The only problem is I haven't get what I want yet.

I know what I want but I haven't try receiving it yet. And what I need is so important.

If only you know.

I will start to stop giving now. And ask for more instead.

If only you know.

Quotes 4:

Intimidation always weaken trust in a relationship.To muscle your way into getting what you want by making others look wrong is a sure way to fail in a relationship.

Many believes if one keep sleeping too much, one will want to sleep more. I guess its true for me. I have been waking up in the morning around 10-11 am, and still not wanting to get out of bed.

And I dwell on the whole day for not sleeping enough. Feeling tired, I shake out of it by telling myself that I have enough sleep already.

God knows whether its a symptom for undesirable illness. *Touch wood* Or maybe I coop in too long. Haha.

How I really wish, school is here again.


I finished Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows yesterday. Expected ending, although unexpected deaths and twist in the story. Wont tell =X. Dont wanna be a spoiler. When I went out with my brother last week, some kid nearly revealed the story on the train. He wanted to beat the crap out of him with the book in his hand. LOL. Gw bought the book on sunday while I read the e-book. I guessed I finished reading earlier 'cos he dont have much time to finish it yet.


Anyway, updates.

Erm. Went out with my mum and bro on last sun to eat dinner at JP's fish n co.. Bought harry potter 7th book and house of the dead 3 for pc. We went home and I started on my e-book.

Mon - Arranged to meet dear and bro to watch goal2 at cathay cineleisure. I haven watch goal but both of them had. Btw, goal is about soccer. And you can imagine the lead playing the match with beckham and team against arsenal and whatever big names in the football arena. Walked around cineleisure after the movie. gw bought a game magazine and kev bought his DS skin. Took train until clementi while we planned to search for game shops. Apparently the shops has closed. Disappointed and tired, for we walked quite long to the destination, we finally hailed a cab home.

Dear went home quite early yesterday. Met him for dinner at cityhall. Ate at glutton's bay. Took 960 to bugis and shopped at SIM LIM. He got CS pc game. We walked back to bugis junction and started to look at bags along the way. Tore my eyes from the bags finally and went into fox ladies. Didnt buy anything though. Windowshopped somemore before going back to the train station. Was trying on sunglasses already, tempting to buy the one that best suited me. However they were out of stock of new ones.

Have not been able to get anything there, in bugis. Sad. So on the verge of getting the stuffs I wanted. Blasted.

Now I should know why everytime a couple argues, they are getting more and more upset.

If you still remember my previous quotes, mistakes that men make is often not giving the women right to be upset and then tell them why they shouldnt be and give them solutions or explanations.

"The last thing a woman needs when she is on her way down is someone telling her why shouldnt be down. What she needs is someone to be with her as she goes down, to listen to her while she shares her feelings, and to empathize with what is going through. Even if a man cant fully understand why a woman feels overwhelmed, he can offer his love, attention and support.

"Telling a woman she shouldnt feel hurt is about the worst thing a man can say. It hurts her even more, like poking a stick into an open wound."

"When a woman is feeling hurt, she may sound as if she is blaming him. But if she is given care and understanding, the blame will disapper. Trying to explain to her why she shouldnt be hurt will make matters much worse."

"What she needs is his understanding of why she is hurting."

"Most couples start out arguing about one thing and, within 5 minutes, are arguing about the way they are arguing."

"It is not what we say that hurts but how we says it."

"He is aware neither of how uncaring he sounds nor of how hurtful this is to his partner. At such times, a simple disagreement may sound like an attack to a woman; a request turns into an order. Naturally a woman feels resistant to this unloving approach, even when she would be otherwise receptive to the content of what he was saying."

"Because he does not understand her reaction, he focuses more on explaining the merit of what is saying instead of correcting the way he is saying it."

"He has no idea that he is starting an argument; he thinks she is arguing with him. He defends his point of view while she defends herself from his sharpened expressions, which are hurtful to her."

A common male/female basic patten:

1. A woman expresses her upset feelings about "XYZ."
	2. A man explains why she should't be upset about "XYZ."
3. She feels invalidated and becomes more upset. (She is now more upset about being invalidated than about "XYZ.")
	4. He feels her disapproval and becomes upset. He blames her for upsetting him and expects an apology before making up.
5. She apologizes and wonders what happened, or she becomes more upset and the argument escalates into a battle.

"To avoid painful arguments it is important to recoginize how men unknowingly invalidate and how unknowingly women send messages of dispproval."

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I did what I have planned in the morning - shopped till drop. And there lying on my sofa are my goods for shopping today!

