Relationships are so unpredictable.
You may love me now, but would you get tired and sick of me when days pass? Would you already found someone else, unknowingly?
Would faithful boy last forever? Am i the wrong girl for you, after all these times?
I am scared of this, sometimes.
When it fails, really, just move on. Do not keep any lingering memories. I only stored two away, only bcos they are unburnable and expensive, and never even bringing out to look at. Dont even try to feel nostalgic.
keep only happy thoughts. Hard but please try.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now Ive tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close dont ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now Ive tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close dont ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
i actually didnt really sit down at my desk to study for 2 weeks already.
Its time to start mugging again. From dawn till dusk. Methaphorically.
Actually feel kind of uneasy the past few days just playing games the whole day. Cos i didnt touch my notes for abit.
Its not like i havent alot of time to study. i have. but den again, maybe like betty, i like mugging? LOL.
Well, back to update.
dear is off for the whole week again.
so yday he came to help me set up the ethernet cable from the living room all the way to my room's desktop. haha. for the record, its bcos of the fast internet speed to download his cs and team fortress on my com.
haven really been going out. part of it was bcos of the unfathomable weather. and the other was lazy.
anyway i should get going now. or else i would get stuck here at my desktop again.
bye.
Its time to start mugging again. From dawn till dusk. Methaphorically.
Actually feel kind of uneasy the past few days just playing games the whole day. Cos i didnt touch my notes for abit.
Its not like i havent alot of time to study. i have. but den again, maybe like betty, i like mugging? LOL.
Well, back to update.
dear is off for the whole week again.
so yday he came to help me set up the ethernet cable from the living room all the way to my room's desktop. haha. for the record, its bcos of the fast internet speed to download his cs and team fortress on my com.
haven really been going out. part of it was bcos of the unfathomable weather. and the other was lazy.
anyway i should get going now. or else i would get stuck here at my desktop again.
bye.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Arh, another "busy" day --------------- playing game.
I did achieve something by listening intently in class from 10-5 on 2 weekends. and yes, i REALLY wanting to doze off in class. So tired.
tmr and fri is another long UOL lesson. haiz.
i think i will not going to sleep well for 6 months. I am rather tense up. and even though sleeping enough hours is not enough for me.
been sleeping late and waking up late and still feel tired. of cos, the longer u sleep, the more exhausted u feel.
although im sleepy, i dont want to sleep. bcos just thinking of the kind of wierd dreams when i drift off is scary. its not the nightmares that scary, its the different type of phenomenon that is the opp of my life that scares me.
to simplify - it is often says that ur dreams are the opposite or rather what u r wishing for unconciously in ur life. it may be also be due to the diff kinds of moods that u r having. eg. stress that im facing.
i dont know. i think everything happening to me, especially, is extra difficult. i need to try hard, not just to make it happen. im not talking abt a specific task, but the avg kind of task.
i dun really understand what is the meaning of behaving normally, bcos i dont.
oh just in case u dun understand, u dun ve to. =)
There are really diff kind of humans on earth that we cant accept. Or rather we cant make ourselves admit that its true. So we stick to the norms. if theres something peculiar, we can not help but wonder.
i like psychology bcos i like to think abt ppl and their actions. Somewhat fascinating and disgusted.
Why do ppl pray? why do ppl commit sins? why do ppl do the things they can choose not to do?
Gotta sleep now. Nites.
I did achieve something by listening intently in class from 10-5 on 2 weekends. and yes, i REALLY wanting to doze off in class. So tired.
tmr and fri is another long UOL lesson. haiz.
i think i will not going to sleep well for 6 months. I am rather tense up. and even though sleeping enough hours is not enough for me.
been sleeping late and waking up late and still feel tired. of cos, the longer u sleep, the more exhausted u feel.
although im sleepy, i dont want to sleep. bcos just thinking of the kind of wierd dreams when i drift off is scary. its not the nightmares that scary, its the different type of phenomenon that is the opp of my life that scares me.
to simplify - it is often says that ur dreams are the opposite or rather what u r wishing for unconciously in ur life. it may be also be due to the diff kinds of moods that u r having. eg. stress that im facing.
i dont know. i think everything happening to me, especially, is extra difficult. i need to try hard, not just to make it happen. im not talking abt a specific task, but the avg kind of task.
i dun really understand what is the meaning of behaving normally, bcos i dont.
oh just in case u dun understand, u dun ve to. =)
There are really diff kind of humans on earth that we cant accept. Or rather we cant make ourselves admit that its true. So we stick to the norms. if theres something peculiar, we can not help but wonder.
i like psychology bcos i like to think abt ppl and their actions. Somewhat fascinating and disgusted.
