Every year, i have no resolution. This year is not going to be exceptional. =P I do not have the will and determination to do something i do not wish to do. LOL. (In other words, thats plain lazy..)

Anyway, heres the photos during xmas that was spent with kevin and his frens at vivo.










Note: The photo with me, kevin and mike is bcos mike is my this yr classmate at SIM also. LOL.

Well, thats xmas.

Anyway, new year eve this gang and me meet up again to have dinner. We walked all over marina square just to find available seats at an available restaurant. Haha. And we ended up in suntec's surf and turf. I ve eaten there once before. But i forgot whether the food there is good or not.

When my chicken came, it doesnt look good(cos it was 3 small portions of chicken). And i had to focus my wholesome energy to cut it. While the others got bigger and sharper (butcher ones, no kidding)knives, i gotten the normal cutlery knife. =.=

Were planning to eat haagen daz after dinner, so we went back to suntec convention. Space was not enuff so we headed to esplanade's. shared 3 scoops with dear, and we managed to finish them at 10.30pm. din went to watch fireworks cos the ppl started to fill the entire place so we fled for our lives first.

Waited for 502 and counted down on the bus. LOL. "Its the company that matters most." =D quoted from betty.

Well, and then school started. And assignments and tests came pouring back in. Urgh.

Anyway, i think no Valentine's for me. Mock exam is around that corner anyway. What I mean is that week. Sucky. =(

Tata!

Hohoho! Merry Xmas! (Well, apart that its 26th now cos i just reached home)

i did last minute shopping for kevin. LOL. not that hes any earlier. Went out with wang to do my xmas shopping. he finished his so hes just accompanying me to walk around. had ichiban for lunch. and den walked everywhere in suntec to find the perfect gifts. if u asked me, i nearly wanted to buy everything. haha. by 3.30pm, found my presents and den we slacked at starbucks till he wenta find his gf. left at 4.30pm.

i went to jp just before going for dinner at my nanny's. met my bro and took cab there (hiking price doesnt hinder us from taking taxi, nono). my uncle drove us to sheng siong for groceries shopping at around westwood and took us home again. fun time hanging out at my nanny's, again.


on the 24th, dear hung out at my place and we played guitar hero and ordered pizza for dinner. he went home around 10plus. i ranged him 5 min before 12am. to countdown. LOL. bloody stupid i noe, but i just love counting down. esp big occasions like this. after which i 'hit' the bed.


today, which is few hrs before, went to meet him and his frens for dinner at vivo. before meeting up with his frens, we walked and walked, trying to find the restaurant. only to realise (when his fren showed us) that we walked past it every round. =.= man.

anyway, had a sumptous meal of fried salmon and sirloin steak (thats his but i kop some hehe). i recommend this restaurant. its called doc-green at level 2 of vivo, next to ljs. price is abit steep but not to the extend of washing the plates for them. haha. though we had salads and soups, we are still not full yet. after some stopping and laughing moments at doc-green, we went to coffee bean. and ooh, mudpie! and the ultimate! well, dear shared the mudcake but drank white choco dream. took photos at the end and we all went home around 11, which explains y i only arrived not long after.


should be watching movie later on. and having sch on thurs, and thurs morning alone! sux eh! well, till then.

struggling over my bloody essay just now. Had to stop doing cos write until my hand hurts. Haha.

So watching sailormoon for the moment.

anyway, last sat i went marina square to watch alvin and the chipmunks. They are so cute! The opening of the show and they started to sing alrdy. LOL. anyway, before the movie we went to eat at carls jnr. my god, i still cant finish the burger. U cant imagine 10 times bigger new york new york's burger/billibomber's are. Manz!

Gg now. Cya! Have a happy hari raya!

Been sick for the past 2 days already. And I skipped school for 2 days, including today.

Guess tmr or friday should be alright alrdy.

Sleep and sleep until my head's going to split open.

I feel abit better now, though still not wanting to go school.

Arf. Sianz.

Yucks, still got assignments that need to be done. ='( Leave it till next week before the break.

The headache wont go awayy.. Sobx.

woo, been watching sailor moon on crunchyroll and playing wii games that i totally forget the time! haha. (I haven forgotten my school and assignments and tests though)

in addition, the weather is really making me mad. when i bring umbrella, it doesnt rain. when i dont, it rained. =.= And it just keep raining, makin me cold.

Well, had a hell of a headache yday. u noe those kind that makes u feel like vomiting? urgh. i slept until 7pm den i felt better.

i hope it doesnt rain today.

Hmm. Short holidays are coming up. Yay! But after that. Well, lets think abt that after the hols! Haha.

Going bath soon. See ya guys!

Major PMS outbreak.

Argh! Hate this period of time.

Xmas is coming again. $$$ flying out soon~

Strictly speaking, its supposed to be fun on christmas. Cos of the mood, i think. But bcos of the crowd gathering in town, it became inaccessible for ppl to have more fun. Restaurants and chalets and everywhere fun in the country is fully booked. That makes less fun for the ppl like us who always do last minute planning.

Haiz.

friday, went to meet cs at plaza sing to have lunch b4 meeting kw to go relc. Kw and von appeared after we finished our meals. windowshopped a little then took 190 to relc. After settling his uni stuff, we went far east to shop. All left around 5plus.

I den went to meet dear at his mrt station b4 taking to bedok to meet the others. Had kfc abit den met them. took bus 40 to dan's for his bday. Cool house, cool desktop and balcony! Haha, if only i have a balcony too.

Yq, von and kw came and left. Den jo and sheng left. Cs and chinsher din come afterall. =.= Kevin and I left around 10pm, cabbed to his house.



