y do my mom want to say things like that? humans change for sure, but i dun want to think abt all that now... jun, u r rite... sometimes its good to make a quick decision... let the consequences come after some time... lets take a step as we go, alright? if u think too much, u will keep worrying when that day will come... y not live the day happily... humans worry too much... b4 this i worry abt the consequence too... but as the day goes by, i become depressed.. and i threw the depression away.. which i become happier now... i dun dare to think of the future and wats going to happen... its just making me sad... i mean wats the point? u cant predict the future also... u r only making up "wat if"... y think so much? cope with the future only when it comes lar... its like buying a thing... u see something u like, but then u think abt the price, the better quality outside and other things.. and when u leave it, u regret not buying that thing... wat if the price drop after a couple of months? so? u like it b4 and u got it and it gave its use to u... character wise, nope not the same... u change and u tot the past u were plain naive... maybe u can say ur naive character did let u see the good side of u... meaning u ve become uglier... or, ur uglier past had come to light... bam, u bcom a better person... r u happy for who u ve bcom, or for ur past? thinking hurts u noe... haha... it hurt ur brain and ur heart... so sometimes its good not to think too much... and not too less too... like me... muahahaha... bad/good consequences of mine always end up messed up... cos i din plan ahead... i do wat i think now... basically, not going thru that brain of mine lar... cos i always think thinking hurts my head and i feel like sleeping... the days passed just like that, and yay, i haven achieve much... not proud of it lar... ashamed... to face the facts... ashamed... to make any judgement... ashamed... of myself... i dun want to make a promise that i would change for the better.. cos i always fail to do so... and i always say i would try... but now... i am really trying lar... dun belittle me hor... i can do it de... the future me? i shaped it... but im not really sure what will come out... as i'd say, humans change... so u change, without knowing that u already change... sad isnt it?