argh.. motorola droid is not coming to singapore. its okay.. i ve got an alternative - HTC hero. too bad that my contract is not eligible for upgrade yet. =( or else i would have the phone right here right now. anyone wanna give me for xmas? xD

been doing projects day in day out. sigh. that my hair is dropping.. zzz.. i haven gotten enough sleep haha. cos ive been staying up late =x



okay, time to enjoy some christmas festive! looking forward to meet up some frens and my bro's bday!

how about some gifts eh? i ve got a few items that i would like.. haha..

- HTC hero! xD

- burberry sling bag (its been in my wish list for sometime now..)

- casual pants (jeans are too tight for me, cant breath =X)

- backpack for laptop

- some classic long necklace? (i found myself plain without accessory on my blouses)

- hair spray (for my messy, flyaway hair)



need to find time to go shopping!byee~

stupid thoughts in my head again.

i am forever pessimistic. sigh.

if i am unique, like some ppl say i am, den how come i dont feel unique, or being loved by everyone becos im me?

instead, i feel more like unwanted, a stumbling block, an extremely selfish person.

sorry, despair hits once again.

I just want to be me and being loved because im uniquely me. =(

gotten too slack after i had my interview of my rpis project and my pc died on me few days ago. couldnt start to do my sfen nor rpis projects on my netbook. =(

well, now that my pc is revived, by the miraculous hands of dear lol. i do noe how to fix it 'kay, just that i dont ve what it takes to do hardware fixing. i knew that my ram wasnt properly placed by myself. =.=

yea so, i was saying.. now that i have my desktop back, i can start working again. be it sfen or rpis.

sfen project need not a comp to do yet. but i was so vexed by my own desktop, i couldnt get any work done. zzz.


dear had his first 2 exam papers started, one is yday, and the other is today. 3 papers more to go. jiayous. ^.^

so he had alittle bit of time to come help me fix my pc after we met for dinner just now. =D


okay, i need to go back to doing my project, or else im starting to fall back again.

looking forward to dec. ^.^

okay too much baby fats..

i stopped doing exercise altogether. mostly is because im too lazy. haha..

i prefer cycling machine den tread mill.. because u sit and cycle with ur legs, u dont stand and tread. waste too much of my energy.



i have a little bit of time before i move on to another chapter of my thesis.

oh now i think i prefer literature review to surveys and interviews. drats.

apart from those, drawing models. but models are fine. at least i dont have to worry about wad to ask people. =.=

fine, my project is easy. other ppl's projects are ten times harder than mine.

im not saying mine is hard, its just tough, doing alone. Having deadline helps, but when u are doing it alone, you dont even care about deadlines.


Teammates motivate you. Esp when they are working super hard. U feel u have to catch up with them too.

Just like when i was doing my fyp for poly. My part wasnt really crucial to the project, but it makes me feel like i have to do it, ya know?



why is my download so slow? ...

my pc got probs with my harddisk again. but thanks to my "unknown identity" classmate, i got it solved. haha.



xmas is coming. i can feel it.

cos its been raining almost everyday. >.<

hmm, wonder what to buy for gifts. umbrella? haha.. < i still dont get y my fren says im funny =.=' >



gg prepare for sch soon. tata!

okay skin's changed. All bcos my previous blogskin images are blocked by photobucket.. haha.

just lazy to find more image for the blog.

anyway, going back to playing RO.

my love tank is empty again. =(I think it has always been lidat thats why ive been feeling depressed and resentful.And theres nothing i can go about it. Unless my primary love languages is being filled. ='(

I need to have a life. Whats my passion?!

Socialising? no. Swimming? no. Shopping? no. Sing ktv? no. Eating? no. Reading? no. Gaming? no. Watching TV? no. Cleaning? no. Going out alone? no. Staring in space? no. Exercising? no. IT? no.

What else do I do?

"Year after year, they stay away, opting instead for a more predictable existence. Rather than taking a leap of faith and immersing themselves in the waters of their deepest joys and motivations, they insist on hiding inside a safety bubble, a sanitary, lifeless, colorless world where nothing new ever happens and the only thing that one can rely on is that tomorrow will be the same as yesterday, and that today will be more of the same. " 

"Imagine a world where we lived for the moment and spent more time enjoying reality than trying to escape it. Imagine a place where we didn't need lawyers to go before judges, psychologists to tell us that we have emotional problems, or clergy to talk to the Creator for us."

