my room.. darn..

i got a funny feeling today. not bcos im sick.. haha..


u see, theres this thing with girls that we refused to admit.. we r too emotional and we take it out on the guys who got ??? on their heads everytime it happens..

revengeful girls always try to ignore the men when the guys refuse to admit their faults(of anything LOL)..

but when men neglect the women, its often unintentional...


when guys neglect girls, we feel terrible
on the scale of 1-10, i give it a 9 for gals..
and for guys, i give it 0.. (they dunno what they ve done)


when girls ignore guys, they..
feel something, but dismiss it quick.. i give it a scale for guys of 3
and for girls, i give it 8.. (we often feel guilty abt it LOL)


NB: this doesnt apply to those sensitive guys..


and so..

this concludes that girls r more emotional... and unreasonable.. at times... LOL

but it also bring out the insensitivity in men and totally clueless abt what's happening with their girls..


i can do nth abt this.. so this is what i ve pond abt just in the kitchen(i like to stay there after eating and staring into space)
comment this pls? m i correct?

dear booked out on thurs evening..

i met him after my socie revision in sch.. went home first cos my bag heavy and later on need to go meet his family for dinner..

met him at lakeside and took train to outram to take his sis's car to central mall at clark quay..

ate ramen at a jap restaurant there.. the soup very thick very nice.. and the meat very tender as well..

walked abit and waited for his sis to clean her engagement ring at sookee.. then went home le..


fri got ibm revision..

sch canteen din open on good friday.. mega bites is full of ppl.. so kw me n her frens went to bukit timah hawker to eat.. were rushing cos only got 1 hr lunch break..

went to wait for bus near the mac there.. while on the bus, i saw dear n his fren at the busstop! i din see him and he din see me at the busstop.. only after i boarding the bus then he saw me.. kw saw him too..

happened that dear and frens went to np to play soccer.. and then went to ate at mac.. so was waiting to take bus to clementi..

since i still got 2 more hrs to finish class.. i told him to wait for me.. and then we went back his hse..

played some ps2 games and went home le..


yday i met dear and his frens for dinner cos its his fren's 21st bday..

we went to anchor point(opp ikea) and ate at sakuraya..

was planning to buy cake at first.. then clara told me to buy when we eat halfway.. so went to bengawan solo to get a blackforest cake for the 12 ppl..

there were only 3 girls.. me clara and one's of kev's fren's gf.. well we din noe her so we din talk to her at all..

anyway it was quite fun celebrating 21st bday haha..

after dinner.. the bday boy went to sing ktv wit his frens.. the rest also wanna sing.. i having quite abit of a headache so went home with dear.. he dun sing as well.. end up the rest of the gang went to watch movie..

so thats all for weekends.. =)

OMG.. the link below links to flooble horoscope found in betty's blog..

the description in each signs is really sarcastic and unfortunately true..

here --> http://www.flooble.com/fun/horoscope.php

read it and u know that u cant change urself.. LOL.. and there i was, going "how how ar? so zhun man.." -.-

i would be passing my time away idly for the next 2 more years.. yes, to admit, studying is a waste of time.. u dun really apply most of what u studied to ur career.. it just helped to obtain a stable job.. i keep thinking im going to spend 2 more yrs like that.. the only thing is i will be seeing the usual group of frens in sch for the next 2 yrs..

i am living my life simply and lifeless.. okay la.. i am abit more xinfu cos ive got a partner by my side.. someone that is more than a dear friend.. someone that u can spend ur days with and depend on.. to say it simply.. u exploit him la.. lol.. cos u cant exploit a friend ma.. he he he.. of cos at the same time, he exploits u too =.=

i am so sian now! dun wanna study arh!!!

i M a lazy pig who does nth but eat n sleep the whole day long.. and of cos either play com or watch tv..

everyday i am just waiting.. for dear to book out... i think i am lifeless..



waiting is really xinku.. man..

how i wish he can quickly ORD..



i just came back from his house.. cos i wanted to see him badly.. so i went to find him without telling him =X


counting down to june 2008..

BANG! 1 month down.. 14 more months to go..


*slap self* shaddup and go slp la.. talk so much~ *grumbles*

wanna noe what i ve doing since mock exam?



Nothing...


at all...



Other than the revision starting recently.. i am absolutely slacking all the way.. refusing to study more..

cos i think theres still 1 month more to the final exam and since i ve study enough during mock.. i only need to revise them.. haha..

although i think dear might be right that im having no pimples when im studying.. still.. lz ma.. he he..


well, i am so "free" now i might be able to go out now n then.. if there wasnt for the stupid aircon man to come and fix our broken aircons!!



my windows vista nearly broke down bcos i installed alcohol 120%, but luckily i am able to revive the whole com again.. else games like Sims2, oblivion, civ4, RO would perished from the face of my com together.. whew!

yea that desktop of my bro's, not mine, is for gaming purposes.. so i only use it when i wanna play my game, other than the game that is not compatible with vista.. *sian 1/2*



i think i might wanna start working after final exams and all the way.. cos i would really slack for the 3 whole months not going to sch!

so i was thinking..

if jo going to quit her job, shall we find one together next time? or u planning to do something else le?

well, tell me abt it when i see u online bah.. ja neh~!

Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend

[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

You're so fine
I want you mine
You're so delicious
I think about ya all the time
You're so addictive
Don't you know what I could do to make you feel alright?
(alright alright alright alright)
Don't pretend I think you know I'm damn precious
Hell yeah
I'm a mother fucking princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I'm right
(I'm right I'm right I'm right)

She's like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about!

