Gawd, finally feeling refreshed and energised abit.

Began to study my otia in the morning before i went napping again. haha.

just now went to meet dear at jp for dinner. he bought guitar hero for xbox 360 at challenger. and asked his bro to come fetch us home. LOL.

And,

i haven begin my eprelim yet. I didnt manage to finish studying otia and isdm. so i was thinking maybe leave it for tmr and fri to take either of them.

sigh.

probably, prelim results will suck again. luckily its optional. and its a good practice for the final exam. leaving me to feel properly studied and prepared after prelim, cos i would ve covered the necessary materials for the prelims so these are still very embedded in my brain until finals.

Less stressed too. So in a way, prelims are good for us. We could studied few months before the actual exam and den having mock exam give us the neccessity to prepare for the real one.

few weeks before the finals, i could just revised again to refresh everything in that module(s). So u'd nv seen me reading notes on the train to expo, while feeling relaxed. lol. i dont want to make myself so stressed out that i'd panicked even before i get to the exam hall.

having a relaxed mind is impt. i always tell myself that everything will fall in place after i seen the qns. even if i do forget a few points, i would console myself, saying its impossible to remember every little details of those theories. Just get to the main point, thats all i need.

den again, u wonder why i fail rite.. wahahaha!! =X

back to mugging.

jya ne..

aiyo.. feeling so tired everyday. my eyebag is heavier.

i just cant concentrate on study. although eprelim starts today. i have 4 more days to take 2 e-paper.

ive been so lethargic that i cant even concentrate in jap class. i dont even feel like going, if its wasnt dear's call that woke me up from my nap. i feel like i need extra energy for brain processing. I performed badly in class yesterday. been stuttering over jap words, when i usually weave it through the sentence structure. my brain isnt working.

Tried sleeping early. no use at all. even its at my daily hours and timing of sleeping.

i wonder if i can finish studying isdm today and take the paper tmr. and den give myself time to take otia paper on friday.

theres a last lesson for isdm tmr. but i think im skipping it to take my e-paper.



yday was worse. i went to sch early in the morning, to find out theres no more lessons for otia. since theres poa after otia class, i try to study and slack at the same time for 3 hours. i napped at the table for 1 hour and tried to study otia. haha. well kinda futile. i cant study well outside my house. its too much distraction.

met angie for lunch. she was at sch early too but didnt go for hr class cos she forgot her stack of hr notes.

after lunch, we waited outside our class to wait for her hr class to finish b4 we go in for poa.

she disappeared halfway thru class to study with her fren. haha.

j just went home after poa, cos was feeling as tired as b4. cant even study with her without my full set of notes.



ay ay. now im feeling tired as yday, even though i just wake up from my nap. i know i shouldnt sleep. the more i sleep, the same feeling wouldnt go away. but even if i dont try to nap, i would become zombie and i know i wouldnt study.

anyway, i think i ordered the agnes b bag from ebay. i just need the seller to reply me. i seen this bag and tried it b4 at taka. but its too ex. now they selling it cheaper on ebay so i took up the offer haha.

wah, even playing games and watching anime now make me feel worst. firstly, i would feel that im neglecting my studies. 2ndly, i would become more tired. haha. 3rdly, i dont ve the energy for them.

the weather just make it worst. argh!! i know its raining soon. just look at dark sky outside la. wah lau. make me feel sleepy again, although i just wake up.

now im just blogging so i wouldnt ve to study and make myself having migraine and den ve to go back to sleep again. and by blogging, its so far the most relaxing activity i can find on the computer. oh 3rd reason, my brain cant take in any more study materials. haiz. maybe i should just take my epaper without finishing mugging. cos im just cramping every thing into my head now. it wouldnt help to understand or organise any thoughts now.

oh yea, btw its just what i put as my msn nick, if i can retrieve any info at will whenever i pick up any info, i would be a superhuman by now. sucks. i wonder how im going to score for all these papers. and its only 4 mod, 2 which i ve taken b4 somemore. sigh~~

mugging mugging mugging man...

zzz...

woo going to hokkaido in june!!

few days after my exam somemore, so i will be looking forward to the trip! keke.

and updating my wishlist.

kate spade wallet!! and agnes b bag!! though its not shown in the official website.

aww.. cant.. must control the urge! =.=''

meanwhile, prelims.. haiz...

can someone teach me how to be happy?

how to be satisfy when im stuck in my tiny world, with no one but me inside?

The ones around me, they are barred from coming into my life.

And i dont know and refuse to open up to them.

I dont know what i want.

I have a lot of anger/sadness, but they are so pent up inside me. sometimes i feel like suffocating, cos i dont know how to let them out.

Who will help me?

Even my boyfriend cant help me. I need love and guidance. He cant provide me those.

I am not being appreciated, no matter how much i do. and i crave for recognition inside me.

If this is a jap song/anime, this should be a really really sad song/scene.



There is no one, no one at all. nani mo. nani mo nai.

No friends, not even my family and boyfriend, bothers what im thinking or what i want.

I always compromise to their wishes, and dont know how to express my own. It would feel like selfishness. as what kevin always say.

what is with me? I hate myself sometimes, i e, all the time.

A shield is protecting me from harm. Yet at the same time, its preventing me from going out.



Its not about going out to shop or hang out.

Even when im outside, i refuse to talk openly to others. I conceal everything inside me.



Its about my life. My whole life, what i am going to do. How to achieve happiness. What is wrong with me?

Kevin says i cry alot, but thats the only way i can let out frustration and all the pent up sadness within me. Does he even know that?

I rarely do cry now. It doesnt help solve things.

Instead im still brooding over them.

i think i would die much faster this way.



What is love? how could you enjoy loving someebody else so much, even when u are doubtless about his feelings?

Do i really really like him? Am i really really capable of loving someone?

How do i really feel happy?

What am i? Who am i?

Suddenly i feel like correcting myself. For i am emotionless. I am empty inside.

A day come and another pass. I just live them as it is.

With an empty shell.



These feelings are not only realised during my PMS.

its even when im conscious of myself.

Who am i? Why do i behave like this? Am i not human?

To be pleasantly surprised is when u r surprised with things that you like, or longed for a long long time.

It doesnt mean unexpected surprised. Oh its surprise alright, if the other party u giving the gift to, doesnt dislike what u bought for him or her.

To be stunned is the extreme unexpected surprised. Something that the given will nv thought of, come to the given as a gift. and in fact this gift is what the giver like.

Getting a gift for someone is getting something that that person like, not something that you yourself like. That wouldnt make that any difference at all. In fact, you just make that person "minus" your mark of sincerity.

And dont try to offer something to ur loved one that she or him doesnt like, but something that you like. If you do, it doesnt make that person comfortable or happy at all! Forcing it, doesnt make any better. They make it worst.

Try to get ur loved one a present that she or he likes, for a long time (to make it unexpected pleasantly surprised). When something that u handpick or made, with an extra effort, ur effort wont be unappreciated.

This are the same for places that you bring ur loved one to.

Memories should be made to be pleasant not unpleasant.



This is an advice for peeps that are getting presents for other people. Giving gifts/cards/flowers to someone is a form of happiness between the two of u. You are happy that he likes your gift, and he is happy that he likes what you give him. They shouldnt be something so pretentious that may seem as showy.

Making the extra effort make it all worth it. =)



Oh yea and forgot to announce for the happy couple, Vincent and Winnie!

Congratulation on his proposal to winnie!

May this couple be blissful forever and ever!

his facebook's pictures of his preparation for his proposal.