"The real sin is lacking the courage to express our convictions and zest for life. It should be a crime to bottle up the passion you once felt as a youth so that you'll fit into a controlled corporate environment or circle of associates. In fact, the closest we can come to a physical hell is the unforgivable action of refusing to say what needs to be said, not singing what was meant to be sung or forcing ourselves to no longer feel what was intended to be felt. "

"Passion shapes our existence, fuels the fires of inspiration and makes the heart and mind open to changes all around us. It is food for the soul, a spark that reilluminates our purpose and mission for being here. "- Brian Norris


Passion is the energy that comes from bringing more of YOU into what you do.  

Simply put, it's being who you are and doing what comes naturally. It's like allowing water to gain energy from flowing along its natural riverbed, rather than trying to force it up and over a mountain. 

[Crafting a Life of Meaning, Abundance & Passion] by Curt Rosengren ~ www.passioncatalyst.com

"Like any emotional state, passion waxes and wanes. Sometimes you’re highly motivated. Sometimes you aren’t. Passion has its peaks and valleys, so if you base your actions on your level of passion, your results will depend on your emotions. Feeling passionate? Great actions, great results. Feeling dispassionate? Weak actions, mediocre results."


"Passion is great, but it’s icing. It needs self-discipline to back it up.
Self-discipline is quieter though. Passion gets more attention these days becuase it makes more noise." May 24th, 2005 by Steve Pavlina 




I kinda understand what those passion gurus mean. But how to motivate or even be passionate about ourselves? I still need to search for answers within myself.

ok i just got an urge to start showing google desktop that i install on my pc. instead of using win7 desktop gadgets, i prefer google one. one of the reasons is the fact that the gadgets can be fixed at the side, when i can still see them if i open other windows.

ok so above image is a screenshot of my desktop. as u can see the google gadgets are at the right side of the screen.

p.s. if u cant see the image well, enlarge it by clicking on the image.

well.. i put weather, clock, calvin and hobbes rss (one of my fav comic), skip beat! rss (my current fav manga), news rss and scratchpad for my RPIS fyp project. oh! and at the bottom of the google desktop is the google search. so typically google search in the search box triggers a internet google search browser if u wanna look for anything.

As you can see, i put an address link on my taskbar. it allows me to surf on website even before opening a browser.

So i found both the address bar and the google search box really convenient. Like, when i startup my pc, i wanna go facebook first thing in the morning. i type facebook on the address bar. i use mozilla, so by just typing the name of the website triggers the whole webpage. i dunno about IE though. maybe u need to type in the full url. And when i wanna find out a defnition of a word, i just enter the word in the google search bar and voila! mozilla firefox opens, and shows the google search word.

oh and one more thing. the fixed side bar of google desktop.

there it is. my mozilla firefox is already at its maximum size. i swear i didnt adjust the window. haha.

anyway, yea win7 provide the "iconical" taskbar. when u hover over the opened applications, it will show u a thumbscreen of the application. E.g. You are opening 2 browsers, so u hover ur mouse over the mozilla icon, the screen will pop up 2 thumbscreen of ur browsers.


Another feature that i love about win7 is that it allows 2 windows to be placed side-by-side fixed. so if u wanna open 2 windows and use them at the same time, u can just drag one window to the left screen of the screen, win7 will auto-adjust for u half screen is to that window, and drag the other window to the right screen too.

okay this post probably sounds dumb, cos im like exploring into win7, and i know some ppl are already using this google desktop, "duh~!", but i got nth to blog about.. hahaha..

good nitess..!

finally.. back to blogging on w.bloggar instead of the browser.. i think it would be better to blog here cos i dont need to open a browser to blog.

hmm. although its nearly the same steps taken to blog.. haha.. i dont know ar. just prefer blogging to be on 3rd party app.

maybe cos when u hit the wrong button like going back a page, ur written post is lost without saving. Saving on the browser needs internet connection, and sometimes my internet is down that kinda thing, ya know...

anyways im testing this post haha.. oh and cool.. i install google desktop! it has widgets that allow me to surf my daily apps without opening them, like blog feeds, news, facebook and twitter. and theres a google search bar widget too. so i dont need to open a browser to search for something.

although the win7 only provide address link toolbar in ur desktop. but i like win7. so much better than winxp or win vista. ^.^ and theres this win7 desktop theme that auto change ur wallpaper for u. hm.. kinda fun.. haha.. i downloaded the htc flip clock.. the interface is really aesthetic.. much to my liking haha. im like writing a review for win 7 like that..

lol ok, guess its time to work on my fyp again. Ciau!

