Thursday, May 29, 2008

monday, kevin i went to the ica to apply for a new passport.

the latest Jetstar promo is ending today. So he went down to ica today to check if our passport can be collected, in order to book our flight with the promotional price.

And yes, it could be collected! Anw, the passport is supposed to be collected tmr.

i went down to retrieve my new passport. and then went back his place to book to taiwan.

So relieved that the booking of flight is finally done. except for the hotels. =.=

well, his frens gonna do it this sunday.

So looking forward to the trip! =D


Oooh, and the renovation!!

Just hoping that my last paper to pass over smoothly soon. And then i can happily pack all my stuffs to my aunt's house, while waiting to go on the trip and the renovation. Yay!

And so many things to be done. Shopping, hanging out, etc etc.

Oh so motivated now! Keke.

Miss ya guys~!

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Okayy i am officially sick. I should ve noticed that when i have my splitting headache, ulcer and sore throat at the same time.

Though those subside abit for now, i have flu instead. Making me feel wholesome sicker.

den this bloody sore throat and ulcer wouldnt go away. The sore throat got abit better, but den de ulcer stays there even if i put salt on it several times.

i guess my body heat is rising, thats why. but im not having a fever. hmm. the medicine and the ill is making my head swing.

oh man, how to study for my last paper. =(((

Friday, May 23, 2008

poor thing my frens. luckily i haven take year 2 subjects yet. cos they still have 3 more papers to go.

and lucky me i only have 1! and its 1 week later. so more time to study. =p

=.= expo been having sales and exhibitions. they are the ones using our hall 7-9 so that our exam have to be all the way in hall 1. Thats like a bloody 10mins walk in. Damn it, didnt see the loreal sale coming. should have gone there after exam yday. =.=



anyway, been having the vomitting desire of headache. since like few days ago.

sigh wish it would go away. its affecting my studying mood and also my playing mood. Keke.


hmm 1 more week till holiday! so happy. on the other hand, i would miss my frens. they are the ones with me throughout my 2 years SIM life. wonder if i get to see some of them next year, when we have diff modules. hope we choose the same elective. =p

and how would i survive my last year without them. =(( they would sure all graduate 1 year b4 me. (and again lemme emphasize, i dint fail so to get me another year, i just never take a first yr module.)


well at least, next time i get a job i'll get them to find me similar ones from their company. wahaha. (den again, what about my dream career? =.=)


Wednesday, May 21, 2008

well my dad left for china yday. He went there to work for 3 weeks.

Situated in shanghai, i believe him to be safe.

anyway, he arrived safely and is online now. haha. hes trying to use skype to communicate with us.

which is why he bought me this webcam.



yeap, on the other hand, after he comes home, the renovations gonna start.

and happy us!

Should i get a camera? hm. i want a sony one. i like a slick design and one that is slim. but of cos it aint cheap. We'll see.

did i mention my brother bought grand theft auto for his ps3 and mario kart wii already?




he bought O.C season 1 as well. We watched a few episodes together and he booked in and

damn it! he locked the O.C in his drawer!! =.=

hes a few episodes ahead of me while i studied and now i cant catch up to him.

O.C is created by the same author as gossip girl. So Gossip girl is like O.C. They have filthy rich ppl and they have extremely beautiful rich kids.



Hmm, okay time to get back to my study. Tmrs the 3rd paper. Sure hope the qns isnt that hard.

Cant afford to fail this core unit. Haiz.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

believe me, ive tried.

it doesnt seem to work at all. ive memorised and decipher any meaning to the questions.

whatever i do, however hard i work, i dont think it really make a difference.

if its meant to be, it is meant to be.

if it isnt, dont force it down ur throat. you will be gagged.

Now im just scared of every single exam.

im afraid that my hard work doesnt pay off. Bcos by the end of the day, im not cut out for this.

Its the same for the rest of me.



and by the way, i just want some comforting words, saying that ive done my best. Theres nth else i could do.

"You never study ENOUGH rite?" I cannot even believe this is coming out of the mouth of someone i thought who should know me well.

Im pissed off by even the tone of it, can you believe that i wont try to listen for more?



I dont understand. I really dont.

I cant understand how the possiblitity of failure is high when i try so hard?

Oh right. Because its ME.



I wont admit im stupid. 'Cos i know i am not. Im way above that (although not to the extend that im smart too). Thats no way im categorised under that.

im so frustrated by my own mistakes.

im full of guilt, sadness, perplexness, and downright lonely. (i am lonely by the way, literally.)



So scared of the next paper. I cant predict. I can just hope to make sure i do well.




Saturday, May 17, 2008

okayy. seriously pissed off now.


Am not in the mood.


everything just bugs me.


just cannot take my mind off them.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

im giving my own career a thought. What do i want to be?


An accountant? A manager? A IT pro?


I dont want to be these ppl. In fact, im thinking these jobs are sooo not me.