So xinfu sia!

i just continue stage 2 of jap basic. haha.

a combination of the 2 classes of the stage 1, so many unfamiliar faces. but luckily theres still 5 of the old us.

anyway, its wierd that my jap teacher told de class im taking JLPT. (jap language exam) i didnt ever mention to her b4 ma. haha. but yea, i would take.. maybe in august if im ready for it.

rocking.. im trying hard to read full sentences of hiragana and katakana now. still need to slowly read them and understand their meaning though.


meanwhile i start to play maplestory again. LOL! kevin was like, duhhhh! thats bcos love motivate me to play ma. Wahaha..!

bbs!!

since de girls are blogging about sun's bai nian, i shall chip in abit.

the things they left out. well, since ive got nth to do now anyways. =P

for kw's reading pleasure.. wahaha!



sundae lunch -
met yq, joanne, jj, weisheng, betty for lunch at amk hub around 1pm.

chinsher came to fetch us later at 2pm to his house.

were entertained by chinsher's uncle and aunt. =) so nice of them.

anyway, what joanne says long story is,

chinsher decided to join us while we are leaving for my house. We all persuaded him to. haha. he's so ONz. cos he was supposed to pass his fren something den he smsed him to postpone it. haha.



jiejin gotta go to her fren's house so she ditched us at the bus stop to take taxi. LOL!

we took bus and den train and den bus back to my house. haha.

dan met up with us at je mrt station.

cs were already hanging out opposite my house, waiting for us. how big are we. haha~



sundae dinner -
humble fare at my abode. haha. thats what my mum says in chinese.

continued ban-luck! after dinner. chinsher brought some luck to me (after the losing streak on chu yi - chu san =.=).. or maybe its my house. or maybe theres a "zhao cai mao" above my bookshelf, where i was leaning close to. haha.

den after ban luck, we went to play wii and rock band in my bro's room.

well, im guessing dan's nick gotta do with playing boxing in wii. haha.

everyone took turn while playing. cos limited wii motes and the guitar instruments k..

and left around 11pm.



this has gotta be the fun CNY meetups ever. lol..

hope we meet up soon b4 dan leaves for aust again.

damn.. shipping fees from the overseas are freakishly expensive!!

and they take super long to reach here! min. 1 week. haiz..

i seriously should go find something that sells in singapore. haha.

sian.

ISFJs need positive feedback from others. In the absence of positive feedback, or in the face of criticism, the ISFJ gets discouraged, and may even become depressed. When down on themselves or under great stress, the ISFJ begins to imagine all of the things that might go critically wrong in their life. They have strong feelings of inadequacy, and become convinced that "everything is all wrong", or "I can't do anything right".

Im one of ISFJs (Introverted Sensing Feeling Judging). The above sentence is true. I have low self-confidence.



In this URL: http://www.personalitypage.com/ISFJ.html, most of the things about me is true.


The following abstracts are taken from this website. http://www.geocities.com/lifexplore/isfj.htm


Loving

For the ISFJ, love means security and commitment. Again, like other types, ISFJs tend to fall hard when they fall in love. Because they place a high value on marriage and family, they seek out a partner and feel unfulfilled without one. Marriage and family give ISFJs appropriate outlets for their love. In addition, they provide opportunities for them to meet their need to be of service to others. Because they are willing to give so much, they tend to expect the same sort of response from their mates and may be disappointed when their partners do not comply. However, they are realistic enough to know that they may not get exactly what they want and sometimes must accept their fate quietly.

ISFJs tend to stay in relationships that may not be in their best interests. Because ISFJs are responsible and dutiful, unless they are careful, their partners may take advantage of them. ISFJs are likely to stay in such relationships, because their values of commitment and stability are more important than their individual needs and wants. They may be taken for granted by the very people whom they care and do so much.

In love, ISFJs tend to epitomize people who radiate warmth and good feeling. While ISFJs may not verbalize deep love or the underlying sense of security and commitment that they feel, their contented facial expressions and demeanors illustrate their inner thoughts. They will do whatever is necessary to maintain this state. When the spouse or family of the ISFJ does not meet his or her expectations, the opposite facial expression or demeanor may occur. They are unlikely to talk with others about their disappointments.

When ISFJs are scorned, they are likely to be disappointed, angry, and bitter. However, they keep their feelings inside and often focus on themselves. After her spouse had left her to marry another, one ISFJ commented, 'It wouldn't mean anything if I let the anger out.' Even though she was in pain, she held back her feelings and tears, responding to a strong need to appear composed and stoic to others.



"While ISFJs are super-dependable, they may be fascinated by and attracted to the irresponsible, the lush, the glutton." (HAHA!!) Many ISFJs marry alcoholics and then proceed to conduct a rescue-rejection game without end, with the rescuing phase taking the guise of an attempt to reform. Occasionally an ISFJ mother may reveal a tendency to find humor in the "waywardness" of a son, while raising her daughters to respect traditions and to do the Right Thing at the Right Time; always.

ISFJs are frequently misunderstood and undervalued. Their contributions often are taken for granted, and the ISFJ as well is too often taken for granted. This can cause an ISFJ to harbor feelings of resentment, and this bottled up emotion can gnaw inwardly, causing the ISFJ much undeserved suffering.



Mates

The conserving nature of the ISFJ nicely complemented the iconoclasm of the ENTP "inventor." There would seem to be an even greater affinity in the mating of ISFJ with the ESTP "promoter." The dashing, glittering, wheel-and-deal capers of the ESTP calls for anchorage. The ESTP tends to have "high" periods during which there is a whirlwind of euphoric activity. The ISFJ provides, and likes to provide, a place to "crash" for our high-rolling entrepreneur. Usually the ISFJ finds employment that requires this ministering, nursing, helping sort of activity. Even so, he or she doesn't seem to mind doing the same thing at home, and so tends to get burdened with a bit more duty than others. If the spouse does not show appreciation now and then for this overtime work, he may be in for an increase in physical complaints and "worries" on the part of the unappreciated ISFJ.

i like OSTs of my favourite dramas.

They are the companions of really intense scripts/plots.

When i like that drama, it means that the script has melodramatic meaning to it. and it move me.

when im sad, i listen to these songs. and den i will remember the dramas. and their strong-willed characters involved.

im still a girl. somewhere. haha.

so tired.

i ve not been sleeping good at all since cny. though i admit i still sleep more than 6 hours a day. haha.

i seriously need 10 hours of sleep a day. or else the whole day to me i will feel sluggish and whole lot more tired.

the face masks i bought from ebay came. =) well its an extra from something else i bought from the same seller. i just accidentally paid more so she gave me 3 red wine facemasks instead of refunding me.

she recommended the facemasks to me and guaranteed that its good.

well, if it really is, i shall recommend to u girls too. =)



i better not start talking about exams. they will spoil my mood.

instead, i shall focus on a long-waited shanghai trip with my family in june after exams. and possibly another taiwan trip at the end of the year. haha.

im the only one that haven been to china yet =.= which is why im looking forward to it.

well, it may not be as fun as going with frens, but at least i noe my dad will bring us everywhere he deems interesting for us to go. =) and i still got my bro. haha.



Hope that things will go smoothly for me this year. Niu nian rite. it should be my year eh.

i did settle abit of the bills and exams fee stuff. that lightens the load off my mind.



and well, im wondering if i should continue my intermediate jap. my mum says that my bro can teach me if i want.

its true that i dont want to attend the lesson at night. its just so.. tiring.

on the other hand, i got a feeling my teacher can teach me more than my bro could. haha. although he will teach the necessary sentences only la.

how sia.

i got 3 more lessons till the end of basic jap.

hmmm.

まま。（well well..）

おやすみ。(oyasumi. nite.)

heres to show my new hairstyle.. for those who haven seen me.. haha..





hmm.. i didnt take any photos on cny with my hp.

i guess i can still dress up the same when we meet. haha.

anyway, time to go shopping! lol.

and prelims =.=

but i can still shop until drop! =P

mata ne..

well i cut my hair again on mon. Probably bcos of cny, but mostly bcos i want to trim my fringe and ends. its getting longer.

anyway, went with my bro to shop on wed at wisma.

ate at coffee club first, well.. cos basically theres nth to eat in taka. haha.

gw bought a polo at nike. we were in a rush. so i went to brought my dress at dorothy perkins. cos we were in it before we go nike, and there was a long queue so we dont bother to wait. when my bro went to pay at the nike counter i went down to try. luckily the queue got shorter. and yup the dress is nice. so i bought it. lol. told u we were on a rush. and while im trying my dress, he went down to pedro to buy his shoes. no fancy shops around. so yea everything is just sui bian la. see le, like it den grab it. haha.

shopped within 1.5 hour. took 502 home. i managed to get a seat. haha.


today met up with dear at jp to eat dinner after my lesson in school. had a early dismissal, cos teacher in a cny mood to let us off. haha.

after dinner went to try and buy hush puppies polo. bought one white one. the red one make me look like a salesgirl. =.= The other colours are just not that nice. dear got his earpiece at challenger. glad he likes it. i didnt pay for it, but i got the membershiip so got discount. =p


tmr going for a reunion dinner first at my god grandma's. woo!

anyway, happy cny in advance! =D

i love to sit alone in the dark. or maybe i love the afternoon when the sun isnt strong and shadows hovering my home.

and wonder about lots of stuff.

I heard my jap teacher say that those who dont talk alot tend to think the most. You'll be surprised to hear sophisicated words from them.