[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
(and again and again and again)
So come over here, tell me what I want to hear

Better yet make your girlfriend disappear
I don't want to hear you say her name ever again
(And again and again and again!)

She's like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about!

[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
Cause I can, cause I can do it better
There's no other
So when's it gonna sink in
She's so stupid
What the hell were you thinking?

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
Cause I can, cause I can do it better
There's no other
So when's it gonna sink in
She's so stupid
What the hell were you thinking?

[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
No Way No Way...
Hey Hey

okay.. tag game.. i ve been tagged so...

5 things you might not know about me:

1. i refuse to wear bikini cos i am self aware of my own figure..
2. im an extremely boring person..
3. i love to use my computer so much, even if its just clicking rubbish..
4. i think alot but dunno how to convey it well..
5. i can DO stuffs, but lazy to do them.. hehe..


5 following taggers:
1. xiuxian
2. shujun
3. kaiwen
4. jiejin
5. joanne

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its last thurs that xiuxian n yewen came my hse to bbq.. of cos we use my parent's electric grill..

like i say, luckily my mum's not in, else she would xia dao and thought the houses on fire LOL..

ate and clean the kitchen..

i went to bath and we played sims for a while b4 we started on playing monopoly.. had fun(cos i won LOL) cos its been ages since we played monopoly..

mother bought food for us cos papa nv come home to eat.. watched tv n then they went home ard 8+


fri came and i was staying at home trying to install internet and games in my new desktop..

sat - i went to dear's hse and i went down to swim.. after which i bathed, we went to TM to eat ajisen n watched music n lyrics..

sun, mon n today were slacking days.. my bro bought a new game so we played Oblivion together..


oh n i finished watching ai qing mo fa shi le!! nvm bored ppl r like that one.. keep watching tb like me.. hahaha.. =X not that im referring to u all but =X hehe.. bye!

entertainment of the day..

hmm? what is ben doing?


oh it's sunbathing.. haha..


look here and smile!

HaPPy 1 YeAr Anniversary to mY Cutest Kevin!! LOL.. (o.^)

so fast orh.. not too long, not too short too..

although not celebrating today.. but i feel so happy thinking abt the past year we ve been together.. and wishing for more of these years to come =P

just want to say, i am happy to ve found u.. u make my loopholes seem small when im with u.. for these moment, i could really dun care abt my image and be myself.. i love the smiles and even the tears when it comes to you.. although our relationship is simple, i love the simplicity for it is with less worries and less complicated.. just to be with you is all i care about.. *pls be at my side for as long as possible..*

socie finally finished on last wed.. went out with yinghui, william, alvin and his fren.. the girls din come for the mock i think cos din see them.. anyway, i took cab with the girl and william to ps while alvin n yh ride bike there.. found them in the arcade.. went to eat long john for lunch... was hungry after the 3 hrs pp.. walked ard somemore.. after the girl left, the 4 of us went paradiz to play billiard.. of cos i din join, just watched.. was really tired after the pp liao.. so while watching them, i also wanting to sleep ahaha.. they also tired cos the last 2 balls hit until very long.. left the place ard 5 plus.. were initially tryin to wait for 502 home.. then will was meeting his gf ard 7.30pm so had nth to do for the moment.. alvin accompany him.. yh wanted to go for work one but they persuade him to go watch 300 with them so he got urgent leave.. haha.. i just accompany them to buy tix and then we went gelare to eat abit b4 dinner.. after that, i took 502 home for dinner..

then i slack all the way, cos the last mock pp is next wed which is programming.. so leave it to next week to study haha..

sat.. dear came to buy me lunch.. and then we waited for my bro to book out b4 we went to suntec to join my parents to go IT fair.. my cousin was there too cos she needed buy a com too.. ate dinner at surf N turf b4 going to the fair.. bought acer desktop without the monitor(cos resolution not high enuff).. specs quite good though.. was 1699 then after minusing monitor and adding to 2 gb RAM its 1707.. cheap rite.. my cousin went to buy acer laptop haha.. after that we went home already lo.. delivery is on wed..

today went cine with dear to watch 'im a cyborg'.. after that went to walk around taka buy finger food to eat as lunch haha.. walked ard taka to look at shoes n bags.. of cos din get anything lo.. so just went home le.. was planning to take 502 one.. waited for what seems like eternity b4 the bus came n -.- the bus was packed!! so decided to take the train and walked home.. wasted our time man.. shite.. gw was preparing to book in while i reached home so dear waited for him as well so they could take the train together.. well.. thats my day..

1st yr anni is coming but theres nth to celebrate.. lol.. like i say b4, hes not out and im gonna study so.. too bad for me.. although im not sure if its too bad for him not.. haha..

