The latest update on me..

I ve been slacking at home ever since my internship completed.

been trying to figure out a topic for my fyp.

and erm..

please please please do not ignore me when i beg u for surveys! cos i need them for my fyp! they are my life and death! U shall determine whether i live or die! i thank you in advance from the bottom of my heart and soul! =DDD

mooncake festival + mooncake feast! LOL!

ive been buying the small "bing pi" from the city bakery opposite my block. and den my parents went to order from johor some nice mooncakes too. =DD

i guess i should stop burning my house down for the time being. last year was nearly.. =x the corridor was scarred by us.. playing with fire.. so sad for the corridor.. =X

what.. mooncake festival = mooncake + lantern. lantern = fire. fire = forestation.. =x

thats y, of all the festivals, cny, mooncake festival and xmas are my fav festivals. hehehe..


mountain tortoise.. i stopped listening to news nowadays. cos i dont wake up at 6.30am anymore and taking long journey bus while watching channelnewsasia.

yes yes i did that when i went to work. i tuned in to the tvmobile on the radio on my phone every morning..

and so coincidentally i got my ipod nano after my internship completed. so i listen back to my music now. if only my ipod nano got the fm tuner... =((( at least, i was updated with the news. now im so in my own world haha.


i realise to put up photos in the blog is 10 times harder than other places when u dont ve a mass/quick photo uploader in blogger.

first step, u always go to some photo uploader site and uploads ur photos, den resize them, den get their html to put onto ur blog and lastly, add descriptions to your blog. dats way too inconvenient.

i just hope that blogger will notice that and modify their photos uploading system. i know actually alot of other websites collaborate with bloggers to put up their photos. but to me, its still troublesome. cos while uploading photos and linking them to blogger and make that post all about ur photos.

u cannot further add in text etc.. besides when u only upload those photos, ur photos will become too big for ur post frame den u ve to resize the photos to fit in ur frame/tables. or at times, the fixed html table generated by the photo website makes ur photos spaces out so much dat u feel annoyed so you ve to modify them to change accordingly to ur preference. zzz...

which is why i think its too much of a chore to post photos on blogs. i always refer u all to my fb photos instead.

couldnt uploading photos and blogging at the same time be any efficient? does anyone knows the consumers' preferences, but at all? by linking photos and blog sites together doesnt make it efficient, it sometimes confuses and irritates the hell out of users. sigh.


okay talk too much. shall blog again when i got something to rant about. haha.

been watching honey and clover in taiwan version. Although its not as realistic as from the manga, its just as funny and super exaggerating.

At the same time, i replayed the witcher. haha.

i dilly-dallying about doing my research for my fyp. no excuse, im just lazy. lol.

i just started sch again this week, projects keep flooding my minuscule brain. i refuse to use my brain until oct. haha.

lessons per week are only on tue, wed and fri.

so sian.. i guess only watching drama / anime and playing witcher can eat my entire day away.

wanting to buy a burberry sling bag. so cute! =x


my life is simple and satisfying for the time being. lol. Jya na~!

2 weeks nvr blog alrdy. Come to think of it, i ve nothing to blog anyways.

had a bad food poisioning a week ago. didnt eat much except for porridge for 2 days. it happened after i went out with kw haha. was damn damn damn suay.

well my stomach is okay now, but now theres ulcer at the bottom of my tongue, near my gum. =.=

and so happen that my pc hdd is spoilt =.= been trying to fix it since yday. even formatting is impossible.

in case u r wondering, im using my netbook now.


shall upload all the recent photos after i come back later. gonna meet my jiemeis for my bday celebration. =D

okay gg now. Ciau!

Some things u need not be so vexed about. U can take it as it come, and be glad that its gone.

Decisions that u make may not be correct, it may not be wrong. But it is what u choose. If u are scared of regretting of ur decision, u may forever not make
a decision. Do not be afraid of judgements, for in the end, you are only one that is in control of your life.

I am always so indecisive. When it comes to making a decision, I think thrice. Or rather dont think at all, for fear of judgement. So i let it go. In the end, the issues always come back to me. Sometimes i dislike that im indecisive, i troubled people cos i cannot make quick decisions.

This is the thing that i must change. To be precise and make quick judgement. Though im not quick enough to do anything. If it wasnt for this, I could have alot of other paths in my life.

Sigh.

Prelude of Mayday DNA 2009



Guan You singing "zhi zhao lang man"!



Mayday DNA ENCORE 1






Mayday DNA ENCORE 2

oh im supposed to upload yday photos, but my cam battery went flat haha. thats the thing abt my camera, i cannot recharge it using usb. only can charge it in the given battery charger. sianz lo.. probably will buy another battery if i were to ever use it for a holiday or something.

