i make joke out of myself to entertain ppl too much. My dreams always get myself involved in their "joke of the day". They laughed at me, mocked me and leave me. It hurt so much that I often cry when i wake up and i'll be thinking "y r they doing this to me?" I had a bad dream of friends and family laughing at me and i felt all alone. Total darkness. In reality, I noe it's not the same. My family love me too much. But y r they mocking at me in my dreams? Is that a reminder for me to treasure my loves well? so they wont leave me, like what they do in my dreams? Sometimes, these dreams affect me so badly that i become moody for the next few hours, or maybe the whole day. I am a victim of those jokes. Sometimes I wonder, y do ppl love to make fun of me so much? To entertain themselves? Or am I really that corny? Even my loved ones do that.. Deep down, I know they meant no harm. But it hurts. That's why i often keep my mouth shut when it happens. 'Cause its hurting inside. I know I do that to ppl sometimes, and i just dunno how to stop too. But it's not deliberate. It's really a slip of tongue.. Must control... Haiz, must be retribution. They r doing the same thing cos i did the same to them too. Well, i cya ppl soon.. Actually, I do/say all these stupid things to make the attention all drawn to myself. Haha. It's natural.