Tata!

mock period.. abit stress.. go out also stress.. haha..

lately went out cos wanna relax.. been cooped in the house for few weeks already.. sat went to marina with dear dear... ate burger king for lunch/dinner around 4?? dunno.. lol then played his DS.. walked more.. and then went to suntec?? i already forgot where we went already lol.. i think we went carrefour.. oh yea suntec.. cos my parents were there booking tickets to go shanghai -.-'' but i din go find them though.. i just noe they r there.. erm.. i think we went home around 9.. me n bro ate a whole roasted chicken that my mum bought in carrefour for supper.. lol.. dear went home around 10 plus..

sunday.. met xx n yw at lot 1.. we were planning to eat suki sushi to celebrate xx's bday.. then ard 2, sj came to join us.. the 5 of us went back to jp.. lol.. and went to delifrance for a really slacking session.. ate fondant and ice cream.. and drank mocha.. after eating the sushi.. very shen qi rite? LOL.. oh why we nv take photo sia?? i long time nv take with u girls liao leh.. aiyo..
while the sisters went home, sj pei us and we went to the comic connection.. nth to look at.. and then went home.. ready to eat another round of good food.. haha.. its amazing my tummy is still that small.. (sheesh..)

oh btw.. psycho pp was fine on last friday.. din really finish in time but overall still satisfied.. but today's stats pp totally suck.. no time to finish the 2 hr paper.. crap la.. then so many dunno how to do.. final pp how?? i hope its easy enough.. like the past yr pp.. haiz.. read the past yr pp also no use sia..

tmr got socie.. and i haven eat lunch yet.. later studying last chap.. dun feel like studying.. lol.. well.. gotta go.. cya..

its amazing how our relationship is reaching 1 yr soon.. what feel like a few months ago that we started it.. we only had a few ups and downs(cos they r abt the same reason) not like major conflict like some couples do.. or maybe its still during the honeymoon period which may last up to 1-2 years i guess.. im not old yet but im not young either.. its time to be thinking abt the future.. i believe u girls r thinking the same way too right.. that horoscope is right, when i found my true love, i will not let go.. sometimes i will start to think abt having a family already.. and having to educate my children make my life happier.. lately, i ve been thinking life is tiring at work or in social life.. which is y u need ur family to support u too..

in the past, i love getting older.. now i want to stop getting old.. but mainly thinking that studying life is the best days in ur entire life.. and the age we r in now suppose to ve the most out of it.. we ve responsibilities as we get old, but right as this age its not to the point that we ve to fulfil those responsibilities.. until we ve our own families.. when we were young, we dun ve the senses yet to make out of the world.. now we do and we ve the choices to do things that we like.. until we ve our own families.. age 18-24 is da best age in our life.. haha.. dun let them go to waste man..

well, time to sleep.. good nite.. =)

Well happy new year everyone..

although its cny, i dun ve the mood and i am so disturbed.. by the fact that i still ve upcoming mock exams and that my bf is still daoing me online.. aniways shall summarize what happen these 2 days..

chuyi.. woke up early by my ssttupiddd bro.. it turned out he wanted to eat breakfast opposite as early as possible, say 8am? -.- anyway, after they came back.. we prepared to go to my grams hse for lunch.. had lunch and play daidee the whole afternoon.. went home ard 4 plus.. and then which my father's side relatives came to bai nian and ve dinner..

chuer.. again, woke up quite early.. but not by my bro.. its bcos we r going to the temple to visit my grams(father's side).. left the haiyin shi ard 11 plus and took a cab down to tampines which my aunt's family live.. had steamboat and played the game where u guessed the total number of dices and then the loser would ve to be hit(by the plastic hand of cos).. this game is shown on scv hosted by xu nai ying and zheng guo cheng(those who ve scv would noe what im talking abt)..

anyway, left the place at 4 plus and took cab to the west.. my father wanted to go home so we took the taxi back home first b4 heading to jp.. its early to go my po po's hse so went jp for a walk.. nth is open.. 'cept for watson, guardian, body shop, toys'rus, mac, pizzahut, delifrance(basically the multinational companies) etc.. went to wait for taxi at the taxi stand to go to my po po's place.. ate dinner at her hse and watched some tv.. and come back around 8 plus le..

shall continue updating tmr.. good nite and gong xi fa cai..

y guys r just insensitive creatures? the book i saw in kino is true.. "its obvious to see that a woman is hurt, but it takes for a slap, some tears or barking to let men noe that they r upset" , "a guy said, i din say anything and yet my wife noes that im upset"

i dun think he even care whether we meet during cny anot.. maybe he can be satisfy with only 1-2 hrs of companionship.. but i cant.. i need plenty of time to be with him.. i rather we not meet up at all if its such a short time.. ok lo... ok what? why not bother at all? why nonchalent attitude? i dun get it at all.. my ex always dunno what im thinking abt.. now i make it clear for dear to noe what im thinking abt and all i get is nothing.. no response.. what am i supposed to do? inside i feel so pent-up and disppointed.. y do i feel like i dun exist? do u even care? u can even criticise me for being too whiny.. i just want u to reply u get it? i feel so helpless.. i dunno what to do.. i need to open up more.. although i dun really need ur reply, i need ur heart to listen what my heart is feeling.. right now, its bleeding.. can u hear it? i always tell myself to give up waiting for ur reply.. but i really want to hear something.. like "hows ur day?" n not "haha" in every sentence u reply..

u dun even communicate with me much on msn when u r at home.. at least a good nite when u offline then i'll noe i stand a place in ur heart.. u r already taking 3/4 of my heart already.. so i hope to gain that too in urs.. sometimes i think i offer too much in this r/s.. but i also tell myself that u too put effort in.. pls make our love continually hoping for everyday.. i am not discourage, i am just disappointed.. u r just like a total different person when u r at home.. i always thought that u r at home, we can talk more.. however thats not the case... i... want to break down already.. pls talk to me..

gong xi fa cai o..

yday, went to jp with mum n dad to continue their nian huo shopping.. ate at crystal jade for dinner.. then papa went to buy his watch at citychain.. headed to liberty after that.. finally went home around 9pm.. the roads linking to my avenue street is jam.. cos alot of ppl is going opp my hse for last min shopping.. i din really notice that my hse there is an attraction until now.. =.=

had no mood to study for the whole of yday and today and the rest of cny.. shall rest until wed and then continue studying again..

