Tuesday, March 29, 2011

need to start reading the books that i bought. bought another 2 books while in HMV cos they were selling 2 books for 20 bucks.. One is Sherlock Holmes, the complete novel and stories and the other book is an interesting book about small rules for little problems that we have in our daily lives.

didnt really read my books every weekends. I was planning to read them on weekends but den i would always go out. haha. or probably watch my drama and anime. So in the end, i read a small part of each of my books. haha. Yup, all with bookmarks indicating the pages i read until. It is so unlike me. 'Cos i'm someone who will finish one book before starting another. Luckily i finish "He's not that into you" quite fast and yea i finished watching the movie also. LOL~

Anws, gonna plan for upcoming gatherings. See you girls soon! =DD

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Btw, i learned to fly kite today! =) so happy~! haha.. It's a big achievement to see the kite flying high in the sky after i struggle to keep it flying (of cos with the help of Jiejin). =DD

I think i should learn new stuff every time i have got the opportunity to do so. Probably should change my mindset of "I can't do it one" to "I can do it!". Well, the spur of wanting to try kite-flying taught me so. =)
I wonder if i resign now, what kind of job should i look for next? what other opportunities and challenges await me?

Time to make decisions again. It's a chore, but every time i want to make a decision regarding my life, i feel motivating.

Some time in the past, i learned not to regret on the decisions I've make. Even if it's probably wrong. Move on with the decisions you make. But make sure you are sure of the road in front of you. 'Cos you control your own life. =)

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Brought another pair of shoes yday while shopping at vivo.

Found another brand that i like! Its naturalizer! Comfortable and suitable for my feet. Although the new pair seems as high as the one i got in tokyo. I love that tokyo pair, but bcos i wash it, de leather loosen and i cant wear it anymore. =((

Anyways, i ve a pair of Hush puppies (in shoe closet), 2 pairs of Scholls, 1 pair of Sketcher, and a new pair of Naturalizer! I'm getting used to abit of heights cos i always like a good pair of shoes with heights. Mind you, they are not heels (i cant wear heels and stilettos.) And well, i start to learn to walk properly anyway since my physio, so hopefully its not a problem. =)) Besides, I realizes i starting to dislike flat shoes which really hurt my feet after i stand / walk for a tad too long. My good pair of Sketcher, with a big of height and comfortable, is really lasting for shopping haha. (Yes, I have flat foot. Maybe that's why flat shoes is bad for me. Although probably they are more stable for me.)

Oh and i have gotten a gym ball for my physio as well. I used it once when I was in TTSH and i found it quite useful. I haven wash it and use it yet. Starting to use next week. Hopefully it helps to strengthen my hips and balancing.

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Wish i have a passion about something. That i will do something that i will not regret doing. And doing them enthusiastically. This way I will know that i live for something.

Hm, something i like and i dreamt about. I dreamed about being a professional / good swimmer (not limited by any boundaries), but i don't wanna earn money by being a swimmer. Just something that i want to show others that I'm good at and proud of.

I used to think about being in a volunteering organisation. Those for helping others and stuffs like that. Not to say that I'm a Saint la, but it feels good to help. =) Thinking of joining SOS as a volunteer now. I don't know why. I know I would lend my ear to anyone in distress if it will make them feel better. =) Though it's a tiring work.

"...as a way of helping others and contributing to the society. And I thought that it is never too early or late to start volunteering. " -- quoted from a female volunteer in SOS

"Figuratively, “Good Samaritans” are persons who go out of their way to perform acts of kindness to others, especially strangers." -- abstracted taken from Answers.com


Sometimes I wonder the interesting facts and knowledge being a psychologist, yet of cos im not qualify to be one. My bro always tell me that I'm not suitable to be one. Maybe, but I'm always intrigued by the human's emotions and behaviors. Even when I walk on the streets, I will sometimes differ why some strangers behave in the way they do. Haha, really intriguing.

I would try to understand why some colleagues say the things they say. It could be totally hurting, but i wonder why? Is it because of something / emotions / people that triggers these? Okay, sometimes i really think why they are so judgmental as in they think so badly of another person(s). Can't they put themselves in other people's shoes? But of cos, I would never get involved in all of these politics. That's why i preferred to work somewhere with a bit of "人情味". Work is never understanding, but people can be.


Questions of the mind. Again.
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Friday, March 18, 2011

leave me alone. it's hard as it is already.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Thoughts of a spur moment:

Sometimes i wonder what economic crisis or other smaller issues gonna matter anymore, when bigger problems like the earth itself is toppling upside down?

So i wonder why we still trying to work hard, without seeing the bigger picture of the world problem? What will happen 20-50 years later? Will de world finally die? Whats our united solution / combat against the end of the world?

While watching the discovery channel of the search in the universe a few month ago, i wonder about how huge our universe is, and yet people worry about what kind of leisure lives they should be living in? My question is, is money, now, that important? Or is survival more important? or money = survival in your life? It makes me want to cry. Is that a passion about protecting the earth?

Thursday, March 10, 2011

starting to watch drama again, despite fatigue from work haha! Anws, been watching 犀利人妻。

de main actress is like me like that, who wants nothing but a loving family. But den something changes her to be a modern woman, someone who not only loves others, but loves herself too. I realised that by trying to build and show confidence, one must also feel pretty, other than displaying your beauty(i dont mean slim and pretty here, just a confident you!), to feel confident.

the main character in the show is my idol now. The actress playing her is also my idol. I dont know how she do it, but she is able to play from a role of a naive housewife who live only for others, to a role of a confident working woman. I mean, think about it~! how did she manage to act this well? Such a drastic change for a housewife who has never know anything about the outside world, other than her cosy home.

I learn something from that drama.

Looking at her is like looking at myself. I know i need this kinda change. But i have no support. All i can do is to believe in myself. And probably read self-enhancement books. xD


Smiling everyday should be my motto from now on. =D When you smile, you think positive. And when you think positive, you feel happy. That makes you smile more.

That's what i did today after work. I realised I need to smile more. So i try. And yes, i feel a whole lot happier. =) (Okay i didnt smile widely so that people wouldn't start to think that i'm crazy!)

Thursday, March 03, 2011

Quote of the day: "You are what you think."
- abstracted from Mind Power, by James Borg.


Yea, Mind Power is another self-help book i bought.

All i wanted to do on that day was to buy myself lots of books to read. But den i came across these interesting book that i spend the "entire" day standing there and reading another book. I didnt buy that book cos its damn ex!! 40 bucks! might as well just stand there and read. haha.


I was trying to share this thought that i had when i was in train back to home today. But den i forgot wad it was. Was definitely interesting, haha.

Oh i remember, when i look into the mirror. Random comment: A good mascara and a good lip balm is all i need. =) (Apply a thin layer of foundation and you're good to go.)

It's like a good pair of shoes brings you to wherever you wanna go. It's true, my current good pair of shoes can make me walk longer without fatigue. haha. My last mascara fail me after a few hours of applying. This current one last de whole day. =) That why i love it! haha.


Love and Signed, =P
JaN

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

i wish i could be typing all my feelings here. =(