Bathed and prepared to leave for expo at 3pm the next day. Wanna go sitex to find computer stuffs that we want to get. Well, in the end, we just gotten the brochures. Walked and watched enchanted at tampines and went home.

and i just missed 2 family dinners which my parents(my father's side) and bro(our nanny's family) went separately for that they happily "brief" me later on. =.= Hungry.

I want to cry when i saw the news abt the death of the 5 rowers of the SDA who died in Cambodia few days ago while having competition.

I heard one of them, Jeremy, was one of our 2nd year student. My friend's friend know him. And im sure kevin, my SIM dragon boat friend, also know him. I saw him looking grief today in school. In fact, im sure everyone is.

They are so young. It could be my friend also. I mean if he join SDA.

Hmm.


Anyway, on a happier thought, my brother came back! And he bought guitar hero for wii today. We also went kino with our parents to buy books yday. It was on 20% off worldwide. Ate at sushi tei for dinner. Super nice. Except for the chatty workers which my mum disliked. Woo, and had Venezula icecream(basement 1) for dessert. Yum!

Last sat, i also went taka with dear to walk around. Stopped in coffee bean to have mudpie and drinks. Continue windowshopping until we went home for dinner. Too tired to walk more. Haha.

=D

Aww i am feeling so bored now. Every single day is like routine-based.

I feel so strangled and restricted by my own stupidity.

I want to find my goal in life. I know it takes trials and time. I want it now. My interest at the moment is 0. Nothing man.

It is often around 25 age and above that you find your goal. Im guessing that age, because that is just when you finish boring school life and starting to explore options and opportunities.

Woof woof. Thats how sian I am now. Haha.


Urm, okay.

I went to westmall after school on Wed afternoon and den met up with chong seng at raffles city to have dinner. Walked around aimlessly at marina square before really going in Sakae sushi. Anyway, we windowshopped and slacked the rest of our time at mac's, drinking iced peach tea. Left at 9pm.


Yesterday and today - accounts test and IS test respectively.

Been formatting my laptop and is still updating. =.= slow com. Cant wait to get a new Mac. LOL.

bye.

friday, cs drove me and betty to geylang district to meet yq and have supper. Had youtiao and dounai. After that, we walked around, trying to find things to eat. Well, somehow we just keep walking. And cs keep going to the loo. Haha.

Finally, drove to changi. We stopped outside changi camp for a while, hmm, watching if the guard can chase us away not. LOL. Anyways, headed on to changi village. They had the red tea thingy dessert. I heard red tea and decided not to buy it. But when i sipped abit of betty's, i change my mind. Took the leftovers instead. Haha.

Saw the pretty "girls", if you noe what i mean. And we just drove round and round the carpark to take a closer look at them. Abit fascinated by their flawlessness and wondered what they really are thinking. LOL.

Thank god, we went home. Haha. I am sensing that cs may not hold it any longer. Not the pee. His alertness to drive. haha. Drift into blank at 3am.

U noe the swill that POW eat? Well, i just had that, in the form of oatmeal, of course.

I am not sick, in case you are asking. I have a swelling ulcer, thats all. Any food that should come in touch with my lips and teeth is way forbidden.


Updates.

Tuesday met up love, jo, kw, sheng and cs for dinner. Went to eat at PS's ajisen. Then went Gelere for a nice waffle dessert. Sat there for quite long. kw left first, then jo n sheng. Betty was copying my poa assignment question to try it herself. Haha. Finally, the 3 of us took 106 home together. Reached home around 12.


Wed - IBM lesson in the afternoon. Did nth much. So played NFS on wii. Not bad. I congratulate myself for winning one drift race.

            Waiting for my bro to come home, so we can go buy more new wii games together (Note: not my money. Why else would i bother waiting for him?). And finally gor taught me how to connect the internet in wii. Thanks man! Been trying that for months already. If only we had the same games, then can play online together!

So exciting. Am waiting for my debit card to arrive too. Wols.


Today, submitted POA assignment. Hmm. Going to play NFS now. Then nap later.

Tmr, may be meeting to eat supper. Look forward to it!

Later!

Hmm.

I have been spending time with myself, kevin and his friends lately.

Its really nth much to update.

Assignments and tests are coming up though.

Dreams are still as disturbing. I would normally wake up and try to remember the 'scenes' and why it happen.

Crunchyroll has been helping me to spend my time away. Haha.

Oh maybe i should start watching Heros too. I love Hiro, the Japanese time-space-changing guy! He's so cute! LOL

Yeap, going to watch it now! Bye.

I had the most uncomfortable dream ever. I cannot tell you how much of the aftereffect i suffer, even as i type.

Its something about my brother, and how i wanna go aust. And something about dear's too, and my cousin and his friend. They linked up but those dont make much of a sense to me. I only recollect that towards the end of my dream, i was looking for someone i love and he was slipping away. Then i was carrying a heavy load of cement, that when it touches water, my bag will become heavier. My search become difficult as i come across an obstacle of water. Someone(s) was looking at me, and gave me advice. But finally, i made it thru, thank god. or i wouldnt have time. (i wonder why?) Then something to announce, but then someone beat me to it. Complicated dream.

P.S.: I was playing Jay chou's latest album at the background. It was worse.


Arh. I have an assignment to finish.

I am quite sure I know how to do, but i dont know where to start the next para. I only written half a page of intro.

Oof.

woohoo.

went to make my dbs moneysmart debit today and open a new ocbc account with monthly savings account!

yea the meagre money i save can help me save more and also stop spending.

hmm. i can also go earn more maybe.

u guys got do bank savings not? as in give u high interest rate one. I only noe ocbc and dbs got monthly savings account. but their p.a. rates is like 1.68 and 0.45. haha. got any better ones?

erm, im going for the 50-150 dollars saving scheme only. if its in thousands, forget it.

