I need to have a life. Whats my passion?!

Socialising? no. Swimming? no. Shopping? no. Sing ktv? no. Eating? no. Reading? no. Gaming? no. Watching TV? no. Cleaning? no. Going out alone? no. Staring in space? no. Exercising? no. IT? no.

What else do I do?

"Year after year, they stay away, opting instead for a more predictable existence. Rather than taking a leap of faith and immersing themselves in the waters of their deepest joys and motivations, they insist on hiding inside a safety bubble, a sanitary, lifeless, colorless world where nothing new ever happens and the only thing that one can rely on is that tomorrow will be the same as yesterday, and that today will be more of the same. " 

"Imagine a world where we lived for the moment and spent more time enjoying reality than trying to escape it. Imagine a place where we didn't need lawyers to go before judges, psychologists to tell us that we have emotional problems, or clergy to talk to the Creator for us."

"The real sin is lacking the courage to express our convictions and zest for life. It should be a crime to bottle up the passion you once felt as a youth so that you'll fit into a controlled corporate environment or circle of associates. In fact, the closest we can come to a physical hell is the unforgivable action of refusing to say what needs to be said, not singing what was meant to be sung or forcing ourselves to no longer feel what was intended to be felt. "

"Passion shapes our existence, fuels the fires of inspiration and makes the heart and mind open to changes all around us. It is food for the soul, a spark that reilluminates our purpose and mission for being here. "- Brian Norris


Passion is the energy that comes from bringing more of YOU into what you do.  

Simply put, it's being who you are and doing what comes naturally. It's like allowing water to gain energy from flowing along its natural riverbed, rather than trying to force it up and over a mountain. 

[Crafting a Life of Meaning, Abundance & Passion] by Curt Rosengren ~ www.passioncatalyst.com

"Like any emotional state, passion waxes and wanes. Sometimes you’re highly motivated. Sometimes you aren’t. Passion has its peaks and valleys, so if you base your actions on your level of passion, your results will depend on your emotions. Feeling passionate? Great actions, great results. Feeling dispassionate? Weak actions, mediocre results."


"Passion is great, but it’s icing. It needs self-discipline to back it up.
Self-discipline is quieter though. Passion gets more attention these days becuase it makes more noise." May 24th, 2005 by Steve Pavlina 




I kinda understand what those passion gurus mean. But how to motivate or even be passionate about ourselves? I still need to search for answers within myself.

ok i just got an urge to start showing google desktop that i install on my pc. instead of using win7 desktop gadgets, i prefer google one. one of the reasons is the fact that the gadgets can be fixed at the side, when i can still see them if i open other windows.

ok so above image is a screenshot of my desktop. as u can see the google gadgets are at the right side of the screen.

p.s. if u cant see the image well, enlarge it by clicking on the image.

well.. i put weather, clock, calvin and hobbes rss (one of my fav comic), skip beat! rss (my current fav manga), news rss and scratchpad for my RPIS fyp project. oh! and at the bottom of the google desktop is the google search. so typically google search in the search box triggers a internet google search browser if u wanna look for anything.

As you can see, i put an address link on my taskbar. it allows me to surf on website even before opening a browser.

So i found both the address bar and the google search box really convenient. Like, when i startup my pc, i wanna go facebook first thing in the morning. i type facebook on the address bar. i use mozilla, so by just typing the name of the website triggers the whole webpage. i dunno about IE though. maybe u need to type in the full url. And when i wanna find out a defnition of a word, i just enter the word in the google search bar and voila! mozilla firefox opens, and shows the google search word.

oh and one more thing. the fixed side bar of google desktop.

there it is. my mozilla firefox is already at its maximum size. i swear i didnt adjust the window. haha.

anyway, yea win7 provide the "iconical" taskbar. when u hover over the opened applications, it will show u a thumbscreen of the application. E.g. You are opening 2 browsers, so u hover ur mouse over the mozilla icon, the screen will pop up 2 thumbscreen of ur browsers.


