day 1 - eat at golden mile and slept in the bus.. first day is gone just like that...

day 2 - at least a more exciting day to look forward to... haha... the bus stopped at its destination finally at 8.30 am at kota kinabalu... we waited for 1 half hour b4 we board the boat to redang... the boat sibei slow lo -_-'' i mean as in we have to wait lar... reached ard 11 am... gathered for pre activities discussion... ate lunch and changed... before the first snokling session, we had to learn how to use the mask first.. practised a while and we r ready to snokle!
cool man... i was like fascinated by the underwater world.. fishies and coral reefs everywhere!! i din see the clown fishes though(nemo as we call it).. they saw eels i think... we had this session for 1 hour before we board the boat to go back to the island.. i was kinda shacked already... so when we got back to the resort... i was half dead... lol... they went for public ktv sessions down there... and i was fast asleep.. when they came back ard 1 am i was awake liao... wahaha... went back to sleep lo... since nth to do...

day 3 - awoken by my alarm at 6.40 am... prepared and had sunblock lotion ready for the snokling... breakfast had and wanted to go shark bay at 8.30 am before the 9.30 session snokling... guess wat?? laining ar... dammit man... we walked halfway to the beach liao then heavy downpour... had to go back to the resort... and the 9.30 session was cancelled... very sianz... decided to go for leg massages opposite our resort.... its another resort... but redang beach(that resort) was better.. the lady massaged my leg and deduced that i ve not enuff sleep and ve headaches because of that... she also added that my shoulder is stiff and should rest more... i was like "woah, this woman is good.. " i mean she pressed my toes and noe straight wat is going on with my brain... lol... anyway, after that we went back to eat lunch... wanted to set off for the 2.30 pm snokling liao...
that jetty's sea is really clear... but there was quite alot of sea insects... we ve gotten bitten by them then huiyi's skin sensitive so her back was reddish lo... they saw eel whose head was big like a plate... how come i din see... argh! at first they tot its a rock... then it swam away hahaha...
anyway.. we went back le... after dinner was ktv session... argh.. but we were having so much fun then again laining!!! so played some games lo... carrum and daidee... haha... after that... we went up to rest... after which they went to the guys' room to gang assault bryan... haha... after the assault, we went to sleep lo... gotta wake up ard 7 am to board the boat back to kota kinabalu...

day 4 - woke up at 7 something to prepare.. eat breakfast and set off... it was raining all the way -_-'' freezing lar... the only jacket i wore was the black long sleeve but it was still as cold... darn... should ve really bring a towel with me to wrap myself up... anyway, slept the whole afternoon lo... the driver was showing final destination 3 on the tv.. i woke up and the show was finishing... but during my sleep, i was really disturbed by the constant screaming in that show... -_-''
came back to SG le... we stopped at tang dynasty there cos we dun wanna go back to golden mile... me, mike, cy, seng, jy and ben ate at the food court there.. the time was ard 11 pm when i reached home... terrible waste of time in travelling rite? 9 hrs bus and 40 mins boat trip...

thanks to those guys who offered to help when im in trouble... i think i keep delaying their time... haiz... im just glad the trip is over... and am quite satisfy with the experience =D

I am going to redang today for 4 days... will be coming back on monday night... miss ya... hehe =P