Why do ppl pray? why do ppl commit sins? why do ppl do the things they can choose not to do?
Gotta sleep now. Nites.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Both dear and gw booked out yday to clear their leaves.
Made me confused todays day. Haha.
I keep thinking, tmr is sat rite? then my bro say tmr is not sat lor. its wed today laa.
anw, hes leaving for india in another 3 weeks i think.
whenever they r home, they disrupt my routine, like my breakfast, lunch n dinner. tsk tsk.
its like having 2 boyfriends. =.= although the other one is to just accompany him play game, watch tv n shopping. wait. thats not right. both are actually like that lor. =.=
Its was not raining here b4 i left with gw to imm. but it was at kevin's so he decided not to come.
cabbed to imm when it started drizzling.
ate at cafe cartel. omg, guess whats for free dessert? its mini poppin' from walls or kings?! no wonder its free.
saunter from shops to shops looking for games. not shopping for clothes though. no mood to do that shopping and theres really not much apparel shops.
in the end bought a wii game, bully scholarship. its abt a student going ard his school studying, wooing girls, saving students from bullies, etc.
cabbed home. its still raining.
Made me confused todays day. Haha.
I keep thinking, tmr is sat rite? then my bro say tmr is not sat lor. its wed today laa.
anw, hes leaving for india in another 3 weeks i think.
whenever they r home, they disrupt my routine, like my breakfast, lunch n dinner. tsk tsk.
its like having 2 boyfriends. =.= although the other one is to just accompany him play game, watch tv n shopping. wait. thats not right. both are actually like that lor. =.=
Its was not raining here b4 i left with gw to imm. but it was at kevin's so he decided not to come.
cabbed to imm when it started drizzling.
ate at cafe cartel. omg, guess whats for free dessert? its mini poppin' from walls or kings?! no wonder its free.
saunter from shops to shops looking for games. not shopping for clothes though. no mood to do that shopping and theres really not much apparel shops.
in the end bought a wii game, bully scholarship. its abt a student going ard his school studying, wooing girls, saving students from bullies, etc.
cabbed home. its still raining.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
dear took off and we went out on friday to marina. Lunched at asian kitchen and then went to watch Step up 2. Brought nachos in. As usual, we finished it up during the show. LOL
Walked about finding wallets and polo shirts. Still did not manage to get anything.
Dinner was at secret receipe. Ok fine, it was just snack on the mouth-watering chocos mousse.
Went home after the dinner. I realise when im in town and theres 502, i would take them. Simply lazy to take train and then take bus again. Haha.
Heres the exciting part. Although im like, hellooo(semi-concuss), all the way. I guess its the crowd and the weather.
Went to kevin's to eat lunch that his mum cook. Around 3.30pm, we met my brother at bugis and headed to sls.
Dear asked for my specs and all while i just wait and of cos, listen as well. Reasonable price, well, i meant to say cheap. LOL.
I got the latest graphic card, a normal 2.33ghz intel core duo, a 2gb ram, lg dvdrom, and a nice casing for 1013 bucks. Paid cash cos they would add a 2% surcharge if pay by nets.
The building was done in half hour's time. Walked abt with my two fav guys looking for games, "that can be tested on my com". Strictly speaking, they are exploiting me and my desktop.
Cabbed home. Set up the drivers and windows. Wait for the installation and we went to eat at kfc.
My parents werent home yet. They went to the constructor's showroom.
Headed to seow choon to check out new games, and den went home to play smash bro brawl. Oh, its a wii game that gw just buy. Its fun, cos players just fight each other using the various nintendo characters.
My dear cousins, if u r reading this, u r so not going to miss this game. im planning to ask u guys come n play. cos one of kevin's wiimote is with me. LOL
So long~
Walked about finding wallets and polo shirts. Still did not manage to get anything.
Dinner was at secret receipe. Ok fine, it was just snack on the mouth-watering chocos mousse.
Went home after the dinner. I realise when im in town and theres 502, i would take them. Simply lazy to take train and then take bus again. Haha.
Heres the exciting part. Although im like, hellooo(semi-concuss), all the way. I guess its the crowd and the weather.