How abt proper gaining investments eh?

Oh, should ask more ppl about this.

going to plunge into a deep ocean of bankrupcy, if i dont try to save now. sigh.

It is true that hp is essential in our nowaday life.

Thurs I forgot to bring mine, when i was going to meet justina to bring her the photocopy book she wanted. And when i ended sch late and went to take the book from the library, she was already gone. I only noe that when i called dear (using a friend's hp) to tell his friend to ask his gf. LOL.

kevin booked out on thurs night. So after class on fri noon, i wenta meet him to go ikea to buy things. Bought a box for my stuffs and that matches my bookshelf.

Anyhow, went home feeling a whole lot sleepy.

And ugh, still is now.

haha.

i can never actually believe i would miss my brother, until he went for his 1 month combat training to rockhampton. Along with millions of other NS men.

He used to go aust, but for leisure and school choir. Now he hates it. LOL.

Anw, my parents and i went to send him off on sunday. He lingered around for an hour before he went to join his friends. Not wanting to be left alone when they board the plane, he nv come back to join us after his headcount. Bloody hell, and i was so hungry. =.=

We went to eat at mac after we sent him in the departure hall. And then went to visit the budget terminal. Its really like a big box, and it looks like malacca immigration. Haha. Plus it smells bad. An advice. Never take plane from that terminal. you can die of the bad smell just bcos of waiting.

Long train ride back home. Haiz. Didnt go tamp ikea, or giant as planned. They were too tired.


Oh, and my ordered goods from ikea came yday. love the bookshelf and the comp table v.much. The color matches now, white and beige. Gw keep saying my room is the ugliest. =.= His also okay. Although, his room is kinda blue for bluez. Haha.

I realise my parents room has our rooms' color. mine is beige and wood while gw's blue and they have blue and wood haha.

Oh gg prepare now. Ja nei!

today: i was alone at home so dear asked me to go his house to clean his room. I suggested that weeks ago, haha. His room is really dusty, i can die of suffocation inside. =X

Anyway, i went to his hse to eat lunch and we watched the Rock on SCV and then started on the cleaning.

Basically, he just pushed everything out of the way and i just wipe/wash the dust out of the fans, the table and the computer that he moved from his living room to his own and change his bedsheet. And of cos, it is neater and less dusty now. But somehow, his bro's and sis's stuffs are still in his room which originally make the room messy. If my brother ever try put his unused stuff in my room, i will slap him. Methaphorically. But still of cos, i wouldnt allow that, unless the stuffs benefit me, like a Wii. Oh, but the Wii is mine. Only the games are his.

After the whole dusting process, i waited for him to bath and then went to meet his poly friend at bugis. Oh by the way, they were from the 25 class. We were 1A22, right? Had fun talking about authur poh, our law lecturer, and SP change alot, according to kevin. Haha.

Ate and went to Sim Lim to find some stuffs. I bought a crystal case for my hp. and they got nothing.

Soon we just took train home.

dear booked out on wed evening. The company is giving him 2 days off.

Thurs, went for lesson in the noon. Was so nervous with kw and her friend cos the admin was checking attendence by the door. So we snuck in by the other lecture door. Haha. Just in case you are wondering why, we were crashing class when ours were originally morning class.

After lesson, i went to meet kevin at cityhall. was intending to watch resident evil: extinction with my brother. He booked on thurs morning too. Went to buy the 7.15pm tix while i saw gw with his frens at the arcade. dear and i went to eat at la mian xiao long bao for lunch/dinner. Walked around everywhere to kill time. Then waited for my bro at the cinema around 7pm.

Finally, we left the place around 9pm to go home.


Today, just went to school in the morning. And then, while dear went to sp with his ns friend (dont ask me why), i went to meet gw for lunch at imm. Had lunch in ajisen and then walked around, buying abit of things that interested us. Luckily didnt really spend alot. Anyway, cabbed home soon after eating cheesecake at secret receipe.

Photos received today from kevin's friends!

These are only with me and dear inside. Haha. Cos we went to the beach, so didnt take alot. =P

Clara is the girl with short hair.

I just came back from school, as usual.

Lemme update the few days of the last weekend.

Friday, went to school and back. My bro came home around 4plus.

Hmm. Saturday was Hari Raya and so my family and I went to Ikea around 1plus pm to look for cupboards and table. We looked around, scouting for pretty ones and ones to fit perfectly in my room. Settled lunch at the food place, much like a canteen. My brother and father ordered plenty of chicken wings, which i only had one, and other desserts. After eating, we continued to look through the whole areas that was written either tables or rooms. Found some but I wasnt too happy with them. Well, at least they can fit in my room. Quite nice, actually. But because my room has a stupid aircon wireboard at the corner, it is impossible to get a corner desk. Sadly, those are the prettier design that I preferred. Did get a table and a book shelf though. Both white to suit my room. Haha.

Anyway, I scooted off around 6plus to find kevin at his mrt station. We were heading to clara's bday chalet. And we are the first ones to arrive around 7 plus. Two of his friends are already there so we just talked to them. After the rest arrived and ate, we played bridge. It is really complicated. But like I told them, once you know how to play Jacks, you can get the jiff of Bridge. Gw taught me and my mum how to play Jacks. Its all about strategy. However you need 4 ppl to play in bridge. its like a partner game.

Anyway, after that, we hung around taking photos and singing bday songs before running off to the beach alone. Gotten back around midnight. Alot of already left, except for the friends. We came back and again, went to the beach, but this time with his friends. Its because clara's father's friends had not left yet, hence the supposedly "mahjong table" is not available.