y do my mom want to say things like that? humans change for sure, but i dun want to think abt all that now... jun, u r rite... sometimes its good to make a quick decision... let the consequences come after some time... lets take a step as we go, alright? if u think too much, u will keep worrying when that day will come... y not live the day happily... humans worry too much... b4 this i worry abt the consequence too... but as the day goes by, i become depressed.. and i threw the depression away.. which i become happier now... i dun dare to think of the future and wats going to happen... its just making me sad... i mean wats the point? u cant predict the future also... u r only making up "wat if"... y think so much? cope with the future only when it comes lar... its like buying a thing... u see something u like, but then u think abt the price, the better quality outside and other things.. and when u leave it, u regret not buying that thing... wat if the price drop after a couple of months? so? u like it b4 and u got it and it gave its use to u... character wise, nope not the same... u change and u tot the past u were plain naive... maybe u can say ur naive character did let u see the good side of u... meaning u ve become uglier... or, ur uglier past had come to light... bam, u bcom a better person... r u happy for who u ve bcom, or for ur past? thinking hurts u noe... haha... it hurt ur brain and ur heart... so sometimes its good not to think too much... and not too less too... like me... muahahaha... bad/good consequences of mine always end up messed up... cos i din plan ahead... i do wat i think now... basically, not going thru that brain of mine lar... cos i always think thinking hurts my head and i feel like sleeping... the days passed just like that, and yay, i haven achieve much... not proud of it lar... ashamed... to face the facts... ashamed... to make any judgement... ashamed... of myself... i dun want to make a promise that i would change for the better.. cos i always fail to do so... and i always say i would try... but now... i am really trying lar... dun belittle me hor... i can do it de... the future me? i shaped it... but im not really sure what will come out... as i'd say, humans change... so u change, without knowing that u already change... sad isnt it?

sat - had sakura international buffet at science centre.

sun - went out with lover, cs to town. de 3 of us went to shop at far east first. i bought 2 dangling earrings while love bought a metal stick... haha... no lar... the earrings is a silver stick ma... then went to watson where i bought my facial spray. walked to heerens to meet dan.. he and love ate in cine's kfc and we slack the whole day there. went back home for dinner.

Hehehe... suddenly i feel alive again... =D

Wah man... i think i cannot stay at home for the whole day.. sure need to get out of there.. lolx... so far since the holidays start i stay at home for a day or two only. Today, though i had nowhere to go with my frens, i went jp with my brother. We had lunch at Crystal Jade then we shopped at 77th street.. Whenever I go out with my brother, theres always something happening. It could be shopping for clothes. Or maybe a successful play at the arcade(my bro hit the rock fever 4)
Well, he hadnt practise for years already, so now he suck in it... wahaha... but he did get 1 black shirt and i gotten a yellow spag and a white belt.. while he went to his fren's hse ard 2 something, i went home. Happy that we ate a sumptous meal, and bought clothes.. this the first time i treat him to a nice meal.. lol... and there we were, working out.. yday dinner was at Swensens(my aunt's treat), today was Crystal Jade, tml going to be Sakura or something like that(my father's treat)... we r going to die of fats... hahaha... nvm next week i go swimming to remove them... wahaha... lover, got it le hor? hehe... tue and thurs... =P
and fri i be off to redang... got a little mixed up feeling abt redang... well, ive paid... so guess that's it... will update again...
ciau...

For you: Just need to know that I will always be there wherever you are... I hope i get the same from you too wherever i am.. and the fears shall be gone... =D

hmmm... received a replied email from SIM le. She gave me details of the Maths bridging course. If i take and pass this bridging course, I would be exempted from Math in IS & Management. The course starts in 4th april. I want to believe that im accepted into SIM already. Haha.

anyway, i went to suntan in sentosa Palawan's Beach. Hot, hot, burning flame.. i lie there for 1 hour then i cannot tahan liao. But my fren persuaded me to join her for 2 more hours. I was like, "under this scotching sun??" But i ve to. Cos i cannot leave her there to suntan by herself rite. Haha.
Left the beach at 3.30. Bath and reached harbourfront at 5pm. Had dinner in pastamania. And then went home. The afternoon was ultra cruel to me, then there was the night to save my cruel day. Thank god. Yes thank you. LOL.

I shall try on my new shoes again when my fear of pain is gone. I hope it will fit me very nicely =)

Sat - met love ard mid-afternoon to go to clementi. we r late but we manage to delay the meeting time with her dear.. haha.. anyway, CS came to join us. After that, we went to eat lunch at yoshinoda(is that how u spell or pronounce?) and watched Big Momma's House 2. Though i din watch the first part, i kinda get the story. anyway, its totally not related btw 1 n 2. Windowshop for a while, slack at coffee bean, ate dinner and went home le.. well, i just spend another 10-20 bucks, maybe more. Guess the next week i can starve at home.. hahaha...

