today when i went to go to sch, i saw an garung guni pushing on a newpaper cart. we were both up the half slope at the same time... but then he stop to let me go up first... at first i thought he did. then he cant hold on to the cart so he and the cart roll back again. i did go up but i heard de cart rolling back down so i turn back and look at him... the next thing i did was to walk away... i din even try to help and push the cart with him!! what's wrong with me? at first when i saw him pushing the cart up b4 the both of us vie for the slope path, i wanted to help him. but then i was surprised he stopped there to let me go up first. the newspaper cart was heavy to push, i knew and i din help but just smile at him and walk away!!! argh... he looked at me and smiled back... anyway, i still felt terrible as i walked on.. u must be wondering why i din went back and help him... well, i thought even if i went back, he would ve gotten the cart up already.. besides it would be so awkward for me to say wat i was doing back there... anyway, i just hope it doesnt bother for the rest of my life... it's not just a good deed so simple lo.. it's just something in front of me and i din do it which i should...
i believe u do something good not because u want to show ppl. most of all is that u feel good doing it and that this will peace your mind... not like me when i din help that man... terrible...
also i believe in this sentence, 善有善报。。

few weeks ago, i chat with my fren on msn from another country... he told me he joined a club where there's sort of volunteer jobs going on... and it seems fun. u get to tour around countries, helping ppl and make loads of new frens... so i keep thinking this is a fun group of ppl.. but there's also another fun group of ppl, but these group of ppl put their faith in who we call GOD... these ppl helped themselves and others non-physically by believing in GOD and thus giving them strength to lead a new lease of life. it is their faith and belief, i do not condemn any of that... but if i had to choose, i would choose the one physically where u believe that u do volunteer work, u can help urself and others. this is within ur physical strength though. but u feel good rite...
faith is what we all believe in... but it depends what u trust urself into... something like relationship... if u trust this relationship u holding on dearly, no matter what thing will not separate the couples... so if u put ur faith in ur partner, u will not get jealous no matter how he/she looks at other girl/guy... if u scold him/her because he/she did so, then make sure u make a joke out of it, or else u just dun ve enough beliefs in him/her...
ok i say enough today, crap too much liao... go chat on msn le... hehe...