Sat at this big area. Theres this scary indian man, we thought that hes drunk, was singing and dancing. He then approached us and asked if we heard this song before. Hes actually quite good in singing chinese song. Haha. Anw, he left us alone after we ignored him. Then they started to talk about resident evil, the movie and the game. My brother and I bought the Wii game, so i get what they are talking about.

Dear and I were supposed to head back to his house, but Clara was persuading us to stay, saying one of the two rooms are specially reserved for the friends. We decided to stay then. They came back and started to play mahjong. Dear drifted off to dreamland immediately. I watched them play before sleeping on the other bed at 3plus am. Woke up again soon only to find the room extremely cold to stay in. I went out for awhile, finding the place to be pitch black. =.= So i went back in the room again. Clara was sleeping in my position and they werent finish yet. I watched them for a while and went to sleep beside Clara.

Finally waking up around, im guessing, 8.30am. Washed up abit and left. Cabbed to his house then. Ate brunch that his mum cooked. And went to nap until 4+pm. Wow, rite. Haha. I didnt expect myself to sleep that much. I bathed and waited for dinner. We were going to changi safra resort to eat at Jumbo seafood restaurant. The crabs were good. Fish and other dishes were delicious as well. They suited my taste, haha. His brother sent us to the mrt station after dinner.

I slept once I changed out of my 2 days clothes. Haha.

Latest photos below:

I am feeling so so so lethargic right now. Still am, after a nap, before getting woke up by a phone ring.

Yawns.

And I hate myself for spending so much recently. The money I am saving up, are almost gone. Well, half gone.

I need a job. But i can only start next year when my next sch semester has lesser lessons.

I am thoroughly weak. I cant lift my arms properly. Urgh.

And Eve's 21st birthday? She expects everyone to wear swim suit. Which is why I am desperately trying to lose my flabs.

Thats pretty much about my life.

Oh boyfriend? Still going well, I guess. I dont know. My mood swings coming back.

And oh yes, my brother is going to Wallaby like everyone else too. For a month. Then India. For 3 weeks.

Fortunately, kevin only has to go India. Hoping the plan will not change, and tell me opps hes gonna go aussie as well! =.=

I am still brooding about my money thingy.

Sigh.

HuuL-Loooo.

What a day huh.

Friday was hanging out with the girls at pastaCafe. And mahjong till dawn. I lost and cabbed home.

Saturday - I slept until 2pm. Met dear 7pm at his station and then meet up betty at pasir ris. Went to sheng's party at Aranda. Played poker and mahjong. Left around 1.30am and slept at kevin's.

Sunday - I came home. Watched Ugly Betty.


Oh by the way, I got headache since yesterday. Its fine this morning after taking the panadols.

geez. Think positively. Think positively.

I dont think guys seem to realise that girls are becoming women day by day, while they are just at a stand still. In terms of EQ and thoughts.

I had just watched this pathetic jap show.

This independent woman refuses to show her weaknesses to anyone until one day she found an injured boy, who remained her pet ever since, so as to live with her. The pet was there when she come home, he was there when she feels at her worse, he was there all the time to support her. In exchange, the woman fed him, bathed him (shampoo his hair), and let him stay. She needed him and he loved to support her as a pet. Soon they developed a very close bond for each other. The woman refused to open up even her boyfriend. In the end, her bf found out about her pet and dumped her, unable to accept the truth.

Her psychology doctor says its impossible to love unconditionally. She can never love a human properly. But a pet can, because it'd give its love willingly.

Well, the drama ends with the boy and the woman falling in love, and still staying together.

If you dont mind watching this jap drama, its called kimi wa petto. I found it under crunchyroll.


While watching the show, I swear I wish I could have a human pet too. Someone who gets your attention, listens to you, hug you when you cry, play with you, and stay by your side constantly.

Someday, I should really own a dog.

thurs morning went to sch for POA lesson..

We ended early around 11plus am. but bcos of the bus, we reached town around 12 plus.

kw was meeting von and i was meeting betty at orchard, so i went with kw to food republic to eat lunch first, while they came later to join us.

We then went shopping at wisma for a while. Stepped inside sasa and i bought curlers.

Love and I got some drink and we went Isetan private sales. Yvonne gave us her card and voucher to get us in. Haha.

Anyway, i only managed to get 1 top for myself. And while picking out A|X clothes for dear, kw n von went off first.

Love and i finally left Isetan and got a milk tea at MOS burger and drank at the sidewalk. LOL

After which we went home. I took 502 home while betty went to meet dan.

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Today, met dear to go watch Chuck and Larry. Did not manage to reach Lido already to catch it so we went PS's GV instead. Ate lunch and went in.

After the show, we strolled back to orchard to look for his clothes.

Finally, he gotten 2 pairs of shorts at Giordano and a pair of Ripcurl slippers.

Ate at mac and gone home.

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I am finishing my first book i bought last week its called "the secret diary of miranda cheever". If you are, like me, into old days novels, the 1800s love story should be recommended to you.

I realised that im the "little woman", cos i love this kind of romance story.

The girl, or rather woman whom she later become, is rather an intelligent woman, who is in love with her best friend's brother.
He was a windower, and was afraid to get married again after his dead wife's scandal.

The story should end well. Excuse me, for i haven finish the book yet. It is really a good book.

hmm. the pictures taken on sunday makes me look like i had a bad hair day. So no picture of me. Haha

Anw, lets begin from saturday again.

I went to dear's around 1plus pm. His friends came later on to play mahjong. I watched them play until evening, when we going out to settle for dinner.