Anyways, i went down to have lunch with some of my ex-colleagues yday. JJ bought me a cake haha and we celebrated my bday in the hawker center haha.

After that, i went to Queensway to exchange my shoes that i was given as a bday present.

While waiting for kevin also, I picked out another shoes cos they dont ve my shoe size for that silver lacoste anymore.

Ended up with another lacoste, but its black. haha. Paid extra 8 bucks for it, cos its abit more expensive than the previous one and its newer.


Went to meet him and headed to his house.

we had dinner and took a cab to kallang indoor stadium for mayday's DNA concert.

My bro's friend bought the tix so we waited for them and the tix to get in haha. else we just stay outside the stadium pretending to be fans.. hahaha!

my first Mayday concert! woohoo! I seen them during one of their qian chang hui at vivo. but thats all, lol.

My god, this is one of the longest concert ive seen and been to. They gave a total of 3 encores by requests, demands actually, haha.

it was 12.10am by the time the whole concert ended. so tired and drained out. but so worth our money. haha!

Shall upload the photos and videos here and fb. haha. latest in the afternoon cos charging battery now.


Thats all! Come back for more updates on my zainu life. haha.
*wait, zai nu dont go out wat... XD*

aw.. results coming out soon.. keeping my fingers crossed. sigh.

daladeedadee

sianz.

oh yea, my cousin bought me this book "The 5 love languages". I strongly recommend this book to those couples out there, cos it teaches how to express your love to your partner in ur partner's primary love language. In this way, they are more receptive to your love in their own way, instead of the way you think how you should love them.

i brought it to ikea cafe, while waiting for my ex-colleagues to join me for lunch. They saw me reading this book and ask, "r u married?" LOL. Its not like that. Couples that are not married are further encouraged to read this book. Don't wait until you have misunderstanding with each other even after you are married, its better to find your own happiness now before its too late.

I haven finish yet, but this book is readable. Cos its thin and the font size just nice for reading haha.

Do i look like im into philosophy? hmm.. maybe..

i like to think abt human mindsets, behaviours, cultures and loads of other stuffs. Anyway, been contemplating to study psychology, but its full time. Just a thought though. haha.


*Life is short. Better do the things u want now, before its late.* Ooohhh, now i fully understand this quote.

Good, gotta go for checkup, do my bloody fyp, finish my last year of sch if i pass this year, and study psychology.

and den see how.. haha..

cya soon!

Completed my internship. Nearly forgotten to write up an internship report. haha

Friday wasnt my busiest day, but i was hand-overing some work to colleagues. I still need to finish some work too. So waiting for adrian to get his rental car, i completed my work until quite 7pm den i went 4th floor to find fanny.

Some colleagues were still around, so we chitchatted abit. After adrian came back, we drove off to marina square to eat dinner.

After that, we went to ritz calton to ve tea. haha. Late supper.



Saturday, met up with hariyanto and ben for lunch and we went partyworld at orchard. JJ joined us there and we sang until 7pm.

After that, we wenta find fanny and had dinner at PlazaSing. headed towards TheCathay to watch The Proposal. The show was so funny haha. A typical romantic comedy but got sandra bullock thats y... one of my fav stars of all time..

Anyway went home after that.


So slacking at home right now. Omg, i miss the time when i dont ve to go to work on weekdays. hahaha. enjoy whenever i can right now. lol.

Should start running tmr. So long nv run liao haha. Getting fatter and lazier. =X

Cya guys soon!

P.S. Photos are uploaded in facebook..

finally.. 4 more days to go!

im dreading these 4 days cos i have absolutely nth to do. Oh not totally nth. its just the 1 task that i hate to do! its totally out of my original internship work.

i was supposed to assist a system analyst. How did it end up like that?

I know im incompetent. but do you have to keep giving me shit work to do, just bcos im an intern?

Overflowing emotions. cos im an intern.

Initially, really was happy cos thought i would really learn something new and relating to my studies. now for the past 9 weeks, i think i really did learn and did nth related. sigh.


anyway, should really go exercise after my whole internship already. My double chin and my tummy are visible. Not obvious but visible. hahaha.

been going out with some colleagues now. Similar to zhikai, the biggest achievement ive gotten from this internship is to befriend all these colleagues. =)

I cannot get a permanent job. Maybe next time i should get a contract job instead. cos i'll die of the working routine. the inevitable cycle of sleep, work, eat, sleep. haha.

going to start fretting about something soon. Some issues that i avoid for a long time alrdy. =(

Gonna sleep le. Cya guys soon!

i nv used to upload photos on fb. i thought it was one of those friendster slow uploading tools.

haha.. but den i saw how easy it is to use after i bought my camera and try to upload it on fb.

although its tiring to tag every single one of u la, but it should be worth it. haha..

first time i upload any photos to fb. and first time i upload so much. haha.

ooh, i simply love my camera! although it has no image stabilizer. =.=

which is why u can almost see blurred images on every photos. lol


'sides, im having fun my colleagues now. haha. yea they are loads of fun when they are in the office and out of it. keke.

there should be more outings after my internship ends, so that our friendships dont just stay there. =)

Cya guys soon!

