Saturday, July 16, 2011

stupid me.. =.=

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

my mum says my bro miss home already. haha! i was like, "so fast?! its been barely 1 month.."

Well, its still always nice to know that my bro miss home.

During the weeks before he left for India, he was always going out. He said its a farewell gathering. And den become sick because of staying out too late. =.= (still sick, dunno why, gosh, pls not bcos of any diseases caught there! den again de city he's staying at should be safe.)

cos i nv heard of him becoming bored before. LOL~~

And we miss him too. =)


My dad went to Qidong (China province) again one week Gw left for India. So now its just me and my mum. =.= Bcos she dislikes to peel fruits..... hahaa! we always rely on my dad for fruits after dinner. Well, he's coming back next week though. =D


For the both of them, just be safe.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

i know i am always slow in everything. I never thought that this physical and mentally weakness could hinder me in my work. My boss now always scold me that im slow. I cant give any excuses, even though i told him before that i process things abit slowly.

I dont know, maybe i need to train my brain. Maybe i need to see a doc. Does it really affect my attitude and behaviour? ='(

My sup always tell me that my work is the slackest of all IT work. I dont see how to disagree with her. Maybe i haven got the brain for IT, after all. My negative thinking always fail to encourage myself.

I like to think that i am me, no matter how many weakness i have. I know that of cos i will hinder myself from doing alot of things, whether by chance or not. I haven gotten any passion or motivation since i wrote on my motivation post.



Each day when i wake up, when i think that i have to get to work in a long journey, i start to feel my body is dying each day. I feel mentally and physically stressed and drained everyday. I am not sure how long my body can take this. I wish the circle line could be completed as soon as possible.