woohoo tokyo trip!!

exams first den play den work!

lemme play first.. hmm i also wanna go overseas with dear =( lets see how..

3 more days to first paper..


somehow while going thru my paper, i thought of my projects which i submitted 2 mths ago and which i can say i proudly finished and hope to get a good mark for the 2 of them! seriously recognised the toil of handling multiple projects alone.. thus which i am proud of.. those who ve completed a project single-handedly will know. even if its not ur best project, its what ure proud of!
 
amazed to complete 2 projects in half a year.. which of cos some of my classmates are struggling to do within a few mths.. now im just hoping my projects can be implemented in sg.. (highly doubtful since its in some part of London right now) Unless! i present my portfolio to my potential company! well its been my wish to implement this 2 information systems in sg, den i could win some innovater prize! (yeah right..)

and well since NGHP says they are researching on a similar system as my project.. hopeful!! if only they thought my project through and thoroughly.. well some of my classmates' systems also intrigued me, really those are potential systems which could be used!

with technology nowadays, every thing could be done. its a matter of budget and resources anyways..

time to go back to my studies.. tada!

y do they not care abt me? i have feelings too.. why am i always being taken for granted???!!! just bcos im guai and i dont say a thing when yall bully me is it.. i have a silent mouth, but just bcos i dont say anything doesnt mean i dont have a heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So many resentments..!

how cool! my burberry sling bag arrived yday!! yippee! been craving for that bag since long time ago. =p time to buy few more shoes! haha.. (*after i can go shopping of cos) oh yea and i change my item to buy section. new HTC legend is my next targetted phone! lol. contract still not over. thats y i cant change it. been waiting for my contract to expire for a long time now. and probably im gonna continue studying part-time. no worries, not in IT anymore. =) journalism or psychology? hmm.. should try to find jobs now to fund my part time studies. i dont care if its contract job too. haha. *i probably just cannot stay in one place for long.* hmm what else? let me just hang on to this new goal for a while. =D my mood got a whole lot lifted. =D quoted from somewhere, without a goal in life means ure dead in heart.

I always have pessimistic feelings and emotions when PMS comes. Mood swings thrust forward. And my inability to control them. I feel pain, yet unable to cry.

I wish i could lead a new life. I wish I have passion and interest for certain things. Den i would have dreams and goals.

I have nothing to crave for. Everything is dead to me. Maybe only "illustionized" by watching dramas and variety shows help cheer me up.

I always wonder, how does it feel to be alive? to be totally mesmerised by something / someone? to have passion in something / someone? to be happy?

This may come abit late.. haha.. but

Happy belated anniversary, dear! *muacks*

Karen Mok - IF

If a man could be two places at one time
I'd be with you
Tomorrow and today
beside you all the way
If the world should stop revolving
spinning slowly down to die
I'd spend the end with you
and when the world was through
Then one by one the stars would all go out
then you and I would simply fly away
If a picture paints a thousand word
then why can't I paint you
The words will never show
the you I've come to know
If a face could launch a thousand ships
then where am I to go
There's no one home but you
you're all that's left me to
And when my love for life is running dry
you come and pour yourself on me
If a man could be two places at one time
I'd be with you
Tomorrow and today
beside you all the way
If the world should stop revolving
spinning slowly down to die
I'd spend the end with you
and when the world was through
Then one by one the stars would all go out
then you and I would simply fly away

hmm.. i recently finish this taiwan drama.. recommending to those who haven watch it.

Say Yes Enterprise 求婚事务所 (40 episodes)

this drama is about this group of friends who start Say Yes Enterprise - helping out couples who are in love but has difficulty to be together.

Starring big names celebrities.. well, i dunno their names.. but.. i do recognize them.. haha.. 
 

i realise i cannot rely on u at all.. ='(

Happy Chinese New Year!!