Friday - A painful day.

I found a suitable pair of shoes, finally. I wear it today. Even though I knew that shoe would bring me pain, I still wear it. Cos I know I love that shoe very much. And in the end, it hurt me very much. Yes, everytime I find a new shoe, I need a plaster to cover the pain. But as time goes by, my feet would grow to suit that shoe. I really hope this time, this shoe would be the same. Cos it's not the same with the other shoes. It would last with me for a very long time. =)

thurs - watched underworld evolution at jp ard 1pm... the show ar? ok lo... haha... but somehow i forgot the show is M18 le... so i very de -_-''... whenever i watched M18 show, i feel tense one... must be too much gore thing liao... make me uncomfortable... wanna get out also cannot... when i watched final 3, i really wanna walked off leh... haha... i knew what was coming ma... then i was like, "forget it lar... i wanna get out of here..." haha...
anyway, walked ard in jp and then went habourfront to windowshop... anyway i gotta meet my frens for another fren's bday chalet... i abit sian leh.. cos i noe i sure extra de... especially when it comes to my sec sch of frens... besides, they are not my classmates sia... the host and the friends were my next-door classmates... i got some classmates there, but they were all busy talking to those that i dunno one... basically, i dunno a soul there... just a few only... and they r not very known friends, u get what i mean? lol.. anyway, i was just sitting alone lo... since i noe some ex-classmates were going off after the cake-cutting... luckily, theres someone dropping us off at the sentosa station where we take a bus back to harbourfront... and then shared cab back home...
i was surprised when i saw some guys going to the chalet... i should have known they were going lar since the host and them were ex-classmates... cos got 2 guys, u noe i long b4 erm herm... u noe... lol...
anyway, they were hanging out with some ppl that i dunno very well, so i really cant join in... aiya.. just pray that such function wont ve to happen again in the near future... lolx...
sianz half lar...

yes, im beginning to spend my first week of holiday le... lets see...

mon - went town with betty, bought alot of things...

tue - went swimming, then went bugis to shop... met the guys and went home... i bought a slipper

wed - went SIM to hand in org docs, then tiong bahru to buy 2 pairs of shoes, and then went tampines adecco to apply for job and finally went TM... home after the long day... haha...

thurs - ?? but going fren's bday chalet

fri - going somewhere lar... dunno where.. wahahhaha

long story short

- go sch meet LO
- slack in sch den went to town
- slack in town, den went to safra
- eat jap buffet in safra(in between, got lots of things happen)
- went home

Now? Dunno do wat... slack at home for another week... starting to look for temp jobs.. next week go SIM hand in original docs... -_-'' AND wait for redang...

i fantasize in my own world just now on the train... Im 21 this year, and i would be going to the University.. now Im just sitting comfortably at my office typing away, waiting for the next few hours to come. Today is my last day at Clearhub, finishing my last sem of Poly education.. Just thinking what i would be like after i graduate.
My cousins told me I dun wear like my age.. I dun really get it... what should i wear for my age... mostly i see girls wearing jeans and ts... but i rarely wear slippers so i put on shoes... is that wrong?
i was wondering on the train, wat do the girls in U wear? the same as me? And what bag do they carry?
In the past, i always wanted to grow up and be a lady... now i realised the adult world is not as good i think it may be... so ironically, i abandoned my wish to grow up fast... especially since the day my grandfather died.. u grow up, u earn money... u worked like hell and sometimes u get nth in return except for ur salary... and the years pass, u become old... as u grow old, ur health detoriate... a part of human cycle... and then u die...
i dun really care abt the human cycle... except for the human u turn into once u noe the complexity of the world.. thats y i m curious about the human's character... i wanted to study psychology... no matter what is in for me during my course, i am just curious... i am that stupid... haha...

prank mail ar... stupid mail ar... betty ar... dan lar... send me that mail... now i forward to ppl and i cannot tell or tease... haha... and somemore that person is my fren... oh shucks... kinda demoralising... dunno y also... wahaha... k i shuddup, later they noe is a prank mail... lolx... =p