Left and went to plaza sing. Ate at kopitiam there, and went to play pool opps. mind's cafe. Was actually wanting to watch Chuck and Larry for the night but it was fully booked and the later slot was at 12midnight. Went to mind's cafe instead. And again, because it was Saturday night, the place is packed. So we ended up stranded opposite. And thus went to play pool.

Left around 12plus am. Was tired but fun. Cabbed to his house and i bathed first before sleeping.


Ate brunch in the morning before leaving. The girls were coming at 2pm so I had to hurry.

Arrived home with kevin around 2.20pm but they werent there yet. Whew. Haha.

Shortly after, betty and jo showed up. And the fun began! We tried to choose our nail polish designs and eat moon cakes! LOL. Thats when jj arrived too. Buffered nails and whatnot. Then we started on base coat, layerings and waited. Oh jo the master was the one putting designs on. So, she did hers while we were still waiting for our layerings to dry. And then she did mine and betty and JJ. Finally polished on the top coat and waited.

Outcomes were these:



Thats betty's design.
Pretty, right?
Not bad for jj as well =D
Last not least, mine!


Okay, so we were finally done. Ate dinner thereafter. Had a full dinner cooked by my parents. After which, we played Wii! It was fun and exciting that we were all exhausted by 9pm. Haha. So they left. Dear went home not long after they went home.

And there you are, my weekends are burned out!

Alright, I cant possibly post so many photos here in the blog.

Recent uploaded photos at the wedding dinner and my cousins.

So heres the link to Flickr to view them!

going to school later. thought i can post something abt yesterday's event.

Hmm. Saturday - meet dear at cityhall to go glutton bay to have dinner. wanted to watch a movie at first, but decided it was too late so we took 502 home. He stayed for the night.

Woke up quite early on Sunday to go for qing ling's tea ceremony. Dear shared a cab with us cos my father din go. We dropped him off at bedok mrt and then continue to my aunt's shop.

We managed to catch the groom standing out the flat, doing the essential "b4 pick-up bride" antics.

We went in finally, after the groom, haha. And watched the rest of the fun parts. The couple left for the groom's hse while we stayed and waited for them to come back for the tea ceremony.

While abit bored, we played cards that we ve brought, and watched the first segment of the slides, to be shown later at the evening dinner.

The couple came back for the tea ceremony and den we ate after "greeting" the newly wedded.

After they left, so did we. Went home again by cab. I tried to nap abit before the evening.

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Oh weell, i ve to get prepared for sch now. Update again when i come back later. cya guys.

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Bathed and prepared for the dinner. Thought we were late, but we were quite early. My cousins werent there yet. As the bride and groom came in, sj also came in... fashionably late. LOL. She didnt know the dinner was starting earlier than expected.

Well, we had watched the first part of the slide show but my cousins psychoed the bride's brother(our cousin too) to put in as 2nd part of the morning's pics as well.

Anyway, had dinner and left around 10plus. Called a cab cos gw thought hes gonna be late for camp. Reached home at 11plus.

Shall post up pictures later when my cousin send me hers. =)

Just woke up from an un-enough sleep.

Y'day i woke up at 9am, although my lesson was at 3.30pm, 'cos the bloody construction was going on first thing in the morning!

So i manage to stay alert for the first half of my lecture. Had break only at 5plus. The hunger pang has already started, way before break time.

Ate little bit, and felt concentration slipping during the next half of the lecture. Was falling to blank expression, even as my lecturer made us laugh.

I am famous for "sleeping beauty" amongst my friends. I tried hard not to get the similar name again as last yr. Haha.

Okay, lesson over and i took 74 to dover to meet my cousins.

Gw was late as well, so i just met him at raffles, on the way to somerset.

Had dinner in NYDC. Slack there until 10plus and went to kbox at the 4th level. Package was from 11-4am.

I wasnt feeling fantastic after the class, so i stoned in there.

we finally got out of there at 4. to be honest, i was so uncomfortable that i wished i wasnt there.

As we sat down at coffee club, i became better.

Left at 6am. While gw took a train back to camp, the 4 of us shared a cab home.

Home sweet home. Until my mum says my dad is angry with us for staying out. Well, hmm.

Slept until now.

Still feeling groggy. Maybe going out later. Cya guys.

2nd day in school.

12 till 6.30pm worth of listening. Man, and im hungry every hour! The last cheese cake is eaten up by my friend! Kaiwen! Cheesecake sia! (Not that im saying its her.)

Tmr lesson is at 8.30am. Man. So early. Lately, i have been trying to get up around 9am, but i still get very tired.

Oh, and my guy friends are back! im sticking to them 3 days a week now. (1 day no sch, the other day is different module from them) Not seeing angie and eve in any of my class anymore, but do see them occasionally though. Eve dont seem friendly. Or she just never see me? But angie always does what. Hmm.

Looking forward to this weekend. =)

Think im sleeping early today. Nites.

shall update abit..

Yesterday i went dear's house before going to his friend's birthday dinner at Kushin Bowl in Suntec. Were so full that i felt sleepy the whole nght. Didnt manage to plan where to go after the dinner, so me and him headed back to his house.

Well, after brunch at his house this morning, we went off. Took train and he alighted first at Tiong, meeting his friends for soccer, while I went jp to find my brother. And only to find him having lunch at Ichiban. -.- Walked around JP. And then looking for my birthday present which he promised to buy for me. Gotten myself a converse bag for school. Yeah, thats my prez. Went down to see Baleno selling Coka Cola printed tees so wenta try them out. Gw brought 2 while i get none. Then cabbed home.

Well, heres the latest photos.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/meltinchocos/

Fear suddenly surrounds me, after yesterday night's dream. I am feeling so uneasy now. I dont know how to describe that overwhelming feeling.