It is true, in a way. Since those who doesnt like to talk, tend to be conservative. and they communicate within themselves, thus in a way, think a lot.

i love it when no one is influencing my thoughts. They aint right or wrong. so people arent there to judge. But people can influence.

=.= now den i know ppl dont take me seriously..

what is it? the way i dress or the way i talk? or the way i act?

i thought i am being very serious already.. =.=

ppl, kindly help my fren do survey on touch screen tech.. oh and u can get ur frens n families of all ages to do this survey too cos he needs alot of data from diff ages..

http://FreeOnlineSurveys.com/rendersurvey.asp?sid=cmguaror1zklc57529643

its for his project.. thanks guys.. =D

happy new year everyone!

i hope this year could be a better year. even though i keep hoping every year will be better haha.


anyways, just organise an ecp outings with my poly frens. had fun too!

visit my facebook for more photos. haha.

now i'll be looking forward to another gathering that betty will be organising~! hehe..

but seriously, to get everyone together and go somewhere fun is hard bcos we live so far apart. and that getting full attendance is difficult too.


its start of a new year now. which means.. exams are near. *shiver*

though mock exams are still exams. and by the mid year we'll ve the final year exam. sigh~

i realised im getting lazier every school year. i cannot believe im missing out assignments deadline and test. woah, if dear sees this, he will kill me.. =.= luckily those are not counted as grades. they are optional. but still my discipline is getting abit out of hand for studies.

well, i mean since young, i find it hard to skip school and not hand in homework. haha. i always feel guilty after that. thats the only good thing about me i guess. i am not hard working. its just being brainwashed into my head. haha.


sigh, i haven been sticking to my daily exercise too. with all the holidays crampling together. it just feels that i must slack during hols. haha.

oh, that reminds me. i bought a new jumping rope. thats supposed to help strengthen my ankle and leg. but i haven start to use yet. =X


jap class is going to end soon in feb. but i still would be flipping through my notes for reference. hehe.

thinking also about signing up for intermediate class too. and french class.

but i hope i will not be alone again. anyone wanna join me?


hmm. thats all for now. happy chinese new year too!

had a not bad xmas eve and xmas day.


yday met dear at orchard to go choose a gift for his sis xmas party on 25th.
so we went to walk in cineleisure looking at stuffs. and den decided to just watch a movie.
i wanted to watch twilight. he wanted to watch ip man. haha. but we still go ahead with twilight.
shall accompany him some other day to watch ip man.

after the show. we wenta eat first. and den went to buy a cute cup at more than words.

hmm he wanting to send me home le. but i thought it was still early so i phoned my family. they were also in orchard eating dinner. but at that time, i already had mine. so they were just sitting down at coffee club after their dinner at sushi tei. anws, were stuck at the bus stop while its pouring. not cats and dogs, but were quite big. after it lightened a little, we walked back to taka to find my parents and bro.

i had a cup of black forest and we all shared this white chocolate logcake and sat there for quite some time.

dear left while me and my family went to take a cab home. and poor dear was stuck in the human traffic around taka. that ppl jam really is very long. cos as we sat in the cab we saw the traffic. and ppl were stuck as if vehicles were stuck in traffic as they inched forward.

luckily he reached home barely within an hour. so hmm.. haha.. yea.. imagine u are stuck at taka to the orchard mrt station for 35mins.



well today, my dad just decided to cook crabs for lunch. so we waited for lunch. and i finished my (yummy!) lunch ard 2 plus.

only managed to reach outram at around 4.45pm. den dear and his dad came to fetch me back to his sis's.

watched dear eat cos i wasnt very hungry until 7 plus. exchanged presents and i got a nice lipstick-and-brush holder. =) just as i was frustated with my messy table. haha.

left with the parents and dear at 8plus.



so.. yeap, here we are!

shall post more after the coming outing on this sunday!

cya!

Yeah, dec celebrations..

i nearly forgot what i did the past few weeks. Briefly describe whats/who ive been celebrating /with.


29th nov(sat)
betty held and we attended a surprise party for daniel wong. he came back from aust for hols. and its his bday. so yeah! brought my wii (with extra 2 remotes) to his house and everyone had fun!

7th dec(sun)
dear held a gathering with his friends at his place while his family werent in for the weekends. anyway, i brought wii again to replace the one that his brother lent to a friend. so this time only 2 wiimotes. but was still having fun with mahjong and wii!

13th dec(sat)
Yesterday, joanne booked a chalet under her company's name for us. Had fun bbqing, playing twisters and charades! i really wish those ppl who missed out yday could be there man! nvm we still ve next time. ^^



hmm. so this is how i spent my 3 weekends. 'twas short but we had fun.

and on a short note, went out with my brother some weeks ago to taka to shop and spend all our vouchers. =X finally bought books at kino too.

went to sing ktv on the fri night 2 days ago with my bro and cousins to celebrate his ord on fri. =D

Originally uploaded by m3_jan

new phone, new hairstyle, new picture..

i dont know whether anyone notice my new hairstyle afterall.. haha..

just upload this for fun.. lol..

i bought nokia e71 and it arrived yday! yay so happy!

im getting used to the qwerty keyboard, only after i cut my finger nails. =.= else my nails just hinder the way of my typing.

anws, just getting used to the symbian os after using windows mobile os for a while now.

of cos my htc touch is not spoilt. im just not used to the touch screen.

plus its not mine =X



dear went sitex without me. sob. and bought webcam. =) now can see his face le.

dec celebrations.. hmm.. busy busy.. haha..

Went bugis shopping with dear on last sat.

Bought alot of stuff. hes like "You too long never come out is it? Now like on shopping craze lor." LOL

its true. i haven go shopping for a long while now. and i spent all i could spend on sat.

still i got more things i want to buy. keke.


Anyway, went to find some wedges, hmm.. but still none for me. yet.

den went triumph to try on bras. wah, i didnt know i was trying out for THAT long. sorry dear, for making you wait 1 n half hour. =P

of cos in the end, i bought 3 and with free gifts! lol.

next, i was locked on to bodyshop looking for beauty stuffs. lol.

bought tons of things. luckily got member stamps to use. haha.


after that, we still walked about trying to find things to buy. sorry i mean me.

so.. we headed down to suntec. =X

found some things to buy in watsons. like that also got things to buy hahaha.

still looking out for shoes.

went in fossil to look at wallets and came out.

ate at swensens. in nice comfy chairs.

turned to carrefour for pleasure walking. wenta try out se Xperia on the display. it was kinda big. ive finally given up on that phone.

so we continued our search to find nokia e71 and ipod nano at the erm, tech shops on the 2nd floor.

nokia e71 is not that bad. except abit for everything. haha.

well, i could end up buying that phone at the end of this year. =X

took 502 home and slept on the bus.

Shopping list:

• Stockings


• black/brown eyeliner(bodyshop)


• eye shadow(bodyshop)


• mascara(bodyshop)


• blouses


• skirts


• wedges(2 inch)


• truimph bras

Xmas gift:

items under wishlist



Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle bells Rocks!
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1. Finished a book "A Thousands Splendid Suns"


2. Starting on "The Kite Runner"


3. Attended 1st Ni-hon-go lesson

Proud that im doing daily jog on my threadmill, although only for a short distance.

i should find more activities to bury myself into.
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Ja-ne!

The way to heal a lone soul. and i was totally bored.

i am seriously feeling numbed.

I wonder if its me or?

Oh xmas holiday, come quick cos i need you.

shopping anyone? girls?

taka is having xmas promotion now.

and i am waiting for the IT show. waiting for prices to drop.

most imptly, shopping!

xmas is a festive season for shopping.

i am so geared up and ready to go!

i only want to feel like i exist.

what is wrong with me that everyone is a) not talking to me, b) doesnt care what im doing, c) taking advantage of me?

is it so hard to like me as me? =((

maybe there IS something wrong with me...

feeling so overwhelmed that i feel like crying.

perhaps having another PMS.

i think im too bored that ive been trying to ask ppl out.

but they are not free. haha.

nvm. wait until weekends again ba.

tcc photos~!


mine!


hers!

another week whizzing by again.

but last week i had fun.



wed i met jenny b4 sch in westmall and lunched in sakae sushi. we headed back to school after that. haha. but it was fun catching up with her again. had'nt seen her since june, which was exam.

i went to tw, broke my ankle and was not able to come out. and now in diff classes now, its harder for us to meet up. but we could always meet up b4 sch on wed or weekends haha.



thurs i took my wine appreciation class and had fun learning how to appreciate wine! keke! and by chance, i found a new girl fren. we hung out after class b4 going home. and carrying the 2 leftover bottles of wine like drunkards. sheesh. =p luckily twas near my house, or else luma sia!!



anyway, didnt get to know yufeng better. (haha! yeah another yufeng but i dont know her chinese character.) so on FrI we hung out again in pizza hut JP after her work and my lesson in sch. i think we sat there for 2 hours! lol. took bus home together after that. she lived around lakeside and lucky for me, i could also take 187 home.