I dislike a boring job, i dislike associate with adults or other business colleagues, i hate a confined job although thats the best job for me. irony haha.


my mum keep saying, as long as i got a job, it doesnt matter what job. No, but it does matter to me. I dont want to maintain those job mentioned above for the rest of my life if i ve no passion for them. it will be like, "sux, another day of so-so job again."


my teacher's sis "works" as a volunteer. according to him, she doesnt really care abt the money, but she is happy.


i eventually would still need money, to survive. haha.


den something occurred to me. y dont i volunteer to go to the 幼儿园?it is so not me? haha. i knew you would say that. i love to play. i love to educate kids abt the "right" things in life. i dont care abt earning money. all i want to do is to play and make friends with them.


i dunno why im saying this. i can do all these now. nth can stop me, i know. i can really trying to find something passionate to do. why m i hesitating?


i dont want to stay at home, i dont want a 9-5 job. i just want to relax and enjoy my life. i know i would be so happy at the 幼儿园 all day long. just even thinking abt it makes me happy.


i am not rational k. dun try to persuade me to let me think my idea is sooooo not sensible and naive.


somehow i think in all my life now, this is the most sensible thing that i want to do. i love to think about ppl and try to mould them? haha. experimenting is not a good way to say.


ive given up on psychology, since i cannot get that cert now. but who is to say i cannot ve a similar job? LOL. yes i haven been stop thinking abt psychology, and ppl. huh, suddenly im imagining being a teacher.. =.= thats impossible. im not academically zai.


now i know y i am hesitating. bcos im not capable of anything. i stumble through blocks and blocks of obstacles.


but something abt me is, im able to live with all these stumbling blocks. surprising eh? i cannot give up hope. once i do, u might as well ask me go suicidal. Okayyy, bad thought.


well, once i think of the unfortunates, i dun laugh at them. i linked myself with them. i think i understand what they are going through. yet i think im the most fortunate of all. bcos i love my family, i love my friends, i love what i ve. =)


what i dun ve, i can only ponder over them. but i dont grieve over why.


im thinking how to help the unfortunates become less unfortunate? maybe they are already happy, u dun know that.


how blessed to live in singapore. how blessful it is to live. how on earth r u going to keep surviving. thats the whole point.


lets come back to my career. i am still thinking. what is best for me, totally? lets try to come back to earth. and get a stable job. fine, it doesnt suck so much. its just, very, hmm, tiring.


Look at US ppl, some love their jobs. bcos they have freedom of choice. our govt emphasize on education. they can choose not to study and still live very well.
but of cos, kinda poor though.


life is about choice. one day i might decide to go backpacking for the fun of it, and die somewhere, u dont even know. LOL. fickle me.


BUT,

i am still on that career subject. VERY very tempting. If someone got the same passion, well i wouldnt call it passion, same mind, as me, thats so much fun!


YES, im still into playing and enjoying my life! Thats the youth of life, babes!!







PS: i dont mean exams and getting a degree are not important. Totally diff subjects. LOL

AND sorry this post is long. =P

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

2 more days to my first paper. its poa.

im so much better to my frens who ve 3 papers consecutively over de next few days.

meanwhile, ive finished studying/revising poa already.

hmmm. waiting for holidays~~~

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Oh finally the blogs pic uploading is working.

i have to use picturetrails to edit these pictures. So so waste time!

Yea, heres the photo of the jeans my brother bought for me from indieeeaaa.

I must admit, indian girls are kinda small waist. Not that im fat know, its already my size, but still its abit tight. =.=



Sunday, May 11, 2008

okay, my bro recently came back from india, while exploiting his frens, to carry his spoil of war for him. =.=

but best is, he bought a nice pair of levi jean for me!! i cant upload the pics, i dunno why.



yday, went to have secret receipe at imm with my family. Didnt know today is mother's day until yday. haha.

anw, took a cab home.


been studying non-consistently for a few days now. Haiz. Should be able to continue again next week. First paper start on the week after next.

Keep fingers cross.

Till then.

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

im sure i dun need to post anymore pics, since love and jo already did.

But for the sake of my fav gor and cousins, here it is:

Btw, i haven blog my event on that day?






pic in thai express







ladies in black!







=.=







SMILE?!!







Eh?!







Well, well. look whos back in action.







TCL=The Cool Lady







erm, perhaps not totally black..







cheezzz!!







finally, done!


Meetups on 29 apr to have the free b&j ice cream. It closed when we reached at 6.50pm. =.=

Anw, me, jo and sheng waited for the rest to arrive b4 we went in to thai express.

dear dear came after we finished cos he just booked out that night.

Went to starbucks to chill out, cos it seems the best thing to do le. Its a weekday ma.

Headed home around 11pm. =D had fun! lets organise more of these 'kay?

Saturday, May 03, 2008

these 2 days been shopping in bugis cos its on sale!

(Thurs)

Was really tempting to get a Braun Buffel wallet for both dear and me. But there wasnt a really nice design for the both of us.

But in the end, gotten a nice pair of shoes. ^^ And its only 25 bucks after discount!

(Today)

Shopped in Top shop! May sale 20% off!
I got 4 cute tops, 1 jeans and 1 cute white skirt. Sign up for the free membership. ^^

Other than that, bought a novel in kino, and watched iron man after shopping. Wahaha. How enjoyable is today man!!


My retail therapy will continue after june, for destress. =D

Not bad, spend quite a great deal of money on this 2 shopping days. Proud. And so it continues. LOL

Waiting for the GSS!! ^^

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Emotional shag.

I really wish we can communicate freely.

Somehow its restricted because of frustration and annoyance.

Listening, gradually, stop too.