I uploaded the photos.. of the ones at the coffee club lol..

hmm so long never update alrdy. =p

Latest update on these 2 weeks.


Sunday
Last sunday went out with a bunch of colleagues to sentosa. Photos are uploaded in facebook if u wanna view them. =D

In the morning, adrian and fanny came to fetch me to sentosa. De rest of the gangs joined soon after we arrived. Suntan and played in the sea. After which we bathed and den ate alittle at delifrance before adrian drove us girls to vivo.

Lunch was at kim gary den we headed to topone ktv to enjoy our singing session. =D Sang till 6pm and ate ate lai lai kitchen.


Tue
Went with adrian, my colleague, to orchard to buy him some clothes. *I only accompany him* Before that, we had sushi tei at taka. Well, it was abit late when we finished dinner, so he only got himself 1 pair of jeans. anyway we went to coffee club opp california fitness to ve some tea.


Thurs
Last Thurs, went with adrian and zhikai to somerset to eat dinner and chitchatted at the coffee club opp california fitness haha. i swear i wasnt facing california fitness lol. it was the guys who were facing. too bad some girl we wanna intro to zhikai didnt show up lol. went home ard 11+pm.


Friday
Wanna do some last minute shopping, so went with adrian, whom haven finish his shopping, to suntec. Benedict went home first, but came shortly after to join us for dinner. Sharon didnt make it after she went home to put her laptop and den had dinner with her sis. JJ went home too, cos he forgot his hp too. =.=' He joined us around 9 plus pm, after we had dinner, haha.

wanted to watch Public enemy, but it wasnt showing in marina GV. so in the end, we played pool. haha.


Sat
Big DAY for kevin tan! was his 23rd bday. Well, initially he didnt know that we had a surprise party for him. But he did suspected something. Well, partially cos his mum leak abit. and den his fren sms him but he already knew so... =.= Anyway, was damn disappointed when the suspense was up. Wah my effort..! aiyo, next time we shouldnt do it at the function room at his condo. just a plain dinner will do.. >.< arhh.. i must admit im a lousy organiser..

Despite that, the party was still on and we had a nice time! Thanks for all the people who were there!

Photos already uploaded to facebook haha.

Well i shall upload to flickr when im free. =)

omg.. this is the first time i ve seen this kind of wedding~! but it rocks!!

by the way, i got to know it when a fren post it on fb.. haha..!

im always angry / upset with myself. i seriously do have brain defect. how else do u explain all the queer things that has happened to me??

Sometimes i know thinking too much doesn't help at all. But not thinking alone doesnt mean that my problems will go away. Things that i can see, hear, touch and feel just make me think more, and its just more upsetting, cos its hard to find someone who actually know. Every individual is unique you know.

I will probably nv understand the way i am, people just see the way i am so they cant tell me why i am the way i am. Unless i could really use up the rest of my brain to think about who i am and what i should be doing.

I am talking abt general stuffs about myself, not some specific stuffs. Probably i cant see the big picture, thats y im still stuck in misery.

Its hard to see the big picture, unless ure some god-giver or something. What am i supposed to do now? Am i supposed to be achieving something big or just be low profile? Should I do something about myself that remains undone, or shall i continue to be "myself", whom i dont even know if im the real me?



I saw a dialogue in a tv drama that a man questions a woman, "What is the difference between an expert and a layman?" The woman answered, "By the amount of mistakes you make. Experts tend to make fewer mistakes."

Although they are referring to work and office, but i realise this question could relate to life too. If you had more experiences of life, you make lesser mistakes, and you wont feel the pain of regretting later of making the wrong decision. I am definitely a noob of life.

The things that i wont understand and dont know will not solve today, until i have experienced more.

They call me xiao mei mei, which is true. I am one. I am not kidding. I am still pampered, protected against the realities of life under the arms of good people. I dont know the consequences of hurting people that you know or you dont know. Like my colleague told us before, "You guys are still lucky you are young. You can speak whatever is in your mind. You know what you want and you are not afraid to let it be known."

And den i was thinking, what does she mean by that? isnt something you know what you want, a good thing? thats life right? if not, r u not wasting it by rejecting ur wants and needs?

maybe theres still alot i dont know. which is why i still dont understand yet. But maybe gradually i will.

But one thing i definitely understand is, you cant get anything you want.