SaT, had makeup class for the monday we missed cos of deepavali. well, after class i phoned kw to see where she is, cos i know she had class in the morning. well, luckily she was still in cityhall with her frens, so i went to find her.

i was hanging out in mph in citylink, cos she was still in suntec with her frens. den awhile later she came to look for me after her frens left. Damn, didnt get any books! haha. We chilled out at tcc, the one besides mph. and sat for maybe 3 hours?! lol. ooh, anw nice coffees that we ordered. checked out the photos we taken later!

went home after we window shopped around citylink and raffles city. and yeah, kw, i miss the mphosis bag. i think i going to get it le laa! haha!



today was just sleeping at home. doing nth.

still waiting for my sony ericsson bla bla bla. so longggg lo! release in sg le but still not sold by the mobile operators yet. =.=



another day is passing by... ciauzz my babies, my lovess...

my pressies from jiemeis!!



just in case u r wondering..

the pink bandana on the sofa is the pink headband joanne bought. =D

wah stupid phone of mine!

im tired of using the touch screen way of sms. it slows down my messaging speed.

and the htc phone got a slow ram and rom thats its hanging every now and then. or too slow.

i need my sony ericsson x1!! but its still not launch in singapore yet! arh~!

im not expecting the price to be low. but i would buy it if it hits my range.

im an all-function and "the goods must be satisfying" type of ppl. so something i want must not be lower than my expectation.

just frustrating while waiting for the new phone to be launch in sg, not knowing the price and the physical see and touch.



btw, thanks jo for organising the outing yday! enjoyed the dinner very much! haha.

and yea! for the pooh bear pillow! im hugging it ^^

oh yeah and the head band!! its the same head band i ve! although i dont ve the pink one, which i regret not buying. and now i dont ve to regret it. so happy! haha.



meanwhile, i ve something to be unsolved. it will have to wait. the dinner lifted my spirit abit. =)

sunday i went to mac and ve dinner with my bro and my mum.

thats when my bro encourages me to take up courses, seeing that i ve nth to do with my life.

its true. i ve to keep myself occupied. from thinking, i guess.

anyway, we just went to the CC and signed me up for japanese lessons and wine appreciation class (one day only).

it starts next month.

now im just looking forward to the lessons.



its like taking up a driving lesson like that. Another useful skill but which you dont know when u r able to use them.

And since my bro promised to take up french with me after he ord, im looking forward to that as well.

If i really like those, i could ve found a goal in life. ^^

well, im trying to jog again, on my threadmill.

if i could really say goodbye to my old life... and start a new me. IF.



Sitting around just waiting for the late afternoon class again. =.=

well, just trying to tell u guys about my new exciting ready-to-go to-dos.

im a laid back person. if anything that really interest me, i should be giving it my utmost shot at it.

my bro still ve his jap book on his shelves. i cant read those yet though.

i dont know why but i liked jap culture. they make me feel peaceful, clean and healthy. and i really like salmon sashimi! haha.

maybe one day i would immigrate to japan.

maybe the ppls in sg are way too scheming, selfish, individualistic and not helpful.

but i am born here. though im trying not to be.

finally the furnitures are completed with the curtains and the dining chairs.

imagine my dining table without chairs. =.=

and my windows glaring with no curtains. Not only the living room, but the rooms too.



anyway, now the "housewarming" can start. Probably the end of this month.

if anyones wanting to come, just msg me. haha.

gloomy.. as the weather is/ or my blog title.

I realise theres a disadvantage of not having a sister around.

When you are lonely, a sister can always accompany you.

You can bare your hearts out to each other.

Doing things together always make the sisters bond.

Maybe having a younger sister just make you grow stronger. bcos of your strong feelings to protect her. Whether physically or emotionally.



Of cos a bff do the same. except that she cant be there for you forever.

my brother, being a guy, just dont need me. haha. Aw, makes me feel very, well... fail as a sister. Hes stronger than me in any aspects. Like im the younger one. keke.

anyway, my bro's thing doesnt really bother me.

Its just that i wish to have a sister too, sometimes.

waiting to go school.

bored.

argh!

i hate late afternoon class! + the kind that has only 1 time slot!!

=.=

what a fun weekend its been.

getting out once a while is refreshing. with diff groups of ppl too.



last fri, went to vivo with my cousins for dinner to celebrate another bday. haha.

chilled there until 10pm before we headed down to chevrons to sing.

and if u must know, chevrons ktv is cheap! haha. with the alcohols and all.

and so we sang until 3am and cabbed home.




sat came. and weiwei ask me to go watch "Connected" with them.

met them at 7pm at bugis.

that show has abit of comedy in it. overall its not bad. i give it a 7.5/10. the action is good.

anywhere, after the show about 9 plus, we went to eat dinner. lol

and den trying to find a place to chill out.

so den we went to starbucks. until 12 den left the place.



wenta kevin's to stay for the night.

and den left the next day after finish watching superband.



today is just continue sch.

tata.

i received an email from UOL about my incomplete result. and they say i pass it. woohoo!

so i can proceed to year 2 now.

its an admin error. but nvm about that now. the most impt thing is i pass! haha.



anyway, i am so hard on myself lately.

everything seems to go wrong. and i just feel as depressed as ever.

something is forever wrong with me. i cant seem to make the right decision and do the right thing. the naive, immature, kid brain just dont know what to do at times.



bad. the email that betty send me really had me thinking alot. more than i did ever, probably.

"We need to talk." simple as it is. i couldnt bring myself to do it. the same scene would just repeat itself.

aRh, aH.



life is hard.

just nevermind already.

do what u want. i dont want to care.

i dont give a hoot about someone who sees me as only an option in their life.

And only themselves in their lives.

My wanna-be contribution is just air.

resume studying today.

POA class - no one i know.

OTIA class - in different class from my friends.

IS class - at least with a poly friend.

Sometimes retaking modules just sux.

u noe that modules pretty well and the first few lessons are just boring. LOL.


and worst of all, theres no more refreshments. damn SIM.

Choices. esp when its hard to make.

I got a shock when i saw my result. Not that failing matters. i can always retake next yr and pass.

Its the incomplete result that infuriates me.

I really didnt know what to do.


if i retake that module, i have to do my 3 yrs course all over again but with lesser modules since i passed few of my other modules.

i contemplate changing to a complete different course in a different school. Den again theres nth i wanna take.

i forced myself to consider early childhood, psychology, translation and languages, cos those are kinda fun. my mum objects to their future career outlook.

i talked to a few others, and they confused my little mind. lol

So i decided to drop this IS and management course and to look for a job.

Then again, i thot to myself, what if inspiration nv come to me in that bounded office? Den my youth would be wasted without a degree. I will be 26 without a degree. i would totally hate myself for making the wrong decision.

OR

i could be 26 with a stupid IS degree. and den any kind of work wouldnt matter anymore cos i got my bachelor.

Well, Singapore is really a small place for anyone of us to try to further any kind of unique careers. I looked through sg private uni, they all dont provide asian studies (with specific country) or philosophy. Just when i thot i could take these courses, i realised those courses are not provided in Singapore uni. =.= Even if i do study them, i cant further my career with this kind of certs in singapore. although they would look REALLY cool.



I just talk to a classmate, whos from the same poly and course as i was, only diff year. The reason that we take these IS and mgmt in SIM is the same. IT is not a bad way to go. plus it doesnt ve too much programming like poly courses does. and they ve mgmt courses. only that she came alittle late to the sch, who could be my senior. oh, technically speaking, she is now, given my status. =.=

so now i reconsider dropping my bloody course. age 26-27 with a degree, and find a common job.

What luck, since im born in singapore. What other choices do i ve? i ve no interest in anything, so i can only temporarily go with this flow.


business, admin, banking, accounts, they are so so officey. and dull. and R&R. u go to work, u do ur job, u wait for clock to strike to go home. The next day starts again. Unless the work that u do does not bore u. its the life, not ur age that counts rite? in sg, its ur age that counts. why are u still as old, but without any money???!! u should be working out there man~~! what if u cant pay ur bills? and what! u dont ve any insurances, or cpf or bank investments?!! Old life should sucks bad. Ur childs educations should too.

