believe me, ive tried.

it doesnt seem to work at all. ive memorised and decipher any meaning to the questions.

whatever i do, however hard i work, i dont think it really make a difference.

if its meant to be, it is meant to be.

if it isnt, dont force it down ur throat. you will be gagged.

Now im just scared of every single exam.

im afraid that my hard work doesnt pay off. Bcos by the end of the day, im not cut out for this.

Its the same for the rest of me.



and by the way, i just want some comforting words, saying that ive done my best. Theres nth else i could do.

"You never study ENOUGH rite?" I cannot even believe this is coming out of the mouth of someone i thought who should know me well.

Im pissed off by even the tone of it, can you believe that i wont try to listen for more?



I dont understand. I really dont.

I cant understand how the possiblitity of failure is high when i try so hard?

Oh right. Because its ME.



I wont admit im stupid. 'Cos i know i am not. Im way above that (although not to the extend that im smart too). Thats no way im categorised under that.

im so frustrated by my own mistakes.

im full of guilt, sadness, perplexness, and downright lonely. (i am lonely by the way, literally.)



So scared of the next paper. I cant predict. I can just hope to make sure i do well.