Another feature that i love about win7 is that it allows 2 windows to be placed side-by-side fixed. so if u wanna open 2 windows and use them at the same time, u can just drag one window to the left screen of the screen, win7 will auto-adjust for u half screen is to that window, and drag the other window to the right screen too.

okay this post probably sounds dumb, cos im like exploring into win7, and i know some ppl are already using this google desktop, "duh~!", but i got nth to blog about.. hahaha..

good nitess..!

finally.. back to blogging on w.bloggar instead of the browser.. i think it would be better to blog here cos i dont need to open a browser to blog.

hmm. although its nearly the same steps taken to blog.. haha.. i dont know ar. just prefer blogging to be on 3rd party app.

maybe cos when u hit the wrong button like going back a page, ur written post is lost without saving. Saving on the browser needs internet connection, and sometimes my internet is down that kinda thing, ya know...

anyways im testing this post haha.. oh and cool.. i install google desktop! it has widgets that allow me to surf my daily apps without opening them, like blog feeds, news, facebook and twitter. and theres a google search bar widget too. so i dont need to open a browser to search for something.

although the win7 only provide address link toolbar in ur desktop. but i like win7. so much better than winxp or win vista. ^.^ and theres this win7 desktop theme that auto change ur wallpaper for u. hm.. kinda fun.. haha.. i downloaded the htc flip clock.. the interface is really aesthetic.. much to my liking haha. im like writing a review for win 7 like that..

lol ok, guess its time to work on my fyp again. Ciau!

Irony

When you were young, you have abundant of time, but you don't have the cash to fulfil your spending cravings.

When you are older, you have the cash, but you don't have the time to spend it.

That's the irony of life.

Today is friday..

im about to lose track of time. cos im sick and i didnt go to sch for 3 lessons now. haha. theres only 3 lessons per week.

i cant believe that im been playing and searching materials for my final project that i forgot to do my other module assignment which was due last week. =.= oh and i didnt really study yet except for my RPIS study guide. Sigh.

I find it hard to motivate myself to do a solo project. zzz. no help from anyone except my supervisor, whom i totally haven get a reply from.

I wonder how my friends used to do their projects? and gosh, they did them so well! research, literature review, surveys and interviews and writing the thesis, etc. etc. I seriously have no idea where to start from, other than doing some research on the relevant literature. Placing quotes is easy but to rephrase as a summary is hard. i have a limited vocabulary so its like kiddo writing a thesis. haha.

Gotta write up a preliminary report and submit it to my supervisor by the end of this month. =(

Did my flu come from having stress, or is it the weather? its so damn hot nowadays, i feel irritated and have the tendency of having headaches.


So bored from all the games that i played that i begun to watch videos from facebook that were posted. haha. why do i feel life stressed instead of exciting? no wonder my eq is low. no idea the links between life enjoyment and eq though. lol. (fb app) maybe its my way of thinking.

gotta eat now. cya.

so sian..

been playing sim3 after i finished with my witcher haha.

okay i know i haven been updating.. but there's nth to update wad..

im like my sim - loner, dislike crowds and prefer solitude time haha. the whole day she can spend her day playing and writing on her laptop (cos i made her do it lol)

my sim is like the perfect person, who is a natural cook, do fixing around her house, except that she doesnt like to be with other ppl, oh! and doesnt do arts. haha.

and she's married to this guy whose lifetime wish is to be a cook! how compatible are they! wahaha!

Sims siao, Sims siao..

Susu.. (Sims language of byebye)

hmm just came back from marina square. had a very full dinner at jack's place with my family.
my bro drove us around den we lost our way when we wanted to go marina barrage haha. so we gave up and headed towards our original destination instead.



hmm, last tues went out with kevin and frens to celebrate hwee ching's bday. photos are uploaded again on facebook. we went to suntec city mall to eat at MOF. den clara came to drive us to some bar near SMU. its a nice place to chill with the live band and the ambience. took a cab home with hong boon (he lives in boonlay) cos 'twas kinda late alrdy.




my pc harddisk gone crashing again. its the 2nd time the hardware's been loose. i think i need to change one soon. my personal technician need to build a long-time affair with my pc soon. i need his help whenever this kinda thing happens. totally helpless. =(

i wanna play my Witcher!! sucks.. and im near completing the game lor.

just when i thought that by completing the game, i can finally concentrate on my fyp. and now this happens! ...

sigh..

anw, looking forward to next wed! =D outing with jiemeis! so sorry for those that i cannot make it on that day. maybe we change it to another day? =)

See ya soon!

