i think im getting old... its my face... im changing... i think it used to look vibrant.. now it just look dull and ugly... or maybe work and not enough sleep make one haggard? I feel so wierd and tired after getting 8-9 hours sleep... normally i would feel quite energetic.. but yday and today are just tired... Or did I sleep too much? All of a sudden, I feel uglier than ever... my inner sides too... maybe because i try too much?

Went out yday to buy another pair of working shoes. well, din get a shoe and gotten 2 pieces of working clothes instead... it is weekend, fri was non-working day... so y din i get my butt out of the house tt day? i think everyone went out... to treasure the weekends with their loved ones... Hmmm... I bottle up my feelings too much... i dun dare to reveal what's bothering me... like what the horoscope says, im afraid to reveal my emotions... that's y ppl ard me feel smothered... cos they dunno what im thinking abt.. i am negative, arent I? I am supposed to be positive cos I dun think too much... The most "innocent" of all...

my mum makes a mountain out of a molehill... she confused me too much with her words... She make me see the "big" picture of a small thing that happen... my brother was making her see how her words was eating into me... yea, i was scared... that's how i become negative.. i think i think abit too much when i remember my mum's version... i must not be dependent on ppl's thoughts.. If this continues, with my mum's constant nagging, I might go berserk... You may not know what im saying... I am saying that my mum is worrying too much about my life... I am not strong, remember? I suck... in everything... Sucky me... Booooo... crying seems more depressed than ever... therefore I shall not.. I should just be me... whatever comes, come.