In the end, its the living standards that counts.



i cant do the other above courses that i mentioned. So i plan to stick with this course.

Sui yuan ba. Ren ming le. Since i cannot do anything at all. literally.

new drama to download..

the new lu ding ji (2008) downloading at 1MB/s!

slurps*

woohoo! avril's best damn tour!!

Yday my family n i went to imm to eat ichiban to celebrate my bday. again. LOL.

anw, went to look at the dining table that we ordered. actually its the same as my aunt's so nothing special.

gw shopped in giant while my parents and i went to look at dining table.

we met to take a cab to kallang indoor stadium.


it wasnt that much ppl yet cos we were 20 mins early.

the souvenirs were so ex that we couldnt buy any =.=


seriously im so going to buy a camera next time. its like being disabled of my beautiful experiences! LOL. taiwan, concerts, bdays, gatherings, whatever.

somehow, im glad i didnt ve a camera with me. if i did ve, i wouldnt enjoy myself so much. cos u would keep taking pics and videos that u'd forgot to enjoy the concert.











anw, though t'was short, but her singing is superb! The crowd was so responsive so much that its impossible not to sing and wave like mad! LOL.

Called for cab and took the comfort taxi home.

heavy mood lifting this time. but after that, its just back to the same moodiness.

sometimes life is so repetitive, we hate it.

whats with the future, when its unknown and u have absolutely no goals, thats the tiring procedure of life.

im trying to find my goals. i scanned through every possibilities that goes thru my head. i still dont know what to do.

my future is not bleak. i just currently dont know what to do now.



If life is only about working for the sake of earning money, wheres the fun?

pls dont telll me fun is during weekends.
okay fine, u r waiting for the fun to come while u slog the whole weekdays away.



my mums actually suggesting me to study HR. the short-term kind.

Well i know what shes thinking. she just wants me to get a stable job that earns enough money. and since my IT isnt that good, shes suggesting HR.

haha. straight away, at least i know thats not what i want.

i just tell her to give me time to sort things out and think it over.



while im thinking, i am also hoping to do some reflections.



things aside, yday was an enjoyable day. thankss for what they called 'celebration'. LOL.

it did lift abit of my mood.
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P.S: i noe i blog this kinda entry before. im spewing everything out again.

yea i need something to cheer me up.

feeling damn damn damn down.

im downloading ranma 1/2 full 7 seasons. and its making my internet lag/down.

sian.

i love ranma!! LOL!

okay. thats it.

every year its the same..

*hope i will change*

i seriously feel like giving up.

why is it that however hardworking i am, or think how smart i am, i always turn out to be the otherwise?

maybe im not as hardworking afterall, and im just a stupid kid.

i dont even think about my future. Whatever come, comes.

i dont even know what i want to do.

Even if i got this degree den what? i cant possibly stay in the IT career, cos its not me at all.



not thinking about anything anymore.

choices in life is hard and uncertain.

Concerts i might consider going:

Mayday, Avril lavigne, xiao jing teng, jason mraz, eason chen, panic at the disco, jay chow, alicia keys.

i admit i dont know all of their songs but i also acknowlege them as good singers/bands. and that i would want to hear their songs. =D

Thats why i wouldnt mind going if they r in town.

i miss xiao jing teng and eason's ones. cos of my sprained ankle. crap.

i think i stay too long at home.

im so bored now everyday.

Just waiting for weekends to come.

And when its over, im back to my everyday routine.

Slack.

when some say something unexpected or do something unexpected due to emotional change,

"sorry, you should know i couldnt control what i say/do when im angry/confused."

I hate that verse.

when u say that, u dont hold urself responsible for what u say or what u do already.

instead, u hold ur emotions responsible. or rather, the person that makes ur emotions run amok.


this is rather an unacceptable act of behaviour. u r throwing ur responsibilities away. and blaming it on something else or someone else.

whats worse is, u still claim that ur act is righteous.

heck, that is really irresponsible.

i finally watching "Fated to love you"

seriously, compared to other ou xiang ju, this drama has a good story.

It tells the normal kind of boy/girl love, a motherly love, siblings love, and love for friends.

Almost every single episode will move you to tears. No kidding. Thats why i always look forward to every episode, thinking "how would the scriptwriter make us cry next?"

Sometimes when i didnt cry bcos of that ep, i would really conclude that is also a good ep.

Abit draggy, cos it lasts 23 episodes. Of cos you wouldnt know when is the final ending, cos it always has a bloody twist in the bloody story.



fun, watching it. now im trying to find another drama to watch haha.

Some drama that would not require me to wait for a week, perhaps.

though its almost exciting to anticipate for the next one, its also infuriating.

Meanwhile, shall finish playing my game first.



tata.

bored.

wish i can go out.

wish he wouldnt be so busy that in the end we wont contact each other.

"wishing well" grant me my wishes, please?

For those who wishes to buy me a birthday present, (updated)


1. i recently lost my hairclip which is used to replace to tie up my hair. The pink big one which i lost. haha.

2. I would really appreciate a good love novel. esp those stories from like the 1880s or something? "The little women" category. Recommend ur love novels to me?
Yewen, not xiong qiao ones. haha. ok fine, chinese love stories like the 17th century china, where maidens still ve bind foots those kind?

FYI, i ve gotten "Peony in love" and "the secret diaries of miranda cheever". both stories are what i mentioned above.

3. Well, you can still get me movie tix for good movies. please dont get me just 1. LOL.

4. A dream-catcher.

5. pooh bear? i dunno, im just finding random stuffs...

6. Oh yeah, a hair band. preferably those that covers the whole head. you can say its sorta headband.




Really, im in no interest for shopping nowdays. maybe something might just catch my eye, well, someday.

I didnt even shop for clothes when i was in tw. Only 2 shorts just bcos its hot down there and i didnt bring any. =X

I guess i only want comfortable clothes afterall. Not in for fashion anymore. Never was anw. Just not me.

*Just for Jiejin*
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Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday to you!

Happy birthday to jiejin~
Happy birthday to you!
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23rd bday, how old are we getting on?



We are definitely still young! woohoo!

its not like we r in our 30s.

Sun abit boring but fun to be at home, with the family.

i hope we would nv grow up, and would nv leave this house. we would not be so attach to my mum later in life, what with the jobs and another life and all.

on account of my mum, i know she would feel very lonely if we were to move out.


we are changing. in some way or another.

=((

oh yea dear spent his bday with me yday at home.

and the whole fam just watched beijing olympics until 12.

and den he left just now ard 4plus.

i feel bad, not giving him anything. not even a cake. will make it up to him soon. =))

hey, yo, hi~

I jus messed up my template, I fed up trying to adjust to the right layout.

so im thinking, hey, y not just change the blogskin?

and finally, i found one, suited to my preferences. Simple, plain but looks classy. And of cos the layout must be comfortable and not too squeezy like the other blogskins. =((


hows NDP this year?

its just okay lor. same as every other year.

Now that we ve watched beijing olympics opening ceremony, sg Ndp is not one hell of a thing anymore?


wonder the fireworks start alrdy not?

im sitting here blogging while the ndp is showing outside my big screen tv. =PP


Okay fine. once im okay, i shall make an invitation to my house. say, for my bday perhaps?

hah.

Quotes from Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus:

1. When she is feeling good she is capable of seeing and responding to the good things in her life. But when she is crashing, her loving vision becomes cloudy, and she reacts more to what is missing in her life.

2. It puts too much pressure on a man to make him the only source of love and support.

3. By supporting her need to be heard, she could support his need to be free.

4. When her wave crashes again, similar issues will arise. Whatever remains to be healed or resolved from her past inevitably will come up.

5. When a man loves a woman, periodically he needs to pull away before he can get closer.

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Quotes 2:

1. A man becomes fully receptive to and appreciative of the six kinds of love primarily needed by women (caring, understanding, respect, devotion, validation, and reassurance) when his own primary needs are first fulfilled. Likewise a woman needs trust, acceptance, appreciation, admiration, approval, and encouragement. But before she can truly value ana appreciate these kinds of love, her primary needs first must be fulfilled.

2. When a Martian expresses his caring and understanding, a Venusian automatically begins to reciprocate and return to him the trust and acceptance that he primarily needs. The same thing happens when a Venusian expresses her trust - a Martian automatically will begin to reciprocate with the caring she needs.