Irony

When you were young, you have abundant of time, but you don't have the cash to fulfil your spending cravings.

When you are older, you have the cash, but you don't have the time to spend it.

That's the irony of life.

Today is friday..

im about to lose track of time. cos im sick and i didnt go to sch for 3 lessons now. haha. theres only 3 lessons per week.

i cant believe that im been playing and searching materials for my final project that i forgot to do my other module assignment which was due last week. =.= oh and i didnt really study yet except for my RPIS study guide. Sigh.

I find it hard to motivate myself to do a solo project. zzz. no help from anyone except my supervisor, whom i totally haven get a reply from.

I wonder how my friends used to do their projects? and gosh, they did them so well! research, literature review, surveys and interviews and writing the thesis, etc. etc. I seriously have no idea where to start from, other than doing some research on the relevant literature. Placing quotes is easy but to rephrase as a summary is hard. i have a limited vocabulary so its like kiddo writing a thesis. haha.

Gotta write up a preliminary report and submit it to my supervisor by the end of this month. =(

Did my flu come from having stress, or is it the weather? its so damn hot nowadays, i feel irritated and have the tendency of having headaches.


So bored from all the games that i played that i begun to watch videos from facebook that were posted. haha. why do i feel life stressed instead of exciting? no wonder my eq is low. no idea the links between life enjoyment and eq though. lol. (fb app) maybe its my way of thinking.

gotta eat now. cya.

so sian..

been playing sim3 after i finished with my witcher haha.

okay i know i haven been updating.. but there's nth to update wad..

im like my sim - loner, dislike crowds and prefer solitude time haha. the whole day she can spend her day playing and writing on her laptop (cos i made her do it lol)

my sim is like the perfect person, who is a natural cook, do fixing around her house, except that she doesnt like to be with other ppl, oh! and doesnt do arts. haha.

and she's married to this guy whose lifetime wish is to be a cook! how compatible are they! wahaha!

Sims siao, Sims siao..

Susu.. (Sims language of byebye)

hmm just came back from marina square. had a very full dinner at jack's place with my family.
my bro drove us around den we lost our way when we wanted to go marina barrage haha. so we gave up and headed towards our original destination instead.



hmm, last tues went out with kevin and frens to celebrate hwee ching's bday. photos are uploaded again on facebook. we went to suntec city mall to eat at MOF. den clara came to drive us to some bar near SMU. its a nice place to chill with the live band and the ambience. took a cab home with hong boon (he lives in boonlay) cos 'twas kinda late alrdy.




my pc harddisk gone crashing again. its the 2nd time the hardware's been loose. i think i need to change one soon. my personal technician need to build a long-time affair with my pc soon. i need his help whenever this kinda thing happens. totally helpless. =(

i wanna play my Witcher!! sucks.. and im near completing the game lor.

just when i thought that by completing the game, i can finally concentrate on my fyp. and now this happens! ...

sigh..

anw, looking forward to next wed! =D outing with jiemeis! so sorry for those that i cannot make it on that day. maybe we change it to another day? =)

See ya soon!

I need to go shopping!!

My burberry sling.. lotsa casual pants.. pretty white flats..

i think i should change my glasses. haha.

Sai la.. no money~!



Happy birthdays to all the october babies!! =D

I shall sing a bday song especially for you~!

1,2,3..
Happy Birday to U. Happy Birday to U.
Happy Birrr!day to Uuuuuuuu
Happy Birday to U~

bring me to ktv den.. I should try to sing nicer..

why do i feel so young? HAHA!

young in the mind, young at heart. young in appearance!!

Long live the Youth!

hiak hiak..

cos im still 24.. not yet 30..

I'm still a girl, not yet a woman.. *Everyone put this nice phrase down*

What is youth man? Enjoy! haha.. so drunk..

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I think one day i should die of anxiety attack, or stressed-prone attack. Im so easily disturbed by things. zzz..

My brain malfunctions everytime im disturbed. i cannot multitask. tsk tsk.


My tooth hurts again. Probably the area near my wisdom tooth. Its growing k, my wisdom. Coming at a high price though. =x


i feel so sian. slacking too much is not good for me. I cannot seem to start on my research..

Quote of the day: "Joking is a way of life. but sometimes when u r over the line, its just not funny anymore."

Siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

People, long time no see. How are you guys now?

Are you alive? Are you happy? Are you healthy?