met dear, love, dan n yq to go cityhall for shopping.. we went suntec and ate at kfc.. i bought a belt and a blouse at this fashion.. thx to love for her membership card =) wallked for a while and went bugis and which dear left for his cny eve dinner.. waited for yq to get his yusheng and then went kino for a while.. which we went home shortly after..

just finished my sumptous meal.. looking forward for the night and then chuyi and chuer..

again, i wish all a HAPPY CNY!

my hope for vday did come true~! =D

the day b4 vday i was baking cookies with my cousins.. had a nice time baking =) and chitchatting.. and of cos they ve a NICE time playing with the massage chair hor..
my mum came home to supervise the baking(she scared her kitchen tio burnt) lol.. anyway, went to jp after eating dinner.. bought some neccessary items for the cookies.. and me n xx bought a bag each! so happy.. cos ive been looking for cny bag for nearly 2 mths already haha...

received red roses around the mid-morning of vday.. delivery of cos.. and dear booked out for the night.. we went opposite to eat mac for dinner.. wierd hor.. haha.. nvm la.. as long as he's there can le.. he booked in again around 10pm..

nice week.. cos its vday n cny week... LOL ar... mai tok cock liao.. go study.. later going jp for more cny stock up.. :P CIAU..

i found this while looking thru my past posts.. and i realised its mostly accurate for me.. ever since i posted it and its becoming more n more true..


VIRGO WOMAN She will be similar to Leo woman in appearance. A slim woman who walks with confident and proud. She has an egg shape facial structure, high and round forehead. She likes to look straight as if she is searching. She is not a pretentious type and will always say what she thinks.

You will see Virgo woman walks fast. She will try her best to be perfect, to look perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection. She is very delicate of what and how she dress. She is bright and easily despair with obstacles. She likes smart guy who will be compatible with her, so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now.

She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expects respect from her love one. She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate. If she finds her dream man, she will not go away. If she does not like you, she will always keep a certain distant. Act proper and appropriate is her discipline.

She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase. She likes a gentleman who opens the doors for her. She wants to feel protected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a complete woman.

She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well. She can really keep secret, you can trust her on this. She likes a refreshing and a mild scent. She is very delicate in maintaining her beauty, so you could see she is seriously picking soap which match and most suit her skin. Do not comment her on this very picky habits, it is her happiness in working full times as a self beautifier.

She is not an innocent angle for sometimes she can be as tough as steel. Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it. She is a shy type, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even she walks and talks confidently.

She only searches for true love, not just any love. Her love is an ideal one. She likes to think no one is neater and as effective as her, which can irritate you sometimes for there is no such thing. She likes sweet talk, but she can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. When she stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be an angle again. If you have a date with her, you'd better be there on time.

Flowers and sweet word can calm her down. If you want to say sorry, make it brief and straight forward. Do not drag your apologetic words into a long making it up event, it could lead you to another world war. She likes her man to dress nice and clean. She is good in details especially with money. Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny. In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other pretty woman so much. Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much in public, it would not be a proper thing to do. She loves books, stage play and music and likes to criticize about them too.

Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in life starting from your hair, your dress , and the way you talk. If you are in love with her, be as almost perfect as your can.

let me clarify myself again..

if u guys probably dun know or dun understand.. its not by choice that im freaking slow.. im just born to be slow n weak.. which is y i depends on ppl sometimes.. im hurt that my mum actually thinks that i want to be dependent on ppl.. do u know its hard to ask ppl for help? thats its embarrassing? u dun think that i do not want to help too? but everytime i try to help, ppl would just say "nvm la.. u go sit down. leave it to us."

do u noe that feeling when u arent able to help but stand around doing nth? which is y i always offer to wash up after a bbq/clear up the mess or something like that..

and y is it i always go stand ard doing nth when they told me to do so? cos i noe myself well.. its either my assistance to them is a hinder(slow) or make it even worse.. im abit irritated when ppl say, "aiya give it to me la.. im faster lor.."

its forgivable when ppl i dunno too well complain abt me.. but i really hope that u guys understand cos u ve known me for so long already.. i really appreciate u guys for helping me.. i really do.. sometimes u guys r just auto when it comes to me.. LOL like im chan fei or something *okay thats a joke*

do u get now y i cannot drive a car? or ride a bike? or carry a hot soup? or even stand still? its the same logic.. i cannot balance well and my hands r a whole lot shaky than u guys do.. like old ppl sia.. =(

but the best thing that happens to me is that, god gave me something good in return.. which is a guy that truly loves me for who i am, and having a great family and friends around..


sometimes i really do wish that im normal enough.. if ppl see me, they would just see my beauty and not my legs.. darn.. i hate that feeling.. sometimes they just stare at ur leg and u like u r an alien..
and sometimes they just stare at me bcos i walk like an idiot..

which is y my mum always say, "ni mei you she mo yong? ren jia yao kan ni qiang zhuang he jian kang ma.." its not totally her fault when she scolds me.. its just im like that what.. what to do.. its not that i dun wanna eat.. i just cant eat.. *to cousins: diff from minghan hor.. he just dun wanna eat*


i think i blog abt this some time ago.. haha.. cos i rmb what i typed at that time.. aiya, oh and god bless me a fairly good brain as well so i can go study now =.=

i dunno y but i am full of hope for tmr although i know exactly that nothing much will happen.. i keep thinking that alot of surprises will come.. although i know perfectly well that my dear is not a romantic person. and there i am, experiencing my vday(first with him) at home.. the first time thing always matter to me, and somehow theres always barrier to these first-time wishes with him.. my first(with kev) xmas was 2006 and nth really much happen, my first new yr with him was 2007 and although we manage to see the fireworks, i wasnt very much happy cos i wish for something more.. his first bday celebration with me should be him preparing for ndp.. our first yr anniversary should be me studying at hm.. y is there always something obstructing my first-time wishes? i hope for our first time cny together shouldnt be bad n hope that he can see that our first moments together are always not satisfying.. somehow i feel depressing again.. when its time for all this occasions.. nth will change.. nth will change..