3. When his behaviour takes into consideration her thoughts and feelings, she is sure to feel respected. Concrete and physical expressions of respect, like flowers and remembering anniversaries, are essential to fulfill a woman's third primary love need. When she feels respected it is much easier for her to give her man the appreciation that he deserves.

HOW YOU MAY BE UNKNOWINGLY TURNING OFF YOUR PARTNER

Mistakes women commonly make	Why he doesn't feel loved
1. She tries to improve his behaviour or help him by offering unsolicited advice.	1. He feels unloved becaused she doesn't trust him anymore.
2. She tries to change or control his behavior by sharing her upset or negative feelings. (It is OK to share feelings but not when they attempt to manipulate or punish.)	2. He feels unloved because she doesn't accept him as he is.
3. She doesn't acknowledge what he does for her buy complains about what he has not done.	3. He feels taken for granted and unloved because she doesn't appreciate what he does.
4. She corrects his behavior and tells him what to do, as if he were a child.	4. He feels unloved because he does not feel admired.
5. She expresses her upset feelings indirectly with rhethorical questions like "How could you do that?"	5. He feels unloved because he feels she has taken away her approval of him. He no longer feels like the good guy.
6. When he makes decisions or takes initiatives she corrects or criticizes him.	6. He feels unloved because she does not encourage him to do things on his own.
Mistakes men make	Why she doesn't feel loved
1. He doesn't listen, gets easily distracted, doesn't ask interested or concerned questions.	1. She feels unloved because he is not attentive or showing that he cares.
2. He takes her feelings literally and corrects her. He thinks she is asking for solutions so he gives advice.	2. She feels unloved because he doesn't understand her.
3. He listens but then gets angry and blame her for upsetting him or for bringing him down.	3. She feels unloved because he doesn't respect her feelings.
4. He minimizess the importance of her feelings and needs. He makes children or work more important.	4. She feels unloved because he is not devoted to her and doesn't honor her as special.
5. When she is upset, he explains why he is right and why she should not be upset.	5. She feels unloved because he doesn't validate her feelings but instead makes her feel wrong and unsupported.
6. After listening he says nothing or just walks away.	6. She feels insecure because she doesn't get the reassurance she needs.

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Quotes 3:

"The last thing a woman needs when she is on her way down is someone telling her why shouldnt be down. What she needs is someone to be with her as she goes down, to listen to her while she shares her feelings, and to empathize with what is going through. Even if a man cant fully understand why a woman feels overwhelmed, he can offer his love, attention and support.

"Telling a woman she shouldnt feel hurt is about the worst thing a man can say. It hurts her even more, like poking a stick into an open wound."

"When a woman is feeling hurt, she may sound as if she is blaming him. But if she is given care and understanding, the blame will disapper. Trying to explain to her why she shouldnt be hurt will make matters much worse."

"What she needs is his understanding of why she is hurting."

"Most couples start out arguing about one thing and, within 5 minutes, are arguing about the way they are arguing."

"It is not what we say that hurts but how we says it."

"He is aware neither of how uncaring he sounds nor of how hurtful this is to his partner. At such times, a simple disagreement may sound like an attack to a woman; a request turns into an order. Naturally a woman feels resistant to this unloving approach, even when she would be otherwise receptive to the content of what he was saying."

"Because he does not understand her reaction, he focuses more on explaining the merit of what is saying instead of correcting the way he is saying it."

"He has no idea that he is starting an argument; he thinks she is arguing with him. He defends his point of view while she defends herself from his sharpened expressions, which are hurtful to her."

A common male/female basic patten:

1. A woman expresses her upset feelings about "XYZ."
	2. A man explains why she should't be upset about "XYZ."
3. She feels invalidated and becomes more upset. (She is now more upset about being invalidated than about "XYZ.")
	4. He feels her disapproval and becomes upset. He blames her for upsetting him and expects an apology before making up.
5. She apologizes and wonders what happened, or she becomes more upset and the argument escalates into a battle.

"To avoid painful arguments it is important to recoginize how men unknowingly invalidate and how unknowingly women send messages of dispproval."
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Quotes 4:

Intimidation always weaken trust in a relationship.To muscle your way into getting what you want by making others look wrong is a sure way to fail in a relationship.

人不是常常说“忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空”的吗？

I read somewhere that if u accept whoever ur partner is, den you are able to live happier.

If you say u can accept it, why are you still complaining about it?

Women thinks emotionally, men thinks logically. Thats why we fail to understand each other's thinking and end up argueing.

The best gift to women is to be emphathy. And the best gift to men is to nag less.

We, as in representing the female race, can emphatize with people. We can usually feel what others are feeling, esp with the same race.

Men, on the other hand, knows only the way men think and act. They would usually think that females are complicated creatures.

If men thinks women thinks like them, its a ABSOLUTELY NO NO. Likewise for women. Mars and Venus have totally different species.



Ive written all that iv wanted to tell my baby. He fails to understand when i try to tell him, in a big circle(its our characteristics also), that im me and im a woman and that hes a man and hes him.

I'd try to be more understanding towards him and nag less.

I hope that if he read this, he would be more receptive to me.

They often says communication is impt. But i guess in this situation, even communication makes relationships worse. Men hate to talk. Women loves to. And unless both tries to understand each other, meaning men thinks emotionally, and women thinks logically, its impossible.

there was a terrible dream, i knew that my eyes were still shut even in the dream. I forced them open and only realise i was dreaming.

but i dwell on that dreadful dream. Praying that it will never happen.

i found my perfume and other stuffs! So happy ^.^

girls i got a little bit bad news. i feel terrible myself.

the perfume i got for my 21st bday is suspected to be broken by the workers while they were moving my tables around.

dear dear's taking his QET at NTU this morning.

hope thats he will survive it through. Well, he will. Although i already know that. =P

but still, jy jy, dear!


Well, i hope to reward him with food. But den again i cant move yet. =.=

and omg aug is coming! =.=

i know why i keep feeling tired these few days.

I didnt exercise, like taking long walk.

I didnt drink coffee in the morning. Thats why i feel lethargic all day.

I know this cos i miss coffee. And in taiwan i dont feel tired at all even though i walked all day, and without drinking coffee.

Hmm. The next time i need to do at least one of these things to make me feel more alive. Haha.


Seriously, after i am fully healed, i will try to exercise more.

The doc told me to swim more! Yes, at least my motivation to swim comes again! Well, my mum keeps saying when i swim, my leg will become more wobbly, and den i would fall easily. Sorry to miss swimming with u. Well, you know who you are. =P Now i can swim again! Yay!

i feel the urge to clean the house, cos its new and it makes ppl, well.. me, not want to dirty the floors and tables and the walls.

ar sian.


crap my ankle just refuse to heal. i would stretch myself when i wake up in the morning and it would hurt again.


Therefore, I hate to wake up. And im tired everyday even though i ve plenty of rest. When im tired, i tend to stretch myself . =.=


i cant unpack my clothes cos my mother do not ve enuff clothes hangers. She used all for hers. =.=


Once my ankle is alright, den i will be able to xiang shou in my pretty flat.


Kevin needs to take his QET in order to graduate from NTU. QET = Qualification English Test. I think. So i ve been helping him with his essay writing. Haha. (I dunno why i bother to type this out.)


Play and not work is bad. Play and work is worst. Work only defeat the purpose in our lives. LOL.


Yawnzzzzzzzzzz

Dear came today and bring the pics we ve taken in taiwan.

Ive uploaded it. The links at the photos section. Feel free to view them!


So far, the kitchen cabinet and my parents' cupboard has been done. Now my parents are unpacking the kitchen stuffs to its respective places. I haven been able to do anything since i come back. Haiz. Including exploring my own home. =.=

Lets hope the workers come tmr to finish the touch-up. They are supposed to come today but they didnt. And the sofa set are coming in tmr. Again, supposedly.

So looking forward for the home to be completely furnished, and my ankle to get well.

So long. ^^

well, some of the furnitures we ordered hasnt come in yet. But by this weekend, they would be here 'cept for the dining table and erm tv.

Just wish that my leg would recovered by this week also. So that i can roam freely my house without my office chair. And that i could bathroom properly without hopping on one leg. =.=

I haven unpack anything yet. cos 1stly, my house is still in a mess. 2ndly, my foot hurts.

Well, overall, i love the color of my house. They blend in nicely.


My mums taken leave for these 2 days so she could take care of me at home, and also to supervise the work done. haha.