Met dear at orchard, planning in my mind to start buying clothes already. =D

Firstly, of cos, is to go eat my lunch. We bought lotsa food, including icecream and the yucky chocolate soybean at taka foodfest. Yes, the one we went to last wed.

Hmm. Walked around taka, trying to find a bag again. Came to some cd shop beside giordano and then finally sat down at the resting area. A girl's period is still a bearable stuff. But not while you are walking for long. Walked abit more and rest alot more. And at last, I am able to move much without difficulty.

I started to pull dear into forever21 with me. Bought 2 shorts and 2 blouses there. Absolutely happy about them! And then we went in to zara. Tried clothes and bought all 3 of them at a sale price. Double happiness!

Was thinking of going bugis too. But dear says theres zing in far east too. So we walked there. Still didnt find any bags. But I just went into one shop and bought another bottom. LOL.

Okay, so there I was abit guilty for spending and so have to stop. Didnt buy anymore but merely walking around with dear. Ate our dinner at some noodle stall. Fishhead beehoon was good, well, you can assume I was hungry, but still, it was quite nice. Dear had beef noodle and well, I didnt took much of that 'cos it doesnt look ..

Well, anyway, dear saw love while we ate! She was with her colleagues too! What a concidence! She came in to say hi and then went off. =) After eating, we went home.

I am so delighted to have gotten my clothes. Shoes and bag doesnt really matter to me, for I dont need them, just yet. Haha. But the price you have to pay, tsk tsk. Both your physical endurance and the contents in your wallet.

Alright, have to start saving now. Stop asking me for shopping anymore. I fear that I cannot control once I start.

The worst decision for a girl, is to wonder what to wear to a place to meet other people. And so is it for me. School is starting, and I begin to realise my wardrobe needs a little change. GSS is going soon, so I'd better do it now! Hurry while stock lasts! LOL.

By the way, the way I dress during my SIM yr 1, is totally hideous. I wonder how I can survive during those days? Argh. Besides I am studying in a IT course, where girls are considered rare inside classes.

Shopping starting from now! I dont wanna care whether to save anot already. Holiday is going to be over anyway. I just need to maintain some figures ($$ not shape, dont laugh). Haha. Every single time, huh? =X Okok. Not funny.

Where is the best place to shop, my sisters? Drop a hint, please.

I think I havent been out in the open for too long. Which is why it feels wierd walking along orchard, or just out. Im like caging myself when its time for holidays.

I am delaying everything that I planned to do for my holidays. Hopefully those will get done before school starts. Huh? Those plans are just teeny weeny things. Haha.

Right. Next on yesterday's outing with jiemeis.

Met kw and jo at orchard around 6.30pm(sheesh, 'bit guilty for being late). Roamed around before deciding what place to have dinner in. I just suggested Crystal Jade. Ordered a "lang zai jok" (porridge) for kw, a roasted duck noodle(jo) and a cantonese "zha jiang mian" for me. So unfortunately, the "zha jiang mian" didnt taste like what it sounded to be. We waited for love to arrive before I asked her to share fried rice with me. Hah.

After dinner, we walked around giordano and then went in Isetan to windowshop. I saw Winnie, my sec sch friend, but I didnt say hi, she didnt notice me either. Betty didnt get the cardigan she wanted and so we moved on to the The Face Shop. I bought a pore minimiser and betty bought nail polish remover. Next, we headed to Sasa. Love bought tons of stuffs while I managed to get a brush for blusher. LOL. Anyway, I dropped my jade! *Gasped* I screamed when it dropped. Not because I dropped something, but because I know that is an expensive jade that my mum bought for me from Cheena. I thought she was going to kill me. But when I got home and told her, she just replied, "huh? where u drop? U wasted my 1k. *Shrugged* I dont know. Keep it lor." Whew. *Sweat*

Oh and the bloody bus. I stood all the way 'cause I boarded the bus at orchard Mrt and there was already no seats. My feets were aching like mad, as though all the blood flow down to my legs. I tried to bend my knees and it just made me look like an idiot. So I just keep moving my feets but it aint gotten any better. and the 2 aunties in front of me, Oh my godness! They wont bloody shuddup! Talk and talk like nobody's business. Finally when the bus came to the residents' areas, I was able to get a seat. And oh, I was feeling heaven for the first time! Haha. It was pouring. Mum called to see where I was. She brought umbrella for me to the bus stop. *Touched* She should be sleeping by that time though.

Urm, I watched abit of korean drama before going to sleep.

And up till now, the sky is still cloudy and I predict its going to rain anytime soon. LOL.

453th(My BLK haha) posts!