i aim on getting 45-50 but somehow i dunno leh.. how to get second upper with scores like that?? *sigh* maybe second lower will do.. how how..

did my ibm paper today.. 7-10pm.. 4 out of 10 qns.. i noe how to do them but somehow my mind keep on forgetting stuff when i studied for 2 weeks liao.. every qn though is only 1 1/2 - 2 pages.. they require us to at least write 5 pages in total to hand in or else not submit it to uol LOL i realised my essay sucks.. i can see ppl writing up to 3 pages per qn sia -.- i forgot lots of stuff which is y the only limited choice was the one i know.. im surprised that my frens noe other qns as well.. lol must be me la.. i just cant memorize leh.. and i just cannot write sophiscated answers.. darn.. gotta learn how to write ar.. just b4 the final, must keep on trying n trying.. thats it liao.. after the whole mock exam im going to do the past yr papers.. that way i can write better answer next time.. haiz.. crap man.. and i ve no practical ans to relate.. my mind was so blank i cant think of a thing.. i think i studied too much without even trying to memorise much.. shite.. aiya this mock exam can pass can le la.. gotta go le.. cya guys.. =)

crap la.. i feel so frustrated rite now.. been studying everyday for 2 whole weeks already.. still got 1 more chap to go.. mon is the mock exam already..

and then dear only can booked out for 1 day.. and that i can only study at home to finish the last chap.. and then as usual he is ultra late when he noes i got dinner later.. so our time is getting shorter this week.. i hate this.. always like that.. i wish he could ord faster..

today's weather is "good".. its so good that its making me dizzy and frustrated.. i cant concentrate on my notes.. maybe i just need to go downstair for fresh air.. wah then that stupid hot weather!! who wanna go under that blazing sun! so im at home, pacing up n down... dunno what to do.. n cos im waiting for dear to come so that i could meet him downstairs..

going to my po po's hse later in the evening for an advance eve dinner haha.. we always "lao yu sheng" so early one.. bro just came back and then gone out for lunch with his frens at pariss international.. =_=''

currently following the current taiwan drama "hua yang shao nian shao nu"... episode 12 is out already n i ve watched it online.. haha.. anyway, its from a manga.. i ve downloaded that manga too.. LOL.. of cos the chars in manga are better looking than the drama characters.. the story got too many flaws already.. imagine they nv saw rui-xi going to the toilet b4.. and its not stated lo.. how could they possible not noticed that she hadnt go in a guy's toilet b4? n the way she talks, walks, basically her actions just tell the audience that shes a girl already.. however theres a few guys, not from the sch, treated her as a girl la.. i mean, if these guys noe, how could the guys in sch not know that shes a girl? ok, enough abt that show le.. wanna find out ar.. then go watch it lo.. haha..

gotta try studying again.. cya guys.. =)

LOL 14 feb is a guy's nightmare.. but a girl also ve to give prez rite? thats the tradition in sg unlike japan.. haha..

aniways, valentines coming, hoping u guys r having a great time on that day itself.. cos i cant =( dear celebrating vday in outfield.. lol.. i celebrating vday by studying at home.. wah piang eh.. =.=

just a thought: the greatest gift on earth for a woman is a guy's thoughtfulness.. ironically, most guys do not ve them. get what i mean? And what guys would like women to ve, is to stop wishing them to ve thoughtfulness.. LOL.. these r actual facts that most men n women cant achieve.. i realised based on this assumptions, conflict on r bound to occur regarding this issue.. im one of those women.. haha.. u girls agree?

oh oh btw... i was going to ask u one qn.. ans me honestly: u think my relationship with kev is going to last forever?

cos i do think many of ur relationships r really going to last.. say like betty, jo n kw.. i just want ur views on mine like how i view urs..

and some future thinking.. after grad, worked for 1-2 yrs, moved out(with the support of my parents of cos, both finance and agreement haha.. i just rmb what my mum agreed)..
however i ve no clue as what i should be working as.. for a start-out experience.. was thinking abt IT personnel.. then again, i refer back to my last attachment and i feel totally disgusted by that idea.. LOL.. since im studying management too.. so i can get a job in HR?? then again, my personality dun suit any of the HR requirements.. i'll be better off in a cubicle with a computer.. im an introvert ma..

speaking of introverts, i often wondered y humans ve to be extroverts? to blend into the environment? cannot be a quiet quiet sort of person meh.. i like being me.. i hate trying to reach out to other ppl.. y be so fake? y r u being someone u r not? just be urself la.. i noe its the society and all.. they dehumanise u.. (sry, using socie term haha) but its just not me man.. ppl r borne to be unique, u cant change them like a leopard cant change its spots.. my point is: y r ppl trying to be nice to others when they dun even want to? oh god.. ibm n socie just went past my mind.. globalisation, personalities.. blah blah.. argh!! i dun wanna to know all that! although i noe exactly y u ve to change.. but i just dun wanna admit change in personalities for the sake of changing! urgh.. y is there societies? LOL i think i studied too much la.. please, if u get what i meant, leave comments.. i noe what i meant.. but do u noe? i ought to be an analyser.. these things goes thru my mind everytime..

