now i know the real reason..
sigh...
self-help article:
http://ezinearticles.com/?How-to-Express-Yourself-to-Others&id=695513
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Saturday, December 15, 2012
HTC 8S is out in singtel!! Yes!!
Maybe getting it next week. Cool, i get to try windows 8 phone! lol..
Just an update.
Maybe getting it next week. Cool, i get to try windows 8 phone! lol..
Just an update.
- Hair - Cut to shoulder-length, kev says neater and i find it less hassle to maintain.
- Job - Changed to NEC and been working as a tester. So far, been trying to maintain this job until 1-year contract ends. 3 months and counting...
- Entertainment - been having fun at weddings and games organised with kev and frens. Thanks alot ppl! Upcoming bbq sessions as well!
Been playing AniPang as well! Its a korean version of Bejeweled... Got addicted to it recently, haha!
Anyway, thats all for now.
Hope to blog soon! =D
Tuesday, December 04, 2012
Things are moving fast nowadays. People getting married, having kids, stable jobs..
I have not changed. Started NEC job not too long ago. But because of it, my perceptions of things changed a little. Still, personality-wise, i'm the same as ever.
I have only one goal. And only Kevin and me can achieve it. But I don't really know how he thinks. =(
My BA is drilling things that I don't want to hear in my head. I'm starting to think about a lot of things. But it still doesn't change me for who i am. She keeps asking, "When you want to change??" I got pissed and in my head, "Why should I? I like being me." I don't even know if right now, i'm being right in thinking this way. Or Should I changed? I am not pro-active. I am lay-backed. So how? I can't even understand the way I walked. If I could I would. Somehow I lack a lot of common sense knowledge. I'm often ridiculed at as an excuse. But it's true! Simple things like, thinking alternate ways of doing things.. oh i know already. I'm too straight and lazy. Not flexible at all. Kevin always scold me of not thinking. If I over think, they would say why such simple things, you make it so complicated? I don't understand myself sometimes. No, in fact, all the times.
I have no understanding of myself. I expect people to know me, but they don't. I expect them to know me and explain to me who I am so that I can changed because I thought they would observe me. Guess I'm too selfish.
Then again, when people tell me to be my age, i'm thinking "Am I not? What do I have to do to be my age? Not being flippant? Think of others before thinking about myself? Or taking care of myself before thinking about others? " See? Life has no one straight things for me to do. I have totally no understanding of this.
I need people to tell me what to do. I do not analyse, and know what to do next. Sometimes I just follow what other people do. It's basic instinct. It does not mean I know what to do, if the same situation arises next time. I follow instructions. I am a follower. Because being a thinker is just too troublesome. Oh, so this is who I am. I see. But people hate me for who I am. Sometimes I wondered why they bother to be with me if they dislike me. "This pampered child...." Man.. What is so wrong with being a follower who doesn't think? Enlighten me.
I have not changed. Started NEC job not too long ago. But because of it, my perceptions of things changed a little. Still, personality-wise, i'm the same as ever.
I have only one goal. And only Kevin and me can achieve it. But I don't really know how he thinks. =(
My BA is drilling things that I don't want to hear in my head. I'm starting to think about a lot of things. But it still doesn't change me for who i am. She keeps asking, "When you want to change??" I got pissed and in my head, "Why should I? I like being me." I don't even know if right now, i'm being right in thinking this way. Or Should I changed? I am not pro-active. I am lay-backed. So how? I can't even understand the way I walked. If I could I would. Somehow I lack a lot of common sense knowledge. I'm often ridiculed at as an excuse. But it's true! Simple things like, thinking alternate ways of doing things.. oh i know already. I'm too straight and lazy. Not flexible at all. Kevin always scold me of not thinking. If I over think, they would say why such simple things, you make it so complicated? I don't understand myself sometimes. No, in fact, all the times.
I have no understanding of myself. I expect people to know me, but they don't. I expect them to know me and explain to me who I am so that I can changed because I thought they would observe me. Guess I'm too selfish.
Then again, when people tell me to be my age, i'm thinking "Am I not? What do I have to do to be my age? Not being flippant? Think of others before thinking about myself? Or taking care of myself before thinking about others? " See? Life has no one straight things for me to do. I have totally no understanding of this.
I need people to tell me what to do. I do not analyse, and know what to do next. Sometimes I just follow what other people do. It's basic instinct. It does not mean I know what to do, if the same situation arises next time. I follow instructions. I am a follower. Because being a thinker is just too troublesome. Oh, so this is who I am. I see. But people hate me for who I am. Sometimes I wondered why they bother to be with me if they dislike me. "This pampered child...." Man.. What is so wrong with being a follower who doesn't think? Enlighten me.