Today:

My bro and I went Jp for lunch at Mos burger. Dear joined us when we finished and then we went in the cinema to watch Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix. Hem, show's not bad except for the atmosphere. 'Cos its on a weekday, few ppl were there to watch it. And without the noise of the children makes the show seems abit dull. Haha.

After the movie, we went to find Wii games. Its having a 5% discount where we bought our Wii package there. Bought a Resident Evil 4 and WarioWare Smooth moves.

Had food at food court. Dear went EC to cut his hair while gw went home first. We went home after his hair cutting. Had tremendous fun playing Wii with kevin and gw. LOL

Anyway, bro booked in around 9pm and kevin went home around 10pm. I continued playing the new bought Smooth Moves. Well, thats about it. Shall update more next week I guess. See ya around.

What Jealousy means:

To a man: Don't be ridiculous! We are just friends! (thinks she's just over sensitive)

To a woman: Oh, you are so cute! =D (thinks he's over-reacting, but knows she means alot to him)

I met my brother at JP to buy a Wii yesterday. Gw bought another Oblivion expansion and a bag.

The Wii package: 2 wiimotes, 2 nanchuks, 1 game and the console.

Other shops are selling only 2 wiimote, 1 nanchuck, 1 game and console. This shop that we bought wii in, give a really cheap price for another nanchuk. By the way, nanchuk is a joystick-like remote. It is to connect to the wiimote, so a player might need a wiimote and a nanchuk to play a game, eg. boxing.

Wii Trailer:


Pity I haven't got all the games I wanted play yet.

We played until our arm ache LOL. And it sure is feeling sore now. Its so fun, whoever wants to play too can come to my house. But I have only 2 wiimotes. Haha. Buying another wiimote and nanchuk cost 100plus alone, without the package. Well, thats about it.

Went coffee bean for tea(and i mean seriously, tea) and 1 mudpie. After that we took a cab home.

Quotes 2:

1. A man becomes fully receptive to and appreciative of the six kinds of love primarily needed by women (caring, understanding, respect, devotion, validation, and reassurance) when his own primary needs are first fulfilled. Likewise a woman needs trust, acceptance, appreciation, admiration, approval, and encouragement. But before she can truly value ana appreciate these kinds of love, her primary needs first must be fulfilled.

2. When a Martian expresses his caring and understanding, a Venusian automatically begins to reciprocate and return to him the trust and acceptance that he primarily needs. The same thing happens when a Venusian expresses her trust - a Martian automatically will begin to reciprocate with the caring she needs.

3. When his behaviour takes into consideration her thoughts and feelings, she is sure to feel respected. Concrete and physical expressions of respect, like flowers and remembering anniversaries, are essential to fulfill a woman's third primary love need. When she feels respected it is much easier for her to give her man the appreciation that he deserves.


HOW YOU MAY BE UNKNOWINGLY TURNING OFF YOUR PARTNER

Mistakes women commonly make	Why he doesn't feel loved
1. She tries to improve his behaviour or help him by offering unsolicited advice.	1. He feels unloved becaused she doesn't trust him anymore.
2. She tries to change or control his behavior by sharing her upset or negative feelings. (It is OK to share feelings but not when they attempt to manipulate or punish.)	2. He feels unloved because she doesn't accept him as he is.
3. She doesn't acknowledge what he does for her buy complains about what he has not done.	3. He feels taken for granted and unloved because she doesn't appreciate what he does.
4. She corrects his behavior and tells him what to do, as if he were a child.	4. He feels unloved because he does not feel admired.
5. She expresses her upset feelings indirectly with rhethorical questions like "How could you do that?"	5. He feels unloved because he feels she has taken away her approval of him. He no longer feels like the good guy.
6. When he makes decisions or takes initiatives she corrects or criticizes him.	6. He feels unloved because she does not encourage him to do things on his own.
Mistakes men make	Why she doesn't feel loved
1. He doesn't listen, gets easily distracted, doesn't ask interested or concerned questions.	1. She feels unloved because he is not attentive or showing that he cares.
2. He takes her feelings literally and corrects her. He thinks she is asking for solutions so he gives advice.	2. She feels unloved because he doesn't understand her.
3. He listens but then gets angry and blame her for upsetting him or for bringing him down.	3. She feels unloved because he doesn't respect her feelings.
4. He minimizess the importance of her feelings and needs. He makes children or work more important.	4. She feels unloved because he is not devoted to her and doesn't honor her as special.
5. When she is upset, he explains why he is right and why she should not be upset.	5. She feels unloved because he doesn't validate her feelings but instead makes her feel wrong and unsupported.
6. After listening he says nothing or just walks away.	6. She feels insecure because she doesn't get the reassurance she needs.