Eh, I really hope to go back taiwan. Theres still alot of places to explore. But until i strengthen my leg muscle, im not permitted to go anywhere without someone by my side. Well, which i agree to. Haha.


My ankle itch like hell now. Hopefully it means that its recovering ever so quickly..

Cya soon!

Finally, im back to my home sweet home.

Without internet, i could die of boredom. Luckily kevin lend me his DS to play with.

Anyway, I came back from taiwan as well. Unfortunately, i fell from the 2-steps stairs in the toilet while i reached hualian. The thing is, its on the evening of the 3rd day already. So hmm.. =\ Pray i dont miss out much. Haha.

But the hostel in hualian is heaven. LOL. Its a terrace house that is rented out to tourists.

I am seriously bad that i made ppl wait on me. Well, literally, since i cant even walk. I sprained badly, so dear carried me everywhere.

I spent on the hospital bills, cab fare and the wheelchairs rental at the airport. They are all quite cheap compared to singapore, which i didnt mind.
I still have enough money, considering i dint go out anymore on that fateful day. Haha.

At home now. Dad n mum helped to set up my com, which i gratefully thanks. LOL. I miss my com!

Now im still recovering from the bad sprain. Well, hope to see ya guys soon! =D

im starting to pack my stuffs now.

cos we are moving out this weekend.



i need to shop for bathing items etc.

yday met dear to go bugis to look for a carrier/bag to bring to taiwan.

Got them in shaw tower. and both are green. LOL



hmm. starting to read my books and watching my tv series now. Oh so miss them!!




CYA!!

sat was fun!!

its been really long since this gathering. And at mike's house which is empty. keke.

i went to help mike to buy food and drinks to his hse in the afternoon.
brought my wii remotes and games there too, cos weiwei brought his wii! wee!!

played raving rabbids the whole night. was fun playing with the others. LOL. we all take turns playing.

one part was where 4 players compete. The losing 2 players ve to drink. make the game more fun.


finally went home around 2am. crashed at 2.30am.




sunday met dear dear at clementi to make him a new pair of specs. Not bad. Cheap and nice. =D



today, kevin accompany me to dental at geylang polyclinic. went back to his house to ve lunch. headed to harbourfront to redeem canon printer and came home.



waiting for the trip. ^^

meeting the guys this sat, something to dread and something to look forward to. ^^

cos they ORD-ing, thats why michael ask us to go his house play. haha.

woo, if weiseng bring his wii to mike' hse, i would be able to bring extra 2 wiimotes along. wahaha. how fun.

i could play smash bro brawl with them, its a really entertaining game. haha.


anw, michael only live, like, 2 bus stops away from me, like around chee yong there also.


alright, i go and play my game now. wahaha. cya!

woo!!! exams finally finished yday!!

was totally relieved and tired on the way home yday. God, yea my fren is right, exams kill your brain cells.

been studying for the last subject for near 2 weeks after my previous module. which is why i was starting to have holiday moods. haha.


hmm. now waiting for the move to my aunts house. haven pack anything yet. will start probably around tmr to clear some of my stuffs for the renovation.

my mom's been really hardworking. she cleared the whole kitchen cabinets and her own wardrobe herself. and our sofas been given away to my uncle, cos new furnitures are coming in after the renovation.

i will be most likely go taiwan from my aunts house, and come back to her house as well, cos the renovations gonna last for 5 weeks.

so excited.

at the same time, i got a few bunch of things i need to do. just dont know what to start off with yet. Just some leisure time. haha.

hope to cya guys soon!

monday, kevin i went to the ica to apply for a new passport.

the latest Jetstar promo is ending today. So he went down to ica today to check if our passport can be collected, in order to book our flight with the promotional price.

And yes, it could be collected! Anw, the passport is supposed to be collected tmr.

i went down to retrieve my new passport. and then went back his place to book to taiwan.

So relieved that the booking of flight is finally done. except for the hotels. =.=

well, his frens gonna do it this sunday.

So looking forward to the trip! =D


Oooh, and the renovation!!

Just hoping that my last paper to pass over smoothly soon. And then i can happily pack all my stuffs to my aunt's house, while waiting to go on the trip and the renovation. Yay!

And so many things to be done. Shopping, hanging out, etc etc.

Oh so motivated now! Keke.

Miss ya guys~!

Okayy i am officially sick. I should ve noticed that when i have my splitting headache, ulcer and sore throat at the same time.

Though those subside abit for now, i have flu instead. Making me feel wholesome sicker.

den this bloody sore throat and ulcer wouldnt go away. The sore throat got abit better, but den de ulcer stays there even if i put salt on it several times.

i guess my body heat is rising, thats why. but im not having a fever. hmm. the medicine and the ill is making my head swing.

oh man, how to study for my last paper. =(((

poor thing my frens. luckily i haven take year 2 subjects yet. cos they still have 3 more papers to go.

and lucky me i only have 1! and its 1 week later. so more time to study. =p

=.= expo been having sales and exhibitions. they are the ones using our hall 7-9 so that our exam have to be all the way in hall 1. Thats like a bloody 10mins walk in. Damn it, didnt see the loreal sale coming. should have gone there after exam yday. =.=


anyway, been having the vomitting desire of headache. since like few days ago.

sigh wish it would go away. its affecting my studying mood and also my playing mood. Keke.


hmm 1 more week till holiday! so happy. on the other hand, i would miss my frens. they are the ones with me throughout my 2 years SIM life. wonder if i get to see some of them next year, when we have diff modules. hope we choose the same elective. =p

and how would i survive my last year without them. =(( they would sure all graduate 1 year b4 me. (and again lemme emphasize, i dint fail so to get me another year, i just never take a first yr module.)

well at least, next time i get a job i'll get them to find me similar ones from their company. wahaha. (den again, what about my dream career? =.=)

well my dad left for china yday. He went there to work for 3 weeks.

Situated in shanghai, i believe him to be safe.

anyway, he arrived safely and is online now. haha. hes trying to use skype to communicate with us.

which is why he bought me this webcam.



yeap, on the other hand, after he comes home, the renovations gonna start.

and happy us!

Should i get a camera? hm. i want a sony one. i like a slick design and one that is slim. but of cos it aint cheap. We'll see.

did i mention my brother bought grand theft auto for his ps3 and mario kart wii already?




he bought O.C season 1 as well. We watched a few episodes together and he booked in and

damn it! he locked the O.C in his drawer!! =.=

hes a few episodes ahead of me while i studied and now i cant catch up to him.

O.C is created by the same author as gossip girl. So Gossip girl is like O.C. They have filthy rich ppl and they have extremely beautiful rich kids.



Hmm, okay time to get back to my study. Tmrs the 3rd paper. Sure hope the qns isnt that hard.

Cant afford to fail this core unit. Haiz.

believe me, ive tried.

it doesnt seem to work at all. ive memorised and decipher any meaning to the questions.

whatever i do, however hard i work, i dont think it really make a difference.

if its meant to be, it is meant to be.

if it isnt, dont force it down ur throat. you will be gagged.

Now im just scared of every single exam.

im afraid that my hard work doesnt pay off. Bcos by the end of the day, im not cut out for this.

Its the same for the rest of me.



and by the way, i just want some comforting words, saying that ive done my best. Theres nth else i could do.

"You never study ENOUGH rite?" I cannot even believe this is coming out of the mouth of someone i thought who should know me well.

Im pissed off by even the tone of it, can you believe that i wont try to listen for more?



I dont understand. I really dont.

I cant understand how the possiblitity of failure is high when i try so hard?

Oh right. Because its ME.



I wont admit im stupid. 'Cos i know i am not. Im way above that (although not to the extend that im smart too). Thats no way im categorised under that.

im so frustrated by my own mistakes.

im full of guilt, sadness, perplexness, and downright lonely. (i am lonely by the way, literally.)



So scared of the next paper. I cant predict. I can just hope to make sure i do well.

okayy. seriously pissed off now.


Am not in the mood.


everything just bugs me.


just cannot take my mind off them.

im giving my own career a thought. What do i want to be?


An accountant? A manager? A IT pro?


I dont want to be these ppl. In fact, im thinking these jobs are sooo not me.


