when i woke up this morning.. i found out that my life is pretty much de same... cos i had the opposite dream last night which i did not expected. well, when u had the opposite dream of ur life, u actually live another of ur own... and finally yea... it's real... real life sucks.. doesnt it... i plan to be better in my next life... haha.. this life just is gone... unless i really make the changes i want them to be. n in less than a month's time, im gonna be 20... sucks again.. cos it signify the time to grow up... hahaha... oh gosh... i wonder wat i can do in the future... meaning my career, my life... now is just urgh urgh urgh... feels terrible... if i can start afresh, really, i wont be me again.