Quotes from Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus:

1. When she is feeling good she is capable of seeig and responding to the good things in her life. But when she is crashing, her loving vision becomes cloudy, and she reacts more to what is missing in her life.

2. It puts too much pressure on a man to make him the only source of love and support.

3. By supporting her need to be heard, she could support his need to be free.

4. When her wave crashes again, similar issues will arise. Whatever remains to be healed or resolved from her past inevitably will come up.

5. When a man loves a woman, periodically he needs to pull away before he can get closer.

I have just registered for next year school semester. Looking forward to meeting school friends again. Miss their corny jokes.

Anyway, if I told my mum the school fees raise 200bucks more because of GST, i think she might say "Wah lao eh!! 20 dolllars nevermind, but 200 dollars!! Lucky not 2000 ar." LOL.

I got back "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" from kevin. If you see some relationship nick on my msn, I'd abstract them from the book. Simply because I know not alot is really wise enough to know the difference between men and women. And one sentence could really aid a bad relationship. I know love is reading that too =). I gave her that book for her last birthday. If anyone wants it, you can borrow from me or the library. Believe me, it really helps.

Thought of the day: A child's phase is the most important phase in life.

What a kid think may imprint onto his mind forever, unless someone attempt to change his way of thinking. His way of growing up affects his future. Parenting could be very difficult.

I know my brother and I grew up quite spoilt. At this age, we still do not know how to take care of ourselves. Not saying my mum is really a bad mother, but she never teach us everything we ought to learn in life. The reason we turned out well now goes to the surroundings affecting us, and that we learn well. There's still abit of "let mummy do things for us" kinda thinking. Haha. Although we have been hardworking when we adapt to circumstances. My father's motto - "You have to work to get the things you want." No, I didnt really follow that motto. =| My brother does. Hes gotten 'A's and he is rewarded significantly. He gain alot of knowledge through lots of community works and friends. I am satisfy with what I have, so I dont really need to work for it. Haha. Yes, I am simple and "nice".

End of thought.


Excitement only begin when we are able to go overseas.

PIG la! What Live Earth crap when they are constantly making pollution everywhere? Noise pollution especially. Its okay for some neighbourhood sounds around here 'cause I know its near to the road and market. But the deafening construction noise!!? Its getting louder and louder every single day. Especially annoying for a patient like me. What if someone has a throbbing headache and trying to rest at home uh? And the noise makes it harder to rest in peace. Luckily I didnt have a headache, just stomach discomfort. But at the rate they are going, I might get a headache. ****

What is wrong with the MP here? Singapore is going through changes, yes, but not here! Didnt he care about the peace and environment around here? I am so trying to minimize the noise but shutting myself in the room, with the doors tightly shut. I think a few more days, and I am going to be sick. Now i am listening to music with earpiece stuck in my ear. I heard some blasting music from some other block. That person must be also trying to cover the construction noise. What man. I think i hear them everyday ever since 2 years ago. The neverending construction is getting on my nerve. Why is the residents not complaining to the town council as well? Haiz. It is starting again. Oh gosh, help?!

Starting off with my "fragile" stomach. I regretted not taking any medicine yesterday morning before going out. The day became a very painful day for me. I hardly eat, except for the bread and cold milk I had in the morning. I took 'bit lunch at kevin's house. And then his mum make me a 3-in-1 coffee. I didnt know my stomach cannot take anymore things until that night. I didnt attempt to drink the coffee. My lunch was around 2plus, so after that I went to sleep, hoping I would feel better after a nap. At 6 I woke up, drank my warmed coffee, and prepared to go out.

Met kevin's friends at PS, going for dinner. I had a very bloated stomach, after drinking the coffee. I didnt eat any dinner at fish N Co. at Parkmall. Shared some food with clara and kev. Still didnt manage to finish it. I walked with a little hunch back, trying my best to walk as properly as possible. Took some photos and then we walked to orchard party world. Sang from 10-2am. Had quite a fun time with them. After that, dear and me shared a cab with Luke. We were heading to kev's house while Luke stay around ECP. Yeap, i stayed over.

Taken "bao chi yuan" before sleeping. I was still feeling quesy at midnight so I asked for some panadols. Yea and those pills worked. Should have taken that earlier. -.- Well, ate brunch before clementi. Just came home not long ago after dear went to buy a new frame for his specs. I am still having a bit of "feng" in my stomach, but guess I would be able to take some dinner later. Well. yeah, thats basically all about this weekend.

Aw. Just saw betty's old template and remind me of our poly times. All the sweet gatherings just float back to my mind. I will, I promise, to organise another gathering! And after the guys ORD, we shall go overseas together!