I hope all of you are. =)


well, just to make sure im not talking to myself, would the friends of mine pls leave some comment on this post? haha. *just to make sure you are alive somewhere..*

No worries, i am still me. and im still a slacker, even though my fyp has started. =x

I am still de same old me. The stupid, slack, nonsensical me.

Okay, i go play game liao. bb.

The latest update on me..

I ve been slacking at home ever since my internship completed.

been trying to figure out a topic for my fyp.

and erm..

please please please do not ignore me when i beg u for surveys! cos i need them for my fyp! they are my life and death! U shall determine whether i live or die! i thank you in advance from the bottom of my heart and soul! =DDD

mooncake festival + mooncake feast! LOL!

ive been buying the small "bing pi" from the city bakery opposite my block. and den my parents went to order from johor some nice mooncakes too. =DD

i guess i should stop burning my house down for the time being. last year was nearly.. =x the corridor was scarred by us.. playing with fire.. so sad for the corridor.. =X

what.. mooncake festival = mooncake + lantern. lantern = fire. fire = forestation.. =x

thats y, of all the festivals, cny, mooncake festival and xmas are my fav festivals. hehehe..


mountain tortoise.. i stopped listening to news nowadays. cos i dont wake up at 6.30am anymore and taking long journey bus while watching channelnewsasia.

yes yes i did that when i went to work. i tuned in to the tvmobile on the radio on my phone every morning..

and so coincidentally i got my ipod nano after my internship completed. so i listen back to my music now. if only my ipod nano got the fm tuner... =((( at least, i was updated with the news. now im so in my own world haha.


i realise to put up photos in the blog is 10 times harder than other places when u dont ve a mass/quick photo uploader in blogger.

first step, u always go to some photo uploader site and uploads ur photos, den resize them, den get their html to put onto ur blog and lastly, add descriptions to your blog. dats way too inconvenient.

i just hope that blogger will notice that and modify their photos uploading system. i know actually alot of other websites collaborate with bloggers to put up their photos. but to me, its still troublesome. cos while uploading photos and linking them to blogger and make that post all about ur photos.

u cannot further add in text etc.. besides when u only upload those photos, ur photos will become too big for ur post frame den u ve to resize the photos to fit in ur frame/tables. or at times, the fixed html table generated by the photo website makes ur photos spaces out so much dat u feel annoyed so you ve to modify them to change accordingly to ur preference. zzz...

which is why i think its too much of a chore to post photos on blogs. i always refer u all to my fb photos instead.

couldnt uploading photos and blogging at the same time be any efficient? does anyone knows the consumers' preferences, but at all? by linking photos and blog sites together doesnt make it efficient, it sometimes confuses and irritates the hell out of users. sigh.


okay talk too much. shall blog again when i got something to rant about. haha.

been watching honey and clover in taiwan version. Although its not as realistic as from the manga, its just as funny and super exaggerating.

At the same time, i replayed the witcher. haha.

i dilly-dallying about doing my research for my fyp. no excuse, im just lazy. lol.

i just started sch again this week, projects keep flooding my minuscule brain. i refuse to use my brain until oct. haha.

lessons per week are only on tue, wed and fri.

so sian.. i guess only watching drama / anime and playing witcher can eat my entire day away.

wanting to buy a burberry sling bag. so cute! =x


my life is simple and satisfying for the time being. lol. Jya na~!

2 weeks nvr blog alrdy. Come to think of it, i ve nothing to blog anyways.

had a bad food poisioning a week ago. didnt eat much except for porridge for 2 days. it happened after i went out with kw haha. was damn damn damn suay.

well my stomach is okay now, but now theres ulcer at the bottom of my tongue, near my gum. =.=

and so happen that my pc hdd is spoilt =.= been trying to fix it since yday. even formatting is impossible.

in case u r wondering, im using my netbook now.


shall upload all the recent photos after i come back later. gonna meet my jiemeis for my bday celebration. =D

okay gg now. Ciau!

Some things u need not be so vexed about. U can take it as it come, and be glad that its gone.

Decisions that u make may not be correct, it may not be wrong. But it is what u choose. If u are scared of regretting of ur decision, u may forever not make
a decision. Do not be afraid of judgements, for in the end, you are only one that is in control of your life.

I am always so indecisive. When it comes to making a decision, I think thrice. Or rather dont think at all, for fear of judgement. So i let it go. In the end, the issues always come back to me. Sometimes i dislike that im indecisive, i troubled people cos i cannot make quick decisions.

This is the thing that i must change. To be precise and make quick judgement. Though im not quick enough to do anything. If it wasnt for this, I could have alot of other paths in my life.

Sigh.