Back to my own thoughts, i spoke without thinking to kevin just now. I didnt think how it would hurt him by saying selfish words. I was blinded by my anger. Not that im saying he doesnt. haha. but arent humans all the same? If logic comes back to you soon enough, den you can repent. If not, you are leading your own death.

Whoever dont erred? Its just the matter of how much they err.


Random thoughts. They only weave around me. haha.


Be blogging again soon. =)

Woah, at work im just waiting for lunch break only. haha.

Its fun to go out with a large group of other colleagues, better than their previous diversified group, as what adrian had said.

at home, i ve a few gamer buddies waiting for me. haha. sorry but i only play cute mmo/mmorpg. The current one im addicted to is Dragonica, lol. Similar to maple, but only more fun.

internship left with 5 weeks more to go. Although im glad in a way, but also sad that im leaving my kawaii colleagues. haha.

oh speaking of them, some of us recently visited pearl, whom because of too much excitement the day before pulau ubin, injured her leg accidentally. we made fun of the flowers that JJ bought for pearl, haha, oh and btw, i chose that cute elmo~! haha..

anyway, this bunch of colleagues really brighten my days in Hutcabb. =) oh god, shall say thanks on the last day den. =) and not forgetting any of their names too. >.<

hoping that our next few gatherings will be successful before i leave. But we can still meet up after i leave rite? =P

see ya soon!

woo, my first ever trip to pulau ubin was fun! which i dont ve to cycle around.. haha..!

thursday we had meeting for nearly the whole afternoon after lunch until 9pm, mostly for the ubin event on friday.

fri - woke up early for the meetups at sime darby, to board the bus to changi jetty and to settle things for the event along the way.

arrived at the jetty and the committee members head off first to set up for games at ubin!

the whole event was smooth, except for the heavy rain during lunch time (so lucky we all got back before the rain). after lunch was free time and den there was a sensory walk led by grant, the ubin guide.

got back to mainland around evening to have dinner at changi jetty. we had a sumptuous seafood dinner and enjoyed the prize presentation.

too bad, it was the last day of work for biru. She is the intern that shared the same table as me in the office haha! Well, we had fun in the office.
And she still owe me my twilight series, so i guess i will be seeing her very soon! Her bday is around july so me and JJ bought her a farewell + bday gift on her last day. =) so glad that she love it! ^^

saddens for shan cos shan really like biru so much that she cant bear to let her go. =) She teared abit while bidding goodbye after dinner when we all are leaving.

hmm, that day was really eventful. thanks to biru for organising so well and so much =) i doubt i could do any better. =) There goes my lunch kakia too. but we shall meet her again, since she live so near the company. haha.

until den =)

woo finally met up jiemeiz. gave them their gifts and chocolates ^^)

we went waraku casual dining to eat lunch. and den went to shop. haha!

they bought their sweets from john little. and den me and love went to try on some slip ons at famous footwear, but in the end nv buy.

saw bodyshop and went in to shop for mineral foundation + brush. gotten free gifts also! they didnt ve stocks for my concealer. and i ve forgotten to go raffles city outlet and buy it. guess next time den.

finally left bodyshop and headed towards suntec! walked around, went in faceshop and sasa and they bought some stuff too. lol.. ate at subway after jo and kaiwen left.

went home after the day's good walking session. i think my legs were gonna give way if i dont go home soon! haha!

cannot be..

my weighing machine should spoil.. cos im not that heavy one lor..

my avg weight used to be 43-44 kg. okay im still not very heavy yet.. but still~!!

sucks, it should be all the eating in the office.. and no exercising..

i should stick to my old exercise regime once my internship is over.

or rather i shall start another weekend workout schedule.

sob..


friday went out with cheeyong and grouppies to eat at waraku in central mall. den after that we went to minds cafe, followed by equinox.. (nice atmosphere and view! i forgot whats the bar called, but thank you uncle ben! LOL!)

sat - love, yq, dan, kevin, cs came to my house. we ordered pizza, which was so wrong ><, and chilled out with the guitar and drum haha.
after which we had a nice dinner with jo and sheng at pastamania in harbourfront.

okay gotta prepare now for outing with jiemeis later.. jyaa na!

hmm.. nth to post much.

Work is so-so, but at least i got work to do every day so i wont be found idling. Unlike those poly days internship lidat.

haha. looking forward to the gatherings this weekends. =)

its been long since i long gone out with them. U know who u r. haha.

Woot, gotta go clean up for a while. Been eating, bathing and sleeping. Lazy to clean my room haha.

See ya!

im supposed to sleep now.. but for the sake of u guys.. i upload these photos.. haha..

http://s18.photobucket.com/albums/b117/jan85/Hokkaido%20trip/?albumview=slideshow

hope u guys enjoy it.. we shall meet up very soon!