n then i'll come to an end.. y is there humans? wahaha.. questions that will nv be solved.. u want solution? just live ur life as it is la.. stop asking qns..

y is there starvation and mass killings in some countries? y arent ppl doing anything? y r ppl bystanding? oh god, societies.. although theres a lot of explanations for those qns.. and these probs r nv ending.. i was watching these clip during socie and psycho lessons.. and man, those r cruelty! there r inequalities everywhere.. ethics problem.. society discriminations.. thousands n thousands of qns that could nv ve solutions! living in singapore is really blissful already.. looked at other countries! we dun ve natural disasters, no bombing or mass killings(well, at least its over).. lack of resources maybe.. cos we dun ve our own ma.. so we survive thru imports.. no mass unemployment which lead to the inability to survive.. politics n economics r controlled by the govt.. what we can only do is to complain our lives in sg could be better! ppl r migrating to other places.. where in fact, theres no other place safer than in SG.. one sgh scholar just died in some country, see what i mean? urm, globalisation starts flooding my head again.. shuddup brain.. im trying to give my pt of view..

in any case.. (i forgot what i was trying to say..) oh yeah.. thinking of these issues, suddenly i want to be a member in the green environmental organisation.. like greenpeace, or the UN(read the goals of the UN, thats just plainly what im talking abt..)

i suddenly get a feel out of all these.. i think its the society education ive been getting.. twisting my mind.. haha.. kk i gotta go..

last sat went to holland v's settlers with dear and his frens. waited for them and went to the nearest hawker to ve lunch. were playing this game abt the first player to get on the boat with all ur tokens wins the game. and then we were playing a dog's life, and lastly, catlan i think.. something abt bulding 8 towers first and u win the game. the first 2 game was really fun, i was getting abit tired so i din concentrate on the third game. anyway, went to bugis after that, which was ard 5 pm.. was abit paiseh looking ard for bags with 3 guys following u ard.. lol.. and luckily got clara, their fren to accompany me too. soon clara left to go for her family dinner. me n dear n his frens went to eat at food court, and then went to the arcade after that.. was there for ard 1 hr plus then dear n i left first.. walked home from lakeside. felt glad cos its been such a long time since we last walked me home.

mon went to sch and then after that ate at mac ard king's albert park. i was taking the 157 home when the guy sitting next to me, ask me abt my bag. haha. and then we chatted. or rather he keep talking.. 20 yrs old, ORD from ns le, currently working at standard chartered, blah blah. anyway, he was going to toh guan rd, so he asked me how to get there. 157 dun go je so i told him to alight somewhere near chinese garden. aiya, wierd fella. lol.

yday was stats last lesson. ended ard 4pm(early rite cos its should be until 4.30). i forgot to register for UOL revision for final exam until wantian told me abt it.. luckily yday was the last day, i think. and kw n her fren were going to register after sch. so i followed her to the lib lo.. i could log in to the eRev system already so i booked my slot first(my course was supposedly to start the day b4 so i can log in already) kw n her fren still cant so they gotta wait until 6 to log in to the eRev. girls, rmb the days when we choose elective in poly? it was also quite late haha.

i went home ard 6.30 so i was trying to coordinate kw's slot with mine haha.. then we realised ibm revision is at night time ='( luckily its only 2 days. i had some slots during the weekends also.. sad.. should ve done it the day b4.. went to clementi first to top up my ezlink and then took 99 home.. reached home ard 8.

aiya dun say liao.. time to study another chap again. GANBATEH!!!

i guess i will start to understand more now.. i ve started to accept things the way they are.. and stop demanding too much.. those r in my new year's resolution anyway..

maybe its bcos my mind is preoccupied with sch rite now that i dun ve much time to think abt other stuffs... haha..

trust, hope and faith is the most impt thing in a relationship.. so my friend, hold on to them =)
and of cos u cannot omit consideration, commitment and compromise..

i cant tell u how.. i can only tell u the terms.. i trust myself with these terms too.. i believe me n dear have most of it.. so im believing in our r/s.. and will nv let go =)

oh another thing.. whenever u ve difficulty in understanding ur partner, always rmb that men and women r different.. so there's not always right or wrong.. forgiving is the best policy.. that way u wont make the both of u upset and irritated.. the sad thing is alot of couples dun realise this.. which is why they often end up separated.. i really do hope ppl who go into a real relationship will be blessed.. im not saying that theres no conflict.. just lesser compiling probs.. bless u guys as well as for me =)

stress~~!

gonna study 3 more chaps this week.. done 1 chap already.. =|

on a lighter note.. dear booked out on tue for a few hours.. my bro also booked out on tue cos he going to cmpb to retake some tests the next day..

so happy =P i came back from sch on tue, and after shower, he called to say he coming my hse..

his com is back here so we played some games haha..

he booked back in ard 9pm.. i'll be seeing u again on sat =p

gw came back ard 10.30pm though so they din meet haha..

wed went meet xx go jp to take my glasses.. gw went cmpb le..

the shop haven open yet so we went to eat lunch and then waited for my bro to join us..

however, xx gotta go meet her fren so left us after gw arrived..

we went to take my specs and then went to billibombers to eat.. not me of cos..

went down to liberty to buy some stuff for his area cleaning.. he used my mum's ntuc voucher so din spend any money... haha..

went home and watched friends.. too bored la.. i just no mood to study although im trying to lol..

around 4pm, my bro booked in.. im alone again until sat =(

today is just going to sch lor.. came back and then too tired to study anymore.. shall study again tmr.. haiz..

im hung on to fahrenheit lately.. lol.. their singing and acting so-so only lar.. but the good thing is i like shuai ges!!! and cos one guy is called yiru wor.. sounds like mine rite.. lol..