I need to go shopping!!

My burberry sling.. lotsa casual pants.. pretty white flats..

i think i should change my glasses. haha.

Sai la.. no money~!



Happy birthdays to all the october babies!! =D

I shall sing a bday song especially for you~!

1,2,3..
Happy Birday to U. Happy Birday to U.
Happy Birrr!day to Uuuuuuuu
Happy Birday to U~

bring me to ktv den.. I should try to sing nicer..

why do i feel so young? HAHA!

young in the mind, young at heart. young in appearance!!

Long live the Youth!

hiak hiak..

cos im still 24.. not yet 30..

I'm still a girl, not yet a woman.. *Everyone put this nice phrase down*

What is youth man? Enjoy! haha.. so drunk..

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I think one day i should die of anxiety attack, or stressed-prone attack. Im so easily disturbed by things. zzz..

My brain malfunctions everytime im disturbed. i cannot multitask. tsk tsk.


My tooth hurts again. Probably the area near my wisdom tooth. Its growing k, my wisdom. Coming at a high price though. =x


i feel so sian. slacking too much is not good for me. I cannot seem to start on my research..

Quote of the day: "Joking is a way of life. but sometimes when u r over the line, its just not funny anymore."

Siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

People, long time no see. How are you guys now?

Are you alive? Are you happy? Are you healthy?

I hope all of you are. =)


well, just to make sure im not talking to myself, would the friends of mine pls leave some comment on this post? haha. *just to make sure you are alive somewhere..*

No worries, i am still me. and im still a slacker, even though my fyp has started. =x

I am still de same old me. The stupid, slack, nonsensical me.

Okay, i go play game liao. bb.

The latest update on me..

I ve been slacking at home ever since my internship completed.

been trying to figure out a topic for my fyp.

and erm..

please please please do not ignore me when i beg u for surveys! cos i need them for my fyp! they are my life and death! U shall determine whether i live or die! i thank you in advance from the bottom of my heart and soul! =DDD

mooncake festival + mooncake feast! LOL!

ive been buying the small "bing pi" from the city bakery opposite my block. and den my parents went to order from johor some nice mooncakes too. =DD

i guess i should stop burning my house down for the time being. last year was nearly.. =x the corridor was scarred by us.. playing with fire.. so sad for the corridor.. =X

what.. mooncake festival = mooncake + lantern. lantern = fire. fire = forestation.. =x

thats y, of all the festivals, cny, mooncake festival and xmas are my fav festivals. hehehe..


mountain tortoise.. i stopped listening to news nowadays. cos i dont wake up at 6.30am anymore and taking long journey bus while watching channelnewsasia.

yes yes i did that when i went to work. i tuned in to the tvmobile on the radio on my phone every morning..

and so coincidentally i got my ipod nano after my internship completed. so i listen back to my music now. if only my ipod nano got the fm tuner... =((( at least, i was updated with the news. now im so in my own world haha.


i realise to put up photos in the blog is 10 times harder than other places when u dont ve a mass/quick photo uploader in blogger.

first step, u always go to some photo uploader site and uploads ur photos, den resize them, den get their html to put onto ur blog and lastly, add descriptions to your blog. dats way too inconvenient.

i just hope that blogger will notice that and modify their photos uploading system. i know actually alot of other websites collaborate with bloggers to put up their photos. but to me, its still troublesome. cos while uploading photos and linking them to blogger and make that post all about ur photos.