Oh, and..

wish that my cousins, Alan and Iris will have a blissful marriage!


i ve bought my cny dress at bugis. was trying on some cheong sam.. den.. it makes me look like chinese restaurant waitress.. =.=

Nonetheless, its still quite nice. but i didnt get it. cos i think i wont be wearing it after cny.

so i got some regular dress.


anyways, ive been working on my projects that im going crazy!

next time, i wont be a programmer. LOL~ probably a financial analyst like justina.

oh yea, last time we met, i didnt get to ask her abt her job. hmm.

my student life is dying. How?!! I dont want to be going from 9-6pm all day working, without slacking at home!!! except prob weekends.

on 2nd thought, i would get income. but it would take away my lazy life. haha.

*boo* working life sucks. everyone is just waiting for weekends, unless u love your job that u dont mind doing it everyday. lol.


ma life is miserable..*quoted from my mum LOL~*


Ciau.

oh yes..! the burberry sling bag that i want for a long time is restocked..

http://japanbag.com.sg/products-page/burberry-blue-label/burberry-blue-label-pink-sling-bag/

p.s. this is posted for my dear to see.. LOL!! *doe-eyed* anniversary present, pls pls pls???

somehow i feel empty.. like living a meaningless life..

hmm.. its january 2010 already rite?

time passed and i let it pass. it doesnt mean anything to me. somehow i dont feel like having a resolution, or anything that screams yay, im in the new year! cos it doesnt matter.

all that matters, is my graduation this year. and den, well, the rest is secondary.

time flies, to end of a semester year. bcos of projects, and exams.

but its still a standstill for me, in reality. cos i haven change. maybe that's why.


now, to flashback to the year 2009. to what i ve achieved in 2009.

1. i went to hokkaido


2. i learn basic jap, to be specific, in dec 08 - aug 09.


3. i volunteered myself to 'attachment' during my long break. its kinda surprised to many ppl. haha.


4. i did my first interview and survey for project. *i shall always rmb this.*


5. i attempted to fix my pc hardware by myself. consider that as an experience.


6. i held a 'surprised' party for kevin. lol.


7. i rode the sg flyer on my bday for the first time in my life.


8. i rode the car that my brother drove for the first time.

well, it may be insignificant but thats pretty much all thats new to me in 2009.

maybe things gonna change abit after i graduate. we'll see again next year. haha.


now, back to my anime. *some things nv change!*

i used to love reading wei si li chuan qi.

i think thats the only chinese novel i read haha.. cos i like this kinda mystery stories..

some of wei si li's stories freak me out lol.. but it was fun to read them.

maybe i should get the whole collection and read them one day. after projects i guess.



1st year poly gathering! haha..

been long since we last met.. but nvm we shall meet at least twice these 2 months.. one for this upcoming one, and the other for chinese new year.. keke..

do we meet up on cny every year? i got inspired by chin sher's uncle last year that we should keep in contact haha.. chin sher, i still rmb what ur uncle says... keke..

anyways, looking forward to meet up and crap like always! haha..!



anyone wanna go to some mummy exhibition at the national museum this coming sat? i thiink its free for students, so long as u got ur student pass. 15 bucks for adults, but still need to get tix from sistic. im soo going... sms me haha..

Quest for Immortality

yes my survey is finally up! http://www.kwiksurveys.com/online-survey.php?surveyID=BIEOL_7cd7fad9 pls help me do them! anything can just msg me.. thanks! =)

noooo... dont wanna do fyp! *sulk*

its xmas and post xmas and pre new year! so many holidays!

life as per normal when i am home. so sian.

no life..

no money..

complain complain complain. lol..

i think i shouldnt blog unless theres exciting happenings. or all u see is bored and complaints.




okay highlights of this month.


went to shop for presents and baked cookies for my love, jo, jj and kw!

met up with jiemeis for gifts exchange! thanks girls, for all your xmas presents! dinner was at chong qing huo guo and den exchange gifts at bugis mac.

went out with dear to watch 2 ultra fav of month movies, avatar and sherlock holmes. seats were hard to get, so we booked in advance. in fact i watched avatar twice. haha.

dear's house xmas party! ate buffet at his place before we went out for ktv with mike.