Went to kevin's to eat lunch that his mum cook. Around 3.30pm, we met my brother at bugis and headed to sls.
Dear asked for my specs and all while i just wait and of cos, listen as well. Reasonable price, well, i meant to say cheap. LOL.
I got the latest graphic card, a normal 2.33ghz intel core duo, a 2gb ram, lg dvdrom, and a nice casing for 1013 bucks. Paid cash cos they would add a 2% surcharge if pay by nets.
The building was done in half hour's time. Walked abt with my two fav guys looking for games, "that can be tested on my com". Strictly speaking, they are exploiting me and my desktop.
Cabbed home. Set up the drivers and windows. Wait for the installation and we went to eat at kfc.
My parents werent home yet. They went to the constructor's showroom.
Headed to seow choon to check out new games, and den went home to play smash bro brawl. Oh, its a wii game that gw just buy. Its fun, cos players just fight each other using the various nintendo characters.
My dear cousins, if u r reading this, u r so not going to miss this game. im planning to ask u guys come n play. cos one of kevin's wiimote is with me. LOL
So long~
Saturday, March 15, 2008
went shopping in isetan with kw on thurs. Woah, my shoes were torturing me! They are like the killers of the year! Man, i must remember again to cut my toe nails whenever wearing these kind of shoes.
Anyway, met kw at orchard. Then we went straight in, while flashing her isetan newsletter. First stop, mango. Tried 2 cute blouses and 2 pants. Love the blouses but the pants were too long, and erm, abit tight. LOL. Bought them with kw's isetan card with additional 10% discount!^^ thx alot!
We went about looking for clothes and bras. LOL. kw bought a hair clip. she didnt really buy anything though.
Were finally starving. So went to cold storage and bought sushi pack to enjoy, while kw had some fancy bread, like breadtalk's bread. We den continue shopping. LOL
I was supposed to look for men's polo tees and wallets but none came as fancy or appropriate to me.
Had dinner at tcc. Wasnt that hungry but i need to eat dinner, ya know? Haha. Paid and den went off to wisma!
went looking for kw's shoes. And unlucky her, those she like were neither her size nor perfect. In the end, she got a tube from mango.
Was exhausted and i was in excruciating pain. Nonetheless, i bid goodbye to kw at the mrt station, where i went to take 502 at the other side of the station. And lucky! Found a seat! Reach home at 9.30pm.
Anyway, met kw at orchard. Then we went straight in, while flashing her isetan newsletter. First stop, mango. Tried 2 cute blouses and 2 pants. Love the blouses but the pants were too long, and erm, abit tight. LOL. Bought them with kw's isetan card with additional 10% discount!^^ thx alot!
We went about looking for clothes and bras. LOL. kw bought a hair clip. she didnt really buy anything though.
Were finally starving. So went to cold storage and bought sushi pack to enjoy, while kw had some fancy bread, like breadtalk's bread. We den continue shopping. LOL
I was supposed to look for men's polo tees and wallets but none came as fancy or appropriate to me.
Had dinner at tcc. Wasnt that hungry but i need to eat dinner, ya know? Haha. Paid and den went off to wisma!
went looking for kw's shoes. And unlucky her, those she like were neither her size nor perfect. In the end, she got a tube from mango.
Was exhausted and i was in excruciating pain. Nonetheless, i bid goodbye to kw at the mrt station, where i went to take 502 at the other side of the station. And lucky! Found a seat! Reach home at 9.30pm.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
To study well for essay exams -
NB: My method of studying. LOL. Just want to rmb.
1st tip: keep a personal portable-size notebook. (With no calendars, whatsoever)
2nd tip: do a mindmap yourself. (study well and then do)
3rd tip: attempt past yr qns. (pencilled ans in points on qn paper)
4th tip: practice and practice essays writing. (Structure well and ans to the qn.)
5th tip: Refer to your mindmap-cum-notebook from time to time.
And think lots of real life examples to connect to essays.
So far i haven got the time to practice yet. Shall do it next week.
Btw, u can also do those for non-essays writing like POA. ^^
NB: My method of studying. LOL. Just want to rmb.
1st tip: keep a personal portable-size notebook. (With no calendars, whatsoever)
2nd tip: do a mindmap yourself. (study well and then do)
3rd tip: attempt past yr qns. (pencilled ans in points on qn paper)
4th tip: practice and practice essays writing. (Structure well and ans to the qn.)