u cannot further add in text etc.. besides when u only upload those photos, ur photos will become too big for ur post frame den u ve to resize the photos to fit in ur frame/tables. or at times, the fixed html table generated by the photo website makes ur photos spaces out so much dat u feel annoyed so you ve to modify them to change accordingly to ur preference. zzz...

which is why i think its too much of a chore to post photos on blogs. i always refer u all to my fb photos instead.

couldnt uploading photos and blogging at the same time be any efficient? does anyone knows the consumers' preferences, but at all? by linking photos and blog sites together doesnt make it efficient, it sometimes confuses and irritates the hell out of users. sigh.


okay talk too much. shall blog again when i got something to rant about. haha.

been watching honey and clover in taiwan version. Although its not as realistic as from the manga, its just as funny and super exaggerating.

At the same time, i replayed the witcher. haha.

i dilly-dallying about doing my research for my fyp. no excuse, im just lazy. lol.

i just started sch again this week, projects keep flooding my minuscule brain. i refuse to use my brain until oct. haha.

lessons per week are only on tue, wed and fri.

so sian.. i guess only watching drama / anime and playing witcher can eat my entire day away.

wanting to buy a burberry sling bag. so cute! =x


my life is simple and satisfying for the time being. lol. Jya na~!

2 weeks nvr blog alrdy. Come to think of it, i ve nothing to blog anyways.

had a bad food poisioning a week ago. didnt eat much except for porridge for 2 days. it happened after i went out with kw haha. was damn damn damn suay.

well my stomach is okay now, but now theres ulcer at the bottom of my tongue, near my gum. =.=

and so happen that my pc hdd is spoilt =.= been trying to fix it since yday. even formatting is impossible.

in case u r wondering, im using my netbook now.


shall upload all the recent photos after i come back later. gonna meet my jiemeis for my bday celebration. =D

okay gg now. Ciau!

Some things u need not be so vexed about. U can take it as it come, and be glad that its gone.

Decisions that u make may not be correct, it may not be wrong. But it is what u choose. If u are scared of regretting of ur decision, u may forever not make
a decision. Do not be afraid of judgements, for in the end, you are only one that is in control of your life.

I am always so indecisive. When it comes to making a decision, I think thrice. Or rather dont think at all, for fear of judgement. So i let it go. In the end, the issues always come back to me. Sometimes i dislike that im indecisive, i troubled people cos i cannot make quick decisions.

This is the thing that i must change. To be precise and make quick judgement. Though im not quick enough to do anything. If it wasnt for this, I could have alot of other paths in my life.

Sigh.

Prelude of Mayday DNA 2009



Guan You singing "zhi zhao lang man"!



Mayday DNA ENCORE 1






Mayday DNA ENCORE 2

oh im supposed to upload yday photos, but my cam battery went flat haha. thats the thing abt my camera, i cannot recharge it using usb. only can charge it in the given battery charger. sianz lo.. probably will buy another battery if i were to ever use it for a holiday or something.

Anyways, i went down to have lunch with some of my ex-colleagues yday. JJ bought me a cake haha and we celebrated my bday in the hawker center haha.

After that, i went to Queensway to exchange my shoes that i was given as a bday present.

While waiting for kevin also, I picked out another shoes cos they dont ve my shoe size for that silver lacoste anymore.

Ended up with another lacoste, but its black. haha. Paid extra 8 bucks for it, cos its abit more expensive than the previous one and its newer.


Went to meet him and headed to his house.

we had dinner and took a cab to kallang indoor stadium for mayday's DNA concert.

My bro's friend bought the tix so we waited for them and the tix to get in haha. else we just stay outside the stadium pretending to be fans.. hahaha!

my first Mayday concert! woohoo! I seen them during one of their qian chang hui at vivo. but thats all, lol.

My god, this is one of the longest concert ive seen and been to. They gave a total of 3 encores by requests, demands actually, haha.

it was 12.10am by the time the whole concert ended. so tired and drained out. but so worth our money. haha!

Shall upload the photos and videos here and fb. haha. latest in the afternoon cos charging battery now.


