how cool! my burberry sling bag arrived yday!! yippee! been craving for that bag since long time ago. =p time to buy few more shoes! haha.. (*after i can go shopping of cos) oh yea and i change my item to buy section. new HTC legend is my next targetted phone! lol. contract still not over. thats y i cant change it. been waiting for my contract to expire for a long time now. and probably im gonna continue studying part-time. no worries, not in IT anymore. =) journalism or psychology? hmm.. should try to find jobs now to fund my part time studies. i dont care if its contract job too. haha. *i probably just cannot stay in one place for long.* hmm what else? let me just hang on to this new goal for a while. =D my mood got a whole lot lifted. =D quoted from somewhere, without a goal in life means ure dead in heart.

I always have pessimistic feelings and emotions when PMS comes. Mood swings thrust forward. And my inability to control them. I feel pain, yet unable to cry.

I wish i could lead a new life. I wish I have passion and interest for certain things. Den i would have dreams and goals.

I have nothing to crave for. Everything is dead to me. Maybe only "illustionized" by watching dramas and variety shows help cheer me up.

I always wonder, how does it feel to be alive? to be totally mesmerised by something / someone? to have passion in something / someone? to be happy?