I dislike a boring job, i dislike associate with adults or other business colleagues, i hate a confined job although thats the best job for me. irony haha.


my mum keep saying, as long as i got a job, it doesnt matter what job. No, but it does matter to me. I dont want to maintain those job mentioned above for the rest of my life if i ve no passion for them. it will be like, "sux, another day of so-so job again."


my teacher's sis "works" as a volunteer. according to him, she doesnt really care abt the money, but she is happy.


i eventually would still need money, to survive. haha.


den something occurred to me. y dont i volunteer to go to the 幼儿园？it is so not me? haha. i knew you would say that. i love to play. i love to educate kids abt the "right" things in life. i dont care abt earning money. all i want to do is to play and make friends with them.


i dunno why im saying this. i can do all these now. nth can stop me, i know. i can really trying to find something passionate to do. why m i hesitating?


i dont want to stay at home, i dont want a 9-5 job. i just want to relax and enjoy my life. i know i would be so happy at the 幼儿园 all day long. just even thinking abt it makes me happy.


i am not rational k. dun try to persuade me to let me think my idea is sooooo not sensible and naive.


somehow i think in all my life now, this is the most sensible thing that i want to do. i love to think about ppl and try to mould them? haha. experimenting is not a good way to say.


ive given up on psychology, since i cannot get that cert now. but who is to say i cannot ve a similar job? LOL. yes i haven been stop thinking abt psychology, and ppl. huh, suddenly im imagining being a teacher.. =.= thats impossible. im not academically zai.


now i know y i am hesitating. bcos im not capable of anything. i stumble through blocks and blocks of obstacles.


but something abt me is, im able to live with all these stumbling blocks. surprising eh? i cannot give up hope. once i do, u might as well ask me go suicidal. Okayyy, bad thought.


well, once i think of the unfortunates, i dun laugh at them. i linked myself with them. i think i understand what they are going through. yet i think im the most fortunate of all. bcos i love my family, i love my friends, i love what i ve. =)


what i dun ve, i can only ponder over them. but i dont grieve over why.


im thinking how to help the unfortunates become less unfortunate? maybe they are already happy, u dun know that.


how blessed to live in singapore. how blessful it is to live. how on earth r u going to keep surviving. thats the whole point.


lets come back to my career. i am still thinking. what is best for me, totally? lets try to come back to earth. and get a stable job. fine, it doesnt suck so much. its just, very, hmm, tiring.


Look at US ppl, some love their jobs. bcos they have freedom of choice. our govt emphasize on education. they can choose not to study and still live very well.
but of cos, kinda poor though.


life is about choice. one day i might decide to go backpacking for the fun of it, and die somewhere, u dont even know. LOL. fickle me.


BUT,

i am still on that career subject. VERY very tempting. If someone got the same passion, well i wouldnt call it passion, same mind, as me, thats so much fun!


YES, im still into playing and enjoying my life! Thats the youth of life, babes!!







PS: i dont mean exams and getting a degree are not important. Totally diff subjects. LOL

AND sorry this post is long. =P

2 more days to my first paper. its poa.

im so much better to my frens who ve 3 papers consecutively over de next few days.

meanwhile, ive finished studying/revising poa already.

hmmm. waiting for holidays~~~

Oh finally the blogs pic uploading is working.

i have to use picturetrails to edit these pictures. So so waste time!

Yea, heres the photo of the jeans my brother bought for me from indieeeaaa.

I must admit, indian girls are kinda small waist. Not that im fat know, its already my size, but still its abit tight. =.=

okay, my bro recently came back from india, while exploiting his frens, to carry his spoil of war for him. =.=

but best is, he bought a nice pair of levi jean for me!! i cant upload the pics, i dunno why.



yday, went to have secret receipe at imm with my family. Didnt know today is mother's day until yday. haha.

anw, took a cab home.


been studying non-consistently for a few days now. Haiz. Should be able to continue again next week. First paper start on the week after next.

Keep fingers cross.

Till then.

im sure i dun need to post anymore pics, since love and jo already did.

But for the sake of my fav gor and cousins, here it is:

Btw, i haven blog my event on that day?

pic in thai express

ladies in black!

=.=

SMILE?!!

Eh?!

Well, well. look whos back in action.

TCL=The Cool Lady

erm, perhaps not totally black..

cheezzz!!

finally, done!

Meetups on 29 apr to have the free b&j ice cream. It closed when we reached at 6.50pm. =.=

Anw, me, jo and sheng waited for the rest to arrive b4 we went in to thai express.

dear dear came after we finished cos he just booked out that night.

Went to starbucks to chill out, cos it seems the best thing to do le. Its a weekday ma.

Headed home around 11pm. =D had fun! lets organise more of these 'kay?

these 2 days been shopping in bugis cos its on sale!

(Thurs)

Was really tempting to get a Braun Buffel wallet for both dear and me. But there wasnt a really nice design for the both of us.

But in the end, gotten a nice pair of shoes. ^^ And its only 25 bucks after discount!

(Today)

Shopped in Top shop! May sale 20% off!
I got 4 cute tops, 1 jeans and 1 cute white skirt. Sign up for the free membership. ^^

Other than that, bought a novel in kino, and watched iron man after shopping. Wahaha. How enjoyable is today man!!


My retail therapy will continue after june, for destress. =D

Not bad, spend quite a great deal of money on this 2 shopping days. Proud. And so it continues. LOL

Waiting for the GSS!! ^^

Emotional shag.

I really wish we can communicate freely.

Somehow its restricted because of frustration and annoyance.

Listening, gradually, stop too.

The forbidden kingdom is quite a funny and a good show. I was quite amused to find Jet Li acting so mischievous as a Monkey king.

One thing they shouldnt do is speaking in english. It sounds like direct translation from Mandarin. Especially the conversation btw the Xiao Yan Zi and the Silent Monk. Wah, and even the Yu Di can speak english! =.=

I dont mind if only jet li, jacky chan and that boy converse in english. At least thats english subtitles rite?

The show is so wierd to be hearing them conversing in english. Was actually quite happy to hear some mandarin in the movie. Bai fa mo nu was so li hai. But die horribly, hahaha.

and lu yan was really immortal........

God, its not bcos i din study for my prelims okay?!

Its the essay answers, thats either not long enough or the marker just dun think my essay as a pass. I really did think I answered to the qns. I am just as baffled.

If its that easy to score, we would all be getting distinctions.

Even if you pass, its still borderline passing.

There are simply no right and wrong answers.

I do agree that i dun do essays in the past, which is why writing could be really a tedious task for me.

I am seriously practicing now. Kinda hard but have to do.

Meow.

1 more month till final.

You can do it man!

邵钰茹是一位名副其实的“慢拍者”。


走路比人慢。写字比人慢。连玩游戏也比人慢半拍。


费尽心思想要赶上一般人，却始终也做不到。


年老后会是怎么样呢？想也不敢想。因为也不只是这个因素。而是一个不为人知的秘密。


跌倒了。怎么办？再把起来当作没发生过。而且跌到不只是一次罢了。


这也是因为这样才会乐观。难道上帝知道，所以才给我一个乐观的态度来度过一辈子？

一直以来都无法觉醒的在人之间打转。现在才来担心将来。

我呢，也不知为人带来多少的困扰和无奈。

是该去做检查了吗？

人们说维持一段长久的感情， 突然不得不分开的时候，却是非常惋惜的。

可是我们不妨想一想，如果它俩人维持这段关系时又辛苦又煎熬，分开倒不如是一件解脱的事罢了。

要持续一段感情就必须先要向彼此学习人情世故。如何对待彼此也是一种关键。

幸福是掌握在自己手上。我们有能力改变全世界，何不先从自己的事昨首？

一个人的寿命是短暂的。如果不懂得承受一丝的痛苦或不满，怎能看得到美好的未来？

用乐观的态度来对待生命岂非更好？失败了就要懂得从新补救，偶尔也要懂得释怀。

执著没有结果。从另一个角度来对待艰难的过程是新的出发点。

这样的度过起起落落来完成生命的使命。

What do i want to update?

Been to revision for couple of days per week.

Should start mugging long ago. Haiz. Did study little by little.

Its apr now. 2 more months till stress-free days arrive!

My new router came, finally, last week. I manage to set up all the coms in my house. though its a bit tricky to use the cable all the way to my outside desktop.

Finally, been dreaming of my/our vacations for months already. When are we going to book it, my dears? Of cos it must be during the school breaks.

lets really recap whens my "supposed trips". Two should be in june/july, and 1 should be in dec. And all these are so unconfirmed. =( Wah, cannot, we should meet up and go over our schedules and confirm our dates the sooner, the better.

The hols trip would be fully booked if we din do it earlier.


Meanwhile..

im scared to see my POA mock exam result. now i really think my poa is really lousy. im better in qualitative exams.

Okay gotta go, see ya guys!