Thats all! Come back for more updates on my zainu life. haha.
*wait, zai nu dont go out wat... XD*

aw.. results coming out soon.. keeping my fingers crossed. sigh.

daladeedadee

sianz.

oh yea, my cousin bought me this book "The 5 love languages". I strongly recommend this book to those couples out there, cos it teaches how to express your love to your partner in ur partner's primary love language. In this way, they are more receptive to your love in their own way, instead of the way you think how you should love them.

i brought it to ikea cafe, while waiting for my ex-colleagues to join me for lunch. They saw me reading this book and ask, "r u married?" LOL. Its not like that. Couples that are not married are further encouraged to read this book. Don't wait until you have misunderstanding with each other even after you are married, its better to find your own happiness now before its too late.

I haven finish yet, but this book is readable. Cos its thin and the font size just nice for reading haha.

Do i look like im into philosophy? hmm.. maybe..

i like to think abt human mindsets, behaviours, cultures and loads of other stuffs. Anyway, been contemplating to study psychology, but its full time. Just a thought though. haha.


*Life is short. Better do the things u want now, before its late.* Ooohhh, now i fully understand this quote.

Good, gotta go for checkup, do my bloody fyp, finish my last year of sch if i pass this year, and study psychology.

and den see how.. haha..

cya soon!

Completed my internship. Nearly forgotten to write up an internship report. haha

Friday wasnt my busiest day, but i was hand-overing some work to colleagues. I still need to finish some work too. So waiting for adrian to get his rental car, i completed my work until quite 7pm den i went 4th floor to find fanny.

Some colleagues were still around, so we chitchatted abit. After adrian came back, we drove off to marina square to eat dinner.

After that, we went to ritz calton to ve tea. haha. Late supper.



Saturday, met up with hariyanto and ben for lunch and we went partyworld at orchard. JJ joined us there and we sang until 7pm.

After that, we wenta find fanny and had dinner at PlazaSing. headed towards TheCathay to watch The Proposal. The show was so funny haha. A typical romantic comedy but got sandra bullock thats y... one of my fav stars of all time..

Anyway went home after that.


So slacking at home right now. Omg, i miss the time when i dont ve to go to work on weekdays. hahaha. enjoy whenever i can right now. lol.

Should start running tmr. So long nv run liao haha. Getting fatter and lazier. =X

Cya guys soon!

P.S. Photos are uploaded in facebook..

finally.. 4 more days to go!

im dreading these 4 days cos i have absolutely nth to do. Oh not totally nth. its just the 1 task that i hate to do! its totally out of my original internship work.

i was supposed to assist a system analyst. How did it end up like that?

I know im incompetent. but do you have to keep giving me shit work to do, just bcos im an intern?

Overflowing emotions. cos im an intern.

Initially, really was happy cos thought i would really learn something new and relating to my studies. now for the past 9 weeks, i think i really did learn and did nth related. sigh.


anyway, should really go exercise after my whole internship already. My double chin and my tummy are visible. Not obvious but visible. hahaha.

been going out with some colleagues now. Similar to zhikai, the biggest achievement ive gotten from this internship is to befriend all these colleagues. =)

I cannot get a permanent job. Maybe next time i should get a contract job instead. cos i'll die of the working routine. the inevitable cycle of sleep, work, eat, sleep. haha.

going to start fretting about something soon. Some issues that i avoid for a long time alrdy. =(

Gonna sleep le. Cya guys soon!

i nv used to upload photos on fb. i thought it was one of those friendster slow uploading tools.

haha.. but den i saw how easy it is to use after i bought my camera and try to upload it on fb.

although its tiring to tag every single one of u la, but it should be worth it. haha..

first time i upload any photos to fb. and first time i upload so much. haha.

ooh, i simply love my camera! although it has no image stabilizer. =.=

which is why u can almost see blurred images on every photos. lol


'sides, im having fun my colleagues now. haha. yea they are loads of fun when they are in the office and out of it. keke.

there should be more outings after my internship ends, so that our friendships dont just stay there. =)

Cya guys soon!