omg.. this is the first time i ve seen this kind of wedding~! but it rocks!!

by the way, i got to know it when a fren post it on fb.. haha..!

im always angry / upset with myself. i seriously do have brain defect. how else do u explain all the queer things that has happened to me??

Sometimes i know thinking too much doesn't help at all. But not thinking alone doesnt mean that my problems will go away. Things that i can see, hear, touch and feel just make me think more, and its just more upsetting, cos its hard to find someone who actually know. Every individual is unique you know.

I will probably nv understand the way i am, people just see the way i am so they cant tell me why i am the way i am. Unless i could really use up the rest of my brain to think about who i am and what i should be doing.

I am talking abt general stuffs about myself, not some specific stuffs. Probably i cant see the big picture, thats y im still stuck in misery.

Its hard to see the big picture, unless ure some god-giver or something. What am i supposed to do now? Am i supposed to be achieving something big or just be low profile? Should I do something about myself that remains undone, or shall i continue to be "myself", whom i dont even know if im the real me?



I saw a dialogue in a tv drama that a man questions a woman, "What is the difference between an expert and a layman?" The woman answered, "By the amount of mistakes you make. Experts tend to make fewer mistakes."

Although they are referring to work and office, but i realise this question could relate to life too. If you had more experiences of life, you make lesser mistakes, and you wont feel the pain of regretting later of making the wrong decision. I am definitely a noob of life.

The things that i wont understand and dont know will not solve today, until i have experienced more.

They call me xiao mei mei, which is true. I am one. I am not kidding. I am still pampered, protected against the realities of life under the arms of good people. I dont know the consequences of hurting people that you know or you dont know. Like my colleague told us before, "You guys are still lucky you are young. You can speak whatever is in your mind. You know what you want and you are not afraid to let it be known."

And den i was thinking, what does she mean by that? isnt something you know what you want, a good thing? thats life right? if not, r u not wasting it by rejecting ur wants and needs?

maybe theres still alot i dont know. which is why i still dont understand yet. But maybe gradually i will.

But one thing i definitely understand is, you cant get anything you want.


Back to my own thoughts, i spoke without thinking to kevin just now. I didnt think how it would hurt him by saying selfish words. I was blinded by my anger. Not that im saying he doesnt. haha. but arent humans all the same? If logic comes back to you soon enough, den you can repent. If not, you are leading your own death.

Whoever dont erred? Its just the matter of how much they err.


Random thoughts. They only weave around me. haha.


Be blogging again soon. =)

Woah, at work im just waiting for lunch break only. haha.

Its fun to go out with a large group of other colleagues, better than their previous diversified group, as what adrian had said.

at home, i ve a few gamer buddies waiting for me. haha. sorry but i only play cute mmo/mmorpg. The current one im addicted to is Dragonica, lol. Similar to maple, but only more fun.

internship left with 5 weeks more to go. Although im glad in a way, but also sad that im leaving my kawaii colleagues. haha.

oh speaking of them, some of us recently visited pearl, whom because of too much excitement the day before pulau ubin, injured her leg accidentally. we made fun of the flowers that JJ bought for pearl, haha, oh and btw, i chose that cute elmo~! haha..

anyway, this bunch of colleagues really brighten my days in Hutcabb. =) oh god, shall say thanks on the last day den. =) and not forgetting any of their names too. >.<

hoping that our next few gatherings will be successful before i leave. But we can still meet up after i leave rite? =P

see ya soon!

woo, my first ever trip to pulau ubin was fun! which i dont ve to cycle around.. haha..!

thursday we had meeting for nearly the whole afternoon after lunch until 9pm, mostly for the ubin event on friday.

fri - woke up early for the meetups at sime darby, to board the bus to changi jetty and to settle things for the event along the way.

arrived at the jetty and the committee members head off first to set up for games at ubin!

the whole event was smooth, except for the heavy rain during lunch time (so lucky we all got back before the rain). after lunch was free time and den there was a sensory walk led by grant, the ubin guide.

got back to mainland around evening to have dinner at changi jetty. we had a sumptuous seafood dinner and enjoyed the prize presentation.

too bad, it was the last day of work for biru. She is the intern that shared the same table as me in the office haha! Well, we had fun in the office.
And she still owe me my twilight series, so i guess i will be seeing her very soon! Her bday is around july so me and JJ bought her a farewell + bday gift on her last day. =) so glad that she love it! ^^

saddens for shan cos shan really like biru so much that she cant bear to let her go. =) She teared abit while bidding goodbye after dinner when we all are leaving.

hmm, that day was really eventful. thanks to biru for organising so well and so much =) i doubt i could do any better. =) There goes my lunch kakia too. but we shall meet her again, since she live so near the company. haha.

until den =)

woo finally met up jiemeiz. gave them their gifts and chocolates ^^)

we went waraku casual dining to eat lunch. and den went to shop. haha!

they bought their sweets from john little. and den me and love went to try on some slip ons at famous footwear, but in the end nv buy.

saw bodyshop and went in to shop for mineral foundation + brush. gotten free gifts also! they didnt ve stocks for my concealer. and i ve forgotten to go raffles city outlet and buy it. guess next time den.

finally left bodyshop and headed towards suntec! walked around, went in faceshop and sasa and they bought some stuff too. lol.. ate at subway after jo and kaiwen left.

went home after the day's good walking session. i think my legs were gonna give way if i dont go home soon! haha!

cannot be..

my weighing machine should spoil.. cos im not that heavy one lor..

my avg weight used to be 43-44 kg. okay im still not very heavy yet.. but still~!!

sucks, it should be all the eating in the office.. and no exercising..

i should stick to my old exercise regime once my internship is over.

or rather i shall start another weekend workout schedule.

sob..


friday went out with cheeyong and grouppies to eat at waraku in central mall. den after that we went to minds cafe, followed by equinox.. (nice atmosphere and view! i forgot whats the bar called, but thank you uncle ben! LOL!)

sat - love, yq, dan, kevin, cs came to my house. we ordered pizza, which was so wrong ><, and chilled out with the guitar and drum haha.
after which we had a nice dinner with jo and sheng at pastamania in harbourfront.

okay gotta prepare now for outing with jiemeis later.. jyaa na!

hmm.. nth to post much.

Work is so-so, but at least i got work to do every day so i wont be found idling. Unlike those poly days internship lidat.

haha. looking forward to the gatherings this weekends. =)

its been long since i long gone out with them. U know who u r. haha.

Woot, gotta go clean up for a while. Been eating, bathing and sleeping. Lazy to clean my room haha.

See ya!