5th tip: Refer to your mindmap-cum-notebook from time to time.
And think lots of real life examples to connect to essays.
So far i haven got the time to practice yet. Shall do it next week.
Btw, u can also do those for non-essays writing like POA. ^^
Monday, March 10, 2008
poa was bad bad bad. not that its really bad, but really really bad. =(
what is relieved is its finally over. =D
Shall rest for a week first. Revision starting next week also.
Bought a monitor for my desktop at the IT fair. So the next step is to build a computer at SLS. Starting from Saturday onwards.
My dad upgrade our singnet to the 8mbps also. Its abit late to upgrade but still at least my internet connection should now improve with the new modem. *hoping not another lousy modem, else gotta buy*
Hmm, guess should start shopping too. My to-do list has been sitting there ever since.
Hah! abit reward for myself for studying hard, not hard enough though. LOL
I should go do the things i left pending also. Haiz. So many fun things to do ^^
what is relieved is its finally over. =D
Shall rest for a week first. Revision starting next week also.
Bought a monitor for my desktop at the IT fair. So the next step is to build a computer at SLS. Starting from Saturday onwards.
My dad upgrade our singnet to the 8mbps also. Its abit late to upgrade but still at least my internet connection should now improve with the new modem. *hoping not another lousy modem, else gotta buy*
Hmm, guess should start shopping too. My to-do list has been sitting there ever since.
Hah! abit reward for myself for studying hard, not hard enough though. LOL
I should go do the things i left pending also. Haiz. So many fun things to do ^^
Friday, March 07, 2008
I guess i am so currently under stress. My head is going to explode if i take in more information.
Anyway, so stress that i cannot get to sleep well. Recently i keep sleeping late and waking up late and surprisingly, my head doesnt hurt. Although its good in a sense, but i got a feeling im under stress thats y. Or maybe the morning pills really does help in erm, blood circulation? Haha.
To help in motivation, i ve decided! I promise u guys we go out next week, ok? Sorry eh. Especially xx n yw.
Jiemeis! Good news! Gossiping session coming up! Woohoo! LOL.
Meanwhile, urgh. Monday. =
Anyway, so stress that i cannot get to sleep well. Recently i keep sleeping late and waking up late and surprisingly, my head doesnt hurt. Although its good in a sense, but i got a feeling im under stress thats y. Or maybe the morning pills really does help in erm, blood circulation? Haha.
To help in motivation, i ve decided! I promise u guys we go out next week, ok? Sorry eh. Especially xx n yw.
Jiemeis! Good news! Gossiping session coming up! Woohoo! LOL.
Meanwhile, urgh. Monday. =
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
2 birds down! But man, those birds are difficult to shoot down.
Anyway, last prelim paper on next monday. Hopefully POA wont die that bad too. Haha.
haiz. been studying from afternoon till nighttime. Stress and used up alot of my energy. Now im feeling so tired now. Waking up late also. Just ate only. Later my mum scold me for not being able to eat her dinner again. LOL.
I guess i will be able to shop after my last prelim paper. since i got 2 more months till final. Haha. =.= *Sigh*
Ooh, and new computer! I dont know when im getting it, but im surely getting one.
Because of the finals, we will have to postpone the renovation. Im so reluctant to bring all my books to my relatives hse and study. Its better to be alone at home and mug. 5 weeks eh! how to study like that rite? June holidays is still possible. I might not be in singapore anyways.
Hah! My motivation for studying are all based on these. Lol
Feeling so lethargic now. ~o~ Si neh.
Anyway, last prelim paper on next monday. Hopefully POA wont die that bad too. Haha.
haiz. been studying from afternoon till nighttime. Stress and used up alot of my energy. Now im feeling so tired now. Waking up late also. Just ate only. Later my mum scold me for not being able to eat her dinner again. LOL.
I guess i will be able to shop after my last prelim paper. since i got 2 more months till final. Haha. =.= *Sigh*
Ooh, and new computer! I dont know when im getting it, but im surely getting one.
Because of the finals, we will have to postpone the renovation. Im so reluctant to bring all my books to my relatives hse and study. Its better to be alone at home and mug. 5 weeks eh! how to study like that rite? June holidays is still possible. I might not be in singapore anyways.
Hah! My motivation for studying are all based on these. Lol
Feeling so lethargic now. ~o~ Si neh.