today is another day... but my leg injury is on its way to recovery! yes! soon i will be able to go out to breath fresh air! someday later we go ktv, ok girls?

hehe... me and dear had nth to do so we decided to plait my hair lol... m i supposed to say this, dear? anyway.. here's a photo of my plaited hair... cute not? lol...


okok i noe i cmi lar... dunno how to act cute somemore... wahaha... anyway, been thinking abt going either overseas again or just a gathering chalet? what do u say? good? i also dunno when also... weekend thingy? well, tell me more if u girls decide for it... hehe...

michael's msn nick: never try to understand a woman, you just need to love her

girls, is that true?

i make joke out of myself to entertain ppl too much. My dreams always get myself involved in their "joke of the day". They laughed at me, mocked me and leave me. It hurt so much that I often cry when i wake up and i'll be thinking "y r they doing this to me?" I had a bad dream of friends and family laughing at me and i felt all alone. Total darkness. In reality, I noe it's not the same. My family love me too much. But y r they mocking at me in my dreams? Is that a reminder for me to treasure my loves well? so they wont leave me, like what they do in my dreams? Sometimes, these dreams affect me so badly that i become moody for the next few hours, or maybe the whole day. I am a victim of those jokes. Sometimes I wonder, y do ppl love to make fun of me so much? To entertain themselves? Or am I really that corny? Even my loved ones do that.. Deep down, I know they meant no harm. But it hurts. That's why i often keep my mouth shut when it happens. 'Cause its hurting inside. I know I do that to ppl sometimes, and i just dunno how to stop too. But it's not deliberate. It's really a slip of tongue.. Must control... Haiz, must be retribution. They r doing the same thing cos i did the same to them too. Well, i cya ppl soon.. Actually, I do/say all these stupid things to make the attention all drawn to myself. Haha. It's natural.

sianz... my leg is still quite seriously injured.. it still haven recover... im relieved to see the swelling abit gone... but it still hurts like hell when i try to walk... guess i cannot go back to sch yet... not when i cannot even walk properly... dear came these few days to accompany me and brought me to the chinese sinseh.. thanks so much *muacks*
i have not been going out for like a hundred years... and i ve to rest my legs straight to let the blood circulate... cannot move much also... damn... abit sick of this recuperating... haiz... i wait for the day when i wake up and find that my leg has already recover... yay... lol... everyday i stay at home, i just want to zZzzZzz... and i sleep a lot... night time 8-9 hrs + nap 3 hrs... envy of my life ppl? haha... well, quit ur job and be like me, then u wont ve to envy me... thing is, u ve to hurt urself to get out of ur job hahaha... i ve no income le... gotten 300+ for my 1 week job b4 i sprain my leg... lol
i dun want to revise my math cos i just want to slp.. and im not worry abt math leh... the most i take up math unit during the course lor... if i fail lar... *touch wood* i haven fail a subject for like a long time liao... i mean really... the least ive gotten is maybe D lor... if u count D7(o level subs) as pass, muahaha... aiya... sianz... i go rest le... bb

dear accompany me to sinseh today... ermz... as im writing, im thinking abt the gay blog haha... like im writing my own gay blog... =x
okok, reset... lol
dear accompany me to sinseh today... hahahaha... im thinking again... cos we watched brokeback mountain after we got back... it was gross to him lar... not to me though... lol... guess guys watching gays r really sucky rite? haha... yea i noe, the thought of 2 guys being together is already like that... how abt watching one too? at first, it's really bad, then i tried to get used to it... haha... and with the introducing of the gay's blog by our dear fren, CS... i begin to think gays are not such big thing lol...
shush... dun say liao...
anyway, my legs swollen like a pig's trotter... i laugh at it everytime i see it... lol... i believe everyone seen the shou shen nan nu... sammi cheng transform herself to this fat girl and my foot is like hers... lolx... k lar not that big... but its somthing like that... haha... i gotta go back to the doc on sat... to change medicine... hope my pig trotter would be better by the weekend so i can go back to sch next week... haiz... been missing 6 hrs of lesson liao... gotta go le
ciau ppl... =P