I mis-picture the image of me and kevin. Its replaced by somebody else. Or something else. Some things are missing. I dont know why but its hallow. I dont know how to make these feelings go away.

The vivid dream grip me, refuse to let me go. Make it stop.

It dawn on me that I need a hug, telling me everythings going to be alright.

Sob.

Arguements always make it harder for me to sleep, or dont sleep well at night or have bad dreams.

I awaken myself yesterday night because i dreamt of something bad. I dreamt that my bf was ultra mean to me and when i wake up i thought of the dream so much that i wonder if i ever been in that scene before.

I slept again only to find myself in another bf n me dream. This is terrible! I regret thinking so much before sleeping. I hate to say this but this is always the man I dream of when I have bad tiff with my bf. Think they are somehow link. Urgh!

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I am seriously convinced that i was a evil demon master in my past life. I was hauled down to the lowest level of hell after death, but heaven gave me a chance to repent, so recarnated to me here in this life.

They gave me a frail body so i would not have the strength to fight again. And a simple mind, so i wouldnt think of killing the whole world. Last but not least, a lack of communication skills make me incapable of persuading any armys/followers to be my minions. So they made me a simple girl, who will only have her family and friends to think of.

They say its okay if u r weak, just be thankful that u r strong in mind. What load of crap! I have nth good in me okay?

I say it is punishment for my past life. But I have to know what sins i committed before i can repent!

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Remember my dream about home-made soup? Well, you should have seen the surprise look on my face when i received the home-made brownies today. LOL

I now then linked it with my dream though. Hehe.


Yesterday, was supposed to meet dear 1.15pm at orchard, and i was late half hour. Well he still waited for 15 mins though.

My bro and i went out together, so i alighted first with kevin at somerset while he continued to orchard. We went to watch Evans Almighty at cineleisure. Windowshopped around after that at cine and Heerens. Then we headed towards Taka to shop around. And he asked me what I wanted. Kinda expected from him not to buy my present yet. Not angry though. Just abit annoyed. We went around taka and finally sat down at coffee bean. There i finally decided to get a bag. Had a long rest at the coffee bean and then we set off in search for my present.

Got in Guess and finally set my eyes on one of the bags there. Still i wanted to walk around, searching for better ones. Went to Wisma's Isetan and still got hung on the Guess bag. Lastly, gotten my bag! Smiled widely at dear, hinting that i love his present and a big thank you. =P We de-routed to popular to get him his headset and then went home around 8pm plus. He hinted a surprise yet still to come. I just love surprises! =D And waited patiently for the next day.

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Today is daphne's housewarming and its also my birthday eve. Met dear at outram and he told me he would be picking me up in a cab. So went out and this time he is late for 25 mins. But i dont care. How gracious am i. Finally the cab arrived, and he handed me a bouquet of pink turlips once i got in. The taxi driver, wierdly, gave me a smile too. Apparently, kevin went to pick the flowers before coming to fetch me. Along the way to daphne's house, that was when he shoved me a plate of brownies, covered in alum and plastic bag of course. How stunned and dreamy! And honestly? I love it!

We reached kaifeng's place and they started to make "fun" of my flowers and brownies. =P Like when Im supposed to get daphne and kaifeng something, but instead the bouquet in my hands are mine. LOL. I laughed nevertheless and shamelessly.

Soon, we forgot about the turlips and checked out the place. The new furnitures in place of the spaces I saw last time were the dining tables and chairs, sofa set, nice-comfort bed, the "gym" room and the computer/store room. And of course the buffet table. Haha. Ate alot of food. Had a small cup of plain yoghurt at the end. Man, how sour is that thing! Its from australia and a friend gave 2 tubs to daphne. While eating the yoghurt, kaifeng switched on the recorded final rounds of superstar for us to watch. Dont mind me for the mockery of the contestants, but they are really young and dont sing well! Its a wonder that Shawn can win the crown.

After the show, relatives started to go. The immediate family were the last to leave. Left to take taxi with his parents to the outram MRT and from there, we took a train back my home. We were too full from the buffet so i ate after kevin booked in at 8pm. I promised to eat dinner cos of the chilli crabs and the curry fish. Yummy! My brother is right about having nice food this week. Haha. (Thats because he'll be leaving for Tekong next week =| )


What a wonderful weekend! Super loving it, the people celebrating with me and the gifts and dinners!! Hehe. Cya for now.

okay i think i better post something.

Lets see.

Nothing really happen. Oh, except that I spend yday shopping with my bro at VivoCity. Yes, crazy crazy!

We went around looking for the evening dress to my cousin's wedding. Well, stopped in PK comp to buy some games. Next, would be the bookstore, where i picked out UK cosmo and hes gotten a piano score.

Lastly, before meeting my parents for dinner, we went in GAP. Yes, we bought our stuff. And an angmoh, who was in front of us, spend 400 dollars worth of clothes! For the kids to wear after school and go out! So after leaving, they went changing already. How rich are they!

Anyway, gw and i took train back to lakeside, waiting for our parents to pick us up to tong le. Ate a full buffet there. So worth it and its quite cheap too! We ordered almost everything on the buffet menu. Haha.

You can almost see me smiling from end to end. Been a great day so far. =)

Its been raining nonstop today. Kev and i planned to go out but the rain just wont stop!

By the by, his knee is still hurting, so theres no way we can go out.

Oh my brother booked out yday and we went jp to buy him a wallet and groceries. Today he made breakfast for us and booked in around 3 plus.

Been playing new game. And still watching Friends.

1 week left.

Oh, I had just the most romantic dream ever!

There were 2 seperate dreams.

The first was something about a mistaken the guy that i like falling for another girl, btw, who also steals. That guy was in fact liking me. I didnt know, but cried horribly and ran away, and woke up. I thought i was drowned by my own tears, but my eyes werent wet, so i went back to sleep.