欠扁问答题

提问：道明寺有几个兄弟?
答案：到台视 到中视 到华视 跟道明寺(到民视)

提问：什么动物会贴墙？
答案：海豹

提问：小白+小白等于什么?
答案：小白兔(TWO)

提问：什么卡通人物最喜欢帮别人?
答案：小叮当
原因：因为它伸出圆(援)手

提问：谁家没有电话?
答案：天衣，因为天衣无缝(PHONE)

提问：怎样使麻雀安静下来?
答案：压它一下，因为鸦雀无声(压雀无声)

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yeah i feel better le.. thx love..

which is why i went out on sat.. lol...

in the morning went my grams hse for my grandpa's anniversary..

after lunch went to dear's hse to wait for him...

went out again to marina square..
saw a few bags i wanted in tomato can's shop but price abit steep.. so looked ard somemore..

din able to find any other.. went to bugis to look for more..
still din find any likeable bag.. quit n then went jp..

u tot we go shop again rite.. lol.. dear n i joined my family for dinner at swensens..
ate quite alot.. cos i was full since yday night until today haha.. or is it i haven recover? hmm..

anyway, went to walk ard after dinner.. no bags at all in jp =(

finally, came to an optics shop to make a spec, FOR myself not OF myself.. lol..

dear din make any cos levi's one is too ex..

i also find the price high but luckily the woman recommended cheaper ones..

tested my eye degree.. feeling abit blur blur at the end.. and finally got a pair of cheap glasses..

besides i feel abit paiseh.. cos we went in the shop and there they were, serving us, even for my testing.. if we try so long and in the end din buy... i would feel bad.. and they would close the shop already if not for us taking such a hell of a time.. so i just bought the specs, to satisfy myself and to buy something from them.. haha.. yea i look smarter with the specs on.. thats not the real reason la.. LOL.. the reason is i cant read the words my teacher wrote on the board.. surprisingly, my degree remains abt the same despite long hrs of staring at the com..

went home after that..

today is just playing game haha.. and dear came in the evening to pass my bro camo cream and insect repellent.. we had lunch.. played some game and then he booked in le..

next week is studying again.. cya man.. =D

darn.. ate food from outside bought by my mum and got food poisoning or rather indigestion.. vomitted in the mid hours of the night.. then after 1 hr later vomit again..

slpt and tot i was okay after vomiting.. however i felt worse in the morning.. din go to sch on thurs.. miss the morning test lo and ibm revision..

went to see doc around 1pm.. came back and sleep the whole day.. still not feeling very good though..

today feeling alot better after eating the feng sha pills.. i think chinese med is better than western med lo.. -.-

din study for the whole 2 days haiz.. only manage to cover 2 chaps this week.. got 2 more weeks for 5 more chaps.. hmm.. next week jiayou ba.. ciau..

oh god.. im starting to feel the stress even though i haven started studying for the ibm mock exam.. i still can rmb what i study for that recent test so no fear for that chap.. so many things to study within 3 weeks!!! help me man.. KW!! sob sob... stupid nageb only tell us now that mock is coming.. i feel like killing them and then kill myself LOL oh yea.. kill them then no need take exam rite.. y need to kill myself? *bong* anyways, be lazy for this week and start work next week liao.. sianz..

oh man.. ibm mock exam on 12 feb.. so fast.. just when i tot i got a few more weeks to slack.. darn the UOL ppl... and dun they realise its b4 our chinese new year??!! shit man.. on the bright side.. quickly finish ibm and i got 1 less mock to worry abt.. and then happily celebrate cny ma.. although not really.. cos start of mar we'll ve mock exams of other subjects liao.. *meow* sad sia.. and then may got the final year exam.. kw is so lucky to finish her last pp on 22 may while mine is at 30 may sia =( anyway i go slack first b4 next week comes haha.. then its study time liao!

mon go and came back from sch around 2 pm.. did nth the whole day.. except to install my game and try to play it.. finally did able to load the game with my ati driver le.. so happy..

tue - the whole block's electricity was cut off cos they needa to do something with the main power.. i woke up and the only thing i can do is to watch half hour of naruto and my com auto shutdown.. no electric ma then my laptop's batt is half dead.. i played my hp game and i bathe in cold water -.-(forgot that my hse no power for warm water also) ..
i did something after that though.. i played with my make-up kit.. lol... and then i waited to go jp to meet my mum for shopping.. for new year's clothes.. gotten 2 sets of clothes and went home ard 8 pm..

i dunno y im blogging all these when its so unimportant.. i am feeling sian *sigh* argh.. all i can think of is... nothing.. when i am not going sch, i am like a disabled person.. somebody pls bring me out.. sob..

all of a sudden, i feel lonely.. is it bcos i din meet dear today? or is exam coming and i feel stress striking down on me? theres sch tmr again and i dread it.. i dunno y i dread sch.. i guess i fear the loneliness in sch.. and the long bus journey to and fro.. theres really no one to talk in sch now except for kw.. i miss my kevin and my bro.. i want to talk to them so much.. i regret not accompanying my brother b4 he left for tekong again n i regret not going out with darling.. everyday now i wait for weekends to come.. and i wish time would just stop there.. with my beloved n family.. and exam wouldnt come.. i wish dear could faster ord.. i wish to go travelling.. i wish i could be young forever... i wish i would stop hurting myself.. i wish upon a star... omg... depression increasing.. tell me, what is life?