michael came back from taiwan, so went with dear to meet him and frens. ate dinner at manhanttan. and 2 days later, we went singing at kbox in jurong safra. clara came back from shanghai too! so she joined us for singing session.

my brother's 21st bday! i didnt help out much, but the party is a success with his frens' help. in fact, i just came back from aloha loyang.



i distinctively rmb these events cos this is the only time ive gone out so many times since like 2 months ago? =.=

okay gg now.. good nite people!

sometimes u wish ure a mind-reader, like edward.. >.<

wang show me this article..

i think it should relate to all people out there, whether its friends or couple:

Building the Bond in your Relationship

A bond (relationship wise) is when two people have a connection. Being attracted to each other and sharing common values and interests brought the two of you together as a couple, but the bond has not been set completely. Besides the fact that you have love and care between you, you also need to see whether or not the two of you are friends. Is it possible to be friends? Absolutely! As a matter of fact, it is a must if the two of you are going to build a lasting bond.

A true friendship is basically the same as the true qualities that define real love. The difference is, we are in love and have a deep desire for our mates, with commitment and a goal of building a future, and perhaps even getting married and making a family together. The list below will help you see if your lover is a friend to you as well

• You can talk to and confide in each other about anything.


• Your partner is there for you when you need to talk to someone.


• Being able to always rely on each other when one is counted on.


• Having a permanent shoulder to cry on when we need it


• Having many things in common


• Accepting one another for who we are


• Listening to us and considering our opinions important

Do not feel guilty for having higher expectations from your lover either. People often feel like they should be more lenient and understanding when it comes to their lovers. Even though it is important to keep an understanding attitude (to avoid misunderstandings and arguments), you should never let things always slide or make up excuses for your partner?s wrong doings. You should expect better and not except such behavior. You deserve better. After all, you invest most of your emotions and time into your partner, so always remember that you are entitled to receive the same.


For more on this article, go to http://www.love-sessions.com/building_bond.htm

argh.. motorola droid is not coming to singapore. its okay.. i ve got an alternative - HTC hero. too bad that my contract is not eligible for upgrade yet. =( or else i would have the phone right here right now. anyone wanna give me for xmas? xD

been doing projects day in day out. sigh. that my hair is dropping.. zzz.. i haven gotten enough sleep haha. cos ive been staying up late =x



okay, time to enjoy some christmas festive! looking forward to meet up some frens and my bro's bday!

how about some gifts eh? i ve got a few items that i would like.. haha..

- HTC hero! xD

- burberry sling bag (its been in my wish list for sometime now..)

- casual pants (jeans are too tight for me, cant breath =X)

- backpack for laptop

- some classic long necklace? (i found myself plain without accessory on my blouses)

- hair spray (for my messy, flyaway hair)



need to find time to go shopping!byee~

stupid thoughts in my head again.

i am forever pessimistic. sigh.

if i am unique, like some ppl say i am, den how come i dont feel unique, or being loved by everyone becos im me?

instead, i feel more like unwanted, a stumbling block, an extremely selfish person.

sorry, despair hits once again.

I just want to be me and being loved because im uniquely me. =(

gotten too slack after i had my interview of my rpis project and my pc died on me few days ago. couldnt start to do my sfen nor rpis projects on my netbook. =(

well, now that my pc is revived, by the miraculous hands of dear lol. i do noe how to fix it 'kay, just that i dont ve what it takes to do hardware fixing. i knew that my ram wasnt properly placed by myself. =.=

yea so, i was saying.. now that i have my desktop back, i can start working again. be it sfen or rpis.

sfen project need not a comp to do yet. but i was so vexed by my own desktop, i couldnt get any work done. zzz.


dear had his first 2 exam papers started, one is yday, and the other is today. 3 papers more to go. jiayous. ^.^

so he had alittle bit of time to come help me fix my pc after we met for dinner just now. =D


okay, i need to go back to doing my project, or else im starting to fall back again.

looking forward to dec. ^.^