The 2nd dream was about my birthday. Some guy, supposedly my bf, and i were at this restaurant, eating. He suddenly motioned to the waiters to bring out something. There it was, the soup he made, some desserts and a birthday cake! While i drank the love soup, he sang to me. Totally mesmerised in that scene!

The rest was dumb already, like inviting my cousins to drink the soup as well. I mean, what was that? That was my love soup, dont you touch, sj! LOL

I am sorry but i was already trying not to remind everyone about my upcoming birthday and i just cant help it. 'Cause no one seems to be excited about it, except for me. I thought you guys have forgotten it.

Oh, maybe thats why i ve gotten that dream. In addition with every girl's dream. Be treated like a princess, and have a romantic evening. =D Im sorry but this is what i always dream of!

Haha. Ciau.

Honestly, when I saw the name in the post i have suggested for our group blog, and when i know i didnt really have a cool name for mine, so i tried back this blog address.

And that is when i found a perfect blogskin for this name too. Haha.

Ooh, yum. I could have eaten the chocs from my blog. Starving now.

Plopped in some theme song and there you are, my "personal" blog with the "personal" blog address.

Well, actually i was going with meltingChocos. Unfortunately, its not available.

And whom might I do know or not know, read this blog too? Kinda freak me out, so its just time to change one.

Time for dinner.

VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.

Urgh!

I do not want to sleep. Neither do I know what to do now. I have been watching Friends for the entire day now. Getting kinda sick.

Good news is my mum brought home new korean drama from her colleague.

What I can do now is to type away on this blog.

How slow my time is, when I am not doing anything. And just when I thought I watched a dozen episodes already. It is still only Tuesday. How pathetic am I?

I swear I am going shopping this weekend.

The thing I was maybe looking for, is for someone to hang out with me, nice afternoon at my house playing Wii, drink some coffee and play some poker or boardgames together. I think I can only do that when I retire of old age.

Haha. To think I want this kind of life when I am so free right now. And the irony thing is? No one to spend my days with now!

And how stupid I am, organising my own birthday gathering, when at the same time, I am doing it for other people's too! I have been the middle man since, like forever. So when theres a gathering, Im definitely there. Why? 'Cause Im the one asking people out! I am trying to complain here so people would take a look at my perspective. I am trying so hard that for a while it dawns on me that Im doing my own birthday too! Abit of help here please?

I hate the fact that i am trying to be a socially person, when in fact i am not at all, ever since i was a kid. I opened up when i started poly. You see where im going with my point? I dont like the times where people starts to make fun of me 'cause I instinctively become a clown outside. I wanted to control that, believe me. Maybe its the person im trying so hard to become, you know.

Oh here comes the angry me. Gotta go cool it down. So see ya.

It is only tuesday. For the love of god.

It is still 2 weeks before my birthday. 22nd birthday is not a big word. I dont see the rest complain. 03/09/07. Nope. 03/09/08. No. Oh a good day would be 030939, which is 32 years later? Hahaha. =|

I cant get a few new girlfriends in school. I cant seem to find. Cos most of them are bimbos? =X I dont know why but my still best gfs are my poly gfs. =D

Oh the weathers getting to me. I remembered when I was in my sec sch days, I walked from school from the bus stop, and it rained heavily. I just want to stand there, being drenched. Its romantic, and I dont think as much. So i just dragged myself all the way home, hoping the heavy rain wouldnt stop or get smaller. Its fun. Well, for ppl who likes rain i mean. Haha.

Oh, piano time.

i just love jiayan's nick: a man must always put his wife before him

I guess its that time of the month again.

Hence, mood swings. =( Unsolved problems and whinings make it worse.

Hmm. Maybe I frequently blog. Thus if I wanted to stop for even 1 week is kinda difficult, cos I m not used to not blogging already. Haha.

Anyway, thanks to my dearest viewers for concerning about me. I am fine. =) Homones acting up as usual.

I bought a new slippers few days ago. Didnt have the chance to show off yet.

Been watching desperate housewives season 3 for a few days now. The plot getting abit off though. Season 1 was still de best.

Been continuing some piano lessons at home. Self-learnt. Ive been learning how to use both hands. Crap. They are not cooperating. Meanwhile my hand-eye coordination with the notes is still as tedious as ever. Gosh I wish I didnt quit piano when I was young.

Homey me has been at home, watching tv and practising piano.

1 more month still school starts.

Hugh Grant - Way Back Into Love lyrics

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Oh oh oh

Okay fine. Since I'm up already, might as well blog abit more.

I am being doped by love. I am engulfed by it and dont know how to get out of it alive. When I always try to escape, I'd end up getting burned. I really dont know what I should do now. Whatever decision I make, however I make it, seems to be wrong. Someone is always guiding me along. You know who you are. =)

I feel like msning to someone but no one is online at this hour of the night. Massive of alone I suddenly felt. It feels like I almost recognise no one. Total failure. Again.

I'm sorry that no one knows what I'm rattling about. It will help alot if someone would ask. It wouldnt help if someone ask on the blog.

I am seeing through things and yet I dont wish to see through what I am seeing through.

Arh, what a "beautiful" world it is.

Insomnia or Oversleep?

Sigh.

Pics of the day.

Until i ve received all photos taken on last sat, i will not upload any pics yet.