i... am... still... de same.. nth could change my thoughts.. not even my resolution.. damn i really cant stick closely with them.. it takes time and determination.. and my old thinking come back again and again.. it wont just stop.. i guess a person will remain more or less the same, even after 50 yrs down the road.. what.. how now? *saddens* i can imagine what i look like 20 yrs from now.. still the same and there ppl will go "oh hey, u din change abit, din u?" or "y r u always like that?" or "oh my god! Grow up!"

my heart and my behaviour will always remain young, innocent, and childish forever. LOL.

girls i got chevron 3 hrs ktv voucher wor until 20th feb.. of cos only valid during sun-thurs, ph and eve not included..

how ar.. wanna go?

weekends dear came my house to paint the walls of my rooms..

yea i was preparing everything except for the painting cos we haven buy the paint yet.. so went to buy and then started work..

was getting back pain.. i guess its due to the heavy work that i did on sat morning.. moving stuff here n there to make spaces for the painting..

anyways the room is done now except for my puzzle cos i haven nail it up yet.. dear was rushing to go home anyway so din nail it.. shall do it next weekend..

and yay im back in my room typing these out.. prev i was in my living room using the laptop and were sleeping in my bro's room cos he went into confinement(not coming out this weekend)

dear said my room looks like a baby room cos its light yellow =.= whatever it is, i love my room and i love him doing my room for me =P

sch started today again after the long week holiday.. i think i haven recover from the break's mood.. haha.. still dun wanna study leh.. sian..

aiya.. going to do stats assignment later.. blah.. bb..

bro came home on thurs evening and booking in on fri evenin cos he having confinement.. blah.. what stupid thing when its only to go discovery center...

anyway, went to meet kw at orchard at 1.. ate with her at mos burger in taka and then took 190 down to relc.. well just hand in the cheque and form for the exam fee.. relieved finally..

we went down again to far east cos i wanna get my hair cut.. went around looking for good salon with cheap price.. think they r the same though =x sry kw, din noe u were feeling unwell and yet i still make u run around with me.. thought y u were walking slow hmm.. anyway, the hairdresser charge me 20 bucks without washing so thats still okay ba rite? erm.. otherwise its 28.. kinda not worth but then the cut is still okay with me so nth to complain abt.. went home after waiting for kw to buy food at subway for alec..

hmm.. and today gonna start work on my room painting if only dear would arrive early to pei me buy the paint.. anyway, i cleared half the stuff in my room to make way for the painting progress already.. but i did it too early around 8am... haha.. i wonder if ppl would complain.. so i resting a while b4 i continue..

i haven nail the puzzle portrait up the wall yet.. so sry that i cannot get a pic of my wonderful puzzle yet.. hehe.. well gotta go sweep the floor and start with the newspaper cover work.. =P cya man..

on tue dear went to play lan game with his frens until evening then came my hse for dinner...

after dinner, we were swipping the glue on the puzzle to make the effect come out.. 2 layers wor..
and then placed the puzzle onto the frame when its dried.. so cool..

i looked at my beautiful puzzle and dear said we should do it once every year.. *smiles*

we were trying to hammer the nail to the wall but it just wouldnt go in.. guess its brick.. well anyway it was quite late le.. so we stop the hammering in case someone complain.. he then went home to pack for the next morning book-in..

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wed - i was figuring out how to do the damn ibm assignment.. did finish qn 1 n 3.. just couldnt do qn 2!! thats it.. i plagiarised contents found on internet and put in my assignment LOL
          crashed at 12am..

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today was first sch day in 2007.. was feeling so sleepy before psycho class break.. took 20 mins nap during the break and felt better.. but still i wished the class would end faster so it would stop tomenting myself..

met kw for lunch then went for ibm class le.. test was postponed cos he knew we dun want to do test haha.. hand in kw's assignment and got her assignment 1 back.. i din got mine back cos my original class is not on thurs.. so i guess i will ask my fren to get it for me next mon..

well, gotta go relc tmr and hand in the exam fees.. sigh~~ meaning exams coming lo.. go relax first haha.. cya man..

yday dear went for soccer session n i went for dinner with my family in imm's ichiban.. was full after eating so much delicacy.. yummy!

met him 8pm at bugis.. were planning to buy the frame for our puzzle.. walked around and then bought the frame.. went hm after that..

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!!! =D

The last 2 days of 2006 i did finish my puzzle.. haha..

i wont go thru de details on what i did on 2006 but just summarise them..

i started my relationship with my beloved =D last year march..

i graduated from sp last july, sad but fun.. while it last..

i started sch on aug 2006 and met new frens =)

i opened my 21st bday party last yr and i was totally excited! =P

i spent the xmas with frens n dear =P

and the new year with him n cousins(well, sorta) too..

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31st dec 2006,
yday went to eat with my family at boonlay and then wenta meet dear at cityhall..

wenta the esplanade bridge and waited for the first firework
when it started and ended less than 30s later, we were disappointed and then went to walk for a while..
kev's sis, daphne, booked a room at swiss hotel so we went to find her around 11plus
the 12mn firework lasted for around 8 mins.. after which we went home le..
cos too many ppl were coming out from the bridge area haha..

yes love i finished the puzzle liao hehe.. here's the image of it.. soon i'll be able to frame it after i buy the frame =X LOL