I am sooooo the bored rite now... i had a bad twist yday while coming down from the bus after lunch... shannen, my hr sup, brought me to the chinese physician in bukit batok but the sinseh dun dare to treat for me and suggested that i go x-ray first.. so we took a cab down to the polyclinic... the procedure took nearly 2 hours... the sprain was so bad that i couldnt stand by myself... so had difficulty coming home too...
my parents took leave today to take me to another sinseh... they insisted on one cos its badly sprain... i absent-mindedly placed my phone on the cab and forgot abt it... luckily we called that cab so we managed to find it and the drivers are changing shifts at that time so had no other passengers yet... and we took the same cab home... haha... here i am, wrapped up... gotta go back on thurs to change the medicinal herb... haiz... btw he mentioned that i got a bone crack... said that i twisted too hard and cracked my bone... no wonder it was that swollen... sob... its really painful... worst then wat i had in redang... piangz...
i need 3-4 weeks to heal... so by that time i dun need to go back to my company le... cos the job stops ard early may... so i told my agent that i quit and since they dun need anyone, might as well stop going back... just rest... and wait for my math exam... speaking of that... maths is dead... must go back next week to resume lesson or else i am so dead... haiz...

i think im getting old... its my face... im changing... i think it used to look vibrant.. now it just look dull and ugly... or maybe work and not enough sleep make one haggard? I feel so wierd and tired after getting 8-9 hours sleep... normally i would feel quite energetic.. but yday and today are just tired... Or did I sleep too much? All of a sudden, I feel uglier than ever... my inner sides too... maybe because i try too much?

Went out yday to buy another pair of working shoes. well, din get a shoe and gotten 2 pieces of working clothes instead... it is weekend, fri was non-working day... so y din i get my butt out of the house tt day? i think everyone went out... to treasure the weekends with their loved ones... Hmmm... I bottle up my feelings too much... i dun dare to reveal what's bothering me... like what the horoscope says, im afraid to reveal my emotions... that's y ppl ard me feel smothered... cos they dunno what im thinking abt.. i am negative, arent I? I am supposed to be positive cos I dun think too much... The most "innocent" of all...

my mum makes a mountain out of a molehill... she confused me too much with her words... She make me see the "big" picture of a small thing that happen... my brother was making her see how her words was eating into me... yea, i was scared... that's how i become negative.. i think i think abit too much when i remember my mum's version... i must not be dependent on ppl's thoughts.. If this continues, with my mum's constant nagging, I might go berserk... You may not know what im saying... I am saying that my mum is worrying too much about my life... I am not strong, remember? I suck... in everything... Sucky me... Booooo... crying seems more depressed than ever... therefore I shall not.. I should just be me... whatever comes, come.

i start work le... recently had done some acct/admin work assigned by the accounts ppl... cos im in accounts dept... went with lee to the ware house today to look for invoices.. damnit so big lar... then many invoices to find... all the way from 9.30am to 4pm still haven finish searching... had lunch there too... monday i think gotta go back again... okay lar... at least got work to do... but its really tiring... then after that i went for my class lo... i think i cannot make it liao... my eyes blurring lol.. then functions and differentiation is -_-''... i dun understand how u come to get that ans.. well... not very much... oh btw, wantian is also taking the math bridging course... had break with her just now... lucky theres still her around... i thought i am gonna be a loner for this whole math course...
thanks dear for sending me home... although my mum says i can take cab home muahaha... =X
tml is good friday! yeah!!! no need go work... can sleep until 10 am!! LOL... i am trying to make all my weekends worthwhile... now i understand y le.. =p

yday went to sing at kbox... although i just went a few weeks ago, but that was 2 person singing sia... will die... at least yday was 4 ppl... anyway, sang from 12-3(we delayed the time, the person keep saying "last song, last song") lol... met dear at the station and went to peninsula... and yes! i bought my adidas shoes(quite a nice one) without much thinking... and the later part was the heartache, not bcos i spent a bomb on that shoes, but i nv looked enuff... i told u, theres simply too many diff types of shoes! and lastly, bought my working shoe at funan... well, its not really working shoes but at least it looks like one... haha...
was abit hungry, went down to jp to meet my bro for dinner... had pizza.. i din noe they cannot pay by nets... poor dear had to pay for our dinner... its damn ex, noe y? cos that bro of mine keep ordering larrr... went to rent vcds for my bro... he really taking the advantage with the fact that my parents not in SG -_-'' went home to watch kill bill 2... sorry guys, not that i was scared or anything, i was too tired to comprehend the show hehe... so we just stopped watching altogether... after dear left... my bro and i watched a more complicated show 'Closer'.. at least it was not violent and dun need much thinking... i dun want to think... well, that show was full of sex and love... not recommended for kids wahaha... its NC 16 i think...
after the show, i just went to bed... hey, i woke up early alright! lolx...