Saturday, I met the guys and girls for a nice lunch at sakae sushi in bugis. We ate until 3 plus den we left. Decided finally to go play pool at the pool center near ThisFashion. Kw, joanne, sheng and I watched betty and dan played while yq and von went to buy something. They joined us later but then joanne, weisheng and kw are leaving for the NDP rehearsal already. I left soon too to go find dear. And look at the poor boy! He got some serious flu going. Well, we watched Alexander and then prepared to go out and have some dinner. Went Kallang to ate at some random hawker. We then walked to the park, trying to wait for fireworks. Somehow I know there wasnt going to be any, but I just wanna go to the park. Anyway, called kw to ask her if got fireworks not. She said they went off early cos theres nth much to look at. Okay. And so we went home.

I bathed and prepared to go to dear's hse again on Sunday. I brought my Wii remote and NeedForSpeed along. We played Wii the whole afternoon. They have more games than I do, cos theirs is the jap modified version and so they can use pirated games. Hmm, auntie told me we are going Swensens to celebrate dears bday! Happy is me! Although its not my bday =X Around 6plus, we left for bugis while daphne and kaifeng arrived later. Had steak for dinner. My portion is so little that I had to snitch some fries off kevin's plate. Anyway, he gotten a Fossil watch from his sis and her hubby. The look on his face is priceless. LOL (Not to say that his watch has more functions than the fossil watch he bought me last bday.) Laughed as we picked his brain, Haha. Left for home after we finished the dinner. Ooh, and I gotten my sunglasses at last. Ive been pining for it since the last time it didnt ve stock. ^.^

Hmm. Didnt go anywhere yday.

My bro booked out yday evening. So today went to Imm for lunch at Ajisen. Guess what he bought? Oh, a woofer. Home audio system, in long. Got it at a member price at challenger cos our father's a member. After that, he wanted to make contact lenses with the NDP voucher at the specs hut. Waited and then we went to coffee club for some dessert and drinks. Cabbed home after that. Came home not long ago from the macs opp our house.

Ciau. =D

heres ones of my best pictures.

and they are taken in vivocity.

 


I love the above 2 pictures! =D


The water art outside carls jr.

Last thurs - I went out with dear when he booked out. erm. To bugis I think. Haha. Ate dinner in er.. oh. system crash.

Restarting. Well theres no system restore so lets continue.

Stayed at home for the whole of friday.

Hm. Yeah Saturday too.

Sunday. Relatives, relatives alert! Oh its been a long time since they came. Well, anyway, after dinner, my bro, mum, cousin and I went JP for the sake of buying game and to return a book. My cuz went to get a new hippy specs while my brother and I went comics connection and bought Need for Speed Carbon for Wii. Passed the next hour at Kopitiam, while our cuz nagged about her new job. Haha. One of her colleagues need slapping. LOL. Last stop was the library and we took a cab home.

Monday. Dear booked out and came my house to bath before we gone to watch The Simpsons. Its a Monday so Vivocity wasnt as crowded as before. And partially, the new phase is gone. Bought tickets and watched comfortably in a big theatre-look-alike-musical-concert. Hah funny. And we laughed about the movie after that, as always. Saw clara on the way home. Funny that shes meeting wilson, kev's friend, at their own train station to go home together. (Something fishy around here. Hmm.)

Tue. Oh no. Was Vivocity monday or tues? Huh?

Wed. Watched another korean drama. My mum borrowed from her colleagues. Its My Girl.

To-day. Finishing the drama. I downloaded 2 HK series too. Able to last me a few days I guess. Haha.

Looking forward to school and my results. I am confident of them. Smiles.

The only problem is I haven't get what I want yet.

I know what I want but I haven't try receiving it yet. And what I need is so important.

If only you know.

I will start to stop giving now. And ask for more instead.

If only you know.

Quotes 4:

Intimidation always weaken trust in a relationship.To muscle your way into getting what you want by making others look wrong is a sure way to fail in a relationship.

Many believes if one keep sleeping too much, one will want to sleep more. I guess its true for me. I have been waking up in the morning around 10-11 am, and still not wanting to get out of bed.

And I dwell on the whole day for not sleeping enough. Feeling tired, I shake out of it by telling myself that I have enough sleep already.

God knows whether its a symptom for undesirable illness. *Touch wood* Or maybe I coop in too long. Haha.

How I really wish, school is here again.


I finished Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows yesterday. Expected ending, although unexpected deaths and twist in the story. Wont tell =X. Dont wanna be a spoiler. When I went out with my brother last week, some kid nearly revealed the story on the train. He wanted to beat the crap out of him with the book in his hand. LOL. Gw bought the book on sunday while I read the e-book. I guessed I finished reading earlier 'cos he dont have much time to finish it yet.


Anyway, updates.

Erm. Went out with my mum and bro on last sun to eat dinner at JP's fish n co.. Bought harry potter 7th book and house of the dead 3 for pc. We went home and I started on my e-book.

Mon - Arranged to meet dear and bro to watch goal2 at cathay cineleisure. I haven watch goal but both of them had. Btw, goal is about soccer. And you can imagine the lead playing the match with beckham and team against arsenal and whatever big names in the football arena. Walked around cineleisure after the movie. gw bought a game magazine and kev bought his DS skin. Took train until clementi while we planned to search for game shops. Apparently the shops has closed. Disappointed and tired, for we walked quite long to the destination, we finally hailed a cab home.

Dear went home quite early yesterday. Met him for dinner at cityhall. Ate at glutton's bay. Took 960 to bugis and shopped at SIM LIM. He got CS pc game. We walked back to bugis junction and started to look at bags along the way. Tore my eyes from the bags finally and went into fox ladies. Didnt buy anything though. Windowshopped somemore before going back to the train station. Was trying on sunglasses already, tempting to buy the one that best suited me. However they were out of stock of new ones.

Have not been able to get anything there, in bugis. Sad. So on the verge of getting the stuffs I wanted. Blasted.