Aw, be waiting. =D

I met kw and joanne yesterday at cityhall. At last! I can finally get out of the house and return in 1 piece.

Love and jj didnt able to join us. We walked to suntec first and browsed for things abit before going for dinner. Ate at subway, and slacked there. Continue shopping and finally went home around 9plus. That stupid bus 502 just refused to come. I waited for the last bus, which is 10pm, then it came.


It is raining, miraculously. The weather is so on and off nowadays, its pissing off everyone, including me.

Bye.

Heal the world, make it a better place. For you and for me and the entire human race.

Crisis Solutions

Go people! Start now! I am not kidding! Save the earth!!

I simply got no more things to write. Im out of ideas and thoughts.

To my dear friends and cousins whos viewing this: I am well now, and hope more gathering will be coming up soon! How I wish I can go on a tour with you guys. =)
Go overseas! KTV, eat, hangout! Wherever and whenever.

To my beloved: I am waiting. Where art thou, my love?




Talking to a plain wall.

Making no sense.

Kissing goodbye. Muacks.

I was surfing on http://omg.yahoo.com and I saw all the celebs photos. I came across the daddys and their kids, then I was like, "OMG! They are so cute." And "OMG! Jude Law has a baby! =X"

Well, heres the cute photos that I saved.


Ben Affleck with daughter Violet at Country Mart in Brentwood April 5, 2007 X17online.com EXCLUSIVE


Cutest baby in town already a star! Ben Affleck and Jennifer garner take baby Violet to the studio nov 8, 2006 X17agency exclusive


Jude Law returns to London after filming in the USA to spend time with his kids. Jude picked up the children from nursery and school with ex-wife Sadie Frost who tried to hide from waiting photographers.


Jude Law plays with son Rudy at a park in Malibu april 29, 2006
X17agency EXCLUSIVE


David Beckham and his sons in Madrid.


Tobey Maguire carrying baby Ruby going to a party at Courteney Cox June 17, 2007 X17online EXCLUSIVE AlphaX/X17online.com


Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes join Victoria Beckham and her sons Cruz, Romeo and Brooklyn to watch Real Madrid's Spanish First Division soccer victory over Real Mallorca at the Santiago Bernabeu stadium in Madrid.

And last but not least, my fav couple of the century!!


Tom Cruise takes his girls Katie and Suri out for a night on the town.


Suri is dressed in an Irish Tartan Dress celebrating St. Patrick's Day.


Tom, Katie, and Suri look so happy together.


Tom and Katie are quite the doting parents.

Why they are my favourite couple? Cos they are hot, and so is the baby. And bcos I watched Oprah about Tom Cruise wanting to propose to Katie Holmes. =D

I suddenly feel useless and tired. I am who I am, but I hate who I am. After 20 years of struggling, I am still overestimating myself. I am satisfy but not overally happy. Crappy down mood comes again. Wonder if its the weather. Urgh. I feel my life is somewhat still and increasingly painful.

Is it time to grow?

Oh great. Just when I thought my body aches was getting better. My headache came and join the fun. Oh woo, and then my appetite worsen. I didnt eat in the morning until 2 pm when my mother bought food home yesterday. I still didnt eat cos my stomach somehow refused any food whichs coming in. I went to rest until 3 plus when dear called me. I was thinking whether to go for the NDP preview not. I guess I was feeling better so I agreed to go. Took a cab down with my parents. Then the jam begun. We had to alight from Millenia Walk and walked a long stretch of path to reach esplanade. And then dada dada dada. I dont even wish to mention anything about it.

Finally sat down under the scorching sun. Enjoyed the parade and the performance. Excellent performances by the armed forces. Not sure if they were trying to show off, but it was well done. Haha. Were trying to wait for the fireworks at the end. And people started leaving. I was like, Huh?, but the fireworks haven even start?! It was when I realised there was no fireworks at all. The commentor announced the end of the parade.

We went back to suntec convention centre, waiting to take bus 502 when my bro called. He wanting to meet us for supper. so dear went home while we waited for him at Food Republic. After eating Hokkien mee, we took 502 home.


Today, I just create a new blog skin. I dont know if anyone would want it. I will give a preview.



Went to sheng siong supermarket with my parents and bro opposite my house. Then came back and rest until dinner time. Took a cab to IMM for dinner. Had penne with turkey ham and cheese at Secret Receipe. Gw had fish and chips while my parents had a lamb stew each. Walked around Best Denki, Challenger and Sony for a while before going home. Next week could be getting a Wii! Need to check out the price and the modified version first of cos. Well, till then.