wenta watch ice age 2. it was so funny i laugh my head off.. story ended like that only.. dunno wat to say lar... lolx...
the biggest reward for today - a sling bag for him and me. after hours of searching for shoes, gave up and finally went to buy bags haha.. all the shoes ive seen? yea, i dunno how to choose... shoes are simply everywhere! shall look at it somemore tml... haha.. ktv tml... =D cya..

i am so afraid of getting hurt now. I dun want the same thing to happen to me again.. It was so painful.. Those are the bad memories that i choose to forget. And my ma keep confusing me. Dun mixed the past with the present? But don't they ve the same verb(love)?
Yday, he asked me abt me and my bf. Y does he care anyway? And dun try to console me by saying he cares abt u... U live ur happy life, and i live mine. Shut out of my life. Sj says she noes him, but i think they r referring to another person. Come to think of it, haha, my friend and my ex, my friend and my ex.. funny world isnt it? Y do such problems happen to me? I just want my love to be pure, without obstacles. It's like living in a reality world(which it is). Arh... Back me up here, ppl. I need some advice.

Take me to a place, where I could stop feeling sorrow. I cannot stop myself from thinking them.

my maths course starts from today... an angmoh teacher teaching maths... kinda interesting... but it is that late lar... i was falling asleep lo... anyway, the lecture hall was so full that i nearly couldnt find any seat for myself when i got in... abit shocked... poly life is totally different from Uni life... the ppl r older too haha... of cos this is a night class.. but they r not working adults... i mean they r really 20+ young adults lo... found myself studying all over again... i nearly forgot what it feels like to be on the first day in sch... the anxious kind where u wonder how ur new frens will be like... haha... i hadnt made any today lar... i think most of them ve a company or in a group... come to think of it, im kinda loner... again... lol...
in order to ve a proper meal, i must reach there like 45 mins earlier... cos i was late today... haha... thanks to a certain person... and that same person accompany me there and from there back home... now is really a big thank u... haha.. tiring... i go sleep le... good nite everyone.. :D

my passport photo was taken when i was 12... when i was in the m'sia custom that day, the officer actually ask weiwei does the person in the photo look like me.. -_-'' he says yea, abit lar... the officer just told me that i ve to change my photo lol...
so today, i went lavendar with dear.. well, to update my photo of cos... haha... it was quick cos i brought along my recently taken photos... then we went bugis OG in search for my shoes... dammit man... either i cant find that shoe i wanted or there's no size for me... -_-'' went back to seiyu... and still nth... gave up and we went back sch... lol... cos dear had to pay his library fine in order to get his cert... oopz im not suppose to mention this... hehe... i decided to give myself and jp another shot... lol... so we went to jp... wahaha... was trying to find bags there and of cos my shoes... and... i gave up... shall do that some other time within this week... or else i will ve to wear my broken converse shoes everywhere i go... sian... i wear that shoe for 3 yrs already... ever since poly starts, it has been with me.. and now we ve to be separated... simply bcos its done its job as a pair of good-old shoe... lol.. anyway, for me, my shoes are impt to me... so my mum will wanna get the best no matter how costly it is... cool~~ my mum's de best... lolx... and its really true for my legs lar... too bad that im born like that lo =P.. gotta go... cya...

p.s. thanks dear for the shopping, although i got nth out of it, lol... i am that mafan larrr~~ =P

Yay~! Zhiyang won the campus superstar... he is the superstar now... I am so happy... cos he din waste my $1.80 on sms voting... lol.. u see, cos he's my bro's fren then he sings well, so naturally i voted for him... not my fault... haha... and then his polls was abit lacking lar... than maybe renfred... so i voted for him lo... hey, u wouldnt noe... maybe our smses help him win that superstar wor... lol... okay okay... dun talk kok liao... ciau...

i believe some of u already noe i sprain my ankle le lar... it happened on the 2nd day of redang... luckily all the snokling sessions were over...
my leg hurts... but i had to go suntec for the job agency... cos the agent found me a job already... its a data entry/admin job in tuas... however this job is 8.30-6 lo.. my maths course starting from 7-10pm lo.. i guess i gotta rush... in case u dunno wats the maths course for, i tell ya... its for the exemption of one of the unit in my IS & management.. so if i pass this maths course, i dun ve to take that maths unit le lo...
anyway, i starting my job on the 10th apr and my course on the 4th apr... the money ar? 5.50 per hour lo... but this job is until may... i might ve to find another one... lolx... or pray that they would extend me...

finding shoes for my work and outings... the work one could be my grad ceremony shoes also... speaking of which, i shall go whoever more is going haha... yday went to watch failure to launch... the show is soso ba... i dun think i can get used to watch comedy after watching too much m18 shows... i go slack le... cya